Things are getting better?

Today, missed my dance to do my tutorials, lab report and assignments. Only managed to do most of the questions for 2 tutorials (hopefully these enough to get me through the lessons tomorrow), typed in the results in the lab report and amend the questionnaire survey for hw102 assignment.

Still left the Introduction for HW102 which I must complete by Tuesday. Haven't start on it yet. Maybe I'll bring laptop tomorrow so in case no computer in library, still can have a laptop to type. I still have a test on Thursday that I haven't study then another tutorial to do for Friday.

Anyway, I managed to drop the bomb on my boss just now. It was kind of as planned. I planned to give him at the end of the day before he leave so that he don't have much chance to psycho me or to get S auntie to psycho me but he still managed to tell S auntie.

As she stayed near me, she tried to talk me (on the journey home) into working alternate weekends or even work till they found someone or another 6 months which I won't agree. I can't afford to sacrifice my studies any further. I can't neglect my parents too. I also need to catch my breathe and rest. I also need to catch up with my friends. Due to studies and work, I just realized I had sacrificed many things. I do not want to be tied down with money. Money is essential but not vital. At most I eat less & spend less. Sure can survived through.

I feel bad though for quitting when the clinic has shortage of people but I have no choice. Therefore, I am very firm this time about quitting. I knew that S auntie will try to talk me out so on the journey home, I tried to touch on another topic. I asked my dad about the battery for our handphones and get S auntie's interest as it was something important as it can be very dangerous. It's about bloated battery of 4 of our nokia handphones (6288, N73 x 2 and another i cant remember the model but it's a navigator) plus another sony k750i haven't check.

Anyway, my dad's nokia navigator mobile oso got same problem as my mobile as camera cant be detected. So he checked opened up the case to look and found the bloated battery. He check the battery as I told him mine seemed bloated. Then after changing the battery, the camera seemed to be working fine. So he got the battery for me too as it was dangerous to use bloated battery. Hope my handphone will work fine now so it can last as long as possible. This handphone had all the functions that I am satisfied with. Will try out and see how. Hopefully the problem is due to faulty battery.

Anyway, just now, while chatting online with a friend, she asked if I am happy now that I tender. I ponder and told her that I don't know if I am happy or not but I do feel some loads off me. In another words, I feel lighter. I think I had been too stress and worried since I got the interview for the application for uni studies.

Now that I had earned myself some extra time to study, rest, etc. I must 'chiong' even better. 'I MUST JIAYOU!'

Passed my Grade 5 Piano Exam

Up till today, I still don't believed I passed my piano exam since my teacher told me last week. Just now, after lesson, went to the counter to collect my results. I did passed! Hurray!!! Even though just passed [106 out of 150 (100 is the passing score)], I am still quite happy as this would be my 1st piano certificate to proof that I am of that I already cleared that grade.

Due to my busy schedule and my uncle's wedding, I had been going back home late without the chance to touch my piano throughout the week so needless to say to try and practice for at least 5 minutes each day. So, if this continue, I guessed I shall quit piano at least during the period that I studying.

Keep missing lessons.

Missed another BS203 tutorial again. Missed it last week as I want to use the time to do tutorial especially BS202. Missed today cause of my uncle. Anyway, the tutor will upload the answers and it's no point going as he would just be reading from the answer that he projected.

Well, my uncle wanted not only my Mum, he also wanted me to go together to view the photos and help him select. I could go after the tutorial but I thought of going there and find a place to do part of the other tutorials. Managed to write out the introduction of the survey for HW102 but I exceeded the word limit by too much.

Anyway, today, after biostatistic lecture, we had a discussion about the survey questions. So now, at least we had the questions on hand. Maybe just need to modify. I also told my other members that we shall focus on our introduction assignment for the report as it weight 30% of the overall. This was because they even thought of meeting again on Monday to discuss the survey questions again. I do not want that as I got a quiz on Thursday, 2 tutorials to do for Monday and 1 for Friday. I think I shall give my dance a miss too for this coming Sunday to at least complete the tutorials for Monday and start on my HW102 Introduction assignment.

I seemed to be always missing lessons (be it academic or non-academic) but in a way, I had no choice and I won't miss lessons unnecessary. But for next coming Friday, I won't missed the tutorial even though I only had 1 hour lesson that afternoon as it would be another lecturer. Never had his lesson before due to exemption from certain modules for year 1.

Oh ya, I actually agreed to help out the TL for time being till the new comer comes so I will be even more busy plus helping out with my uncle's wedding. Anyway, I guess I have to hang in there for another 1 month. After that, I could most likely put full focus on my studies. Wished me luck to tender successfully at the Clinic on Sunday.

What kind of person am I?

Recently, my characters had been a topic for my parents especially my mum. This happened since the last time I went out with that friend, his wife and colleague. As our mums are very close friends who always chat over the phones, that friend told his mum that I am very quiet and I don't look like so... Thus, when my mum heard, she kept commenting and talking about it.

She said I am cheeky and mischievous as I would do mischievous act like teasing my grandma with candles that could re-lit by itself, etc. Furthermore, she also saw that when I was with my close friend from secondary school, I could chat with her almost from 1 end of the bus journey to the other end. So I do not seemed to be the quiet type. Also, in a way, I am in a dance group so how quiet can I be?

