Sunday, 13 January 2008

Mum's mad

Mum's mad!

My aunt now do not have a maid. And my cousin's swimming lesson was changed to Sunday by her instructor. So my mum is worried that my aunt is unable to bring and look after her 3 kids. Therefore, my dad kind of had no choice but to volunteer to help drive them to the pool and back.

Yesterday and the day before, my aunt was on leave. On Friday as my mum wanted me to go to see the doctor at Holland Road, my mum did not looked after the 3 kids. When we were on our way home, she was still worried about the 3 kids and called my aunt to remind her of the time that their school bus come. Well, that was because on Thursday, my aunt was on half day leave and my mum asked her to fetch the 2 elder kids from their school bus after their lesson yet she only came after the kids had already alighted from the bus. Thus, my mum was so worried. Well, on our way home from Holland, our bus will pass by my cousins' bus pick-up point and she still told my grandma and I that we could see them. I was telling my mum that my aunt can manage.

Late afternoon of Friday, my mum got bored due to the sudden quietness and yesterday too. Guess she told my dad too. Thus, my dad just now went to fetch them to my house after their Phonics lesson. When my dad went to drive me home from my dance training, my mum wasn't there and when I saw their bag with their swimming stuff at the back seat, I could guess it. They are at my house cause today is the 1st Sunday swimming lesson. I almost fainted at the thought of it. My mum got to take care of them 7 days a week? My mum even got to cook on Sunday? My mum and dad could not get a rest even on a Sunday? Must I be seeing them everyday?

Just now when I got back, the youngest haven't take his nap. My aunt was ignoring him. She was sitting with the 2 eldest overlooking them as they do their homework. My mum was behing preparing for dinner. While taking my shower, I heard my mum outside talking to the youngest that after I shower, then he will shower and take his nap. My mum even had to shower him before he take his nap. Why can't my aunt do that?

My aunt was saying that time that she will try out without a maid. If she can't cope then she will hire another. Yet, did she even get to try out? My mum keep worrying for her and bring the kids with us.

And do you know something. Every weekend, I will had my dinner at 5pm as I had to work at 6pm. From now, I guess every Sunday, I would have my lunch at around 2pm and dinner at around 4.30pm. Can you believe that? All because my dad had to drive them for their swimming lesson then drive me to work. How I wish to say I want to go myself but that would put my dad in difficult position. Argh!

What if we had meeting from 2 to 4pm? After the meeting I can't go immediately as I would have to stay for the review with the other leaders. How am I going to shower, rest and eat before going to work. I am having such a packed weekends with any break in between and even had to rush here and there. Do I even had to rush over the meals too?

No wonder I had been so tired. Everybody who sees me comment that I looked tired since last year. Since the start of my 1st semester. I guess I would be even more tired in future! I really don't like this tired feeling. Everything I wanted to do or loved to do had become a chore to me. I had lost all interest in everything now be it piano, etc. I can't even study well. I can't even remember what I am being taught. My 1st semester had done super badly. What am I going to do now. Nowadays when people asked me if I am ok, and why I look so tired, I can't even answer immediately that I am fine. Even when I said I am fine, I am not so sure anymore. I can't do everything as I wish. I guess I am too tired. Too many to worry about. Too many things to do and focus on.

Even my dad also can't stand it. The way my mum worry about the kid and will throw her temper if things don't go well, my dad said that he is very tired. Who won't be. He goes out to work before the sun rises and came home at about 10pm daily on weekdays and on saturday, he came home at around 7+pm. He hope to rest on Sunday too but could he?
I had thought of quitting the dance training. Yet on 2nd thought, I might not. I do not want to stay home and look after kids. I need quality time to study and to do things I like and had to do and to rest! At the rate I am going, I don't think I can survive well in my studies. I am as well quit! AARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

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