plans for next week

today, completed consolidatin & updatin d softcopy of d FY2008 excel file. finally. many missin info left by previous staff...

anw, tml wont b gg in cos last time my manager said in her email to eliminate d half days... & next wk, though sch haven starts, think i will work only at most 10 hrs a wk ba... cos they wanna raise budget for my salary & once sch start, i can only work max 10 hr a wk. they jus put in general in d mth of jan, feb & mar & raise budget for max 10 hr a wk for me.

if i work extra, i wont get paid... so i guess i would work max 10 hr next week. i might just go for a full day meaning 8 hours only and that's it. or maybe I would work a full day plus 2 more hours or maybe 3-4 hours to cover back the long lunch i had been takin these few days?

shall see hw next week. cos oso dunno if they will change if they realized sch haven start... if no change will accompany mum go sgh for her blood test & urine test. & most likely b meetin an 'old' friend for lunch at her workplace. heard a gd news fr her. she was pregnant w her 2nd child. her 1st gal is startin sch next wk le. happy for her. & oso try to meet uni friends for cyclin or at least a meal ba.

but i cant cfm anythin nw cos i dunno if they will change my work hour next week. esp when i'm jus done w 2008 excel file. still got 2009 & apparently i think they want me do other things oso... if limited to max 10 hrs a wk b v hard to complete... esp when sch start & ea day not tt long hr... these few days manager aka my boss not ard... so cant check & cfm... sighed...

i actually wish i no need go back sch... i wish i jus work. cont'd wat i do nw oso nvm... cos lunch means lunch, finish work means finish work. no need think bout work. no need think bout study when leave d place. but this will jus b a thots onli...

anw, if weather ok, might go for a run tml mornin... though i noe for sunday training will oso run. & till nw, i still not hungry though i ate a pc of waffle... well, not empty & yet not full. hee... shall see hw ltr. if hungry, den find things to eat ba...

waffle s dinner

though i ate proper lunch these few days, i'm still back to square one. had waffle for dinner jus nw... oops... i noe many ppl will say me but hear me out...

went to jp aft work. reach aft 6. go develop photo. went popular get double sided tape. super long queue. guess cos last 2 days of 20% discount for members with the coupon fr d bk. spent like an hr in jp. at 1st planna order cake thr but den on 2nd tots, decided not to.

sat my dad's bday & i dunno wat to get for him so decided to get him a cake since mum said 'celebrate' dis sat though his lunar bday was jus few days ago. y sat & not few days ago? cos dad comin hm earlier on sat than on weekdays & cousins b ard.

thus, decided to go lot one to order d cake in case they need at least 3 days in advance. so cant go tml. if i order at jp, den b more troublesome to go collect on sat unless i jus happen to go thr. so in d end make a trip to lot one loh even though late le.

since d cake shop got sell waffle, may s well jus get & eat thr while choosin d cake. was alrdy late. was alrdy hungry. & if i go elsewhr tabao go hm eat, b even later. & mum sure unhappy cos i eat so late. thus, to save d trouble of gg ard spendin more time outside, & to avoid my ears fr d naggin & to avoid seein black face, eatin waffle then was d best choice le.

d main issue nw is at least i ate. at least i nvr skip meal. so dun 'nag' at me. i dunno hw long a pc of waffle can last. if can, gd. if cant, mayb wait parents go to bed den go find biscuit to eat so they dun find out.

gotten results...

gotten my results... sighed... forever cannot make it...

why??? i jus dun get it. i find dis yr paper more do-able. managed to ans... managed to write... yet generally, did worst than past few sem when i got papers which i left many many blanks... those papers i really scare i cant get through but i did.

might b d bell-shaped gradin sys ba... guess to many ppl feel d same or did much better than me... sighed... it's pretty unfair... but cant do anything bout it. can only tell myself... work even harder next 2 sem... at least i clear d elective. nw left a biz elective to clear.

tokin bout elective, i actually more scare of elective than my core but it's apparently better than my core. actually, all my electives r better than my core in general. hw come? choose wrong core?

told my friend tt my grades seemed to b opp of my poly grades. pretty much opposite. my best in poly aren't my best. actually can become my worst. poly mainly 'B's & some 'A's & only few 'C's & 'D'. 'C's r mainly english based modules. nw my results mainly 'C's & 'D's & d most surprisin is my english based modules become 1 of my best grades...

