whoops... for once, i appreciate my ownself so much better. esp aft gettin keys.

细心 & 仔细 & persistant allow me to spot flaws (big or small) tt even a friend once said tt she may only spot d prob mayb aft she shifted in to her new place in future.

though i no go thru D&T in sec sch, i guess my dad's trainin in gettin me to aid him here or thr when he fixed things is gd

lovin maths is gd cos i love to map out dimension & put into shapes & playin puzzle allow me to try to piece out where i can put certain things

playing spot d diff oso allow me to spot diff of my new place. esp on d kitchen kerb which cabinet had been mounted atop though i nvr notice on d spot.

& of cos lovin to capture photos of everything s evidence s a habit has also been put in gd use now to cfm d diff & to b use s proof

my past experience in designing wardrobe, L-shaped wardrobe, TV console, Bedframe, Bookshelf, Shoe cabinet had been of gd use nw

my 3D perception also allow me to visualize hw i want things to be and i could sketch it out though i can do it in accurate 3D drawing w d laminate using software. but at least i can use paper & pencil or even really simple sketch usin paint.

me lovin to take down notes oso allow myself to check & cfm on all changes in dimensions.

my eyes r oso sharp enough to spot changes in d cabinet depth, or even d wardrobe diff based on wat had previously been suggested.

so i guess though being too meticulous & perfectionist had been my flaws, they r also my strongest power. but of cos thr should b a balance of everything.

anw, w d spotted changes, i'll check w my ID & shall c wat she can say. will try push c if can don top up any amount if needed or discount if none.

but don b mistaken. my ID had been gd. have no issue w them. they do deliver job tt we r quite satisfy with except some small unavoidable issue but they will rectify. d lady which we liase w oso had been nice to ans all our queries & entertain my demands & she is definitely reliable cos she could ve many chances to run away when she went back to malaysia but she always got back to me once she is back & update me on d status & helpin us liase w Citigas ppl. & they deliver wat we wanted too esp d kitchen cabinet whr we sav bit on d carpentry $ for d wall behind d beam. but of cos need to b bit sharp to spot d diff & noe wat u wanted in case miss out anything.

& i'm definitely lovin d outcome of my new place. :)

distant relatives

all these yrs, w watever my memory permits, i can say i'd been gg 扫墓 annually esp to my dad's side to visit my grandparents & great grandpa. in recent yrs, my dad's cousin had brough us to my great great grandparents' too & so we had been visiting annually ever since.

dis yr is sort of quite 'special' as it would be d last time we would b visiting my grandpa at d v same spot as his was 1 of those tt would need to be removed due to the road works. However, though situated at bukit brown are my great grandpa & great great grandparents & other ancestors/distant ancestors which we don't know whr, s far s we know, only my grandpa is affected. thus, mayb some time soon, we would ve to put him in a temple whr my dad & his siblings had alrdy bought a niche already.

if not cos of dis roadwork, we also r not supposed to dig out grandpa's grave s it was said tt if thr r ancestors ard d same area, can only remove if ancestors r removed b4 d 晚辈's grave could be & great great grandparents aren't under our care & decision. well, though ppl may think i'm joking, i believed tt mayb grandpa wants to b beside grandma & accompany her in d temple whr we had already placed her. esp when they had been apart for decades cos my grandpa pass away when he was still quite young.

in dis 1 or 2 yrs, actually i was ard tt area bout 1 more time a yr than my parents due to d Halloween event which dear & i join. to me, tt place is familar & if i could, i would wan to go over to pay my respect to them. However, it was not possible for the halloween events which we join but i would also pay my respect in a distant. i guess soon, d place would feel v different. d way to enter/walk in would oso differ greatly & so i'll really miss d place.

wat irritate me further is tt when i heard my uncle & aunt's bf said tt it would be d last time ever tt we need to come here to 扫墓. hey, my great grandpa aka their grandpa & my great great grandparents aka their great grandparents r still thr lor. i guess i bit too tradition kind ba.

well, wat makes dis yr so diff is tt when my parents, dear & i went to pay respect to my great great grandparents, we saw 2 pax cleaning d tombstone in a distant & my dad greet & ask which family they r fr. erm... till nw i still ve no idea wat's gg on. all i noe is tt they r my dad's aunt & uncle which means they r my grand aunt & grand uncle (i suppose). they don look their age esp my grand aunt who is already 70+ & i suppose they r quite well to do esp my grand uncle who said he's working part time now & is/was a director of somewhr like hong kong bank or something.

anw, hw i deduct tt they r well to do r tt based on their age, if they aren't tt well educated & be in d workin world, plus d fact tt my grand uncle is/was a director of some bank or so, plus, he said his name had been in d directory & tt we could even 'googled' his name & find his details fr a bank company or so, & tt they had tried to contact my dad's cousin via SMS, i don think they would b so clear bout wat google is or hw to SMS.

