I am 'drunk' with tireness again after weeks of assignments, tutorials, quizzes, etc. Assignments actual meant projects and quizzes meant tests. HW102 is a vampire, a dracula. It sucked and drained all my energy level.
Today, had a quiz in the morning. Even though I am tired, managed to pull through the quiz and the lecture that was after lunch and the practical after that. And I think it was one of the rare time I managed to be quite attentive during the late afternoon elective lecture but somehow or rather, I guess exhaustion creeped in.
While, copying the information from the powerpoint slides to the wordy MSWord handouts and listening to the lecture, I suddenly felt unwell. My head got heavy and seemed to start to spin even till now. Had no choice but to settle and save some documents first which is not good. My body give me signals that I am very tired but I am ignoring it.
Anyway, I am glad my dad managed to go and drive me home. It was raining when my lesson end and with the spinning and heavy head, I do not think I can make it back home so easily as I think I might most likely get motion sickness through the bumpy bus ride out of school. Almost cannot make it on Monday after the HW102 discussion till 9pm but I can feel that today would be worst. I got thought of taking a cab but was thinking of the cost and also I actually do not like the smell in the cab and so I am not in the right condition to take a cab.
I shall go rest now since I had uploaded my documents. Didn't managed to do my BS203 assignment as plan but I think I really cannot make it.
Friday, 24 October 2008
Tuesday, 21 October 2008
薯条豆豆
Heard from my mum that my cousin was very funny yesterday. He wanted to eat something but he named it that only he understand and yesterday he asked his mum to buy for him yesterday and no one understood. Not even his sister and brother. Thus, he was very frustrated. Anyway, what he said was, '薯条豆豆'. When my aunt told my mum that my cousin brought her to the dessert store and made her carry him, my mum know what he wanted already. I also know what he wanted when my mum told me he went to the dessert stall. But my aunt do not know. (-.-)'''
Well, what he wanted was 'tao suan' with the fried you tiao. He always called the fried you tiao as french fries. Thus, my mum and I associated it with 'tao suan' immediately when he went to the dessert stall yet my aunt still do not know. Even my grandma understood when dessert stall was mentioned.
This aunt is forever so blur. That time, she believed that we saw F1 racing when what we saw was just a toy car racing and even the fire that burned down many motorbikes at the carpark near her house. It was 51 but she heard as 541 when my mum told her in chinese and even use her hand to signal 5, 1.
BTW, I heard she is going Genting Highlands with her Company this weekends leaving her 3 kids when she is still unsure if her husband is able to apply for leaves. If not, then what? She want to push them to my house again? This weekend is a long weekend due to Deepavali. Do my mum have to babysit them? And my dad and I wont get peace to rest? I might have difficulty studying too. Why they forever so selfish? Why they never think for others? So what if they trust us with their kids? My mum's holiday depends on them and yet they never think for us. It's a long weekend, a good time to rest and she wanted and is going for a break while we still have to 'work'? That is why sometimes, I am not so happy with them.
Well, what he wanted was 'tao suan' with the fried you tiao. He always called the fried you tiao as french fries. Thus, my mum and I associated it with 'tao suan' immediately when he went to the dessert stall yet my aunt still do not know. Even my grandma understood when dessert stall was mentioned.
This aunt is forever so blur. That time, she believed that we saw F1 racing when what we saw was just a toy car racing and even the fire that burned down many motorbikes at the carpark near her house. It was 51 but she heard as 541 when my mum told her in chinese and even use her hand to signal 5, 1.
BTW, I heard she is going Genting Highlands with her Company this weekends leaving her 3 kids when she is still unsure if her husband is able to apply for leaves. If not, then what? She want to push them to my house again? This weekend is a long weekend due to Deepavali. Do my mum have to babysit them? And my dad and I wont get peace to rest? I might have difficulty studying too. Why they forever so selfish? Why they never think for others? So what if they trust us with their kids? My mum's holiday depends on them and yet they never think for us. It's a long weekend, a good time to rest and she wanted and is going for a break while we still have to 'work'? That is why sometimes, I am not so happy with them.
