1st time step behind d wheel dis yr... got bit of hiccups but shld b ok ba... hope at least can get thru my dad's picky-ness...
jus nw, dad said he need to go work to help see d escort. mum wanna follow him & i decided to go as well. last time, he go late nite we oso follow so dun wan him say i dun wan him le so i tag along. he long time nvr need to go out this time le. think d last time i oso got go & i did help drove a bit then. cos he walked in a long way, i jus drove forward or adjust d position last time.
today, tot would b same but b4 he go out of d car, he told me to drive while d lorry driver reversed in and passed me his remote key. i long time nvr drive at nite & i rarely drive at night. so i nvr on d headlights. oopss... luckily d polices left alrdy...
s i nvr notice d headlights, d lights for d gear is not on. & i more used to manual gear, i had difficulties figuring out the position for 'D'. on d light in d car to see den i managed to drive. hehe... halfway in, i realized i got no headlights & i on it immediately so not tt bad cos i not at d rd outside. i was at tuas. ulu ulu place. hee..
at d end of d rd, managed to reverse by doing 3 pt turn. i dun think i do tt b4. noe theory but practically nvr try b4. mayb oso cos nw i used a side rd to help. last time (yrs back), i failed to do so & strike d kerb... luckily not exam then or i'll kanna 10 pt... ;p
anw, dad go take my seat (passenger seat) & he asked me drive back. mum swop place w him so tt he could guide me the way, etc. think i alrdy hack care & jus put in my 胆 to drive le. last time, i might panick but ever since my cousins dare, i think it stimulate my 胆 to work rather than to panick. haha...
anw, easy to go back. jus straight all d way to ntu thr & fr thr i alrdy noe hw to go hm. cos i been familar w tt rd since jun 03 & nw alrdy 2010. if i still dunno d way, i can go knock myself in d wall le. yet dad still tell me, here can go this lane, etc but mum stopped him. tell him to test me if i really noe d way.
think it's d 1st time i hit d rd near 100 km/hr. cos on d expressway ma. yrs ago cant cos dad drove pickup then. got speed limit of 70 km/hr.
while at cck thr, while trying to cut into d left lane to exit, a car jus chiong forward. luckily i saw & siam a bit. sighed...
aft reachin d carpark, i was worried cos i nvr park at night b4. somemore, my parking skill v bad. last time, i always alight & let my dad park or if i park it'll b out of d lot. only d recent time when i park within d lot cos i always saw dear park by usin d guide of a vehicle. so tt time i tried myself.
this time, i was worried if it would be too dark to see d mirror cos it's late at night. but i jus try b4 i give up. & i managed to park in. i was too right & i decided to go head and adjust but i got confused w d reverse direction for a brief moment again. managed to figure out & park in d middle of d lot. yeah!!! nvr get d chance to go head & adjust d wheel cos dad said it's alright. think he tired le. wanna go back le.
so despite d hiccups, i think it shld b alright. can b better w more practices. i hope. ^.^ gettin better w my drivin skills have always been 1 of my resolution. only last yr due to d dare of my cousins tt i managed to pick up d courage to drive again. i really shld thank them... & of course my dear cos if not cos of seein him park all d time, i dun think i can try to figure out hw to park. ask my dad, he only say it's experience. sighed...
Saturday, 9 January 2010
Friday, 8 January 2010
sch startin soon...
sianz... either holi too short or i really hate sch to wanna go back to sch... sighed...
it's fri alrdy & aft d weekend, sch will start. this sem 7 modules & 6 of them r examinable... b havin 6 papers in 2 weeks. 1st week 4 papers again.
anw, got fundamental of management s my biz elective. my last electives for my 4 yrs course. & i still ve my last S/U option which i would use. hope i would get 'S' ba. d sian part is tt this elective end late & not jus once a week but twice. siao... *shake head*...
