got laptop

today finally got my laptop set at office... when i brought my own laptop to try connected to the internet to try complete d tasks i'm asked to do ytd... & i think should b able to access d STAR planner to register for modules ba... *hopefully*

knock off at 3.30??? no lah...

today, lunch alone again. anw, i still got d piece of 'cake' i bought on tue... so i ate tt... got nothing to do today again... esp when d reportin officer of d person i'm helpin aren't in d office today.

anw, at 3+ saw d 'head' & ask for work to do... s she busy & need to go off, she asked another colleague to give me something to do... guess wat... he asked me do some search for him.. till nw i still doin... s need internet, he asked me to go hm at 3+... ya... no officially knock off but he said i can go hm & do then... so i go loh... cos i got meetin at 8 ma... cant stay till 6 den go hm. think i might bring my laptop thr tml... mayb try pluggin in d network cable & see hw... cos really s wat he expect. cant finish... but not right to stay hm & complete in case d pc is up... hmm... so weird... will see hw tml ba...

lunch + sandwich...

aft 2 days of eatin lunch alone... today went w d auntie & a few other colleagues fr finance dept... went ghim moh again... aft lunch, auntie & i went back 1st & durin d journey she asked if i eat beef... told her ok... & she said if got sandwich, she will pass me... & she really meant wat she said... passed me 2 pieces of sandwich... even took aluminium foil to wrap up for me... & my mum was so happy bout it... cos she always said i nvr eat... but i did!!! but nw she oso see tt got someone keep tryin to feed me... lol...

3rd day of work

work today was ok oso... mainly did filing cos i still haven get d laptop or comp which i need to do d new hire announcement, etc... but overall, still ok... but v sian again... lunch alone again... today went tabao rice to eat in d pantry. ytd ate cha sao bao & tou sha bao... jus nw bought cake in case tml gonna lunch alone again... lazy to find a place to go eat or tabao alone...

but i today den noe tt actually d photocopier machine can b so high-tech... can scan & sort of send to ppl one wor... d person whom i'm helpin need some doc & asked me send her via d photocopier... chim... =X

2nd day of work...

today, read like 100 pages of d robbin cook's book i borrowed last mon durin work...

supposed to send an announcement on new hired staff yet my laptop is not ready... so cant do... sort of completed d big pile of filin except those i cant find... oso sort of created some p-files w d aid of another staff but she oso not quite sure of whr to slot certain doc... & transfered some p-files to d cabinets... & even asked for some more work cos i finished everything by 3... & was given more filings to do at ard 4+... & i finish those at 5...

think tml might ve more filings to do ba...

temp admin assistant

20090611:
went to marketplace to buy coconut milk & milk to make agar-agar for my friend's 21st bday & my uncle's hse warmin. shortly aft i reach hm at 11.35am, i got a call fr adecco... ask if i can go for an interview at 2.20pm at sci park I... it is an admin job, 5 day week fr 9-6 for bout 3 weeks. though it's v rush, i agreed to go...

didn't noe if need to bring along any cert but i jus bring in case so was extraction out those v unnecessary ones... & did last min ironin of my 'formal' top & skirt. managed to get ready & have lunch within 1.5 hr w all d ironin, packin, etc to do... & sort of chiong out... managed to reach thr early... & think durin d interview, i said d magical word when i was asked when i can start work... i said, 'immediately' and her reply was 'even can start tml?'... she could ve tell me if i got or not thr but she asked me to wait for call...

so i was actually on my way to vivo to meet my friend... but when i reach outram stn, i made an u-turn... but in d end decided to exit & take cab back to adecco at JE CPF buildin cos i believed my friend had book d movie ticket at 5pm & tt time was alrdy almost 3.20pm... had to go back then to sign d contract s i wont ve time to do so d followin day s i would start work... but in d end, when i reach, tt agent still doin d contract... so i still ve to wait. luckily my friend still at hm & got car so we still managed to reach early...

