jobs, car, grumble

searchin for a job aren't easy... thr r more sales job than watever more relevant to me, if not those requirin pharmaceutical cert, etc.

i not so thick skinned type so i not so sure if sales b right for me but i need to b open for more option. yet, seein d need for a car really puts me off. party cos of d cost & i not sure if i could afford but d main main reason is tt if i got my own car, surely any thing, small thing, big thing, my parents will sure say, 'shan ah, can u do dis dis dis, can u drive tt tt tt, can u go here here here, can u bring me go thr thr thr, etc'.

y do i say so. b4 i noe dear, only my dad drivin, tt time even when he end up drivin a car, he will go back to office to change for a lorry to pick all up to go 扫墓 or to move dis or tt. even when cant, they will look for my aunt, etc cos for 扫墓 for my mum side, only visit my grandpa's grave so it's their father & their siblings mainly. well, thr was once tt we couldn't make it cos date clashes w my dad's side & my grandma they all take bus to d cemetry & it's jus 1 direct bus & bout 20 min journey.

once i got to noe dear, my mum will come & say, 'can he drive us thr, blah blah blah'. & tt time when my godma's hospitalized, i doin FYP & yet she will call & ask if dear can go help bring back certain things. when told her he's working & duno end wat time, she not happy. com'on, wat bout my aunt, her younger sis? if everybody working, den take cab la.

but b4 all these, she will comment & say tt dear's mum shouldn't make her son to go sign up a new contract for new hp when he worked till late or work till morning, etc. saying so nicely tt should b considerate & let him rest.

weeks ago, my mum told me d date & said tt if i need to go back to settle my new hse, jus go ahead. den days ago, she said tt if dear's workin, den can i drive my dad's car while my parents take bus over. it's so weird. i can understand tt we should pick my grandma who is old & my godma aka her 2nd sis esp when recently she been weak due to her heart prob. s for d rest of d ppl esp like my xiao jiu, if really not enough seat, den take bus la. cant expect to ve a chauffeur all d time wat. so my parents can drive my grandma & godma & at most 1 more person & den meet over thr lor. whoever is capable of walking and standing should get their way thr themselves. tt should b quite fair. i wont mind taking bus thr myself & give up d seat to those who need it most.

n jus nw, she still ask me again if dear's working. when i say he not suppose to be, she asked him to drive. so i ask who's gg & i said tt mayb should jus ask grandma & godma only la. it's not tt it nvr happen b4. den she said my xiao jiu insist on gg, & my da jiu oso. my xiao jiu always go round sg, so wat's so difficult for him to go by himself. s for my da jiu, his eldest daughter got car or her husband got car & she did drive once when tt time not enough car. so if my da jiu wanna go, he should rely on others like me. hey, i not his daughter. whr is d sincerity of wantin to go? if really sincere, surely will ve own way to go.

i not sure my mum will angry me again but i got no choice but really need to tell d facts. ok, dis time dear's not working. fine. he can drive. in future? nobody can tell. so? those who are capable to walk & stand take public bus lor. not a long journey. i always pass by thr when i go work every mornin. if duno whr to walk, den d person who drive mayb can pick in them at d flower shop. nothing difficult ma. but i wont b surprise if mum b unhappy. tt's y i really hope i can nvr ve my own car. by then, if i don help, they will surely b angry w me. haiz...

so i really hope i don ve to go into any sales tt need a car.