It's d 1st day of the Chinese New Year! But does it feel really like so? Just yesterday, I forgot that it was Sunday. But in my sub-consicous mind, I guessed I remember that today is Monday.
I opened my eyes a couple of times (suddenly woke up)in the middle of the night but the last time that happened, I actually sat up thinking that I got to wake up soon anyway when it was still dark and the time was about 5.45am. The time that I usually got to wake up on Monday as I had morning lecture at 8.30am. This is just the 4th week since term starts and I'm already so tense up when everybody is in the CNY mood. Sighed... Guessed my previous 2 semester one grades did cause an alarm to ring in my mind sub-consciously.
Monday, 26 January 2009
Sunday, 11 January 2009
inconsiderate relatives
yesterday was my cousin's wedding. woke up very early as my aunt & uncle asked us to reach before 8am. the sabotaging part took almost an hour and was stopped because my aunt passed the key to them through the window as the sisters still aren't satisfied.
reached the hotel at around 5.30pm for the solemonization ceremony. it already started late and i felt that it was very draggy. can't be help since they going though the christian or catholic ceremony. and by the time it ended, it was near 8pm.
back to the ballroom where the banquet was held, because of the delay, we went at around 8.30pm. while everybody was going in, my parents & I was at the other side with the piano. i played a while on the piano since nobody was around.
my parents & i were supposed to sit with my mum's eldest sister and youngest brother and their family. yet my eldest aunt came with 5 adults including herself and 2 kids (1 who is around 2 years plus). All took up a seat each when my aunt promised a total attendance of 4. so my parents & i got no place to sit. my mum's youngest sister in-law even volunteer to give up her youngest son's seat but my eldest aunt & her family just kept quiet. they also never say anything when my mum & i got comment that we have got no place to sit and we didn't said it together. we comment that at 2 different time and we aren't together.
in the end, we were separated. i sit with my mum and my dad alone. he sat with a table with 1 guy whom he sort of know but that table spoke in cantonese but my dad had difficulties with that language. my mum & i sat with a clinic assistant whom we know and 2 aunties whom my mum sort of know and my distant ex-colleague who is my cousin's neighbour.
what angered me most is that my eldest aunt and her family didn't stayed throughout the dinner and they left without telling anyone. in the end, my mum's youngest brother had to ask the waiter to packed up their 7 set of rice and bring home to eat today. i felt that they are so inconsiderate. my parents and i could have sit together with the rest of our family members if not because of them and they still have the cheek to leave early.
jus now, i heard from my cousin (bride's youngest sister), that 7 of them (5 adults and 2 kids) came with only a red packet of $200 when the banquet is held in a hotel ballroom with a cost price of more than $1000 per table and the dishes served got dishes like sharkfins, abalone, ostrich meat, etc etc. my aunt (bride's mum) was very mad about it and even 'quarrel' with my uncle when they got home but my uncle never argue back since it was his eldest sister.
reached the hotel at around 5.30pm for the solemonization ceremony. it already started late and i felt that it was very draggy. can't be help since they going though the christian or catholic ceremony. and by the time it ended, it was near 8pm.
back to the ballroom where the banquet was held, because of the delay, we went at around 8.30pm. while everybody was going in, my parents & I was at the other side with the piano. i played a while on the piano since nobody was around.
my parents & i were supposed to sit with my mum's eldest sister and youngest brother and their family. yet my eldest aunt came with 5 adults including herself and 2 kids (1 who is around 2 years plus). All took up a seat each when my aunt promised a total attendance of 4. so my parents & i got no place to sit. my mum's youngest sister in-law even volunteer to give up her youngest son's seat but my eldest aunt & her family just kept quiet. they also never say anything when my mum & i got comment that we have got no place to sit and we didn't said it together. we comment that at 2 different time and we aren't together.
in the end, we were separated. i sit with my mum and my dad alone. he sat with a table with 1 guy whom he sort of know but that table spoke in cantonese but my dad had difficulties with that language. my mum & i sat with a clinic assistant whom we know and 2 aunties whom my mum sort of know and my distant ex-colleague who is my cousin's neighbour.
