I had been haunted with my headache but that isn't something new but recently once a while, I would have block nose or sometimes cough out of the blue and I do feel my throat getting weird so on Wednesday night, went to see doc and to my surprise, I had slight fever & so Doc give me 2 days MC. However, I do think of going back to lab today but in the end, I had things to settle.
Anyway, my MC isn't for me to rest. It's for me to settle things in the end. Went Queensway to collect a printout, then went to my new place to spot check and found something that disgust and pissed me off. For the wall stains, they only did for 1 obvious wall and not the other that is hidden behind the door and what they did for the chip on the toilet bowl is just to paint over it with white paint and the paint had been smeared much beyond the chip too. How can they rectify a chip just like that. It's not a small tiny chip I am talking about but it's almost a 2 cm length chip. Of course I took pic fr my camera and HP. (I had grown a habit to bring camera & even measuring tape around in case I happened to go over to my new place).
Well, I could go down and bang their table but I never. Of course if I go down, I can scold them in fit of anger but with that, I had got no black and white. To me, I always feel black and white is very important unless I can have some voice recording. Thus, I decided to go home then called them and forward them the photos.
To my horror, my MIO gave me problem again. It would not connect to the internet when I recently called to rectify the same problem. Can you imagine how frustrated I am especially when I need to forward the email to them. So I connect using my HP data.
And guess what, the email to them kept bouncing back, giving me an error message. So I called them to demand for another email address which they don't have and assure me that it's ok if there isn't any pic. Of course they OK la but not for me. As in my email, I describe everything and even stated that I noted down all the date and time we went over and what we found out and even threaten them to settle the toilet bowl well enough, otherwise i'll keep all email and photos as evidence to sue them if there is an accident with the toilet bowl. I even bring out the point that if I am not satisfied, I would report to the MP. So, since I would use this incident to warn them, how can I just let it go. This isn't the 1st time I wrote to them or complain. Previously we found the wall stains only more than a week aft we collected the keys, so obviously they did something which they had not been told to do. Therefore, how can I be nice to them?
So, I went to search for the HDB branch office email to make my complain. Currently, we are suppose to report to the building service centre (BSC) under the construction company but since I can't get them, I had no choice but to go directly to the branch office. However, my email was still bounce back. I was really quite tempted to write straight to the MP but I walked off to calm down. And when I get back and email, I managed to send out.
But early this morning, I then realized I had replied to all and so pictures are not attached anymore as the HDB officer called me today. He apologized to me for their work and asked for the photos so he could get back to them so I emailed him but I still got the same problem. It's only after a few tries and rectification that I managed to send it to him and his reply is that he would monitor it. Anyway, I think the problem is the total file size of the photos. Total 4 pics of ~5.5MB but still cant get thru. when I resized to total ~3MB, it's ok. But I never tell the officer that it's ok since he agreed to monitor it. Hopefully it's going to be much better with this HDB officer chasing after them also.
Why I cant get back to work today is because, I have to deal with another set of issue. MIO!!! last night I called and troubleshooted with the guidance through telephone. It seemed ok yesterday but the lady suggested to fix a technician over to check but if it's really ok, I shall then cancel the appointment. Fair enough and this will speed up the process also and the appointment is today. In the end, this morning when I use the internet and just when I wanted to email the photos, internet connection terminate again. Thus, I had to continue to let the technician over to check. Thus, I had to stay home in the end to settle MIO.
But it's just so concidental that yesterday when I wanted to email and complain, internet connection is down and same for today. It's as though MIO & BSC & the HDB collaborate to prevent complains like that but I know it's just pure concidents. Well, it's really frustrating when you just couldn't settle anything when internet connection is down. Glad I had got my phone data plan to tahan for time being & I really hope everything will be settled soon.
Friday, 10 February 2012
Tuesday, 7 February 2012
Amused
hmmm... found out something tt amused me awhile ago...
if you all had followed d GE 2011, you all won't be unfamiliar w d name, 'Yam Ah Mee' & if you had see on youtube, thr r many version of remix or watever.
well, i jus realized, i got his 'autograph'... haha... not exactly la. it's a printed one on 1 of my cert i got yrs ago. unless thr is another 'Yam Ah Mee'. I doubt thr is another person w tt name & surname ba.
if not cos my cert left sticky marks in my slip-in file, i wont go & laminate & if i nvr go & laminate though i'd been draggin for ages, i wont find out tt i actually got his autograph even when he's not famous then but recent. haha... so funny
if you all had followed d GE 2011, you all won't be unfamiliar w d name, 'Yam Ah Mee' & if you had see on youtube, thr r many version of remix or watever.
well, i jus realized, i got his 'autograph'... haha... not exactly la. it's a printed one on 1 of my cert i got yrs ago. unless thr is another 'Yam Ah Mee'. I doubt thr is another person w tt name & surname ba.
