Yay! Exams finally over. At least a big stone had been removed. Don't care if temporary or not. At least I can sleep better without worrying that I'm studying lesser.
I'm not satisfied with my studying attitude for my final paper. Did not have much mood to study. Had another things to worry. My dad's blood glucose high till need medication. Doctor gave him 24 days of medicines then go back review. Hope it'll be alright. My greatgrandmother had diabetes. Doctor worried that my dad was affected. I must also control my diet too.
My mum said that my dad almost fainted at work once (don't know when). My mum also always complaint that my dad does not control his diet, blah blah blah. Well, what can I say? He goes out so early and come home so late. All his meals are taken outside. How much can it be controlled? How healthy can the food sold outside be? Can one be sure that there is no MSG, less salt, less oil, no sugar? Can only try to trust that he will take care of himself. I heard that he tried not to eat rice at work. Is that the reason why he was giddy? I am not sure. But because of that, he always came home feeling hungry and search for things to eat.
My mum bought red brown rice but my dad don't like the rice. I suggested to mix a small portion of that to a normal white rice. At least the taste and texture won't differ much and my dad accepted that after trying out on Saturday but still on weekdays, he never came home for dinner.
Just hope everything will be alright. At least my exams are over.
Wednesday, 30 April 2008
Tuesday, 22 April 2008
Problems going holidaying with parents & relatives
On Sunday afternoon, in the car eating lunch after my dance training, my dad took my mum's water & drink. He drank alot so my mum told him not to finish up as she needs water. Thus my dad commented that we will be on our way home and it's at most half an hour. My mum's reply was that she always drink plenty of water a day. Upon hearing that, I asked my mum how she going to survive at Genting Highlands & KL. How are we supposed to bring litres of water for her?
Going holiday was not thought by me. My mum agreed to go with my cousins last year just that after all the delay, my dad could no longer take leaves on the finally fixed dates. Thus, they decided to go this year.
My mum said she don't take water from elsewhere. My dad suggested buying mineral water (I don't know from where) yet my mum comment that drinking too much mineral water is also not good & still saying she drink plenty of water a day. It was 'sian' to hear these. I knew this would happen. What Diamond water purifying system? If can't satisfied her, she would be angry again.
Guess that is why all these years, I never thought of going holidaying. Partly due to money, & I can't really go without them (maybe except the other 3 of my Seconday School friends) & because of my mum's temper. Just last December, going to Desaru. Just that morning, I can't remember due to what. I got scolded for nothing & she showed me black face. I almost rather not go then.
Just take the registering for the trip this year at the travel agency. Due to alteration of the cost per person, my aunt & I was trying to figure out alternative choice that we won't spent too much more than necessary. Yet, she kept grumbling saying she take forever. I was pretty upset then. I could have studied more with that time. When my dad reached, he also didn't bother about the registering, leaving to my aunt & me. I wanted to hear their opinion about choosing a not so good hotel and the pricing, yet they don't bother. Just know how to grumble about the alteration of price.
Knowing my mum's legs problem, and with 3 kids and my grandma, at first my aunt & I was thinking of totally free & easy. We can book the hotel ourselves, etc. But because of them, we decided that we had to follow the tour. Just free & easy upon reaching destination.
Think after all these, if possible, I would never go with them again. I can go mad going through all these.
Going holiday was not thought by me. My mum agreed to go with my cousins last year just that after all the delay, my dad could no longer take leaves on the finally fixed dates. Thus, they decided to go this year.
My mum said she don't take water from elsewhere. My dad suggested buying mineral water (I don't know from where) yet my mum comment that drinking too much mineral water is also not good & still saying she drink plenty of water a day. It was 'sian' to hear these. I knew this would happen. What Diamond water purifying system? If can't satisfied her, she would be angry again.
Guess that is why all these years, I never thought of going holidaying. Partly due to money, & I can't really go without them (maybe except the other 3 of my Seconday School friends) & because of my mum's temper. Just last December, going to Desaru. Just that morning, I can't remember due to what. I got scolded for nothing & she showed me black face. I almost rather not go then.
Just take the registering for the trip this year at the travel agency. Due to alteration of the cost per person, my aunt & I was trying to figure out alternative choice that we won't spent too much more than necessary. Yet, she kept grumbling saying she take forever. I was pretty upset then. I could have studied more with that time. When my dad reached, he also didn't bother about the registering, leaving to my aunt & me. I wanted to hear their opinion about choosing a not so good hotel and the pricing, yet they don't bother. Just know how to grumble about the alteration of price.
Knowing my mum's legs problem, and with 3 kids and my grandma, at first my aunt & I was thinking of totally free & easy. We can book the hotel ourselves, etc. But because of them, we decided that we had to follow the tour. Just free & easy upon reaching destination.
Think after all these, if possible, I would never go with them again. I can go mad going through all these.