what angered me most is that my eldest aunt and her family didn't stayed throughout the dinner and they left without telling anyone. in the end, my mum's youngest brother had to ask the waiter to packed up their 7 set of rice and bring home to eat today. i felt that they are so inconsiderate. my parents and i could have sit together with the rest of our family members if not because of them and they still have the cheek to leave early.
jus now, i heard from my cousin (bride's youngest sister), that 7 of them (5 adults and 2 kids) came with only a red packet of $200 when the banquet is held in a hotel ballroom with a cost price of more than $1000 per table and the dishes served got dishes like sharkfins, abalone, ostrich meat, etc etc. my aunt (bride's mum) was very mad about it and even 'quarrel' with my uncle when they got home but my uncle never argue back since it was his eldest sister.
Friday, 9 January 2009
a week past but ended w heavy head & feeling low batt
a week is over just like that. it's so fast... but for the past few days, i had always came home with a heavy head.
today, practical started earlier & after i got home & packed up, took a nap & i just could not wake up. i felt that i have no energy to pull myself out. guess i'm over tired again... my mum asked if i'm ok cause she said i felt feverish when she accidently touch me. hope i don't fall sick... this is just the 1st week of school term.
today, practical started earlier & after i got home & packed up, took a nap & i just could not wake up. i felt that i have no energy to pull myself out. guess i'm over tired again... my mum asked if i'm ok cause she said i felt feverish when she accidently touch me. hope i don't fall sick... this is just the 1st week of school term.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
inconsiderate coursemate
past few days, didn't really get to rest & enjoyed cos my parents can suddenly become grumpy. sighed... anyway, 开学了.
1st day at sch, had 4 lectures of 7 hours with an hour break. did lose concentration for a short while but managed to pull through. d most sianz was during the final lecture of the day. sitting behind my friends & i was a group of girls. the girl sitting right behind me keep talking (not whispering) non-stop... k lah. got stop for a short while then continue again. it's so distracting. not discussing about lecture but talking nonsenses. she was talking so loud that i am hearing lecturer and her at the same time & so i sometimes heard what she said instead.
she can say she all along can't concentrate in class, in lectures, then talk about netball and basketball (what exactly I'm not sure), even count numbers (think fr 1 to 10+), oso sang rainie yang's new song, then ask friend wat tv programme they watch, & oso comment tt having 7 hours lecture is a torture, etc etc... i really feel like turning back to say shut up, or even asked her to leave since she find it a torture to stay so tt she wont distract others. i oso feel like moving forward but i 忍. so inconsiderate....
1st day at sch, had 4 lectures of 7 hours with an hour break. did lose concentration for a short while but managed to pull through. d most sianz was during the final lecture of the day. sitting behind my friends & i was a group of girls. the girl sitting right behind me keep talking (not whispering) non-stop... k lah. got stop for a short while then continue again. it's so distracting. not discussing about lecture but talking nonsenses. she was talking so loud that i am hearing lecturer and her at the same time & so i sometimes heard what she said instead.
she can say she all along can't concentrate in class, in lectures, then talk about netball and basketball (what exactly I'm not sure), even count numbers (think fr 1 to 10+), oso sang rainie yang's new song, then ask friend wat tv programme they watch, & oso comment tt having 7 hours lecture is a torture, etc etc... i really feel like turning back to say shut up, or even asked her to leave since she find it a torture to stay so tt she wont distract others. i oso feel like moving forward but i 忍. so inconsiderate....
Friday, 2 January 2009
2 more days to year 2 semester 2
i guess this is the 1st time ever that I dread the end of holiday and the start of a new term... but i know no matter what happen, i had to face the fact, the reality that holiday is over very soon. the thing to look forward to is to meet up with my friends...