wat really made me 打开眼界 is tt they r really spring cleaning d tombstone of my great great grandparents. they brought many big bottles of water, gardening cutter, a few brooms to sweep the dried leaves, brush, detergent etc to really scrub & sweep all the dirt away & cut away all branches tt r covering d tombstone. no wonder whenever we go over, d place looked so well-maintained. accordin to them, they used to bring acid to wash also. OMG!!! hw many ppl will really do tt nw?

anw, d feelin is so weird. i m always curious & wonder hw my distant relatives r like & yet when i met them, they r like a total stranger to us & yet keep trying to tell us stories/history/memory of theirs. though i not sure if ever i'll meet them again though they did get my dad's no, mayb thr will b chance, mayb not. till then, shall c hw.

handy woman cum doraemon

recently due to my new home, i'd started 'doin' more 'side' jobs.

i scanned d floorplan layout given by HDB & erase off d labellin so i could sketch in our idea in 2D by pencil. i end up drawin in paint s well & even coloured it.

i den even do a 3D rough sketch b4 finally engagin our ID so we could show him/her in case they don understand wat we meant. when we finally engage our current ID, she was surprise & tot i'm a designer when i'm not.

den, to make things easier & in case i need to go over new place suddenly, i brought measurin tape out daily. not only tt, i oso brought d contract & other invoices out in case need to call them up for delivery or discuss anything & so i oso brought my floorplan out & all my designs out so i can refer anytime anywhere. & our ID once again was caught offguard w wat i brought out.

when thr is once i was sketchin better 3D drawings, while sketchin, someone passby & comment tt i should pick up architect. trigger me to wonder if i'd taken d wrong course esp when it's not d 1st time i sketch 3D drawing of my current wardrobe, my parents' wardrobe, & 2 cabinets & TV console in my living rm & a shoe rack too. so mayb i should ve gone into interior design. i shouldn't ve hold back on design course s i felt i don ve much creativity. mayb it might b b'cos i don ve much exposure? well, it's over & mayb too late for d switch when i alrdy had a degree in sci. is thr a need for d switch at dis moment? mayb if i got no commitment, i might venture out, i may take up such courses. but nw, finance & time is tight.

sat, when we met w d capenter, we give him d drawin for d interior of d wardrobe. our ID joke & said tt mine is more pro than his & even joke & ask if i wanna do part-time. actually, if i got d time, i don mind to earn extra bucks. but hw possible when ppl use software & printout while i only use paper & pencil den outline w marker. i'm so old tech. & whr really got such gd lobang for me to do part-time?

anw, recently i'd oso become more doraemon than ever. since poly, my friends had been commentin tt i'm a doraemon. but my bag don ve too much of extra items like recent. ever since tt day when dear met w d accident & need my help to take photos for him, w only iphone camera, d lighting isn't gd enough & so fr tt day on, i decided to bring camera out daily.

& nw cos of d new hse, i oso started to bring measuring tape. well, i use it to measure any location of d hse tt i need to know so i know d dimension of d carpentry work, d dimension of sink, stove, etc tt i need buy, etc. & cos sometimes, i may last min decided to go over to new place or to go somewhr to get something, i may need d measurin tape & oso to prevent me fr forgetin to bring out, i ve it in my bag all d time. i guess i might ve intimidate our ID but at least she knew that she cannot anyhw whack & squeeze all our juices out. haha...

anw, aft last wk, actually i should rmbr scissors/penknife cos tt day when we went over to take note of d stove serial no, we forget to bring any & we had hardtime taking off d pink plastic string tt was use to secure our stove + provide s an handle. yet, i forgot to bring again on sat for check of delivery. luckily d delivery man got something to cut d tape from the carton. so i decided to bring a scissor & even a penknife.

not only tt, aft we wanna install d fan, i realize tt i should also ve a screwdriver oso. esp if thr can ve many diff types of heads & sizes. tt day, i manage to find something in my bag to unscrew & screw back d screw for d fan cover. but not always can ve so coincident ma. so best would be for me to b equip. so i guess i can oso b call a handy woman le. LOL...

jobs, car, grumble

searchin for a job aren't easy... thr r more sales job than watever more relevant to me, if not those requirin pharmaceutical cert, etc.

i not so thick skinned type so i not so sure if sales b right for me but i need to b open for more option. yet, seein d need for a car really puts me off. party cos of d cost & i not sure if i could afford but d main main reason is tt if i got my own car, surely any thing, small thing, big thing, my parents will sure say, 'shan ah, can u do dis dis dis, can u drive tt tt tt, can u go here here here, can u bring me go thr thr thr, etc'.