Sunday, 20 April 2008
我好累！我为何要这么拼？这是我想要的吗？
为什么当我知道我终于考进已报读的大学时，一点喜乐感都没有？不是因为我没考进理想中的大学。返而我已放弃了，所以我更该开心。可我却感到害怕。
怕我停了这么多年，这么久，我没法跟上。
怕我佷难结交到朋友。
怕我回到有学恔，离开工作，会不会让爸爸感觉压力。我好怕他又会像我还在Poly唸书时那样一值生病还差点得住院。也害怕他因压力与担心而工作时不小心。在我还在Poly唸书时，他也在工作时还跌到骨裂，也动了两次刀。
我也担心金钱上的问题。爸爸那时也因为怕我的零用钱不够所以才加偅他的压力。再说了，因为我是独生女，爸妈总会希望给我最好。有时会因此买些他们认为我须要的却因此花了不须要的钱。
我也担心妈妈的身体。她的脚，肾，等等。可她老担心她照顾的三个小‘瓜’而乎略自己。
我还怕与担心许多，如果不是朋友的鼓励与综教的精神支助，我想我会放弃大学的学位。
或许是我想太多（可能是处女座的天姓吧），这老是把我弄得更累。累得我想什么都不官。我並不要求什么。我知道爸妈也佷累。可累也不要把自己认为的感觉套在别人身上。明明是个玩笑，只是说说而已，却把事情復杂化。为什么不能往宁一个角度看？是我太乐观吗？不是。我只是讨厌復杂。
我本没想那么多，也没空。我还在为考试而屏了。每天读到凌晨两点多。还在考完一个世试倦后的回家途中就开始读了。因为坐姿，我都读到我背部肌肉痛。我的右脚又有时有些不妥。连左肩膀也痛了几天。我好累！
可刚才明明没什么。因为爸爸的车尾摩到了，他便随口说了后箱有佷多东西（因为他们买米，洗衣剂，等）。妈妈就宊然发火，说爸爸不高兴。我们还没来得及反应，她就在后箱搬东西了。就连我叫她别拿太多都不理。当时的我不知道该如何是好。追她帮她还是帮爸爸，因为后箱还有佷多东西。当世的爸爸是不会愿意走多一倘的。我只能不管我的肩膀和脚了。
再这样下去，不知又会有哪痛或是僫化现有的毛病就是不是疯掉就是。我好累！我为何要这么拼？这是我想要的吗？
怕我停了这么多年，这么久，我没法跟上。
怕我佷难结交到朋友。
怕我回到有学恔，离开工作，会不会让爸爸感觉压力。我好怕他又会像我还在Poly唸书时那样一值生病还差点得住院。也害怕他因压力与担心而工作时不小心。在我还在Poly唸书时，他也在工作时还跌到骨裂，也动了两次刀。
我也担心金钱上的问题。爸爸那时也因为怕我的零用钱不够所以才加偅他的压力。再说了，因为我是独生女，爸妈总会希望给我最好。有时会因此买些他们认为我须要的却因此花了不须要的钱。
我也担心妈妈的身体。她的脚，肾，等等。可她老担心她照顾的三个小‘瓜’而乎略自己。
我还怕与担心许多，如果不是朋友的鼓励与综教的精神支助，我想我会放弃大学的学位。
或许是我想太多（可能是处女座的天姓吧），这老是把我弄得更累。累得我想什么都不官。我並不要求什么。我知道爸妈也佷累。可累也不要把自己认为的感觉套在别人身上。明明是个玩笑，只是说说而已，却把事情復杂化。为什么不能往宁一个角度看？是我太乐观吗？不是。我只是讨厌復杂。
我本没想那么多，也没空。我还在为考试而屏了。每天读到凌晨两点多。还在考完一个世试倦后的回家途中就开始读了。因为坐姿，我都读到我背部肌肉痛。我的右脚又有时有些不妥。连左肩膀也痛了几天。我好累！
可刚才明明没什么。因为爸爸的车尾摩到了，他便随口说了后箱有佷多东西（因为他们买米，洗衣剂，等）。妈妈就宊然发火，说爸爸不高兴。我们还没来得及反应，她就在后箱搬东西了。就连我叫她别拿太多都不理。当时的我不知道该如何是好。追她帮她还是帮爸爸，因为后箱还有佷多东西。当世的爸爸是不会愿意走多一倘的。我只能不管我的肩膀和脚了。
再这样下去，不知又会有哪痛或是僫化现有的毛病就是不是疯掉就是。我好累！我为何要这么拼？这是我想要的吗？
Monday, 7 April 2008
How can worrying be disappear?
Today, after went to 扫墓, my dad went to see the doctor that I worked for.
In the morning, my dad asked if I still have the urine dipstick as he said his urine seemed pretty red. While at the temple, my mum asked my dad if he still feel pain. I do not know what pain she was referring to but I was also quite worried about my dad since he complained of reddish urine in the morning. So I asked him if it was still the same. Guess the pain my mum was referring to was not what I think. So after asking my dad if it was still the same, he also answered in context with what my mum meant.
In the consultation room, my dad only told the doctor the pain that my mum was referring to which is the back pain. In the end, when I told the doctor about my dad's uring in the morning, my dad said it was alright after that.