if not cos my cert left sticky marks in my slip-in file, i wont go & laminate & if i nvr go & laminate though i'd been draggin for ages, i wont find out tt i actually got his autograph even when he's not famous then but recent. haha... so funny
Sunday, 5 February 2012
CHINGAY 2012
though nvr watched d chingay at actual ground but on tv, at least caught it & not on repeat telecast. & though not full chingay but d finale. at least managed to catch d performance put up by my fellow soka comrades.
watchin d performance & finale song & fireworks, memories flashed back. all d hard work, all d problems tt comes along, all d challenges, etc. it's really not an easy task. sometimes, it's can get so tough till u may even want to give up. but i nvr cos thr r many gd friends ard, supportin u.
well, i nvr join d chingay performance b4, neither have i join d NDP b4. but i had performed for soka internal events, & even d RC event, & oso even d mid-autumn fest lights up. big scale at sports hall, expo, chinatown, ghim moh, or even smaller scale but still thr r at least 100 ppl???
frankly speakin, i do miss d feelin esp aft managin to successfully performed finally for d actual show. it's always mixed emotions but definitely feelin v happy & satisfied esp gg thru all d ordeals. no words can ever described d feelin & emotions.
in fact, at sort of d beginning, aft performin at chinatown, though i lost my belongin, i wasn't sad tt i lost my stuffs, but i'm not scared tt my parents would nvr allow me to join my friends for performance, etc & i cried. can u see hw silly i'm. i'm scare to call my parents. to tell them d truth. so it's really a tough process tt will give u a memorable & satisfying memories.
i nvr regret joinin all performances & also nvr regret joining Soka Sunflower Dance Ensemble. it creates colours to my dull childhood.
watchin d performance & finale song & fireworks, memories flashed back. all d hard work, all d problems tt comes along, all d challenges, etc. it's really not an easy task. sometimes, it's can get so tough till u may even want to give up. but i nvr cos thr r many gd friends ard, supportin u.
well, i nvr join d chingay performance b4, neither have i join d NDP b4. but i had performed for soka internal events, & even d RC event, & oso even d mid-autumn fest lights up. big scale at sports hall, expo, chinatown, ghim moh, or even smaller scale but still thr r at least 100 ppl???
frankly speakin, i do miss d feelin esp aft managin to successfully performed finally for d actual show. it's always mixed emotions but definitely feelin v happy & satisfied esp gg thru all d ordeals. no words can ever described d feelin & emotions.
in fact, at sort of d beginning, aft performin at chinatown, though i lost my belongin, i wasn't sad tt i lost my stuffs, but i'm not scared tt my parents would nvr allow me to join my friends for performance, etc & i cried. can u see hw silly i'm. i'm scare to call my parents. to tell them d truth. so it's really a tough process tt will give u a memorable & satisfying memories.
i nvr regret joinin all performances & also nvr regret joining Soka Sunflower Dance Ensemble. it creates colours to my dull childhood.
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
gastro-desatisfied day
today had been a really gastro-desatisfying day.
imagine early mornin wake up to see d wanton mee fr d same stall which u might get to eat for conseq days for every week. so i only eat bit think tt mayb lunch might b better cos dear might take 1/2 day off so mayb i can go out of work to eat.
in d end, he couldn't so i gotta eat in. in d end, colleagues went to a canteen tt only sells real chinese food. china chinese food. 1) reminded me of esp all shanghai meal. 2) taste & everything not like in singapore. so in d end, no appetite to finish my rice & even d tomato egg. i like tomato but tt tomato egg jus taste so diff & so sweet. so i was den lookin forward to dinner cos it's dear's lunar bday.
thus, felt hungry at 4 plus & tot of eatin mayb hello panda biscuit 1st, & in d end, received SMS fr dear to say he got CNY celebration. haiz... sian la. eat wat oso no diff. so save $$ & come hm cook rice & put egg to steam on rice cooker lor. but hor... seein d rice remind me of d china chinese food. turn off my appetite again so i could onlly finish 2/3 of my rice & i don feel full oso. but nw, even beer i oso no appetite.
hope i wont get gastric cos this few days stomach sometimes got air sometimes gastric.
imagine early mornin wake up to see d wanton mee fr d same stall which u might get to eat for conseq days for every week. so i only eat bit think tt mayb lunch might b better cos dear might take 1/2 day off so mayb i can go out of work to eat.
in d end, he couldn't so i gotta eat in. in d end, colleagues went to a canteen tt only sells real chinese food. china chinese food. 1) reminded me of esp all shanghai meal. 2) taste & everything not like in singapore. so in d end, no appetite to finish my rice & even d tomato egg. i like tomato but tt tomato egg jus taste so diff & so sweet. so i was den lookin forward to dinner cos it's dear's lunar bday.
thus, felt hungry at 4 plus & tot of eatin mayb hello panda biscuit 1st, & in d end, received SMS fr dear to say he got CNY celebration. haiz... sian la. eat wat oso no diff. so save $$ & come hm cook rice & put egg to steam on rice cooker lor. but hor... seein d rice remind me of d china chinese food. turn off my appetite again so i could onlly finish 2/3 of my rice & i don feel full oso. but nw, even beer i oso no appetite.
hope i wont get gastric cos this few days stomach sometimes got air sometimes gastric.