20090612:
officially start work, woke up by my dad at 5.50am.. at 1st i tot i can sleep till 6.30am but anw, went breakfast w my parents... left hm earlier cos i still dunno hw long i would ve to wait for d bus in to sci park... in d lrt, bump into a sec sch classmate... small chat a bit till JE whr he exited... s i was v early, i sort of stroll to d other side whr i wait for d other mrt... & i oso stroll to d bus-stop. think i was d only one who is takin my own sweet time while everybody is tryin to squeeze into d buses or mrt...

when i reach, was super early so i stroll in again & in d end, waited till 10 den d one who i'm suppose to help came. sort of dump me a big pile of doc to file... think tt pile is bout 20 cm... or mayb more... i not sure if it's jus happen tt they got a colleague leavin so they went for lunch & jus jus remind me to go for my lunch (when i dunno whr to go)... anw, d cleaner (pantry auntie) is v kind... bring me to take shuttle bus out to ghim moh to eat... even tell me nearby whr else got canteen... she is oso v funny... jus b4 she knock off & leave, ask if i hungry... tell me thr is biscuit whr i can eat. even bring out apples & ask me to eat.. lol... like scare i'll go hungry... lol...

anw, managed to finish d big pile till left like 3 cm... & i'm only taught wat to do for mon at ard 4.30pm... so last min... luckily i got bring pen & papers... so i note down.. hope i wont forget or do anything wrong ba... & i realized ppl thr r nvr like start packin when almost 6pm... so i oso cant leave & dare not leave... 1st day, dare not show bad impression ma... so guai guai stay till i'm told tt i can leave... ^.^ only when was told tt i can actually leave den i rush out cos i meetin my friend for dinner...

feelin much better

hi friends who read this... dun worry... me ok alrdy... ;p

but i still need a job... or mayb do charity work to get out of d hse ba... ^.^

desperate...

think i too desperate to get out of d hse. saw a page on classified today which has a list of voluntart work for charities... think i'll look thru tt too. though no pay... but at least might b able to get out of d hse. & summore can help others...

still feel gloomy...

ytd angry, today comment d choco cookies is nice...
i alrdy noe d truth...
so fake... -.-

terribly nid a temp job... they may not b happy... but i cant stay on like dis till sem start... at least i got sumtin 'DECENT' to do & able get out to breathe normally...

全都是骗人的...

全都是骗人的... 我真的好难过...
干脆一点吧... 值接让我留在家哪都别去... 何必做这么多... 显得自己很好... 然后才生气... 好虚伪... 每次说一套, 却做另一套... 最好我永远待在身边好了...
我是个人... 不是puppet... 干脆把我杀了算了...

*PS: dun worry... i wont 想不开... & dun ask... 一言难尽...

T~T

避难???

aft a week of steppin on tails... decided to make lib my 2nd hm again... last nite, last min decided to go lib & i ask M. she dun mind so we went tgt today...

& 1st time in my holi, i slept till late. only woke up at 11. luckily dad nvr call & mum haven hm at tt time. if not, sure kanna again... *phew* anw, managed to get ready & go out sort of quite on d dot... but was still like 2-3 min late? cos i missed d previous mrt & had to wait 6 min for another...

went JE lib whr i borrowed 2 books by robin cook, author which M likes... tempted to borrow more but dunno if got d time to read finish...

& i oso brought along classified which i think i saw something but nvr had time to look carefully. so was lookin thru w M. we called up regardin a temp job. i kanna busy line. M got thru like an hr ltr & was told to walk-in at JE CPF buildin recruit express... since it's walkin distance, we went over aft our 'lunch' thinkin this time should b better since we got a job to enquire... but again, we were told to re-fill up forms which we did so like in mid may... & d guy zap our I/C.. & told us tt nw temp most need 3 mth... told him not our fault cos we went in may but they nvr quite entertain us then... & he told us while waitin for them, we can look ourselves... like we nvr... anw, this time was worst than last time. he didn't even ask wat we lookin for, wat's our expected pay, whr we wish to work, etc... so M & i sort of condemn tt recruit express le... ask us go walk-in interview yet it's jus like tt...

aft tt we went JP walk ard, M went to source forher bday cake den i went to crystal & beads again but nvr found wat i want.. & we went ntuc s M wanna buy ingredients to bake cookies... over thr, she got call fr her mum & told her tt i'll b gg over tml to 避难... lol... so funny... though quite true lah... but i didn't expect M to tell her mum tt... haha... anw she oso told her mum tt i'll b her extra helper to make d cookies... tt'll b d 1st time i prep & bake cookies. hope i dun 越帮越忙... hee... but i really lookin forward to tml!!! ;p

'suay' to d max...

a word describe me nw... since sat (to be exact sun mornin)... esp for this mornin... d word is 'suay'... really damn unlucky to d core loh...

sat went to watch my 1st concert of my life w my 2 v close sec sch friends, ling & sze. nvr tell my parents i go whr cos i noe they will sure scold & nag for 1 actually b gg for another one on 29/8. tt one was supposed to b my 1st concert (b gg w uni friends)... but when sze asked me, i tot i can try gg w her to see see... & not b so 'sua ku'...