y, dun ve to bother bout me. i may grumble over my grades, i ve d never give up spirit which my friend said she v 'pei fu' about. & i arent someone to trifle with. lol... nvm... like wat she said... next time can tell employer durin interview tt at least i tried to upgrade myself & at least i never even give up and strive till d end...

post x'mas task

x'mas eve watch movie till jus b4 clock strike 12 midnight & x'mas watch movie at 11.50pm... guess wat... aft all d enjoyment... was given a post x'mas task... had to battle w a cockroach... i had a lethal weapon which it cant escape & nvr escape when it had d chance to... but it's still disgustin... give me d creep... *EEEKKK*

it's dead but too creepy for me to pick & throw. so i had to share d nite in a rm w it's corpse... can i dun sleep... mum sleepin... cant help me clear... :(

hw i wish i could dun come hm but not possible... cos like tt den wont see it... but... it might 开支散叶 wor... sighed...

anw, glad i came back in time to see it & fought a battle w it. at least i'm awake. at least i can think & noe it's late & noe i shld not scream. jus imagine if i'm sleepin when it got in... if i see it den, i think i would scream le loh... cos cant think right then le ma...

thus, i can only fight it but not clear it... i hate creepy crawlers... creepy crawlers r my enemies... they r my 死穴... hw to overcome dis phobia???

different x'mas eve but more enjoyable...

i felt like i'm in wonderland for d past few days & i wished i need not go back to reality... however, reality will always strike me hard in d face... it will come no matter wat. memories of malacca is gettin further & further away & soon dec will come to an end... & another 'hell' will begin... sighed... hw i wish i can freeze d time or to forward to whenever i want...

anw, usually x'mas eve was spent w my relatives, my dad's siblings & their families. it was jus a gatherin but most or all of them b at d mahjong table or playin poker... fr young, mum refused to let me touch those. so i'd learnt to sit there & do nothing... v bored...

used to become part-time nanny for my cousins while my aunts & uncles 'played' but d kids had grown up oso & could self-entertained w their PSP, etc etc. they more tech-savy than me... so i can only say tt it's bored thr.

this yr, prob due to d 'long' weekend, they pushed d gathering back a day to x'mas day itself. thus, i had my eve free.. had dinner w grandma den went for movie w dear which ended at 2359 hr. so when d clock strike midnite, wished dear 'merry x'mas'.

s he was slightly hungry, went ard searchin for place w light supper but ended up at d coffee-shop near my place. a 24 hr coffee shop but only left d coffee stall open eventually so he had breakfast-like supper before sendin me back.

though didn't do much, it'd been a more enjoyable x'mas eve than d past but it would still come tml... will sit thr & stone s nothin to do... sianz... if i dun go, dad sure angry... if go, gotta wait for dad to decide to go den can go back cos i cant go back myself... :(

wat a wet x'mas eve mornin... gd day to sleep in but not gd for my initial plan. sighed... planna go run in mornin but it rain... guess it's tellin me i shldn't push myself to hard... cos my hip not quite in prime condition. not to d extend tt it'll hurt or so. jus noe it's not quite tt right since d trip... anw, went to bed pretty late ytd...

well, though nvr get to run, i went to trim my hair. got bit of split end since 1 or 2 mths ago but i refused to go cut cos i dun wan it to get too short. however, last nite, made up d decision to trim it since i oso need to cut my fringe. in d end, trim become cut bout 2 inches... at least didn't look tt dry than b4. but it's much shorter than wat i hope for. nvm hair will grow one. if healthy hair, will grow fast one. jus ve to be patience...

i'd learnt to try out on my hair esp my fringe... cos i know that no matter what, hair will grow. dun like it, jus let it grow & dun cut tt way again loh... lol... became more 'adventurous' but not to d extent of cutting my hair short lah... i prefer to ve long hair or my face will look v big...

anw, x'mas is comin. so i hereby wish everybody a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

got a god-daughter

last nite, received a sms fr philippines fr my cousins' 3rd maid whom we known each other as sis. she left us in 2007 s her hubby kept askin her to go back. though she left us for at least 2 yrs, she nvr forget us at all & would send sms greetings to me or to ask me to pass to my parents, cousins, etc durin our bdays, seasonal holi, mother's day, etc.