Tuesday, 17 January 2012
photo takin
back to sg, back to reality... it'd been a total diff experience... a 180 deg change fr d life in sg or mayb i exaggerate. anw, d trip was really cold & quite tiring & tedious.
early day 1 (8/1/12) mornin, b4 day break, cx in at airport & at 8 plus, flight took off & only landed at ard 12. we dragged d big & heavy lugguage (~24kg) ard till we cannot take it & find a nearby fastfood (KFC) to for lunch & rest & drag our time b4 headin to d train station whr we found place to deposit our lugguage. den we walked ard till no whr to go & sat outside a quieter road side beside d train station for hours w our iphone & ipod touch game s our leisure. we den search for dinner & drag time more before gg back to d train stn to collect our lugguage & cx in for our night train. anw, d temperature was ok initially. it feels s though like at genting highland. nice n coolin but s day goes, it became colder. d queue was terrible.
aft tryin to head on to board d train, it gave me a knock in d head & tt i would oso give an advice to all those who travel to country they nvr been b4. d advice is 'nvr to stuff everything into a big lugguage thinkin tt thr would be wheels to drag & so it would b easy.' 'RMBR NVR DO SO'. cos unlike sg, thr is no escalator or lift. & we or rather dear had to carry d bulky & heavy lugguage down flights of stairs packed w many ppl & so, his steps r oso restricted cos of ppl in front. though i ended up carryin d handcarry bag w shawls, gloves, caps, umbrella, water, laptop, etc, at least all r hangin on my shoulder where my body support d whole weight rather than only usin lower arm muscle to carry at an odd angle cos of d bulky-ness. tt's not all. in d train, thr r stairs too... d cabin r not all in 1 plane... thr is upper & lower lvl. & d corridor is v narrow oso.
though i booked luxury class cabin w soft cabin for the train, d cabin is still small & d bed is oso hard. w habit of not comfortable slpin w strangers, i had no choice cos it's a 4 pax cabin. anw, jus for d night & chances of bumpin to d same pax b super slim. but i still don like d idea tt a guy got d opp upper bunk while i'm below. anw, cos of d stairs experience, i exchanged out some heavier items into my backpack worryin tt it would be d same situation or even worse when reached esp if this time we would ve to climb up d stairs. but in such a narrow n small space w strangers, i didn't quite manage to pull out more items.
well, d train was quite jerky & duno y, it stopped a couple of times. thr is a time whr it stopped for ~30 min or so. though stopped for so long, it still reached on time. anw, my head was near d window & so i could see d stars clearly. i always love to see d glittery stars in d dark sky & it's definitely much more beautiful when in such a brightly litted sg.
when reached (9/1/12), we ended up gotta climb down stairs but this time, we waited till most ppl go down b4 we go so tt at least our path is not restricted but in d end we found actually thr is another way down which is a slope. @@
d time was 7 plus but it was still dark & d wind is really cold. d sky only brighten aft 8 & by den, we alrdy reached whr we stayed. it's at d shop itself which is oso their house which oso d accomodation of their employees. d boss picked us up & helped us carried d lugguage. d boss had 2 gals & they r twins. 2 yrs plus only but elder sis looked smaller size than smaller sis. for d 1st time, i feel tt it's so lucky to b d younger sis cos she would wear new or newer clothes den pass to d elder sis cos usually it's d opp. haha.
d place was so cold tt for d 1st time, i could breathe out vapor. a total new experience. d rm is quite small. jus a platform queen sized bed w tv at a corner & jus some walkin space. d bed is equiped w heating underpad. but cos of their plug, we could only choose either tt or to charge our electronic devices. so another things to note is to bring more universal plug adaptor. anw, we were given 2 nights of stay but we would need another 3 nights thr & cos of d coldness s thr is no heater in d rm, we did ponder of gg another place to stay but d price diff made us cont'd stayin.
tt day, we walked ard & we could catch d glimpse of d snow mt which we wanted to go. a place which dear found out & KIV for more than 2 yrs. but d followin day, while i was havin my hair-do & make-up, thr was changed of plan of swoppin day 2 iternary w d day 1 cos d snow mt is too foggy.
so on 'day 1' (10/1/12), we had 5 sets of costumes & took photos fr mornin till night cos we took d night shot. surprisingly, dinner was provided cos it's not stated in d contract, mayb it's included in d night shot but not stated. d day shot were bearable initially till when at d open space but still alright. d night shot was really cold & tirin cos we were walkin a long way. n ppl oso snappin pic of us like we r celebrities. well, it's cos we braved d coldness by wearin so little for d photo takin.