y do i say so. b4 i noe dear, only my dad drivin, tt time even when he end up drivin a car, he will go back to office to change for a lorry to pick all up to go 扫墓 or to move dis or tt. even when cant, they will look for my aunt, etc cos for 扫墓 for my mum side, only visit my grandpa's grave so it's their father & their siblings mainly. well, thr was once tt we couldn't make it cos date clashes w my dad's side & my grandma they all take bus to d cemetry & it's jus 1 direct bus & bout 20 min journey.

once i got to noe dear, my mum will come & say, 'can he drive us thr, blah blah blah'. & tt time when my godma's hospitalized, i doin FYP & yet she will call & ask if dear can go help bring back certain things. when told her he's working & duno end wat time, she not happy. com'on, wat bout my aunt, her younger sis? if everybody working, den take cab la.

but b4 all these, she will comment & say tt dear's mum shouldn't make her son to go sign up a new contract for new hp when he worked till late or work till morning, etc. saying so nicely tt should b considerate & let him rest.

weeks ago, my mum told me d date & said tt if i need to go back to settle my new hse, jus go ahead. den days ago, she said tt if dear's workin, den can i drive my dad's car while my parents take bus over. it's so weird. i can understand tt we should pick my grandma who is old & my godma aka her 2nd sis esp when recently she been weak due to her heart prob. s for d rest of d ppl esp like my xiao jiu, if really not enough seat, den take bus la. cant expect to ve a chauffeur all d time wat. so my parents can drive my grandma & godma & at most 1 more person & den meet over thr lor. whoever is capable of walking and standing should get their way thr themselves. tt should b quite fair. i wont mind taking bus thr myself & give up d seat to those who need it most.

n jus nw, she still ask me again if dear's working. when i say he not suppose to be, she asked him to drive. so i ask who's gg & i said tt mayb should jus ask grandma & godma only la. it's not tt it nvr happen b4. den she said my xiao jiu insist on gg, & my da jiu oso. my xiao jiu always go round sg, so wat's so difficult for him to go by himself. s for my da jiu, his eldest daughter got car or her husband got car & she did drive once when tt time not enough car. so if my da jiu wanna go, he should rely on others like me. hey, i not his daughter. whr is d sincerity of wantin to go? if really sincere, surely will ve own way to go.

i not sure my mum will angry me again but i got no choice but really need to tell d facts. ok, dis time dear's not working. fine. he can drive. in future? nobody can tell. so? those who are capable to walk & stand take public bus lor. not a long journey. i always pass by thr when i go work every mornin. if duno whr to walk, den d person who drive mayb can pick in them at d flower shop. nothing difficult ma. but i wont b surprise if mum b unhappy. tt's y i really hope i can nvr ve my own car. by then, if i don help, they will surely b angry w me. haiz...

so i really hope i don ve to go into any sales tt need a car.

经典

previous post i tok bout a PhD in d lab. dis mornin her FYP student found out tt she 4got to place her tubes in cold rm overnight & wonder if she would blame it on him so we all strike a conversation tgt w another 2 PO in d lab. so it's a conversation btw 3 POs (includin myself) & a FYP.

end up, 1 PO concluded w a sentence tt trigger everybody to laugh out loud. a 经典 & power comment. & it is: 'Her maturity doesn't fit her age'. & it's really true.

well, tt PO is still v kind n said tt mayb she is stress at hm w her son, etc. so should try to mayb give in a bit. but will she appreciate d help or wat ppl give in to her?

不打自招

i jus don understand y thr r such thick skinned & irritating ppl ard.

expect ppl to always clear d wastes for her. once, twice & then will take it for granted & keep testin d sys allowin d bin to get piled up much beyond d bin could hold. or rather much beyond d XL bag could hold. 'XL' leh. not S, M or L leh... d person tt is behind her is always so nice to help clear for all of us if he's free but she's really takin advantage of him.

recently we r oso doing competent cells for clonin. since i was here s an attachment student, nvr once i see her help b4. in fact, d facts is she nvr even help for d past 3.5-4 yrs. tt day, a PhD student invite her courtesy to help & she agreed initially but then grumble aft tt pushin d responsibility to d staffs (PO). To her, she don wanna take charge of any public duty. but hello, there is dis roster in d lab n PhD r takin care of only 1 or 2 buffers while d rest r still done by PO lor. & we oso need to do many other things. Sharing jus 1 more is so difficult? anw, s expected, she eventually take western transfer experiment s excuse. & she totally MIA aft she is done w hers & nvr help. & she push to d FYP student to help us. to me, i felt tt she is really slappin her own face, her own mouth. if it is not PhD student job, den wat does it gotta do w FYP student???