Monday, 29 December 2008
had to re-consider my current mission
been a busy holiday during this one month break. wish for longer break but too bad... it's ending soon. sighed.
start of this holiday, busy packing my rooms. dumping many things out to make space for the people who came to fix the new air-con a week after my exam. then repainting the ceilings and the walls of the 3 bedrooms. didn't had the whole day most of the time so only paint bit by bit.
then the holiday season, was asked to make agar-agar and fried bee hoon for the x'mas eve gathering. & just within 4 days, made like almost 20 litres of agar. just on saturday alone, made 4 agar-agar of 13 litres. crazy right? cos saturday, got a friend inviting us over for his house-warming. then on sunday morning, dance training was a celebration, then afternoon got a meeting.
been so busy this holiday that I kept losing track of the date. before I know it, it was the day of results release today. had a long day yesterday till I really forget till my friend sms me. but after I looked at it, I was extremely disappointed. the only 'an wei' is that I managed to clear all modules. but I did more badly than my 2nd semester. was hoping to pull up my GPA but in the end, it was pulled down. anyway, I guessed I can't blame anyone. without time to do tutorial and revised, how to do well? sighed...
ytd, at 1st feel so gd. though tired but havin fun at d morning celebration & met my sec friends, but d moment when gotten the results was like dropped into a deep and steep valley. sighed...
anyway, I am glad I met good friends. friends who encouraged me. last night after coming back from a long awaited gathering with a few of my sec sch friends, I was chatting with 2 of them though 1 left before i got my results, she did calm me and ask me not to worry. the other, even told me to jiayou 3 times more for the coming semester. even my uni friend who is online oso encourage me. even said she'll made me study & tt we could study together. I'm really glad I found such good friends esp my uni friends as they were so much younger than me. yet they never seemed to treat me differently so I didn't have the left out feeling.
but being away fr sch, lessons, books, etc for 4 years is not a good idea. i really find it very tough. i do feel really drained most of the times. I do not have the impression of such feeling when I was in poly.
i dunno if this explanation is acceptable but that is how i assured myself. yr 1 1st semester, did badly - cos i forget everything and lost touch with sch life and had to re-adapt & revise & study. 2nd sem did better cos i slowly get back in track?, 3rd sem, did worst than 2nd sem, mayb even worst than 1st sem - cos of sudden increase of 3 modules, & somemore, assignment & work took up most of those time that I did not have lesson that i do not have time for tutorial & revision.
though I could always find reasons, I do not think that is ok... I can't let myself go on like that. i must really reconsider my current mission... i am a student. though worried bout finance issue, but i think i cant let it affect me. oso do i really took up too many roles? i alrdy gives up my piano. will it get better or do i still have to sacrifice more?
i rmbr when i was young, whenever i got ext tuition, my results be worst cos I can't cope. i oso rmbr my results dropped greatly when i got so much to do for my cca in sec 4. when i didn't had other activity when i am in poly, i did better again. but when there is problem at hm, i did poorly for that sem. guess tt is y i am so burnt out when i started gg back to sch...
I once saw on a Soka magazine fr Japan which got an encouragement fr my mentor for students. it quote, 'Soka students, Devote yourselves to study whether in Japan or in United States, I hope Soka students will study as hard as possible. This is because each one of you has a precious mission to build world peace. No matter what profession you choose in future, I want all of you to become persons who will never forget their debts of gratitude to their parents.'
seeing the sentence, '... I hope Soka students will study as hard as possible...' and remembering a senior who once said that the main focus of students is to study hard. so must i drop dance also? it is from that where I learn to be more confident, it is also a place where I enjoyed myself or is that a past? my hip injury had held me back... is there other issue? did my hip problem & low energy, & studies burnt off the passion like my piano? i'm actually pretty lost... i do not know what is the best option now... sighed...
start of this holiday, busy packing my rooms. dumping many things out to make space for the people who came to fix the new air-con a week after my exam. then repainting the ceilings and the walls of the 3 bedrooms. didn't had the whole day most of the time so only paint bit by bit.
then the holiday season, was asked to make agar-agar and fried bee hoon for the x'mas eve gathering. & just within 4 days, made like almost 20 litres of agar. just on saturday alone, made 4 agar-agar of 13 litres. crazy right? cos saturday, got a friend inviting us over for his house-warming. then on sunday morning, dance training was a celebration, then afternoon got a meeting.