& i was pretty mad w a leader. cos we gotta meet up for plannin & rehearsal for a mtg, i noe they alrdy accomodatin to me by comin my hse. she had been chasin aft me. buggin me if d date they decided for is possible. previously i donno my elective timetable but when i found out tt it would be released today, i told her.
i had been assurin her tt i would let her noe again when my timetable is out. in d end, she still constantly ask me if d date is ok. s if i wanna hide fr her like tt... told her i oso wanna noe my timetable & will definitely inform her when i noe den she stopped.
aft i told her, guess wat, she said she'll inform d rest tml...#%$#%$ if so, den y rush me, y chase aft me, y bug me??? can jus say let her noe by tonight ma... mum said i like high on estasy or so cos i keep shakin my head cos of d buggin... sighed...
well, sch startin, i hope everything will b fine. it's my final few chance to try to pull up my grades & w 1 lesser module than last sem. rmbr tt thr was a sem tt i got 9 modules. tt was crazy... last sem got 8 and yet still cannot make it. hope this sem got 1 more lesser, will b better ba... kipin fingers crossed... & wish me luck & i hope for miracle...
it's fri alrdy & aft d weekend, sch will start. this sem 7 modules & 6 of them r examinable... b havin 6 papers in 2 weeks. 1st week 4 papers again.
anw, got fundamental of management s my biz elective. my last electives for my 4 yrs course. & i still ve my last S/U option which i would use. hope i would get 'S' ba. d sian part is tt this elective end late & not jus once a week but twice. siao... *shake head*...
& i was pretty mad w a leader. cos we gotta meet up for plannin & rehearsal for a mtg, i noe they alrdy accomodatin to me by comin my hse. she had been chasin aft me. buggin me if d date they decided for is possible. previously i donno my elective timetable but when i found out tt it would be released today, i told her.
i had been assurin her tt i would let her noe again when my timetable is out. in d end, she still constantly ask me if d date is ok. s if i wanna hide fr her like tt... told her i oso wanna noe my timetable & will definitely inform her when i noe den she stopped.
aft i told her, guess wat, she said she'll inform d rest tml...#%$#%$ if so, den y rush me, y chase aft me, y bug me??? can jus say let her noe by tonight ma... mum said i like high on estasy or so cos i keep shakin my head cos of d buggin... sighed...
well, sch startin, i hope everything will b fine. it's my final few chance to try to pull up my grades & w 1 lesser module than last sem. rmbr tt thr was a sem tt i got 9 modules. tt was crazy... last sem got 8 and yet still cannot make it. hope this sem got 1 more lesser, will b better ba... kipin fingers crossed... & wish me luck & i hope for miracle...
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
bad ending...
today is d last day for fun & to relax before i shall gear on for d next battle next week on but it didn't end off quite s well...
met my 3 uni xiao meis go east coast park. single trip travel alone can b 2 hr or more. i siao right? we went cyclin & had a 2nd try on d roller blade. skatin cannot make it. super windy & they changed d road to a smoother concrete... i give up eventually cos my leg tired le.
we cycle ard & stopped to see ppl wake-boardin thr, we cycle den stopped for water break & i bought tibits share w friends cos i hungry oso. i finished d big glup of 100 plus even b4 my friend finished her smaller cup of drinks s i was too thirsty. they said i'm a camel. i can dun drink water for whole day but when i drink i can drink many... oops...
anw, after our east coast park trip, went to toa payoh take shutter bus to turf city for steamboat cum bbq buffet. ate more than usual. 1 friend took all d diff types of balls, another took diff types of marinated chicken while i took diff types of mushrm to share. in d end, most dun quite like so much mushrm so i had to clear. plus all d chicken & balls, etc, i became too full... ate much more than usual. was too full, too bloat till stomach v uncomfortable even till nw...
a bad move, tt's y i initially tot of jus takin wat we wanna eat but of course tt not s much 'bondin'. thus, we try to take & share everything. bit too much for me... jus took a med. hope it will get better.
2nd bad move to end my day but it wasn't really tt bad. didn't realized d shuttle bus will stop outside whr i got direct bus hm. so in d end, go clementi, den mrt to jurong, den mrt to cck den lrt hm... if i took bus, no need so much transfer. shld b faster oso ba. & can come hm faster & take d med.