not only tt, recently she is doin mouse work. thr is another PO doin d mouse work oso but they r doin separate proj, diff experiment. yet, she keep tryin to push d mouse killin n extraction of watever she need to d PO. she keep asking & hintin d PO to tag along if not try c when d PO is gg & tryin to negiotiate d PO to go on d date she wanted. den dis week, she is supposed to kill 8 mice & tryin hard to say tt she will take v long n need 'help' in front of boss & d PO. so boss did ask if d PO b free but d PO jus say 'it depends' & her face turn black w unhappiness. on d day tt she is suppose to kill d mice, she still try to get d PO along but failed to do so & it made her really unhappy. helpin if free, should b ok but we should help each other out. however, to her, it'll jus b uni-directional. only we help her but she wont help us.

not only tt, today, d person, JC, behind her cleared d waste n found needles. safety rules is tt if thr is sharp obj like needles & glasses, etc, it should b disposed separately in sharp or glass bins. it's suppose to b common sense, a knowledge, a practice d day since everyone wanna do lab work. needless to say, we all know d culprit jus didn't want to point fingers. thus, JC send an email to all PO & PhD in d lab s a reminder not to throw & tt it's oso easy to find out who but he did say tt it's not impt to find who nw. i told him tt it's oso ebst to let d FYP & attachment student noe in case they r not sure. so in a way, thr could oso b a chance tt it was thrown by d FYP student who is attached to tt thicked skinned 'auntie'.

in d end, seein d email printout on her desk which JC printed for all. she jumped back to d lab to find JC n grumble s usual. though i m in d office, i could still make out wat she said. she said tt JC is too 仔细 too 细心. say all along no one bother n tt it's d culture here. ^*&^(%* think only d culture for her ba. if she gonna tell me tt, i think i'll ask her since when? & Qs if i should bring in d current safety manager or even d previous safety manager to cfm since when ever throwin needle to norm bin is norm?

hey, i'm in dis sch, dis buildin since when? since mid june 2003 lor. i'm here sort of 1 yr since d sch started & i witness d construction of d building, d shiftin, d changes. i oso participated in d convertion of d original TE office to a store room, etc etc. i did maintenance, i did store duty, i was a TE, i did purchasin, i got account to create PO b4, i m a project officer nw doin research n many other duties. i ve been ard hauntin d sch, appearin everywhr confusin ppl so hello, who is she tryin to bluff?

i simply jus hate dis kinda of ppl. others nvr even say her, she can 不打自招, others say her, she will deny, when things happen, she will push blame away, when ppl need help, she'll MIA, when she needs help, she expect ppl to help, & she will try to push s many responsibilities away fr her & try to 'geng' to be busy or d experiment v tedious n hard n long so accordin to her, boss will feel so n wont push her, & she will b unhappy if others doin d same experiment rush to do many in a day cos d cat is leak out of d bag tt she had been faking.

haiz

wonders of make-up & dressing-up

i'm not so much of a fan of make-up. mainly put esp if i wore contact cos wanna conceal my panda eyes & i mainly wore contact when i go out & not for usual. so if u wanna c me in more make-up, tt'll b esp on occassion like dinner. thus, most often, if u bump into me, i'll b in d most comfy clothes i like to b in, i'll b wearin specs & w no make-up.

so, in a way, d line i'm in is so close to wat allows me to wear comfortably rather than b in d tight & hurtin court shoes, in d hot long sleeves, hiddin behind d thick coats of make-ups.

well, wat makes me wanna write is actually, i realize a flaw in my dressing. if ever, i search another job & got an interview last min like when i got mine for d admission to NTU as an undergrad, imagining me in short denim shirt, tee & slippers. 'ho-say-liao'.... wahahaa... & even if i noe b4hand, & i dress up at work b4 or aft an interview. my dressin would also become so much louder, tellin ppl, 'hey, i got an interview' or so...

hmm... wat makes me ponder so much is oso cos my new place is so much further to whr i'm workin nw, cant possibly work forever here. so eventually gotta get out. thus, my friend oso tell me tt i should slowly change my style of dressin so at least if thr is a chance for interview, i oso no need to take full day leave jus for tt. for her field, ok la, they can dress readily but still will find it weird to wear so nicely to a lab plus i'm so lazy to hand-wash & iron. tt's oso wat made me wanting to wear so comfortably.

well, make-up for me not an issue for interview ba. i jus need like 15 min or less to powder up, no professionally but at least look decent & i oso nvr bother to ve d full set of make-up since i don like & seldom put.

but today, d undergrad attached in d lab, a yr 3, & jus went for d sch pageant contest asked me y i nvr join b4. said tt i should join cos i m pretty when i put on make-up. well, guess he saw d PG photos ba. so it made me wonder if it's one tt's pretty or d power of make-up. to me, if by power of make-up, den not a natural beauty la. & i feel most impt is tt ppl ard like friends & loved ones must b able to accept one as they r & not cos aft puttin make-up. 只看外表不看内涵 is no use one. 内涵才是最重要的... yet, wat's contradicting is tt, i'll still make-up to try look gd for interview & even for dinner, etc.