been so busy this holiday that I kept losing track of the date. before I know it, it was the day of results release today. had a long day yesterday till I really forget till my friend sms me. but after I looked at it, I was extremely disappointed. the only 'an wei' is that I managed to clear all modules. but I did more badly than my 2nd semester. was hoping to pull up my GPA but in the end, it was pulled down. anyway, I guessed I can't blame anyone. without time to do tutorial and revised, how to do well? sighed...
ytd, at 1st feel so gd. though tired but havin fun at d morning celebration & met my sec friends, but d moment when gotten the results was like dropped into a deep and steep valley. sighed...
anyway, I am glad I met good friends. friends who encouraged me. last night after coming back from a long awaited gathering with a few of my sec sch friends, I was chatting with 2 of them though 1 left before i got my results, she did calm me and ask me not to worry. the other, even told me to jiayou 3 times more for the coming semester. even my uni friend who is online oso encourage me. even said she'll made me study & tt we could study together. I'm really glad I found such good friends esp my uni friends as they were so much younger than me. yet they never seemed to treat me differently so I didn't have the left out feeling.
but being away fr sch, lessons, books, etc for 4 years is not a good idea. i really find it very tough. i do feel really drained most of the times. I do not have the impression of such feeling when I was in poly.
i dunno if this explanation is acceptable but that is how i assured myself. yr 1 1st semester, did badly - cos i forget everything and lost touch with sch life and had to re-adapt & revise & study. 2nd sem did better cos i slowly get back in track?, 3rd sem, did worst than 2nd sem, mayb even worst than 1st sem - cos of sudden increase of 3 modules, & somemore, assignment & work took up most of those time that I did not have lesson that i do not have time for tutorial & revision.
though I could always find reasons, I do not think that is ok... I can't let myself go on like that. i must really reconsider my current mission... i am a student. though worried bout finance issue, but i think i cant let it affect me. oso do i really took up too many roles? i alrdy gives up my piano. will it get better or do i still have to sacrifice more?
i rmbr when i was young, whenever i got ext tuition, my results be worst cos I can't cope. i oso rmbr my results dropped greatly when i got so much to do for my cca in sec 4. when i didn't had other activity when i am in poly, i did better again. but when there is problem at hm, i did poorly for that sem. guess tt is y i am so burnt out when i started gg back to sch...
I once saw on a Soka magazine fr Japan which got an encouragement fr my mentor for students. it quote, 'Soka students, Devote yourselves to study whether in Japan or in United States, I hope Soka students will study as hard as possible. This is because each one of you has a precious mission to build world peace. No matter what profession you choose in future, I want all of you to become persons who will never forget their debts of gratitude to their parents.'
seeing the sentence, '... I hope Soka students will study as hard as possible...' and remembering a senior who once said that the main focus of students is to study hard. so must i drop dance also? it is from that where I learn to be more confident, it is also a place where I enjoyed myself or is that a past? my hip injury had held me back... is there other issue? did my hip problem & low energy, & studies burnt off the passion like my piano? i'm actually pretty lost... i do not know what is the best option now... sighed...
Saturday, 13 December 2008
A long lost friend
Saw an old lost friend yesterday on the journey to grandma's house for dinner. It'd been years since I last saw her. She was already married. Actually I heard news that she got married before but since it's a news, I usually don't care about it after I heard about it.
She even got a 2 year old daughter named, Emily, and her mother-in-law is staying with them. According to her, she is happily married and her mother-in-law is also very helpful. I'm really happy for her.
She had chose to go MIA but I am amazed that she still remember even my mum and called out to her. Otherwise, I might have missed her yesterday. Had given her mobile number but she never call or drop a sms since. Maybe shall drop her a mail to her mum's place since her mum's still staying at the same place.
She even got a 2 year old daughter named, Emily, and her mother-in-law is staying with them. According to her, she is happily married and her mother-in-law is also very helpful. I'm really happy for her.
She had chose to go MIA but I am amazed that she still remember even my mum and called out to her. Otherwise, I might have missed her yesterday. Had given her mobile number but she never call or drop a sms since. Maybe shall drop her a mail to her mum's place since her mum's still staying at the same place.
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