3rd bad move which is d worst like d 1st was to call my mum to check the time to wake up tml. b accompanin her to SGH for her blood test etc. cos it's gettin late & they might go sleep anytime, decided to call & check w her. in d end, i duno y i stepped on her tail again. her tone was bad. i noe it's gettin late & i initiate to call & check & inform her i would reach hm in 30 min + wor. sighed... spoilt my mood...
i really dread gg hm then... dread every step i made for each transfer, & even after i reach d lrt stn. i purposely go top-up my ez-link card, & go open letterbox & even walk slowly back. initially i wanted to go back asap. i pretty uncomfortable w my bloated stomach. yet, after my mum's bad tone in her reply. i duno wat will happen when i go back.
in d end, when i go back, she seemed alright or hide d unhappiness behind which she is also capable of ... i duno her lah... it makes me think wat is call 'home'...
it shld b a place whr everyone wanna go back to asap, a place of comfort, a cozy place, a place of warmth, a place whr ones would look forward to, etc. but mine is like a mine field. jus like when i always play minesweeper. i can step on a mine by accident or when unlucky. sighed...
sometimes, i feel like stayin hm & yet sometimes i dread so... but i had no whr else to go esp at this timing. gg out w friends may not help oso... uncertain of when i would step on mine, uncertain of wat i shld do, i really feel like cryin... or shld i say, i'm alrdy cryin in my heart... sighed...
i'll rather dun ve anything. i dun mind sleepin on floor & had nothing else but light & comp for me to do my sch work if i could exchange for d clearin of all d mines in d mine field... i'm really serious. i dun mind even jus plain bread for every meal. i'm jus a simple gal wantin a simple life, a simple hm... wat's so difficult bout tt??? T.T
met my 3 uni xiao meis go east coast park. single trip travel alone can b 2 hr or more. i siao right? we went cyclin & had a 2nd try on d roller blade. skatin cannot make it. super windy & they changed d road to a smoother concrete... i give up eventually cos my leg tired le.
we cycle ard & stopped to see ppl wake-boardin thr, we cycle den stopped for water break & i bought tibits share w friends cos i hungry oso. i finished d big glup of 100 plus even b4 my friend finished her smaller cup of drinks s i was too thirsty. they said i'm a camel. i can dun drink water for whole day but when i drink i can drink many... oops...
anw, after our east coast park trip, went to toa payoh take shutter bus to turf city for steamboat cum bbq buffet. ate more than usual. 1 friend took all d diff types of balls, another took diff types of marinated chicken while i took diff types of mushrm to share. in d end, most dun quite like so much mushrm so i had to clear. plus all d chicken & balls, etc, i became too full... ate much more than usual. was too full, too bloat till stomach v uncomfortable even till nw...
a bad move, tt's y i initially tot of jus takin wat we wanna eat but of course tt not s much 'bondin'. thus, we try to take & share everything. bit too much for me... jus took a med. hope it will get better.
2nd bad move to end my day but it wasn't really tt bad. didn't realized d shuttle bus will stop outside whr i got direct bus hm. so in d end, go clementi, den mrt to jurong, den mrt to cck den lrt hm... if i took bus, no need so much transfer. shld b faster oso ba. & can come hm faster & take d med.
3rd bad move which is d worst like d 1st was to call my mum to check the time to wake up tml. b accompanin her to SGH for her blood test etc. cos it's gettin late & they might go sleep anytime, decided to call & check w her. in d end, i duno y i stepped on her tail again. her tone was bad. i noe it's gettin late & i initiate to call & check & inform her i would reach hm in 30 min + wor. sighed... spoilt my mood...
i really dread gg hm then... dread every step i made for each transfer, & even after i reach d lrt stn. i purposely go top-up my ez-link card, & go open letterbox & even walk slowly back. initially i wanted to go back asap. i pretty uncomfortable w my bloated stomach. yet, after my mum's bad tone in her reply. i duno wat will happen when i go back.
in d end, when i go back, she seemed alright or hide d unhappiness behind which she is also capable of ... i duno her lah... it makes me think wat is call 'home'...
it shld b a place whr everyone wanna go back to asap, a place of comfort, a cozy place, a place of warmth, a place whr ones would look forward to, etc. but mine is like a mine field. jus like when i always play minesweeper. i can step on a mine by accident or when unlucky. sighed...
sometimes, i feel like stayin hm & yet sometimes i dread so... but i had no whr else to go esp at this timing. gg out w friends may not help oso... uncertain of when i would step on mine, uncertain of wat i shld do, i really feel like cryin... or shld i say, i'm alrdy cryin in my heart... sighed...