tt night, s i slp, i felt my throat givin way but i was too tired to bother & d followin mornin (11/1/12), i woke up w a terrible sore throat. luckily i brought anti-swell med for throat. i'm glad to ve been trained in st john & oso previous experience to bring s many necessary emergency items & tt is oso y our lugguage is so heavy. 出门在外, better to b prep.
while gettin ready to change, was told d snow mt still looked cloudy & foggy & so we decided to push back to another day but 30 min ltr, thr is a knock on d door sayin tt d fog seemed to b clearin, though they would suggest gg up tt day, they still seeked our advice & idea but of cos we follow their idea since they should know d weather thr better than us.
thus, we braved d cold once again while i'm havin sore throat & head to d snow mt. they said we were lucky cos recently it snowed & so d mt had more snow. but when we were reachin, it started to snow. 1st time i see snow. wow... & 1st time i feel d snow esp when it hit on my bare shoulder & hands. well, it's still foggy but we decided to go up d mt cos since we alrdy thr, we didn't want to jus give up. so d photos background r mostly blurry.
d most 辛苦 is d lady lor cos wearin so little, still gotta take off d cold wear 1st to take individual shots b4 d guy took off his to take tgt. & yet dear wearin 3 top & 2 long bottom & yet he still keep complainin it's cold makin me oso hard to 忍. & he's d 1st to say 'cut' for d shots. d photographer actually still wanted to cont'd esp aft we supposed to ve warmed up w coffee & tea but we decided to go down for d snowy forest shots.
thinkin tt aft gg thru d snow mt, d rest of d shots would b much easier & better? actually no. at d mt, thr isn't much wind so d cold is stationary & even. but d other place is really much worse esp all d open space. d wind is really strong plus it's snowin, plus i'm wearin so little esp d last shot w d short dress. d background scenary doesn't look cold but d place & d wind is really unbearable till i cant help but scolded dear when he tried to help me take off my cold wear at our last station. cos we r suppose to b takin tgt & either we took off d cold wear tgt or he should take off 1st since he got 3 layers s compared to me. tt's y i cant help but scolded him when he tried to help me, mayb thinkin tt i too stiff. i guess his mind oso got too stiff by d coldness so mayb to him, he's jus helpin me & tryin to get over.
d next few days, we walked ard, sit at d coffee hse, drinkin tea, etc, & spend time on our ipod touch & iphone games. we oso went for massage on 2 evenin. d ppl thr r really so relax. they can open d shop anytime they wan & closed anytime they wan. thr isn't many ppl in d shop. it's a peaceful & quiet place & really slow paced s compared to d fast pace sg. but we are really not used to d food thr. we went ard to search for jap food, italian food, KFC, pizza hut, american bf, bread, western food but not everytime successful. sg is really so much better. thr r so many range of food like chinese, western, malay, indian, taiwan, HK, jap, korean, italian, etc. & yet we always complain tt we didn't noe wat to eat. haiz...
anw, b4 comin back to sg, we packed our bags so tt d lugguage would b much lighter s compared to b4. on d last day (14/1/12) thr b4 our transit, it snowed again but lightly & shortly. & tt night after dinner, we head to d train station for our night train. seein our bed no & w previous experience, we assume tt once enterin d train, we wont need to carry d lugguage up or down d stairs & yet tt side of d door isn't open so enterin fr another side means to carry lugguage down & up d narrow stairs to d other side of d cabin. @@
in tt cabin, thr is a lady who speaks really loudly & even answer call in mid of d night loudly. @@ & d guy at opp upper bed (i'm at upper bed oso) made me feel even more uncomfortable. cos when everybody laid down, & lights still on, he took off clothes 1 aft another. i cant bear to see how much he took off till at d bottom but his top left singlet. d next uncomfortable experience is tt d supposely locked door keep openin by itself. so it made me feel really insecure so in d end i didn't quite slp & even if i did i didn't slp well. i keep wakin up & looked ard & cx my stuff. initially i did tried to close & lock d door myself den i even throw my pillow down to dear's face so he could help me but we gave up but hw can i slp well if d door is opened. it's so much unsafe.
anw, aft we reach (15/1/12), we head to d airport cos we don't feel like draggin d lugguage ard anymore. tt time, cos i lighten d lugguage for dear, my backpack became so much heavier. when cx in at airport, i found tt his lugguage is lighten by ~7kg while my backpack became 8.9 kg cos when we come, it's jus d coldwear which is really light.
overall, it's really a brand new experience. d coldness, d wind, d road/path r made of stones, d snow, & it's really cold to come out fr shower & d water outside for washin hands r really cold. thr is really lots of walkin & d roads can oso b really bumpy.
however, d photographer & his gang r really professional. helpin us carryin our things, even prep warm water when we go to d snow mt, tryin to warm my frozen fingers, standin at edges to reflect lights, photographer climb tree, laid on ground, stepped into d water jus to capture nice shots for us. he even walked faster in front to cx out d place to find nice spot for photo takin. a thumbs up for their service. & if not cos we decided to stop, actually he still wanted to cont'd takin photos for us & findin new spots for us cos he didn't want to end tt early. anw, i really like d make-up, though patch up aft patch up, it's still looked quite natural & i still can recognize myself in d photos. haha.