y i say i was unlucky... i noe my parents limits for me to go hm is s early s possible & they aren't happy bout me gg back aft 12... but i did b4, gg back aft movie, reachin hm at 12+... but tt day, at 12.40, my dad started to sms me... askin whr i m, etc etc. by d time i sian w replyin & i call him, i'm actually at my void deck. guess wat... he went to wait at d lift lobby thr. d moment my lift door opened, he started to scold liao. tt time was 1.05am. i told him i was w ling & sze & he gave me warnin. warnin nvr to go out till late again... i was quite mad s it was not possible esp when i got another concert on 29/8 but i kept quiet & go into d hse. cos since i not happy, my tone b v bad oso. it'll make things worst only.

anyway, d followin mornin, i actually got a sort of soka activity to attend but i decided not to go. cos if my dad dun see me ard at hm, ltr he scold again cos i'd been gg out quite frequently this holi... & i dare not sleep till late... & guess wat, they nvr quite tok to me. esp my mum. practically ignore me... when i told her not to wait for me & tt i'll b v late... wat's w her... esp when she's d one who sort of gave me green light over at BKK to go out w friends... i really angry then cos they always like say 1 thing nw & do d other way d next moment. so cant b trusted.. :( anyway, tt issue was over. aft my mum finally tok to me & noe whr i went lah. of course she scold & nag loh. but i nvr get any $$ fr them since i started work 6 yrs ago & started schoolin again 2 yrs ago... but they each like got push bout $300 to me b4... s if tt can last v long...

wed night, i oso kanna. s i nvr quite go out this week, & it's sch holi, i lost track of day, & date... & forget to help my dad go atm pay his credit card bill. wed night when he came back & ask, he scold again. i dunno y he ask tt day. he usually nvr bother... & when he noe i 4got, he scolded esp bout late payment & interest. told him it was late so i go followin day but he still not happy. had to tell him twice tt i go then to pay for him den he stopped. so fed up loh. think i like god meh. everythin oso rmbr. i'm a human being. & human being do makes mistakes & human beings do forget... though i'm an undergrads, but tt doesn't mean i v clever & noe everything oso lo... he ask me things like comp & i dunno he will oso angry... go out & nvr bring his atm card, he oso angry...

ytd, i went out again... it was alright la... but in d end, i forgot to on my phone into normal mode. so it was in silent mode till this mornin. & guess wat. i got like 45 missed calls fr my parents esp my dad who call & call non-stop... & d even 'suay' thing was, d home phone in my rm nvr ring... tt phone can condemn liao... either nvr ring at all or jus ring a while & will auto silent... oso even when u press listen when there is an incomin call, it may not work... so will have to run to find d other cordless phone to pick up d call. not sure if it's b'cos of d battery or d phone prob... d even 'suay' thing was tt ytd, aft my cousin play game on my tv, think my mum off all d switch even d phone switch... so cfm my phone wont ring loh... only realize jus a while ago... sianz... so even though my dad call hm & my phone, i cfm wont hear loh... summore i sleepin wor... mayb ltr i shall go see if can find d battery for d phone. if not den i guess i ve to buy a new set le... but ex loh... & i haven find a job... if really buyin 1, i must get 1 tt's v loud... current one, only my parents' rm one ring & quite soft...

my dad call me cos he 4get somethin & want me bring somewhere for him.. so he was hoppin mad... & made my mum came hm to get for hm. & he blasted my hp w calls. jus nw aft he got his stuffs fr my mum, he call me again. to scold loh... say my phone spoilt is it, y nvr pick up, ask me see hw many missed calls, said i only noe to sleep, i sleep till like dead, if i so wanna sleep, jus sleep thru d holi, etc etc... but i think i only once or twice sleep till 9+am. & this is d 2nd mth of my holi le leh... i usually wake up at 7+ or 8+ w aid of alarm... cos i only go to bed at average 2am... think he tot i got d luxury & will sleep till like noon... but i nvr. i woke up early to look at d classified, to look for jobs... & i go out not always for play & fun, got go job agencies, got go work few days... & i think i only like managed to successfully took v short afternoon nap like once or twice only... if i got d time, i sure will wanna sleep lah... think studyin so easy ah... i was physically & mentally drained loh + tt BKK trip is oso drained off my energy... i feel so 'yuan wang'. y they nvr ever let me explain... jus scold & scold & scold. cant they jus cool down a bit & listen to me... always 'bu fen qing hong zao bai' jus scold...

i got many things i wanna do this holi loh. play my piano oso & i oso only got chance to play once... wanna draw more but only draw like 2-3 pieces..., wanna read but i oso dun ve d luxury to sit down & read non-stop... which is not like me... i usually can finish a book in a day or 2... but nw, it's weeks & i'm not even halfway thru d book... yet to them, i holi means i v free...