i'll rather dun ve anything. i dun mind sleepin on floor & had nothing else but light & comp for me to do my sch work if i could exchange for d clearin of all d mines in d mine field... i'm really serious. i dun mind even jus plain bread for every meal. i'm jus a simple gal wantin a simple life, a simple hm... wat's so difficult bout tt??? T.T
graduating yr
since i started gg back to sch, whenever ppl asked me when i would graduate, i would say 2011 or mid of 2011...
ytd, a friend tell me not to say 2011 anymore. it sound so far away. shld say next yr cos it sound nearer. it strike upon me tt i had forgotten tt it's 2010 alrdy. lol...
but it's really true. instead of feelin d dread s 2011 sound far away, i shld make myself happier by sayin, 'yes, i'll be graduatin next yr!' yeah!!!
but it would oso means d chances for me to pull up my grades is gettin lesser & lesser... nvm... at least if w/o any accident, i'll graduate next yr.
no wonder another friend ask me wat i wanna do aft i graduate. well, i duno... dun noe dun wan hardcore research. but i'll apply for watever i can find & do watever i can get ba. cant b picky la esp w my grades.
mayb w more experiences in future, den mayb still alright. so i guess i leave it to fate to decide wat i would do immediately when i graduate. hope it would b alright. keepin fingers crossed for nw...
ytd, a friend tell me not to say 2011 anymore. it sound so far away. shld say next yr cos it sound nearer. it strike upon me tt i had forgotten tt it's 2010 alrdy. lol...
but it's really true. instead of feelin d dread s 2011 sound far away, i shld make myself happier by sayin, 'yes, i'll be graduatin next yr!' yeah!!!
but it would oso means d chances for me to pull up my grades is gettin lesser & lesser... nvm... at least if w/o any accident, i'll graduate next yr.
no wonder another friend ask me wat i wanna do aft i graduate. well, i duno... dun noe dun wan hardcore research. but i'll apply for watever i can find & do watever i can get ba. cant b picky la esp w my grades.
mayb w more experiences in future, den mayb still alright. so i guess i leave it to fate to decide wat i would do immediately when i graduate. hope it would b alright. keepin fingers crossed for nw...
confusion
at work, confused d cleaning aunty. think she knew my face v familiar & guess she finally realized i was fr upstairs. fr d teachin lab. but she had been seein me elsewhr along d corridor etc & nw in d GO. oops...
i didn't mean to confuse so many ppl (d prof, d cleanin aunty, d other staffs, d ppl who re-code my student pass, etc) w my multi-identities. but somehow, only those who knew me will noe who i really am... haha... i used to b a staff... but i'm a full time student nw. jus workin part time nw... but all in same place or sort of lah... lol...
in facebook, cant say so clearly & yet confused a friend & made another friend said my sense of humor increase a level. not on purpose one. in facebook got too many ppl. too many link. cant reveal my other identities. it's not right. super not right...
i didn't mean to confuse so many ppl (d prof, d cleanin aunty, d other staffs, d ppl who re-code my student pass, etc) w my multi-identities. but somehow, only those who knew me will noe who i really am... haha... i used to b a staff... but i'm a full time student nw. jus workin part time nw... but all in same place or sort of lah... lol...
in facebook, cant say so clearly & yet confused a friend & made another friend said my sense of humor increase a level. not on purpose one. in facebook got too many ppl. too many link. cant reveal my other identities. it's not right. super not right...
Sunday, 3 January 2010
mum's interested in HK trip
mum's interested in gg for a trip to HK aft hearin her friend tokin so much & dreamin so much to be shopping in HK aft she got back. her friend did plan to go during school holiday period this year but both of her friend's daughter in laws were pregnant and so they could not go.
last night, mum said that we could decide whr their next holiday destination would be since we will not be following her friend's families but she still suggest HK. she said that dear went b4 and asked him to bring us around.
damn... f & e... dear & i plan again??? i noe i might get in trouble but told her straight tt ltr wat we plan not to their likings again & ltr they not happy again. told her to plan themselves but she nvr paid attention to tt. she pushed to my dad say if he dun wan walk ard, ask him sleep in hotel. she nvr said bout herself. sighed... i cant put my words too directly lah. or sure get in trouble.