d only cons is tt it's external location, certain place might end up be burnt off or so & so would ve to b prep to walk a bit w d photographer till he finds a new nice spot. but d pros means, mayb u wont get same spots s previous customer. :)
early day 1 (8/1/12) mornin, b4 day break, cx in at airport & at 8 plus, flight took off & only landed at ard 12. we dragged d big & heavy lugguage (~24kg) ard till we cannot take it & find a nearby fastfood (KFC) to for lunch & rest & drag our time b4 headin to d train station whr we found place to deposit our lugguage. den we walked ard till no whr to go & sat outside a quieter road side beside d train station for hours w our iphone & ipod touch game s our leisure. we den search for dinner & drag time more before gg back to d train stn to collect our lugguage & cx in for our night train. anw, d temperature was ok initially. it feels s though like at genting highland. nice n coolin but s day goes, it became colder. d queue was terrible.
aft tryin to head on to board d train, it gave me a knock in d head & tt i would oso give an advice to all those who travel to country they nvr been b4. d advice is 'nvr to stuff everything into a big lugguage thinkin tt thr would be wheels to drag & so it would b easy.' 'RMBR NVR DO SO'. cos unlike sg, thr is no escalator or lift. & we or rather dear had to carry d bulky & heavy lugguage down flights of stairs packed w many ppl & so, his steps r oso restricted cos of ppl in front. though i ended up carryin d handcarry bag w shawls, gloves, caps, umbrella, water, laptop, etc, at least all r hangin on my shoulder where my body support d whole weight rather than only usin lower arm muscle to carry at an odd angle cos of d bulky-ness. tt's not all. in d train, thr r stairs too... d cabin r not all in 1 plane... thr is upper & lower lvl. & d corridor is v narrow oso.
though i booked luxury class cabin w soft cabin for the train, d cabin is still small & d bed is oso hard. w habit of not comfortable slpin w strangers, i had no choice cos it's a 4 pax cabin. anw, jus for d night & chances of bumpin to d same pax b super slim. but i still don like d idea tt a guy got d opp upper bunk while i'm below. anw, cos of d stairs experience, i exchanged out some heavier items into my backpack worryin tt it would be d same situation or even worse when reached esp if this time we would ve to climb up d stairs. but in such a narrow n small space w strangers, i didn't quite manage to pull out more items.
well, d train was quite jerky & duno y, it stopped a couple of times. thr is a time whr it stopped for ~30 min or so. though stopped for so long, it still reached on time. anw, my head was near d window & so i could see d stars clearly. i always love to see d glittery stars in d dark sky & it's definitely much more beautiful when in such a brightly litted sg.
when reached (9/1/12), we ended up gotta climb down stairs but this time, we waited till most ppl go down b4 we go so tt at least our path is not restricted but in d end we found actually thr is another way down which is a slope. @@
d time was 7 plus but it was still dark & d wind is really cold. d sky only brighten aft 8 & by den, we alrdy reached whr we stayed. it's at d shop itself which is oso their house which oso d accomodation of their employees. d boss picked us up & helped us carried d lugguage. d boss had 2 gals & they r twins. 2 yrs plus only but elder sis looked smaller size than smaller sis. for d 1st time, i feel tt it's so lucky to b d younger sis cos she would wear new or newer clothes den pass to d elder sis cos usually it's d opp. haha.
d place was so cold tt for d 1st time, i could breathe out vapor. a total new experience. d rm is quite small. jus a platform queen sized bed w tv at a corner & jus some walkin space. d bed is equiped w heating underpad. but cos of their plug, we could only choose either tt or to charge our electronic devices. so another things to note is to bring more universal plug adaptor. anw, we were given 2 nights of stay but we would need another 3 nights thr & cos of d coldness s thr is no heater in d rm, we did ponder of gg another place to stay but d price diff made us cont'd stayin.
tt day, we walked ard & we could catch d glimpse of d snow mt which we wanted to go. a place which dear found out & KIV for more than 2 yrs. but d followin day, while i was havin my hair-do & make-up, thr was changed of plan of swoppin day 2 iternary w d day 1 cos d snow mt is too foggy.
so on 'day 1' (10/1/12), we had 5 sets of costumes & took photos fr mornin till night cos we took d night shot. surprisingly, dinner was provided cos it's not stated in d contract, mayb it's included in d night shot but not stated. d day shot were bearable initially till when at d open space but still alright. d night shot was really cold & tirin cos we were walkin a long way. n ppl oso snappin pic of us like we r celebrities. well, it's cos we braved d coldness by wearin so little for d photo takin.