she had given birth to a 2nd daughter recently in oct & last nite she asked if i could be her daughter's godma & said tt her color & eyes r like me. i agreed though i could not do anything or wat to help them. anw, sis nvr ask me to do anything.

mayb in future, mayb aft i really started workin, i could get her add & paid her & her family a visit. saw her older daughter's photo b4 when she worked for my aunt but nvr see my god-daughter's pic b4.

her youngest daughter due date was supposed to b d same s her sis but in d end was brought forward. d older daughter was 8 this yr and was born on 18 oct. her youngest daughter was born on 14 oct this yr so she was jus 2 mth old. anw, her youngest daughter aka my god-daughter's name is Jhenica Mae.

jus nw, read news tt thr will b volcano eruption in philippines. hope it wont affect them at all. b4 sis gave birth, they alrdy suffered knee-deep flood. recently oso got tt killing thr & nw d volcano. can only send prayers to them to protect them fr all these harms... & i do miss my sis... we were v close when she was w us.

malacca trip

back fr Malacca, i missed d trip till i dreamt i was still thr...

1st day thr, w/o a decent detailed map was blur blur... but aft tt, it was ok. hotel location v gd... right in front was a megamall. nearby oso got historial & architechual site to see see look look & take pic. can walk to & reach d chinatown aka Jonker street in at most 20 mins. oso got night market at Jonker's street thr on fri to sun till 11pm. nearby oso got a few recommended gd food ard.

recommended food like satay w pineapple in satay sauce (near maritime museum), satay celup (somewhere behind d hotel which nvr get to try), teochew bak kut teh (3 streets in front of d hotel which oso nvr get to try), Nyonya chendol (d one at Formasa Chicken rice shop is nice), Nyonya Asam Laksa ('88' shop at Jonker street), Chicken rice ball (but tried the wrong shop which weren't nice, if u want, shld try d one at entrance of Jonker Street or a little further in, dont try d Fomasa Chicken rice shop one). oops... when had i become a 'mei shi zhuan jia'...

anw, i registered for my followin sem modules at d hotel. had to pay for internet access but no choice cos scare like last time, my friends cant log in. so brought laptop over. heavy sia... but i go & came back w like w/o additional stuffs & spent less than SGD 100. ok lah. cos food & transport being paid for mainly by dad.

d whole trip was ok except sometimes, either my dad or my mum become grumpy lo. & it rained when my friend said d weather was v hot & she returned a day b4 i go wor... sighed... luckily 1st day only drizzle. 2nd day only rained in late afternoon but i still went to d night market w/o my parents (not on purpose but cos dad nvr see my sms)

well, i shall try to rmbr not to try to plan for trip w parents again... esp w/o much info & detailed map... hard to explore & they not happy w this or tt. even for a RM10 river cruise per pax for 45 min oso grumble bout d price. but 1st day blur blur, dunno hw walk wor & drizzlin & they unhappy explorin by foot ma. b4 go thr, say up to me. anything oso up to me. follow me. next time, shall ask them plan themselve. research themselves. see if it's v d easy. den i shall follow them. lol...

d main thing is, overall, can b more fun for d trip but it's ok. ^.^ lookin forward for more trip to get away fr study, etc... cant wait for next exam to end on 7 may 2010 cos it would b a long holiday till 30 aug 2010. if got $$, i dun mind MIA for long... but tt's impossible... though i'm a quater pernankan, i dun ve much $$ to spend like those pernankan in Malacca where they can spent lots of $$ on hm reno, clothes, utensils, etc... they could spend yrs on hse reno lo... but i must admit d culture is v rich... too bad... no one to ask alrdy. grandpa left when dad & his siblings still v young...

survived 1.7km of run

earlier this mornin 吓到 mum cos she was engross at d kitchen basin when i walked thr to d bathrm to wash up. well, tt cos she nvr expect me to wake up mins aft she left my rm ba. oops...

anw, woke up early for a run. long long time nvr run. cos i can only run in bright daylight s parents will worry... thus, can only choose mornin or early evenin, unless someone accompany me run at night.

last time i ran in mornin cos evenin aft work, hungry alrdy so whr got energy to run. & tt meant wakin up early 7 days a wk... furthermore, d last time i ran, bump into weird muslim guy who pestered me. so to avoid him, i stopped running.