told her if they not happy we dunno whr to go, mayb go for guided tour & be like 赶鸭子... but she dun wan. she wan f & e & jus book air tickets & hotel thru agency like her friend. asked us (dear & me) to check whr to go with our friend (son of her friend aka dear's sec sch friend) & wan dear bring us ard...
somemore, if grandma really tag along, tt would mean not jus 2 ppl we gotta accomodate. it's 3 ppl. & hopefully not even my godma oso cos it's not impossible... gg out w all of them super not so easy one... OMG!!! *pull hair*
their idea of gg holidayin is relatively differ ba & wat they wanna shop for oso v differ. for me, since i alrdy pay so much to go all d way thr, i don mind walkin & explorin, etc but like my friends said mayb of their age & stamina. & think mum's only idea is to shop. their idea is to walk min, spend less other than shoppin, etc.
sighed... shall see hw ba. even if go oso not so fast. earliest possible is aft my last paper on 7 may. & latest b4 sem start on 30 aug. so still can slowly plan.
last night, mum said that we could decide whr their next holiday destination would be since we will not be following her friend's families but she still suggest HK. she said that dear went b4 and asked him to bring us around.
damn... f & e... dear & i plan again??? i noe i might get in trouble but told her straight tt ltr wat we plan not to their likings again & ltr they not happy again. told her to plan themselves but she nvr paid attention to tt. she pushed to my dad say if he dun wan walk ard, ask him sleep in hotel. she nvr said bout herself. sighed... i cant put my words too directly lah. or sure get in trouble.
told her if they not happy we dunno whr to go, mayb go for guided tour & be like 赶鸭子... but she dun wan. she wan f & e & jus book air tickets & hotel thru agency like her friend. asked us (dear & me) to check whr to go with our friend (son of her friend aka dear's sec sch friend) & wan dear bring us ard...
somemore, if grandma really tag along, tt would mean not jus 2 ppl we gotta accomodate. it's 3 ppl. & hopefully not even my godma oso cos it's not impossible... gg out w all of them super not so easy one... OMG!!! *pull hair*
their idea of gg holidayin is relatively differ ba & wat they wanna shop for oso v differ. for me, since i alrdy pay so much to go all d way thr, i don mind walkin & explorin, etc but like my friends said mayb of their age & stamina. & think mum's only idea is to shop. their idea is to walk min, spend less other than shoppin, etc.
sighed... shall see hw ba. even if go oso not so fast. earliest possible is aft my last paper on 7 may. & latest b4 sem start on 30 aug. so still can slowly plan.
Friday, 1 January 2010
A brand new year...
it's a brand new year... HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!
2009 had been relatively ok but... it didn't ended off quite as well... due to my results... sighed...
however, heard gd news fr friends. well, it's gd news for them so i'm v happy for them s well. an old friend is pregnant & her EDD in Jul 10. 2 other friends' wives r pregnant s well & their EDD is Jul 10 & Sep 10.
w d gd news, 2009 didn't end off tt bad actually...
but... start of 2010, didn't sleep well... had dreams... dreamt i late for sun trg... dreamt i keep forgettin this & tt... etc etc...
initially tot of gg run but give up... cos went to bed v late aft chattin & crappin w a sec friend. plus all d dreams so no energy to run... anw, nvm lah. sun will run ma. haha... sun b a siong trg. got trg & run. sure b flat aft tt...
hope no muscle ache cos mon gotta work. i still no idea my work next wk hw... sighed...
2009 had been relatively ok but... it didn't ended off quite as well... due to my results... sighed...
however, heard gd news fr friends. well, it's gd news for them so i'm v happy for them s well. an old friend is pregnant & her EDD in Jul 10. 2 other friends' wives r pregnant s well & their EDD is Jul 10 & Sep 10.
w d gd news, 2009 didn't end off tt bad actually...
but... start of 2010, didn't sleep well... had dreams... dreamt i late for sun trg... dreamt i keep forgettin this & tt... etc etc...
initially tot of gg run but give up... cos went to bed v late aft chattin & crappin w a sec friend. plus all d dreams so no energy to run... anw, nvm lah. sun will run ma. haha... sun b a siong trg. got trg & run. sure b flat aft tt...
hope no muscle ache cos mon gotta work. i still no idea my work next wk hw... sighed...
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