overdoing

is tt a joke? if so, u r overdoin it le. but to me, in front of me & others, it's no longer a joke. y is it tt u always wanna joke this way in front of me & others? y not behind me or only to me? it's like on purpose lor. u ain't givin me any leeway for chance to react. i can't say or comment anything. yes or no oso not right. if i say u back, u b angry cos u feel lose face. WTF...

so wat if i graduated n b startin work on comin mon. so wat if i'm a uni graduate. alrdy told u i no bonus, no 13th mth. & oso u noe i wont b paid highly. in fact, jus slight increase fr my last full time pay n jus slight increase in d annual salary cos no bonus at all. in front of me, so nice say u understand. in front of ppl, use their son to 'joke' n hint me? say he working liao den parents can ask $$ for tours. it's time for parents to slow down n go for tours. hw can i say yes? if i got spare cash n can sponsor u once a while for either nearby or far trip, u should b happy. yet, is it tt u expect tt all d trip u wanna go (near or far), u should ask $$ fr me? if u wanna go 10 trips/yr, den i shall sponsor all 10 trips? can i afford? if say no, den wat? ppl will sure think i unfilial? do u noe hw bad i felt when i was told back to do d same?

u oso noe i'm in debt of my poly n uni sch fee. yes, i haven clear my poly sch fee cos my dad ask me pay min tt time so s not to put too much burden on me. but den look. nw i got 2 sch fee to pay back. so u think hw much will i ve left? thr r many things for me to settle soon oso leh. n u said u understand.

lucky me. was so worried bout my overseas data roamin charges. luckily jus $30+ & not hundreds or thousands like those fr d news.

jus imagine aft 4 yrs of study, w/o askin for any cents fr u or anyone? i pay for my phone bills, ur phone bills which sometimes u overspent, my life insurance, my short getaway trips, my transport, my textbooks, my piano sch fee den, my piano maintenance, my laptop, my laptop maintenance, my medical bills, my misc sch fee, my haircut, etc. y do i do part time? y do i work so hard? cos i noe $$ is impt n i don wanna burden u both.

i'm grateful tt once a while when u both strike 4d or so, n u give me some small amt. but in fact, u no need to give me. lottery this kind of thing, actually to think of it, it's more out den in. tt's y i reject in 1st place n not simply out of courtesy.

i'm grateful tt u both sponsor me for d shanghai trip n give me some $$ to spent thr. in fact, yes, i noe i low on cash. but i nvr thought of wanting $$ fr u or any sponsorship. i was super pissed when eventually, u keep askin me hw much RMB i ve left. i rather u keep d $$ u give me n i change d $$ myself. i noe based on my shoppin skill, i surely wont get something which i no need n not overspent like u both on jade bangle, jade pendant, stacks of tea.... at least, i believed i would feel happier cos i'm spendin my own $$ no not constantly being ask hw much i ve left cos u both not enough $$. wat pissed me more is tt when D asked me, i ask back to check hw much 3 of us ve left so i can roughly noe how to ration out d spendin. yet i was told tt M wanna keep her RMB for her own spendin. jus cos my RMB isn't originated fr my own pocket so i'm not entitled to spend n needed tt for backup?

n i wont b surprise if u both will link d part whr parents askin their kid for $$ for tour to all d sponsorship for my past tour but it's not fair. when i was workin yrs ago, did u wanna go for tour, when i was back to sch, u started to want to go for tour. i can don go but would u agree, u wan me go n u pay so? den aft i noe dear n when we go for those short getaway, i nvr get any $$ fr u. i used my own spending. HK is cos u both wanna go. u think i happy thr? it was a dread for being caught in btw. so it'll b really unfair if u would link up tt for askin for all d trip sponsorship for both of u. can u b reasonable? do u ve ur own retirement plan?

i ve mine. if i got kid(s), aft they r independent n when i reach retirement age, i would sell off my hse n get a studio unit to stay. d $$ i ve, i shall slowly use for basic necessities n meals n go for affordable trips within my means. i don wanna depend on ppl. i wanna b independent. i wanna b free. not to see ppl face.

i'm sick n tired. mon i'm startin work. yet this is wat i got. i felt like i'm ur investment. nw it's time for returns. i'll b ur atm when my life is jus 'startin' n thr is a long way for me to go when u can slow down since 8 yrs ago cos u both no need to support me. do u really wanna drain me like tt? yes i can eat plain bread daily. is tt wat u expect me to do so tt i can get my life going n to sponsor all ur trips, etc?

i'm sick n tired of hearin u say tt d 2 sons of our family friend gave his parents hw much a mth n each give 1k bday angbao to each parent. esp when in fact, d amt isn't so huge. u alrdy exaggerate it. is tt wat u expect fr me? do u noe hw much they earn s compare to me?

i'm sick n tired of hearin u say tt 1 of d son would bring d mom out durin day to eat here or thr. wat's his job? he's a financial consultant. he meet client mainly at night so daytime more free n he got car. so he can bring his mom out to eat. for my job, no OT is alrdy gd enough. OT oso no $$, OT oso no time off. PH or WE no need work oso gd enough cos i'll b growin animal cells leh.

i'm sick n tired of hearin u say tt ur colleague son, a uni graduate earn hw much n ask for hw much pay n got hw much bonus n gave parents hw much. wat field is he in while wat field m i in? i can say i'm not talented for tt kinda education n career. can u accept me for who i'm?

in front of me, u treat like u v modern n understandin. in fact, ur thinking so old. expect uni graduate to get high pay, gd job, gd life. if u think i'm bluffin u, i don mind printin out my pay slip n show u every mth. still don believed, go my HR ask for d proof lor. in fact, i'm gettin much lesser pay than my dad who nvr graduate fr even pri sch. i bluff u for wat? i still need to save up for emergency. i'm scare since poly incident. somemore, my godma who always give me $$ oso is facin some health prob nw. her job security is at risk. if she really need help, monetary or so, can i don help? she no kids no husband oso. somemore, i'm d only child. so touchwood if anything happen at home, i'll b d only one to face everything. i got no one to share d load w (esp monetary). n everyone will grow old. 生老病死 is an unavoidable process. if everyone can b so lucky to jus 生老死, hw gd it would be. not tt i wanna think on bad side la but ve to b prep for any kinds of prob ma.

so pls, b4 u decide to say or comment anything, pls put urself in my shoe can or not? i'm alrdy tryin my best. i'm really dyin hard to get away. no wonder at d 'bi xiu' shop, aft lookin at my name, d feng shui master say tt it's best for me to venture my career overseas or away fr home. it guess not for my career but for my whole life.

d more u do/say, d more u r pushin me away fr u. d more i would bounce away cos thr is always a limit in every one. i alrdy hold back n not to talk back in front of others. if not surely, u'll b angry n say i make u lose face. pls stop all d nonsense cos i really cant take it anymore.