I'M A HUMAN, I DO MAKE MISTAKES & FORGET, I NVR SLEEP TILL LATE (in fact, i still sleep less than 8 hrs), I'M NOT A PERSON WHO KNOW ALL, I NVR DO NOTHING & JUS SLEEP AT HM THIS HOLI...

I REALLY (x100, no, x1000, no no, x million, even x billion) DUN WANNA STAY HOME & I WANNA GO WORK... since i go out oso kanna scoldin, stay hm oso kanna scoldin, may s well go out & better still work, even customer service or even complaint hotline oso can... at least tt one will get paid... T.T

chances of steppin on their tail is so much higher when i stay hm. if i still cant find job, whr can i go? public lib dun open so early... so where else can i go? dun tell me i should go back sch lib...

4th & last day of BKK trip

24/5:
0540 woke up by my grandma cos my alarm woke her up... i too tired liao... =X
0730 went breakfast, mornin pasar malam & nearby shops
1000 went 'ju-jut-jap' (dunno d spellin) but b4 tt, d cabs drove us to gem shop again... sighed... this time, my mum bought a pendant w her birthstone & my dad birthstone. at 'ju-jut-jap' i bought a dress again.
1500 d cab drove us to chinatown but b4 tt they drove us to a tailor shop whr none of us got anything to get fr thr. at chinatown, there isn't much to shop so we went back to d shops near our hotel whr i bought 2 pairs of jeans den went back to hotel.
den we went back to platinum mall for dinner s they had bought d card used to make purchases den went back to hotel. while i bath, saw a small cockroach in d dustbin. my mum not ard, so i pick up d courage to tie up d rubbish bag w d cockroach inside.

25/5
0530 woke up by my alarm which also woke up my grandma.
0620 went to declare my temperature for thr was a temp screenin exercise tt day.
0700 went to my rm & realize mum actually meant BKK time to go last min shoppin at mornin pasar malam. which mean is 1 hr ltr for sg time. so i woke up too early then. anyway, we bought some food & sort of camp & eat in my parents rm. aft tt we rest a while & went to pratunam centre but most shop arent opened yet.
1145 took our luggages & check out but cousin & friends still not ard. anw, served net while at d lobby & when my cousin & friends came back, they wanted to go last min shoppin at MBK but i too tired to go so i stayed at d lobby with my dad, uncle & grandma. i serve net & on msn to chat w my friend den. my friend find it weird for i in another time zone & diff country yet i still chat w her like i'm in SG.
1430 went lunch & go back hotel & cont'd servin net.
1600 got a robbery jus right outside d hotel & d robber was caught by d hotel security guard when he ran head on 1st & was like 2 to 3 buildings away.
anw, took d plane at 9+ & reach SG at 11+pm. reach hm at 12+am & my dad drove grandma hm worried she woke up v early d followin mornin. haha...

3rd day at BKK trip

23/5:
o300 woke up by my grandma who only went back to sleep at ard 0530 so i nvr quite sleep since 0300. drifted in & out then.
0545 woke up & went to d mornin pasar malam. bought 5 short pants.
0645 met at hotel lobby to go to floatin market. oso went to pick up 2 other gp of ppl at another 2 hotels. at floatin market thr, we took longtail boat, paddle boat & had lunch thr & i got a sunglasses thr.
1145 we gather & went to d elephant ride thr s thr is a couple who want to ride d elephant. waited for them den went back to d BKK. they brought us to d gem shop again & this time we nvr go in & told d tour guide tt we went b4 & she get us a transfer back to d hotel. however, we nvr go back to hotel. we went to central world mall instead cos we were nearby then. it was a more class mall so things r more expensive. my aunt brought us straight to d shop naraya whr she immediately rush in & grab a shoppin basket. we were puzzled.. only when we see d price den realized y. both my aunt & mum spent like 100+ sgd thr. crazy right? i got bought a few but less than 50 sgd.