我真的是问题‘小孩’吗？
我真的是问题‘小孩’吗？
2 weeks ago, after my dance training, talked to the senior as we were expected to keep whole day free for 2 of the weekends due to rehearsal for a performance that is on 29 Novemeber. Well, the two days are in additional to our usual Sunday training which I actually had planned to give it a miss so that I can study. Anyway, that is not the main point.
I was very touched that she is so worried about me. Most probably due to the fact that she had gone through and done what I had been doing now which is stretching myself to the limit to do the very best I can and giving me some advices.
As I was constantly worried about everything especially school works that I could dream that I am doing tutorial and even got the answer which I could not find elsewhere but that was quite a few weeks ago already but few days ago, that happened again. I figured out a point to add into the BS205 assignment when I was asleep and this senior was extremely worried about this as my brain is still working even when I am asleep.
She told me to sleep and rest during all the travelling in the bus or MRT, etc instead of struggling to stay awake or worst still study throughout the journey as I do not have enough rest as I could fall asleep at the wrong place and wrong time. She also adviced me to chant just before I went to bed to clear my brain from all the school works which is something I have not started doing and that explained why I am still doing assignment during sleep.
She actually thought of freezing my 'membership' till I graduate or something like that but I am a special case as I am a local undergraduate student and I still have another 2.5 +years of studies. Previous cases only need to be away for a year due to overseas studies. Thus, she was also not sure if it is feasible. I never thought of this way and did thought of leaving but I never tell her that as I 舍不得 but I know one day I still have to leave.
Anyway, I told her my concerns and worries and she said she was also like that and it would be difficult to get back up once broken apart... So she termed this as 问题‘小孩’due to the constant thinking and worrying.
She told me her experiences that she failed her papers in uni and had to retake and she only passed with a pass rather than a honor degree and like me, she was constantly worried about her grades, etc. Yet the salary and benefits for the job that she will be getting was much better than all her other uni friends. She told me to enjoy my student life rather than spend on worries, etc.
Today, during the HW102 tutorial (the module that cause the most damages), the tutor told told us not to be affected by whatever grade we all would get be it what we expected or not. He told us that he did badly for his uni . His average grade was a 'D' and could not qualified for a honor. Yet, somehow he managed to get his PhD and further on.
What he said was like wat my senior aka friend told me that day which made me reflect again on why I am constantly so stress-up. Well, actually, I am worst in the past. I guess I would have broken apart already but now, I am already letting things go easy but I guess it is still insufficient. I guess I need to learn to relax more so that 我不是问题‘小孩’.
2 weeks ago, after my dance training, talked to the senior as we were expected to keep whole day free for 2 of the weekends due to rehearsal for a performance that is on 29 Novemeber. Well, the two days are in additional to our usual Sunday training which I actually had planned to give it a miss so that I can study. Anyway, that is not the main point.
I was very touched that she is so worried about me. Most probably due to the fact that she had gone through and done what I had been doing now which is stretching myself to the limit to do the very best I can and giving me some advices.
As I was constantly worried about everything especially school works that I could dream that I am doing tutorial and even got the answer which I could not find elsewhere but that was quite a few weeks ago already but few days ago, that happened again. I figured out a point to add into the BS205 assignment when I was asleep and this senior was extremely worried about this as my brain is still working even when I am asleep.
She told me to sleep and rest during all the travelling in the bus or MRT, etc instead of struggling to stay awake or worst still study throughout the journey as I do not have enough rest as I could fall asleep at the wrong place and wrong time. She also adviced me to chant just before I went to bed to clear my brain from all the school works which is something I have not started doing and that explained why I am still doing assignment during sleep.
She actually thought of freezing my 'membership' till I graduate or something like that but I am a special case as I am a local undergraduate student and I still have another 2.5 +years of studies. Previous cases only need to be away for a year due to overseas studies. Thus, she was also not sure if it is feasible. I never thought of this way and did thought of leaving but I never tell her that as I 舍不得 but I know one day I still have to leave.
Anyway, I told her my concerns and worries and she said she was also like that and it would be difficult to get back up once broken apart... So she termed this as 问题‘小孩’due to the constant thinking and worrying.