when heard my friend did go for run aft work, asked her jio me mths ago but think she was too busy and tired to go oso. so, decided to start myself. choose mornin again cos nw not everyday work. so still can run in mornin. d only pro was my runnin shoes spoilt less than a mth ago. too long nvr wear yet spoilt aft wearin.

well, d pro was solved ytd aft i bought a new pair of ELLE Active running shoes at less than $40. i dun go for higher end one lah. can wear, can run, can le. even tot of wearin d slip-on sch shoes (d type which pri sch & some sec sch gals like to wear). i noe i shld not wear tt but i survived pri & sec sch so i dun see why i cant wear tt. at initial plan was to draw & create a one-of a kind shoes to wear but i simply cant come out w any design. since i not wearin tt to run, shall cont'd to think of design for tt shoes.

enuff of crap... this mornin, aft wash-up & changed, did bit of warm-up before runnin. started fr d void deck of my blk. i knew i dun ve stamina like ages ago. so decided to start shorter distance. anw, i will change course s time goes (of course increasin distance s well). oso to avoid bumpin into same person all d time. dun wanna meet weird ppl again.

i deviate fr my initial plan of a rough measure of bout 1.2km. d last time i believed i ran oso ard 1.2km. i assume tt d other path i started off will allow me to run bit more than 1.2km but aft did a rough measurement on d map, it was bout 1.7km. i didn't noe tt path i took allow me to ran extra 400m.

k lah. at least manage to survive thru. did stop a while to transfer $ to d account i use usually to sort of prep for d next sem... if i dun transfer when i rmbr, will forget soon. esp w all d holidays.

for a total of bout 1.7km plus gg to d atm, i managed to get back hm in less than 20 mins. i noe thr will b many others who could do much better but i'm satisfied cos other than tt stop at atm, i managed to pull myself throughout d whole journey which i didn't managed to last time. but i wont push myself too hard in case i injured my hip again. i got phobia tt i might 'break' my ligament esp aft last time when i could not even stand up straight or walk upright. though i recovered, it's v v scary...

i'm still thinkin if i shld bring hp out or not. cos if i bring, den i'll ve to bring pouch & realized it's movin ard my waist. v irritatin. if i dun bring, ltr i can mati if i uncontactable by my parents... but i scare my phone dropped fr d pocket. somemore, d phone is quite long & broad except d thickness was still alright... shall think of ways to settle tt...

anw, i shall work forward to completin at least 2.4km by end of dis vacation period ba... ^.^

New love...

today, went sch to scan docs & oso to pay for staff bus. after tt edited my resume & went search for running shoes. decided to give up & if run, will wear a slip-on sch shoes which pri sch gal & even sec sch gal likes to wear. tot tt since in pri sch & sec sch i can survive PE w tt type of shoes, decided not to get proper runnin shoes

but... eventually i bought 1 at $38.35. at 1st was $59.90 and got 20% discount. though my friend got somemore discount. thus become less than $40. d brand was not d usual brand for running shoes like nike, rebok, etc... it's elle active.

well, d only thing is tt it seemed a gd deal. since i dun think i'll run tt often, d shoes i jus bought is gd enough. & i like d heels cos it's unique... ^.^ hope gettin this shoes will motivate me to run. i noe my stamina gettin weaker unlike sec sch le. though i nvr participated in sports events durin sports day, i could still make a dash (s though i'm runnin d race & sometimes even slowed down so tt it's not obvious) to those who fall. furthermore, my timin for 2.4 km aren't tt bad then. so shall train slowly w shorter distance.

oso hope running will make me healthier but i'm jus worried if it might worsen my old hip injury. recently dun feel tt norm. hope d jog will strengthen it instead of worsening it... keeping fingers crossed

bridal studio & bubble photography

today was an eventful day...

mornin, breakfast at JP
afternoon, KFC lunch & went junction 8 to find presents & changed for a photo pass for giant bubble wrappin ard us
evenin, a BBQ session

busy but fun... & while at junction 8,

when gg to search for presents, kanna stopped by ppl fr bridal studio. kanna asked again if i singaporean... oops... do i so not look like a singaporean??? anw, d person said we look v young. me ard 23 & dear ard 25. so i dun understand y they stopped us & even asked when is our ROM & actual day and asked if they would be held tgt... when asked bout occupation, dear told her tt he was in police force & i jus kept quiet & i said i yr 3 student & d person tot i graduatin soon & i jus let it b. lol... wat a lie we have said... wahahaa...

anw, aft we shopped for d presents, we went to exchange for d photo pass. 2 big kids... lol. was amazed tt thr weren't many ppl & so not many kids ard... well, we did get d photo & below is wat was typed on d inside (left side) of the photo card.

