尘归尘，土归土。

尘归尘，土归土。heard fr mum last nite tt when they went to pick my ah gong's bone for cremation due to d road expansion at bukit brown, they couldn't find anything except 2+ nails and think a pair of socks. no coffin, nothing else. even d stone, gem or watever tt they said is inside my ah gong's mouth has also disappear. y did i say 2+ nails. accordin to my parents, they said tt 1 of d nails seemed to be 'meltin off'.

previously, when my ah ma's bone is being picked for cremation, i was told that 'kid' shouldn't go when i wasn't a kid but i noe they mean our generation. however, my cousins went. dis time, i'm forbidden to go cos of d plannin of marriage at d end of d year. actually, accordin to d tradition, shouldn't even have such event but no choice as government wants the land. otherwise, we are also not suppose to shift my ah gong out cos he still got ancestors around d area. so unless his ancestors had all been shifted, otherwise he cant b though we did bought a place in the temple for him. so though i may seemed to b jokin but i'm serious tt i feel that aft being separated for so long, i felt tt mayb my ah gong wants to be nearer to his wife. he passed away since my dad is ard 10 or 10+ wor so it's been decades. but now that my parents said they cant find his bones, etc, i'm not sure wat is the situation. has my ah gong reincarnate? i hope he does since his physical being had already gone back to nature.

but everytime i pass by bukit brown through lornie rd, i always miss d place whr i visited my ah gong every yr esp aft i gotta noe he will b removed fr thr though my great grandpa & great great grandparents are still thr. actually in recent yrs, i do have d chance to visit d place more than once a yr cos we went for d halloween event thr & though i cant venture out to pay my respect, i can still b able to 'see' whr my ah gong's grave r fr d road we passed through so i could still look over & pray in my heart. thus, i will really miss whr he would be. though i nvr see him in person b4, he will b missed & i will still pray for his well-being wherever he is now.

by all means, b angry lor...

OMG... cant imagine such ppl still got cheek to b angry. last wk ask me help & though reluctant, i agreed though i push back cos i oso need do my experiment. plus, i don understand y while u r rectifyin & findin out d exact prob, yet u need to pull me in to do tgt. if u r findin d cause of y it don work, u should jus try & find out den ask me to repeat ma. can u imagine if it don work den i wastin my time leh. of cos if it works, den gd la. but d thing is ur dis experiment is like sometimes ok, sometimes not when diff ppl do. so if u really find out a gd candidate for d prob, den ask me do la, if so, i wont b so grumpy ab it cos u alrdy got me to do it twice le leh.

& hey, i jus push fr wed to thur though actually i wanted to do on fri. end up i over-run my samples but managed to get ur expected results. & ur reason is really selfish cos u say u hope to get result b4 boss come back on mon so tt's y u wan me to do on thurs. com'on. i oso need to produce results. boss will oso ask me for results, not jus u. & indeed he asked. & cos i over-run mine, i got no results & i need repeat d whole experiment twice & not jus fr d midst of d experiment cos i ran out of d samples. luckily boss accepted tt i will repeat d whole thing. & boss oso ask me ab d mutation i need to make but i oso cant get it last wk. & luckily i alrdy got alternative method & r alrdy doin.

so instead of feelin apologetic or appreciate tt i did help u last thurs though i wanted fri, end up u become angry & don talk to me. well, up to u la. anw, i noe i will need redo 1 more time for u based on boss's comment lookin at me but that is when 1 reagent came but meanwhile i can focus on my own experiment & will focus on mine.

like i say b4 i 问心无愧. cos i noe even if i go back earlier or so, i came in earlier too & start my experiment. & i will do wat boss gave me too.

regrets not showin boss tt results, ur prob become mine

eh... hello. i got my own experiments. & though boss not ard, i not like u, come in almost 11. i come in early/usual & start work early/usual. by time u reach now, i m alrdy done w d cell lysis & d protein in d protein dye r alrdy sittin comfortably in my freezer drawer. & my WB is like 60% done oso.

cos of ur exp prob, previously i alrdy sacrifice my time to help u when boss last min wanted me to do urs. & i squeeze many things to do tt day. i noe u r worried ab d results but i really don like ppl to tag along w me to d dark rm. i wan short or long exposure is my prob. u r thr Qs me, u r thr rattling non-stop when usually i could like watch show/drama or play game or even sit on d table for tt few min of exposure esp if nobody is ard so i could rest & catch my breathe aft busy for whole day w/o being able to sit much. & i tot it's over yet, last week boss ask me to repeat again w change of protocol & i noe i'd no time to ask u tt day & thus, i noe it's impossible for me to do on mon cos by time u reach & i clarify w u, it'll b too late cos i need to reach home by 6 cos of a/c servicin. manage to push back d experiment but u wanted wed. ok w me

actually now, it made me think if u pursposely push to wed. so u can do WB on thurs & drag till fri so u wont give boss d results on thurs b4 his leave. 1) u r hopin it works den u can b free d whole week 2) u can rectify d experiment b4 boss come back.

& now u ask if it's cos of pH diff of d buffer when i follow ur formulae to prep it. ur buffer was prep long ago & jus nw, u get my buffer to test pH. & u made me go into d lab & told me tt thr is a diff in pH when u could oso tell me when i'm in office. so, u don wan wear lab coat, u wan get caught, ur biz la. made me go in lab to tell me tt thr is diff in pH & tell me u been wonderin if it's cos of tt last nite. hey, i don wan get caught w/o labcoat & cover shoes lor. & keep sayin u prep v long ago while mine diff. hey, i copied ur protocol to prep lor.

& den u ask me to repeat w ur buffer next week. how come ur prob become mine? if u suspect it's d pH diff, den, mayb u can repeat w urs & mine. if it works, den u can tell boss & if he wants me to repeat, so b it. now is like u think of a diff, den u wan me repeat for u. if not tt prob, does it mean u will think of any prob & made me repeat?

all these while, u been sittin in office much more than me while i'd been in d lab rushin like mad esp in mornin & u come in later oso. u drag ur thesis writing yet comin in to complain u tired wanting us to 同情 u but i find it really hard.

& now tt next week boss on leave, & i jus managed to clear my pull-down experiment temp, i tot i could enjoy abit of boss absent though i still got experiment on going. yet, ur prob now become mine & i gotta repeat it for u. not tt i wanna b selfish but how many times can i keep repeatin for u till u got results. den wat? my experiment no need do?

& take all chance to 'kope' others gel plates & combs can? com'on la. i purposely stick tape ard tt box use to dry plates & combs yet u can still take it & ask y got my plates & nvr return me my combs. I noe something not right so i went in lab & true enough my combs r missin. haiz... y r thr such ppl ard?

i really regret not havin much more time ytd so i can show boss d results though u don wan me to show. y i so nice to help u delay.