guess s one is unwell, it's d time in need of d love one beside. n suay suay... when i down on 1st nite w fever, dear's friend who is getting married d followin day wanna meet all d bros & dear is 1 of them. & so thr he goes... cos my parents would paranoid, i usually would try not to tell them till i really buay tahan... n tt day aft dear left, n parents were still not hm, n my temp climb, i suddenly felt so pitiful. cos they all fever, i will try to take note of med time, get d ling yang drink, etc. yet, when it's my turn, no one is ard. i felt so ke lian but i still don wanna tell my parents even when they back. anw, when they back, my fever dropped le cos i took panadol earlier.
den ytd, aft comin back fr med cx up, lab, meet friend, x-ray, felt really shag tt i simply jus slp w/o showerin/changing till my alarm wake me up. felt quite bad again so took temp n true enough, slight fever again. n throat become v itchy aft tt. initially wonder if d temp cos of d jab i took but cough??? i don think so. plus, days ago, i oso fever. so i conclude tt it's myself n not d jab. cos it's jus slight fever, i refused to take panadol this time. cos i felt i took too much panadol le. always finish up & went to buy. though within or even less than max daily dose, i dont like to keep takin med. n luckily my temp went down towards d end of day till jus nw. dear got ask last nite when my parents not back. he ask if i wanna c doc but tt time, temp got hint of droppin so i push away d idea cos tt time, he just finish work & he jus reach home. if i wan, tt mean he had to come over n pick me cos my side d doc surely no more space.
jus nw, in afternoon, i still feel shag but napped only a short while before going out. went to find d shower hose cos d one in d common bath broke n i sometimes used tt bathroom while dear always use thr when he come over. so, decided to buy & fixed it rather than waiting for dad since it's small case for me. when i back, i still ok. but awhile later, my feet started to ache n i noe d ache is not a gd sign. took temp & it's 37.6 deg. it seemed to get higher than last 2 times at least. den i felt cold. covered in my furry leopard print blanket. at tt time, d ache, d cold make me felt like a kid, wanting d closest person beside for comfort. but dear went back home. ytd he said he might be going out n by right he wont end work early. so even if he didn't meet his friend, based on his work timing, we oso wont meet. but knowing tt he's home already, made me felt more like a kid crying for d comfort. ya. i did cry actually. den seeing him in fb, tot can chat w him thr a while. at least get to chat will feel less bad ma. but den thr is no reply.
actually tt time think he's prep to go out but i didn't noe n waited like a 傻瓜. so i ended up 发脾气 on him when he sms me later on. think back, it's really like wat he comment last time, when 1 is sick, he/she become like a kid making stupid fuss... esp it's like to me, i jus wan attention n comfort. i oso wanna feel pampered n b taken care of but not over kanchiong-ness like fr my parents. but i cant get wat i felt tt it's a simple task/movement/gesture/attention, so i jus explode. i really don like it to fall sick esp when he's not ard n esp worse if not cos of serious reason like work but rather to meet friends. i guess mayb it's d time when i wan d full attention, if not it felt s if his friends is more impt. so childish right? now, can only hope like last few days, my temp will drop ba. cos it's been almost 2 hr since it crept up... i don wanna b so silly again leh...
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