Every bubble is unique,
Every person is unique,
Enjoy your one of a kind,
Bubble photo... from Fan Yang

i loved d 1st 3 lines cos it reminded me tt everybody is diff, everybody is unique, everybody's mission & task is diff & so we ve to accept every individual for who they r.

1st day at work

jus a day immediately aft my final paper, started workin... for lunch, too lazy to walked all d way to canteen so i survived on bread again. this time not plain bread. bought sausage bun to eat instead. it reminded me of my friends who tease me ytd when they saw bread along d way... lol...

well, though i only ate d bread, in d end, my colleagues asked me eat some small 'bun' fr delifrance but i didn't take. in d end, they put on my desk... & even gave me a cup of hot tea. d tea is nice. lol... & when thr r buffet outside, they even dragged me out to eat. but i eat v little. scare i dinner cannot eat cos i dun quite eat tt much.

& i think i made many ppl confused w my status. d professors who passed by alrdy got used to me as s student cos i was a ex-staff b4. when they think they saw me in d office, they turned back & look again. lol... i think they must ve find tt i'm hauntin them... wahahaaa... previously s staff, den s student, den s a helpin in d core facilities stuff & nw in d office clearin paper work... lol...

even d manager, FN, who hire me oso got confused & asked if i wnet to d office b4 & if i noe whr d pantry & washrm r. lol... so funny. though i may not noe d sch buildin inside out, i dun think i'll get lost one loh. wahahaa... jus me alone can cos so much confusion... hee...

aft work, went lot 1 to look for travel bk on malacca but cant find... so search info online loh. oso went lot 1 to check out d myr exchanged rate. was 243+ nw... wonder whr else go gd exchange rate... i noe bpp sure less than lot 1... fr wat i noe. ard whr i stay, lot 1 has d highest previously. anw, must go change $$ soon...

finally over... had great fun w great companies...

stupid cockroach... made me so alert last nite. so so so hard to get to slp... woke up feelin extremely tired when i'd mornin paper... argh...

anw, aft paper, had busy afternoon but great fun w great companies... dear drove my friends & i to imm for lunch, go chevrons for 2 bowlin sessions den go clementi for a 4 hr karaoke session in d new partyworld.

d only prob is... got k/o in d late afternoon again... i really dislike afternoon. mayb i'm really a vampire or a zombie. dislike daytime. no lah. mayb cos i tired lah... & b start workin tml w/o break...

really regret nw... nvm... since alrdy agreed, though not right to think this way, but well, for 'money sake', shall endure...

shall oso look up on malacca trip & go check out money exchange rate soon... sighed... thr r so many things i wanna do oso... which is y i did tot of not workin. always got plans for holi but forever nvr able to do. :(

cockroach

tml is finally d last paper... guess wat... a cockroach came out to pre-celebrate my freedom a while ago... made me jumped out of d bathrm...

i still dun understand y i so big & it's so small yet i'm afraid of it... jus hope no nightmare for tonight & not too 'excited' tt i cant get to slp. tml mornin paper wor... sighed...

If...

recently on 1 of fb application sort of quiz... came across this sort qs a no of time. like, if can go back in time, when would u wanna go back to. for me i choose to stay on to build a better memories / future but ytd i suddenly tot of many 'if'...

if i'd work harder in pri sch,
if i'd not quiet-en down since p5,
if i'd choose for a transfer in sec sch,
if i'd gone for eca trg camp,
if i'd been more bold & participated in d wushu competition,
if i'd focus on 'o' rather than eca,
if i'd attended at least 1 of d 'camp',
if i'd choosen nursin s my course of study,
if i'd taken up cca in poly,
if i'd choosen to b paramedic over d lab tech job,
if i'd not learn piano yrs ago,
if i'd not join d dance gp,
if i'd not register for degree,
if i'd not taken up degree course,
if i'd not learn to b more bold & b my friend's wedding banquet emcee esp in front of my parents,&
etc etc...