1700 went for dinner & go back to hotel
1800 s i tot no other activity, went to lobby to serve internet then. didn't wanna stay in hotel room w my grandma but my parents suggest go night pasar malam.
1845 we went to d night pasar malam & i bought 2 skirts. while waitin for my mum & grandma who were choosing pyjamas for my cousins, an indian tourist asked me wat d night gown is for... do i look like a thai? a seller at d pasar malam? gosh.. though i noe it was a night gown, i decided not to say & said i dunno. aft tt i told my mum i go walk ard instead of standin thr & b'come a thai again. aft we go back & i pack my lugguage, it was almost full alrdy... oops... hee

2nd day of BKK trip

22/5 (day of my exam result release):
woke up late & was woken up by my mum. & aft i washed up, went to d hotel lobby to check my results. when my parents came down, they said they gg market which i wasn't interested. thus, i decided not to go but continue stayin at the lobby to serve the net & try to calculated my GPA (only when i got back to SG then i noe tt there is a link which will show my GPA straightaway...) when i 1st look at my grades, i noe i did not v well but w majority still ok, i tot my GPA will be maintained but in d end, it dropped... quite upset then. anw, i oso check my mail & even go into facebook.
0900 went back to my room to eat breakfast & to on the tv to the music video station to listen to d songs. when they came back, my mum came back w 3 leggings & 3 tops for me. aft a while we went down to take 3 tuk-tuk to go ard d place. they brought us to temple, lunch & 2 diff gem shops & at d 1st shop, my mum bought me a silver ring w my birthstone, blue sapphire & 2 pair of ear-rings.
1400 tuk-tuk dropped us off at MBK shoppin mall whr we go separate way to shop & decided to meet at 1830. at MBK, bought a dress, a top, a skirt, a pair of shoes, a pair of slippers, 1 watch, 3 bookmarks & 4 keychains.
1700 my parents, grandma & i went to rest at the mac over thr. eat & drink thr. & went off to walk ard & saw my aunt & uncle sittin at a corner. so we went over. s we have to wait for my cousin & her bf & friends, my mum & i walk ard somemore. while walkin ard w my mum, she tok to me. say i can go out but tell her in advance, & she complained bout my grandma & godma (her sis), & comment tt if i got bf, can tell her cos she can keep secret till i ready to tell other, & said i should go noe more ppl & find a bf if not in future i'll b lonely.
1830 went to take cabs. wanna go chinatown but they said night time nothing, so decided to go night market but in d end decided to go back to hotel. it was rainin & d cab driver dropped us off outside & we have to walk to our hotel. -.- wat an attitude. den we went to d lobby to check out d one day tour to floatin market etc & then went for dinner. d bell 'boy' drove us out w d hotel tuk-tuk s it was still rainin then. & jus happened tt when we gg back tt time, we saw d bell-boy in d tuk tuk gg back to hotel so we hopped on & he drove us back.

1st day of BKK trip

i noe... this post is pretty back-dated... but been sort of busy since i came back fr BKK... wwent to BKK on 21 - 25 may 09.

21/5:
0600 went to have breakfast at nearby coffeeshop
0630 took cab to budget terminal & reach v early...
0845 check in lugguages
0900 enter departure hall
1000 enter tiger airway TR104 plane but got problem w d seatin plan for my grandma s all of us r seated at d emergency exit row where they need us to learn hw to open d door & assist them if necessary. so, of course grandma grumbled...
1045 flight to BKK
1305 reach BKK but few of us got problem s we did not ve d declaration form & we were asked to go get, fill & re-queue... i took d forms & queue & fill-up at d same time & so by d time reach my turn, i finished fillin d form but my uncle & aunt v guai. they fill up le then queue up so in d end too v long & their daughter do not know which is their lugguage & try openin those which they think might be. oops... =X
aft tt, we took took a cab tgt to citin pratunam (our hotel) (we were a gp of 11 ppl)... aft puttin our lugguage, we walk to platinum mall to eat & shop in 2 separate gp...
it rained in d afternoon thr. so we rest for a while at d mall & ate donuts... when it got dark & d rain seemed to get smaller, my parents, grandma & i walk back, but part of d street were flooded... my parents & grandma took off their shoes while i jus folded up my jeans s my shoes is sort of plastic. ;p hee... it was an experience indeed cos nvr experience tt in SG.
& tt was d 1st time my dad seemed to get 'lost' while i noe whr we should walk. s my dad usually rmbr his way well, i listen to him instead but in d end, i go ask ppl.
den we went to 7-11 to buy cup noodles s we nvr quite take our dinner but in d end, only my dad eat. got go over to my parents rm for a while aft showers & take pictures & it was so coincident tt 3 of us all brought light blue tee & wore tt night. it was quite sian tt so i went back to my rm. & my grandma went back w me & she refused to go to bed sayin wanna watch tv but in d end, she fall asleep... -.-

anw, at platinum mall, a wholesale fashion mall, i got many loots thr. 10 tops, 1 pair of scandals, & 1 pair of shoes. 1st time shop till so crazy... spent like a few hrs thr yet still haven finish d shoppin mall... nice place to shop. wat i like oso ^.^