What kind of person am I?

Recently, my characters had been a topic for my parents especially my mum. This happened since the last time I went out with that friend, his wife and colleague. As our mums are very close friends who always chat over the phones, that friend told his mum that I am very quiet and I don't look like so... Thus, when my mum heard, she kept commenting and talking about it.

She said I am cheeky and mischievous as I would do mischievous act like teasing my grandma with candles that could re-lit by itself, etc. Furthermore, she also saw that when I was with my close friend from secondary school, I could chat with her almost from 1 end of the bus journey to the other end. So I do not seemed to be the quiet type. Also, in a way, I am in a dance group so how quiet can I be?

But the problem is that when I am with friends, I might not be the one who talks. Maybe those very closed friends or when I really have something to say then I opened my mouth. So what kind of person am I?

I guess the problem lies in the fact that I am the only child. Since young, I had not being really exposed to interact with people. I always had thoughts that I would act certain ways but I never put them in act. When I am with certain relatives, I would be able to act maybe the true me yet still with restrictions which I guess are caused by expectations. Thus, I am also confused myself and thus been searching for myself for a few years.

Being only child means only focus in the family. Being a female worsen the case. With over-protective parents, and unable to interact with people, I seemed to always put up a zone of invisible protective layer around myself. I had tried to walk out but I still could not venture further. Why I say I am unable to interact with people? Topics that seemed so common, I also would not be able to start. Like people would find it easy to ask other about their lives, work, etc... But, when it comes to my turn, I find it awkward to ask. I felt I am probing into their lives and that if they want, they would tell without you asking but I don't feel so when people asked me. I do not know what I could say or ask so I just kept quiet.

With parents that worries, it also added stress on me. Together with that and the amount of time for studies and work, I had been 'stuck' at home most of the time. Thus, I also do not know what to say or comment when others talk about shopping trips, etc. My topic of conversations are very limited so I guess that re-inforce that fact that I am quiet most of the time.

Therefore, it's not easy for me to open up my mouth and since primary 5, there had always been comments that I am quiet but my parents do not believed.

So what am I? I just know most of the time, I think and worry too much. I'll try to give my best shot wherever I am. I am also quite a perfectionist who also tends to worry how people will judge me. Other than these, how much do I know myself? Is there any chances that I am who I should be? I am really not sure...