But the problem is that when I am with friends, I might not be the one who talks. Maybe those very closed friends or when I really have something to say then I opened my mouth. So what kind of person am I?

I guess the problem lies in the fact that I am the only child. Since young, I had not being really exposed to interact with people. I always had thoughts that I would act certain ways but I never put them in act. When I am with certain relatives, I would be able to act maybe the true me yet still with restrictions which I guess are caused by expectations. Thus, I am also confused myself and thus been searching for myself for a few years.

Being only child means only focus in the family. Being a female worsen the case. With over-protective parents, and unable to interact with people, I seemed to always put up a zone of invisible protective layer around myself. I had tried to walk out but I still could not venture further. Why I say I am unable to interact with people? Topics that seemed so common, I also would not be able to start. Like people would find it easy to ask other about their lives, work, etc... But, when it comes to my turn, I find it awkward to ask. I felt I am probing into their lives and that if they want, they would tell without you asking but I don't feel so when people asked me. I do not know what I could say or ask so I just kept quiet.

With parents that worries, it also added stress on me. Together with that and the amount of time for studies and work, I had been 'stuck' at home most of the time. Thus, I also do not know what to say or comment when others talk about shopping trips, etc. My topic of conversations are very limited so I guess that re-inforce that fact that I am quiet most of the time.

Therefore, it's not easy for me to open up my mouth and since primary 5, there had always been comments that I am quiet but my parents do not believed.

So what am I? I just know most of the time, I think and worry too much. I'll try to give my best shot wherever I am. I am also quite a perfectionist who also tends to worry how people will judge me. Other than these, how much do I know myself? Is there any chances that I am who I should be? I am really not sure...

Long day at IMM.

Long tired day but quite fun.

Went only for microbiology lecture and give the BS203 lecture a miss. Tired and don't wish to rush over to IMM as my uncle having his wedding shots there. Went there to snap photos especially when my new Vietnamese aunt had her make-up and hairdo done. I guessed I am just giving an excuse to miss my lesson. Well, at least partially I guess.

If the lecture was given by the usual, then I won't feel that bad actually as the lecturer always got his facts wrong or seemed so unsure. But when I decided to give the lecture a miss and realized that it would be given by another lecturer, I do not know if it's worth the miss.

Anyway, my aunt got 5 sets of clothes. 2 white gowns, 2 evening gowns and 1 traditional wedding clothes. As usual, my grandma kept saying, help me take photos with them, blah blah blah... My mum 'bue tahan' as my grandma had been grumbling to her about this new daughter-in-law yet so happy to take photos.

Well, it all ended at around 8pm and we rushed to the clinic that I worked as my aunt had sorethroat since Monday. Only after, then we went for dinner and then to LotOne to collect their wedding rings. Only reached home near 10pm.

Using my limited skills to paint d nails of my 3rd Aunt

Went JP to shop for nail polish and nail stickers after tutorial class.

Just now used my limited skills to paint and paste the stickers on my new 3rd aunt's nails as tomorrow, my 3rd uncle and her are going to take the wedding photos. I forgot to take photos of my creations. Maybe tomorrow since I'll be going over to IMM to look for them.

Well, this uncle is one of my closest uncle actually. He could take jokes, and is very easy-going. So I don't mind doing all these. Furthermore, I also do not know what to get for him and his new bride so I'll be his 'photographer' on the day for his wedding buffet on 20 September 2008 and on 21 September 2008 (for the signing of the marriage certificate). Anyway, I could keep my minds off all other work, etc and relax abit.

BS202 tutorial

Something creepy happened. Over the past few days, I had been doing or trying to do the BS202 tutorial. I had been tryin to figure out the microbal growth curve for bacteria growing in medium containing glucose and galactose and three other questions. I had tried to find over the internet with no luck.

Can you imagine? I could not find the answer for the question on the microbal growth curve. Had asked a few friends before tutorial but with no luck too. Textbook did not have the answer too. But... I actually have the answer in my head which I never thought it would be that way as I got that thoughts from a dream on Sunday morning just before I woke up. I thought I was too stressed that I had a 'nightmare' due to too much thinking over the question. And that turn out to be the answer. OMG! I think I 走火入魔 already. I always that stalker uncle downstairs will 走火入魔. In the end, I am the one who had 走火入魔. Next time, if this happened again, maybe I should pen down cause who knows when it would be correct again. LOL!

Anyway, today the tutorial was not taken by the Prof so not so stressed. But I realized I think too much into the questions. Out of five, I only managed to do two and a half and they are all correct. I got another half answer in my mind from the dream which I never pen down. And I think too much and complicate the other two questions.

First, something like mechanism of how environmental factors (eg pH) affect cardinal temperature. And I keep searching environmental factors in general which includes many others including pH. Thus, I could not find any answer at all. In the end, the answer given only touch on pH which meant that the (eg pH) was the focus. (-.-)'''

The second question that I missed was to design an experiment to find out the concentration of X was presence while given information that compound X was essential for microbal growth but it was toxic to humans yet presence in drinking water. So I was thinking of how to create the experiment without harming humans. Guess what... In the end, it's just a normal standard graph of no of cells vs known X concentration. The information that X is toxic was ignored now. *Fainted*