tt night, s i slp, i felt my throat givin way but i was too tired to bother & d followin mornin (11/1/12), i woke up w a terrible sore throat. luckily i brought anti-swell med for throat. i'm glad to ve been trained in st john & oso previous experience to bring s many necessary emergency items & tt is oso y our lugguage is so heavy. 出门在外, better to b prep.
while gettin ready to change, was told d snow mt still looked cloudy & foggy & so we decided to push back to another day but 30 min ltr, thr is a knock on d door sayin tt d fog seemed to b clearin, though they would suggest gg up tt day, they still seeked our advice & idea but of cos we follow their idea since they should know d weather thr better than us.
thus, we braved d cold once again while i'm havin sore throat & head to d snow mt. they said we were lucky cos recently it snowed & so d mt had more snow. but when we were reachin, it started to snow. 1st time i see snow. wow... & 1st time i feel d snow esp when it hit on my bare shoulder & hands. well, it's still foggy but we decided to go up d mt cos since we alrdy thr, we didn't want to jus give up. so d photos background r mostly blurry.
d most 辛苦 is d lady lor cos wearin so little, still gotta take off d cold wear 1st to take individual shots b4 d guy took off his to take tgt. & yet dear wearin 3 top & 2 long bottom & yet he still keep complainin it's cold makin me oso hard to 忍. & he's d 1st to say 'cut' for d shots. d photographer actually still wanted to cont'd esp aft we supposed to ve warmed up w coffee & tea but we decided to go down for d snowy forest shots.
thinkin tt aft gg thru d snow mt, d rest of d shots would b much easier & better? actually no. at d mt, thr isn't much wind so d cold is stationary & even. but d other place is really much worse esp all d open space. d wind is really strong plus it's snowin, plus i'm wearin so little esp d last shot w d short dress. d background scenary doesn't look cold but d place & d wind is really unbearable till i cant help but scolded dear when he tried to help me take off my cold wear at our last station. cos we r suppose to b takin tgt & either we took off d cold wear tgt or he should take off 1st since he got 3 layers s compared to me. tt's y i cant help but scolded him when he tried to help me, mayb thinkin tt i too stiff. i guess his mind oso got too stiff by d coldness so mayb to him, he's jus helpin me & tryin to get over.
d next few days, we walked ard, sit at d coffee hse, drinkin tea, etc, & spend time on our ipod touch & iphone games. we oso went for massage on 2 evenin. d ppl thr r really so relax. they can open d shop anytime they wan & closed anytime they wan. thr isn't many ppl in d shop. it's a peaceful & quiet place & really slow paced s compared to d fast pace sg. but we are really not used to d food thr. we went ard to search for jap food, italian food, KFC, pizza hut, american bf, bread, western food but not everytime successful. sg is really so much better. thr r so many range of food like chinese, western, malay, indian, taiwan, HK, jap, korean, italian, etc. & yet we always complain tt we didn't noe wat to eat. haiz...
anw, b4 comin back to sg, we packed our bags so tt d lugguage would b much lighter s compared to b4. on d last day (14/1/12) thr b4 our transit, it snowed again but lightly & shortly. & tt night after dinner, we head to d train station for our night train. seein our bed no & w previous experience, we assume tt once enterin d train, we wont need to carry d lugguage up or down d stairs & yet tt side of d door isn't open so enterin fr another side means to carry lugguage down & up d narrow stairs to d other side of d cabin. @@
in tt cabin, thr is a lady who speaks really loudly & even answer call in mid of d night loudly. @@ & d guy at opp upper bed (i'm at upper bed oso) made me feel even more uncomfortable. cos when everybody laid down, & lights still on, he took off clothes 1 aft another. i cant bear to see how much he took off till at d bottom but his top left singlet. d next uncomfortable experience is tt d supposely locked door keep openin by itself. so it made me feel really insecure so in d end i didn't quite slp & even if i did i didn't slp well. i keep wakin up & looked ard & cx my stuff. initially i did tried to close & lock d door myself den i even throw my pillow down to dear's face so he could help me but we gave up but hw can i slp well if d door is opened. it's so much unsafe.
anw, aft we reach (15/1/12), we head to d airport cos we don't feel like draggin d lugguage ard anymore. tt time, cos i lighten d lugguage for dear, my backpack became so much heavier. when cx in at airport, i found tt his lugguage is lighten by ~7kg while my backpack became 8.9 kg cos when we come, it's jus d coldwear which is really light.
overall, it's really a brand new experience. d coldness, d wind, d road/path r made of stones, d snow, & it's really cold to come out fr shower & d water outside for washin hands r really cold. thr is really lots of walkin & d roads can oso b really bumpy.
however, d photographer & his gang r really professional. helpin us carryin our things, even prep warm water when we go to d snow mt, tryin to warm my frozen fingers, standin at edges to reflect lights, photographer climb tree, laid on ground, stepped into d water jus to capture nice shots for us. he even walked faster in front to cx out d place to find nice spot for photo takin. a thumbs up for their service. & if not cos we decided to stop, actually he still wanted to cont'd takin photos for us & findin new spots for us cos he didn't want to end tt early. anw, i really like d make-up, though patch up aft patch up, it's still looked quite natural & i still can recognize myself in d photos. haha.
