acknowledgement or demanding???

recently, prof seemed to wanna start a series of lab mtg aft mtg... jus last fri, i'd my 1st ever lab mtg in my life & is oso d 1st ever i noe of since i'd been w his lab for ~4 mth attachment in mid 2010; den ~4 mth FYP in early 2011 & den ~2 mth s his PO.

b4 tt, s i was waitin for d 2nd ab, my proj + another co-operated w a Ph.D student had been stagnant & think he saw me quite free den & gave me another proj. well, he did ask politely if he can add on but i noe cant reject la. but tt's sort of my 1st proj tt aft he told me more than jus briefly, i did my own research n plannin n discussed w him rather than i'm bein spoon-fed cos usually, he'll talk w me n d Ph.D student so she'll explain to me or advice me wat to do. anw, haven really start tt proj yet. more or less still at plannin stage but once sequencin results is back n ok, i'm ready to proceed.

today, thr is an interviewee. not sure for student or staff but like usual, prof will intro to each of us n wat we r doin. in d office when he came out w d interviewee, thr is only 3 staff includin me. he intro to d only guy staff 1st n jus said v briefin on a proj tt he's doin. den when my turn, he said tt i'm currently doin quite a few things. to research on dis n blah blah blah. said till i got numerous things on hand n v busy.

well, currently still not exactly busy cos was waitin for my cells to grow so i can lyse them. will have to do numerous lysis & run numerous gel & den western blots... so i bet i can oso get super busy. but while waitin for d cells, i can sit almost whole day in office n do d necessary purchasin la. so when he said so, i sort of felt quite guilty cos nw not productive in lab work.

but tt doesn't mean i no do work. i got my asset. my past experience n memories of purchasin & so in jus a while, i can source like 9 co sellin d item which prof is lookin at... plus, i'm thinkin beyond d current step on wat i shoudl proceed on eventually. till d Ph.D student told me tt i can think s time goes cos d mutation i gonna do might take quite a while.

on d other hand, i felt tt actually, it seemed like other than pushin me to b more 'productive' in lab work, i oso felt tt actually he do noe tt i'd all these projects on hand n tt he 'recognized' my effort? so i guess, it's still a gd thing tt he noe & hopefully if i can get d hypothesized results, den will do gd for my 'career', resume, ...