She told me her experiences that she failed her papers in uni and had to retake and she only passed with a pass rather than a honor degree and like me, she was constantly worried about her grades, etc. Yet the salary and benefits for the job that she will be getting was much better than all her other uni friends. She told me to enjoy my student life rather than spend on worries, etc.
Today, during the HW102 tutorial (the module that cause the most damages), the tutor told told us not to be affected by whatever grade we all would get be it what we expected or not. He told us that he did badly for his uni . His average grade was a 'D' and could not qualified for a honor. Yet, somehow he managed to get his PhD and further on.
What he said was like wat my senior aka friend told me that day which made me reflect again on why I am constantly so stress-up. Well, actually, I am worst in the past. I guess I would have broken apart already but now, I am already letting things go easy but I guess it is still insufficient. I guess I need to learn to relax more so that 我不是问题‘小孩’.
Friday, 3 October 2008
2nd term of 1st semester of year 2
After the term break, school starts to get busy with quizzes every week, assignments almsot every week that requires intensive readings. There are lab reports due and even tutorials to do. It won't be easy but I just have to hang in there.
Finally complete the survey
After a failed attempt to do survey outside, went home to create an online survey form and emailed my friends and cousins. Also emailed the link to my group-mates so that they can send to their friends to do.
I did not expect to be able to finish thus, if we need to continue the survey in school today, I do not wish to bring my laptop as it would be very bulky. So in the end I asked for the other 2 group-mates who were online for their figures. Up till 10+pm, still short of almost 40 surveys excluding the figure from the other group-mate. While waiting for his reply, we managed to get more surveys. I even asked 2 of my closer secondary friends who came online and chat a bit with them for a while.
Since we think we hit our target after consolidating the figures, we decided to call it a day and I brought my laptop today. Managed to get like 108 respondents after our biostatistics lecture. Think there are 2 to 3 more currently but I decided to ignore already and closed the online survey. Glad to be able to finish.
While I copied out the survey on papers, my group-mates went to the library to key into the excel document then we compiled together before going for our BS203 tutorial which the classroom was almost pack when there was another 20 minutes left before the class start.
I did not expect to be able to finish thus, if we need to continue the survey in school today, I do not wish to bring my laptop as it would be very bulky. So in the end I asked for the other 2 group-mates who were online for their figures. Up till 10+pm, still short of almost 40 surveys excluding the figure from the other group-mate. While waiting for his reply, we managed to get more surveys. I even asked 2 of my closer secondary friends who came online and chat a bit with them for a while.
Since we think we hit our target after consolidating the figures, we decided to call it a day and I brought my laptop today. Managed to get like 108 respondents after our biostatistics lecture. Think there are 2 to 3 more currently but I decided to ignore already and closed the online survey. Glad to be able to finish.
While I copied out the survey on papers, my group-mates went to the library to key into the excel document then we compiled together before going for our BS203 tutorial which the classroom was almost pack when there was another 20 minutes left before the class start.
Thursday, 2 October 2008
Failed attempt to do survey
Went to do survey for HW102 today. It was a failed attempt. Sighed. Our target is those Singaporean and PR aged btw 18 to 29. Went JE to do survey but 4 of us don't know how to get people to help us. Think this was our 1st attempt so we all were shy. Also, the number of people under our category was super limited. Saw alot of students in uniform which is younger than our category. Also saw those older than our category and those that don't look local. Sighed.
So in the end, we end up splitting into 2 groups at the interchange. LF and I in the end decided to go near the library where we managed to get 4 respondents then YZ and HJ came saying that they were chased off by the SBS staffs. So there goes our plan of surveying.
We ended up at the pickup area for shutter bus to IMM hoping to catch more people. Yet, only like a few people around. So we decided to call it a day and try asking friends to do for us. As for the remainder, maybe do in school during break tomorrow.
So in the end, we end up splitting into 2 groups at the interchange. LF and I in the end decided to go near the library where we managed to get 4 respondents then YZ and HJ came saying that they were chased off by the SBS staffs. So there goes our plan of surveying.
We ended up at the pickup area for shutter bus to IMM hoping to catch more people. Yet, only like a few people around. So we decided to call it a day and try asking friends to do for us. As for the remainder, maybe do in school during break tomorrow.
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