wat would i b like nw? i realized tt thr is really no way to go back to d past when all these decision made. though i may ve regrets in some, i guess it's still not bad after all. at least i got to whr i m nw & r still able to survive & shld b able to... no one can escape all these decision making. d most impt is it's hw we faced it when we realized we shld ve taken d other path.

eventful sun mornin

recently my hse gettin more & more eventful.

on sat nite (shld say sun mornin), thr r indians quarrelin at d void deck... i was quite pissed off so i went to d window jus happen to see like 3 of them strugglin like in a fight or so. thr was a kid by d side oso. in d end, d guy (a man) fell backward & hit d floor hard & could not get up. seemed unconscious & d rest panick & were 'cryin' & screamin. so i call d police.

mayb u can say i k-po. but i ignore when they made lots of noise at 1+am & ignore when they fight. but when i see d guy unconsious, i cant ignore. wat if it's v serious. but while describin d prob to d police on line, d guy managed to regain consciousness & got up & they went into d void deck. of course told d police but paramedics still came.

well apparently, not only i called. got other ppl called s well. paramedic & police came but cant find d ppl so my dad & i went down & i explained wat i saw to d officer.

apparently they stayed same blk s me. in d end, d guy, d lady & d kid came down & wasn't happy that police were called. they brought d officer back to their hse & so i went back hm w dad.

& cos of tt, i only slept like 1.5 hr b4 plannin to drive my bf to go for his marathon. in d end, cos of all these events, my dad drove us thr instead. well, managed to slp another like 6 hr aft sent him thr.

even when it's daytime, my dad oso drove me thr to pick him up aft his run. in d end, he came back feelin feverish prob cos of heat stroke & got body ache fr d run.

oso nvr really tot i would study much today but i sort of studied like 2+ notes of total of 9 fr ard 7 till 10+. shall ganbatte for dis final module which is normal type of mcq. shld b ok ba. ^.^

after papers for next sem

shit... aft chattin w my friends & look at next sem exam timetable, realized tt all r afternoon papers...

i hate afternoon paper. i not a v afternoon person. recently been k/o esp durin afternoon. cant stay really active till late oso... cannot dun admit i 'old' le...

even when go karaoke w friends in afternoon, i can oso get k/o loh eventually loh...

WHY??? WHY???? WHY ALL AFTERNOON PAPERS??? *SOB*

checking out next sem modules

i really really HATE MCQs with multiple answers. so tricky... must shade all correct ans. if not no marks... sighed... well, it's better than marks being deducted... but still bad... last sem, 2 modules almost died cos of such MCQs. hope history wont repeat itself...

anw, aft today's paper, didn't started studyin for next immediately like previous papers. looked at next sem modules cos gotta choose 4 out of 8. main thing i wanna check if d no of vacancy & if can add in biz elective.

d no of vacancy v impt cos i'm scare i dunno if i'm able to go online to register myself s d time clashed w my 1st day at malacca. damn... think 2 sem ago, it clashed w my piano prac exam & my friends were unable to log-in and register for me then. if vacancy many, den at least got some time to sort out d prob.

well, aft elimination mtd, left 5 modules tt got 250 vacancies. so i guess shld b not tt bad ba... & thr is a biz elective tt can fit into d timetable. it's fundamental of management.

d course description read:
To function in an organisation, technical skills by themselves are insufficient; they have to be supplemented by management training. Success in an organisation depends as much on general management skills and understanding operational systems as on technical expertise. Hence, students need a firm foundation in management skills. This course is designed for non-business students and aims to equip them with the knowledge, skills and competence in various aspects of management, including: the role of management and managers; decision-making, planning and strategy; managing organisational architecture; managing individuals and groups; and controlling critical organisational processes.

wonder if it'll b too difficult for ppl w no biz b/g... anyone can advice??? cos i really dun wanna wait till followin sem again biz elective. if cant fit in tt timetable, den gotta fix durin fyp le. or else, must fix durin d special sem durin d final long vacantion break in 2010 durin may to aug.

anw, d sian part is, my next sem paper end on d v last day of d exam period again... y??? for all sem, it's always like tt... always end on d last day when see many ppl all finish theirs le... v sian one leh...

somemore, thr will b total of 6 papers if include d biz elective. not any better than nw... sighed...

well, tt's still far away... in a way. so back to present. 4 more days to freedom. had mornin paper. so might b gg lunch w friends to celebrate our freedom. mayb bowl or so aft tt ba... at least something to look forward to...