d only cons is tt it's external location, certain place might end up be burnt off or so & so would ve to b prep to walk a bit w d photographer till he finds a new nice spot. but d pros means, mayb u wont get same spots s previous customer. :)
Friday, 23 December 2011
Lack of slp
Today decided to see doctor for my persistent headache which Panadol doesn't help for days. Suspected due to lack of slp n true enough. N best part, found out tt lack of slp oso cos chest pain/discomfort which I did tell dear a couple of times le. So though I initially did think of asking d doc bout my chest discomfort n though I didn't eventually, I found out d root cause of it. So all my friends pls take note to try sleep early k.
Sunday, 18 December 2011
growin up
end of last week, i received my 1st x'mas card fr 1 of my uni xiao mei. it's not exactly much of a surprise since she had asked me for my add jus recently but receiving it reminds me of myself long long time ago.
like her, i used to send greeting cards to my grandma, godma, uncles, aunts, teachers, & friends. it's a practice tt my mum trained me since young & I jus cont'd after. I used to spend efforts in searching for nice & pretty greeting cards but subsequently I slowly stopped doing so esp in recent yrs. thr had been so much of other things for me to take care of. studies & work had been draining off my energy & nw another sets of stuffs for me to take care of.
sometimes, i really wished i had more than 24/7. i oso wished i m a robot so i no need to slp but then robot oso would need servicing & lubricating & robot would oso breakdown. i oso wished i don ve a heart so i can b 铁石心肠. i oso wished i don ve a brain so my head would b v light n not ve d constant tightness feel tt sometimes felt like it can explode any moment. n if i can choose, i rather not b a virgo & not ve d virgo traits of being a perfectionist & keep thinking & worrying. i really wished i can ignore everything. i wished i could chop off my head. indeed crying out will help slightly but it doesn't really help much when everything came clashing in.
so it actually reflected back to me if i m suitable for sales kinda job w datelines & target to hit kinda stress even if d ease of meetin & tokin to diff ppl can b trained. so wat worries me most is d ability to cope w tt kinda stress. i jus noe tt i cant stay in NTU forever. i had been here for 8.5 yrs. but d ultimate reason for me is tt i'd gotta a new flat at Sengkang. tt's jus too far fr NTU. so i need to get out of NTU, out of my comfort zone. anw, d other reason is d pay cos it will jus allow me to get thru my basic needs, givin min to my parents. i'm afraid. i'm scared of rainy days. ppl will nvr understand wat i had been thru & i hate it when parents jus spend on rolex, massage chair, etc w/o worryin of rainy days. so until nw, i don quite fancy branded products. those r luxury items & unless necessary, if not i won't get.
friends would also asked me to buy things if we went out tgt, they would say they feel stress seeing tt i m empty-handed while they had their hands full but if nothing catches my eyes & nothing is necessary or if thr r reasons for me to buy, i won't buy at all. even my colleagues who kept shoppin said tt they can influence me n i should go out w them but i nvr go out w them & i don wanna get influence. in fact, recently i had spend quite alot fr online shopping but it's on for necessary items. items tt i need & r much cheaper than outside.
w d new house comin, savin of $ is impt. reno, furnishin, electric appliances, basic necessities, basic essential items, misc items all can mark up to a significant amt even if gettin only those necessary.
d things to do lists r also increasin b it at work or at home. lab can b busy till i had to bring back log book home to write or sequencin results to check. while at home, thr r so many things to check & research on with diff 'datelines'. plus to add on, dad would come to me for mio, iphone, ipad 2, etc prob. so can anybody understand how pack & heavy my brain can b? i only ve 2 hands & i only got 24/7 like everybody else & like everyone, i oso need sufficient rest. i kept workin my brain till every night, i only go to bed at ave 2-3 am & wakin up on ave 7 am & mostly i got trouble sleepin & i noe d main reason is tt i worked my brain too hard. if not b'cos when dear's ard, tt i'll ve limited things to do s he's usin d laptop plus, he wouldn't slp late, i oso wont b able to slp earlier when he's ard.
& i had already gone to d extent tt i need assistant fr my iphone reminder to remind me of all my bills date, etc. i can easily forget things tt i had been doin if i'm jus being distracted for a while & tt happened quite a few times in d lab. i can feel lost on wat i wanna do. my body & soul can even b out of sync. i can b tired but when i wanna slp i jus cant & got insomnia.