Just now, while working, when there aren't any patient and I need to change money with the doctor as we ran out of small changes. He asked me about my dad, if he is feeling better. He then said that I looked very worried about my dad. Who won't be? He asked if I am the only child too.
Well, worrying won't disappear if anyone had sibling(s) but I guess the burden, the worries, the stress might be lesser. Maybe that is why I might have the word, 'worry' written on my face.
Anyway, how can I not be worried about my parents?
My mum had problem with her urine before. My mum still having the swelling problem with her legs. The Chinese Physician said it's due to menopause period. Yet she is consistently worrying about my cousins
My dad fell down & fractured his wrist before and had 2 surgery for the fractured wrist while working before. He kanna bronchitis before. He kanna Dengue before.
How can I not worried about them? How can I be at ease?
In the morning, my dad asked if I still have the urine dipstick as he said his urine seemed pretty red. While at the temple, my mum asked my dad if he still feel pain. I do not know what pain she was referring to but I was also quite worried about my dad since he complained of reddish urine in the morning. So I asked him if it was still the same. Guess the pain my mum was referring to was not what I think. So after asking my dad if it was still the same, he also answered in context with what my mum meant.
In the consultation room, my dad only told the doctor the pain that my mum was referring to which is the back pain. In the end, when I told the doctor about my dad's uring in the morning, my dad said it was alright after that.
Just now, while working, when there aren't any patient and I need to change money with the doctor as we ran out of small changes. He asked me about my dad, if he is feeling better. He then said that I looked very worried about my dad. Who won't be? He asked if I am the only child too.
Well, worrying won't disappear if anyone had sibling(s) but I guess the burden, the worries, the stress might be lesser. Maybe that is why I might have the word, 'worry' written on my face.
Anyway, how can I not be worried about my parents?
My mum had problem with her urine before. My mum still having the swelling problem with her legs. The Chinese Physician said it's due to menopause period. Yet she is consistently worrying about my cousins
My dad fell down & fractured his wrist before and had 2 surgery for the fractured wrist while working before. He kanna bronchitis before. He kanna Dengue before.
How can I not worried about them? How can I be at ease?
Thursday, 3 April 2008
Something fishy happened this afternoon
Today afternoon at about 2pm, there was a fishy call. Both my mum and I felt that it might be a phone call to con people. Anyway, below is what happened.
My mum said the caller was a boy who seemed to be sobbing badly and crying for help (in chinese). Sound quite real actually.
Boy cried: 妈！妈！快点来救我！我被人抓了！快点来救我！
My mum: 妈你的头！不要乱乱叫！你不用来骗我！
Well, my mum had that reaction because she doesn't have a son and I am her only child. Furthermore, I was home at that time but that doesn't meant that it was fake. It might have been real and the boy keyed in the wrong number due to panic.
Well, if it was real, even if the boy called the wrong number to seek help from his mother, he would have continued to cry and beg for help. Yet that did not happened. Instead, he kept quiet immediately at my mum's reply and immediately hung up.
Told my uncles and they said that my mum maybe should have asked what happened and said she would help contact the police. My mum also went to inform our neighbour just now as she does have a son who is just in Secondary 1. This was to alert her in case she received such call.
Just now, I checked the phone caller ID to check if there was any number from the phone call. Yet, the last record was yesterday's as there were no other call today. There was not even a record for that call stating a private number, no number or local number or number from overseas. I checked on the 2 phones' caller ID record in my house and both have the same result. That is why I said that call was very fishy especially nowadays there seemed to have an increase of con-man.
My advice was to stay calm, ask or say something to clear your doubts and confirm how true the situations is rather than believing it straight from the start.
My mum said the caller was a boy who seemed to be sobbing badly and crying for help (in chinese). Sound quite real actually.
Boy cried: 妈！妈！快点来救我！我被人抓了！快点来救我！
My mum: 妈你的头！不要乱乱叫！你不用来骗我！
Well, my mum had that reaction because she doesn't have a son and I am her only child. Furthermore, I was home at that time but that doesn't meant that it was fake. It might have been real and the boy keyed in the wrong number due to panic.
Well, if it was real, even if the boy called the wrong number to seek help from his mother, he would have continued to cry and beg for help. Yet that did not happened. Instead, he kept quiet immediately at my mum's reply and immediately hung up.
Told my uncles and they said that my mum maybe should have asked what happened and said she would help contact the police. My mum also went to inform our neighbour just now as she does have a son who is just in Secondary 1. This was to alert her in case she received such call.
Just now, I checked the phone caller ID to check if there was any number from the phone call. Yet, the last record was yesterday's as there were no other call today. There was not even a record for that call stating a private number, no number or local number or number from overseas. I checked on the 2 phones' caller ID record in my house and both have the same result. That is why I said that call was very fishy especially nowadays there seemed to have an increase of con-man.
My advice was to stay calm, ask or say something to clear your doubts and confirm how true the situations is rather than believing it straight from the start.
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