m i a weird gal???

ytd, adjusted my watch stripe but jus cant rmbr whr i put d rest. only rmbr jus nw & fixed & kept them tgt.

rmbr tt mum said i'm a weird pig... cos i sort of dun mind get myself 'dirty' to do all these job... climbin d stairs to change light bulb, dismantlin d lock of d letter box, dismantlin d fan to wash, takin hooks off d wall & patchin d hole left, paintin d hse, fixin d stereo sys, change watches batt, adjustin d stripes, tot of clearin d clot in d pipe under d basin, able to do some basic sewin skills, etc... she said tt she dunno if my cousins would do all these themselves... lol...

well, i shld say it's all trained by my parents. though not all they teach me but cos my dad always asked me help when he try to fix this & tt, i would look at hw he do it. tt's whr i picked up all these skills ba... also, when i was a kid, saw hw mum help ppl made clothes & made clothes for me & my doll. thus, helpin them had become my trg ground.

not only tt... i shld oso say cos i v 粗鲁... i not really those lady-like kinda gal ba... guess oso due to d nature of my dad's job. guess if not cos i was sort of fed up w my friends in pri sch for always friend or dun friend this person or tt person, guess i might not ve become such a quiet gal. i was pissed off then so decided to b neutral & keep quiet in p5. & since then, it'd become a habit of me. so i can sort of show diff personality???

haha... well, at least if can, can do thing by ownself w/o troublin others or even spend less $$ like changin watches batt. rmbr tt my friend oso once said tt i'm diff fr all her friends who r like me d only child of d family. well, guess tt cos my parents r strict & nvr spoilt me ba...

need sleep...

seldom had i got d chance to sleepin till later. but nw, i woke up cos still got exam to study & was pretty noisy... cos of d repaintin work on my blk nw... i dunno wat d hell r they doin. they keep dragging things fr 1 end to another & somemore, i'm stayin at d top floor. can hear super clearly... i could not remember or could ve forgotten tt it can b this noisy for repaintin work. d last was more than 5 yrs ago.

anw, i guess aft tml's paper, i dun care le. i would wanna sleep in on sat. hope sat not so noisy le ba... think i terribly need sleep cos even chicken essence + kopi-o dun help me at all. ytd was k/o for almost an hr in d late afternoon jus aft 3 consec days of exams.

5 of 7 papers cleared

it's d middle of d wk & exams seem never ending. sighed... at least cleared 5 out of 7 le.

ytd halfway thru my paper, felt not so well. so 30 min aft i finish, i left. didn't wanna stay long in air con cos like gonna runnin nose again. at least nw ok. *phew*

oso luckily last nite i took d bread & keep in my bag or today no lunch for me b4 i go for my exam... brought 3 pieces of bread but only ate 2 cos not hungry & jus dun feel like eatin. even mornin oso find d noodle too much... anw, my friend finished up d other piece of bread cos she nvr had lunch. ask her eat in case got too hungry durin exam.

well, i'm countin down to 'freedom'... still got almost a week... nvm... it'll come eventually. jus hope time pass faster...

today is a long day in sch. been out since 7.40am & exam only start at 5 & end at 7.30pm.

for whole day, b survivin on my last stolen packet of biscuit & 2 pcs of stolen bread. had really become a thief this exam period. oops... pls dun call d cops...

wonder if thr r some more biscuit to 'kope' fr hm. if not, will ve to figure hw wat to sneak into lib for lunch le... cant possibly tabao proper lunch into d lib wor... i not so 'dan da bao tian'...

mayb can go out earlier to coffeeshop opp bus pick up pt to tabao 包. but... it's b cold & 'hard' aft bein in d air con lib for hrs which is y biscuit & white bread is better fr hm is better.

anw, i jus need 4 more days of 'lunch'... so if no small packet of biscuit or white bread, den i guess i shld 'jiang jiu' w d hard & cold 'bao'... at least better than nothin.

& d chicken essence really does no effect on me. even when i 'coupled' w thick kopi-o. i can still get k/o aft i study a while... napped twice le (~15 min each)... sianz... think i'll stop studyin & napped another 15 min b4 gg for exam ltr. need to read research journal article & do dunno wat. sighed... hope wont oversleep. mayb ask my friends call me. guess i shld... in case i k/o till deep slp...