& w all these gg on in my head, my mood & temper is oso affected & i noe it too but i cant help it. i wanna laugh whole-heartedly. i wanna enjoy my life, enjoy every process. but i'm stress. i can say i don wanna care & try to slp but end up, my mind is still thinkin till i can't help but cry. i don wan it to b like tt. it made me feel like maybe i should take a break fr my usual routine, maybe to go to d beach or simply jus westcoast park to get my body, mind & eyes off d usual tasks & to simply cry it out like last time when i couldn't stand it further. but den, i oso wanted to save my leave for better things. life is such a dilemma. it's so contradicting & complicated.
if can, i wanna go back to d past. i noe bein a kid is impossible but at least can i ve sufficient rest & balance out everything? i cant wait till d time tt i can jus laze at home on weekends/PH. if not b'cos of all d things to accomplish by these few weekends, i oso wished i could jus stay home but can i?
like her, i used to send greeting cards to my grandma, godma, uncles, aunts, teachers, & friends. it's a practice tt my mum trained me since young & I jus cont'd after. I used to spend efforts in searching for nice & pretty greeting cards but subsequently I slowly stopped doing so esp in recent yrs. thr had been so much of other things for me to take care of. studies & work had been draining off my energy & nw another sets of stuffs for me to take care of.
sometimes, i really wished i had more than 24/7. i oso wished i m a robot so i no need to slp but then robot oso would need servicing & lubricating & robot would oso breakdown. i oso wished i don ve a heart so i can b 铁石心肠. i oso wished i don ve a brain so my head would b v light n not ve d constant tightness feel tt sometimes felt like it can explode any moment. n if i can choose, i rather not b a virgo & not ve d virgo traits of being a perfectionist & keep thinking & worrying. i really wished i can ignore everything. i wished i could chop off my head. indeed crying out will help slightly but it doesn't really help much when everything came clashing in.
so it actually reflected back to me if i m suitable for sales kinda job w datelines & target to hit kinda stress even if d ease of meetin & tokin to diff ppl can b trained. so wat worries me most is d ability to cope w tt kinda stress. i jus noe tt i cant stay in NTU forever. i had been here for 8.5 yrs. but d ultimate reason for me is tt i'd gotta a new flat at Sengkang. tt's jus too far fr NTU. so i need to get out of NTU, out of my comfort zone. anw, d other reason is d pay cos it will jus allow me to get thru my basic needs, givin min to my parents. i'm afraid. i'm scared of rainy days. ppl will nvr understand wat i had been thru & i hate it when parents jus spend on rolex, massage chair, etc w/o worryin of rainy days. so until nw, i don quite fancy branded products. those r luxury items & unless necessary, if not i won't get.
friends would also asked me to buy things if we went out tgt, they would say they feel stress seeing tt i m empty-handed while they had their hands full but if nothing catches my eyes & nothing is necessary or if thr r reasons for me to buy, i won't buy at all. even my colleagues who kept shoppin said tt they can influence me n i should go out w them but i nvr go out w them & i don wanna get influence. in fact, recently i had spend quite alot fr online shopping but it's on for necessary items. items tt i need & r much cheaper than outside.
w d new house comin, savin of $ is impt. reno, furnishin, electric appliances, basic necessities, basic essential items, misc items all can mark up to a significant amt even if gettin only those necessary.
d things to do lists r also increasin b it at work or at home. lab can b busy till i had to bring back log book home to write or sequencin results to check. while at home, thr r so many things to check & research on with diff 'datelines'. plus to add on, dad would come to me for mio, iphone, ipad 2, etc prob. so can anybody understand how pack & heavy my brain can b? i only ve 2 hands & i only got 24/7 like everybody else & like everyone, i oso need sufficient rest. i kept workin my brain till every night, i only go to bed at ave 2-3 am & wakin up on ave 7 am & mostly i got trouble sleepin & i noe d main reason is tt i worked my brain too hard. if not b'cos when dear's ard, tt i'll ve limited things to do s he's usin d laptop plus, he wouldn't slp late, i oso wont b able to slp earlier when he's ard.
& i had already gone to d extent tt i need assistant fr my iphone reminder to remind me of all my bills date, etc. i can easily forget things tt i had been doin if i'm jus being distracted for a while & tt happened quite a few times in d lab. i can feel lost on wat i wanna do. my body & soul can even b out of sync. i can b tired but when i wanna slp i jus cant & got insomnia.
& w all these gg on in my head, my mood & temper is oso affected & i noe it too but i cant help it. i wanna laugh whole-heartedly. i wanna enjoy my life, enjoy every process. but i'm stress. i can say i don wanna care & try to slp but end up, my mind is still thinkin till i can't help but cry. i don wan it to b like tt. it made me feel like maybe i should take a break fr my usual routine, maybe to go to d beach or simply jus westcoast park to get my body, mind & eyes off d usual tasks & to simply cry it out like last time when i couldn't stand it further. but den, i oso wanted to save my leave for better things. life is such a dilemma. it's so contradicting & complicated.
if can, i wanna go back to d past. i noe bein a kid is impossible but at least can i ve sufficient rest & balance out everything? i cant wait till d time tt i can jus laze at home on weekends/PH. if not b'cos of all d things to accomplish by these few weekends, i oso wished i could jus stay home but can i?
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