Tuesday, 29 March 2011
changes
dis yr seemed to b a yr of changes. 1stly, instead of d usual lectures, tutorials, quizzes, exams, etc, it's a sem which is totally diff cos it's purely fyp = lab work. it's finally whr my strength is but can do oso not necessarily means can write... & recently, gotta adapt to d change of dear's car cos d old one really 'chui' alrdy... & soon, will leave d study lives & go back to d working lives... but i guess i most likely only miss d 'freedom' & d long holidays. at least i managed to survive 4 yrs w my past savings & oso my part-time jobs. but dis is jus 1Q 2011 & yet i alrdy spent lots of $$ like for my insurance, & other commitments... nvm... i'll b workin & earnin $$ soon in a few months time...
Saturday, 26 March 2011
late info
it's a bit late info but oh well...
wohoo... convo is on 28/7 2pm... yay!!! can see d light at d end of d tunnel le... final sprint towards d end... & i managed to survive (in every aspects but most importantly financially. not easy to jus survive on my limited savings fr last time & doin some part time here n thr for all my daily expenses includin insurance, piano maintenace, bills, transports, foods, & even last time my piano lesson & music theory lesson fees & d exam fees... it's been a really tough 4 yrs.
& i oso b gg for a graduation trip... erm... actually not quite cos not go w friends but w my parents & dear... initially ask dear accompany me go a trip (w/o parents) cos v sian go w them when they not happy dis n tt but i hope this trip b better cos not f & e... dear suggest ask them along cos group tour oso need min 10 pax b4 d tour b a success. so add 2 of them den b higher chance of a success ba. so nw, i told myself. even if they not happy, i don care le. cos not my fault. not i plan one. haha. 3 meals sort of all provided so i oso no need bother if they when hungry, they don eat wat. hehe. i'm so lookin forward to d trip. oh. ya. blabbin so much but nvr say gg whr. b gg shanghai 8 days but in actual fact, it's jus 7 days w tour cos 1st day reach at night.
i'm happy but i'm oso drained... cant wake up these few weeks... jialet. not gd sign cos body really cannot take it. will i get to sleep all i wan aft i submit my thesis n done my poster presentation & b4 my grad trip? or will i end up doin more work at home... n will dad b angry i sleep more? haiz... tt's d other set of problem i'll b facin cos by den wat excuse can i give? i cant say busy w sch work or project le... damn... i need sleep...
wohoo... convo is on 28/7 2pm... yay!!! can see d light at d end of d tunnel le... final sprint towards d end... & i managed to survive (in every aspects but most importantly financially. not easy to jus survive on my limited savings fr last time & doin some part time here n thr for all my daily expenses includin insurance, piano maintenace, bills, transports, foods, & even last time my piano lesson & music theory lesson fees & d exam fees... it's been a really tough 4 yrs.
& i oso b gg for a graduation trip... erm... actually not quite cos not go w friends but w my parents & dear... initially ask dear accompany me go a trip (w/o parents) cos v sian go w them when they not happy dis n tt but i hope this trip b better cos not f & e... dear suggest ask them along cos group tour oso need min 10 pax b4 d tour b a success. so add 2 of them den b higher chance of a success ba. so nw, i told myself. even if they not happy, i don care le. cos not my fault. not i plan one. haha. 3 meals sort of all provided so i oso no need bother if they when hungry, they don eat wat. hehe. i'm so lookin forward to d trip. oh. ya. blabbin so much but nvr say gg whr. b gg shanghai 8 days but in actual fact, it's jus 7 days w tour cos 1st day reach at night.
i'm happy but i'm oso drained... cant wake up these few weeks... jialet. not gd sign cos body really cannot take it. will i get to sleep all i wan aft i submit my thesis n done my poster presentation & b4 my grad trip? or will i end up doin more work at home... n will dad b angry i sleep more? haiz... tt's d other set of problem i'll b facin cos by den wat excuse can i give? i cant say busy w sch work or project le... damn... i need sleep...
Sunday, 20 March 2011
cars
wat u think of cars? convenience? or is it not? think bout it...
in a way, havin a car means conveniences but d price to pay seemed quite high. jus imagine, nw my transportation is less than 100/mth but if u own a car, u would need 10x d amt needed by takin public transport. but d time save is oso much more if own a car cos no waitin time for public transport & so can slp more. however, when hit d road w jam, den tt's it, mayb mrt will b faster. but when in time of need like tt day when i forget to off a machine in d lab, if i got car, i can reach in 15 min but w/o, i would only reach in 1h. 45 min diff per trip = 1.5 hr in total leh...
last time, dad is d only close one who drive & he always go servicin, etc w/o me knowing. so i totally duno anything bout cars... i can try dismantle lock, unscrew things, try to unclog d draining pipe below d sink, etc... but i noe nothing about car n d mechanism on hw it works...
but in this 2 yrs aft i noe dear, i learn more bout it, or rather d prob tt might arise... i noe bout d ncd & for d insurance, & even after servicing oso gotta check properly cos wheel might roll off if nvr screw tight, hw small punctate can cos d rubber tyre to come off, 1st time experience in an accident (minor) & hw to go about d claim, etc. jus last week, i oso 1st time noe tt hole might happen somewhr in d car causin d 'floor' to b wet... i cant imagne whr till dear show me. many things is so unexpected if u nvr experience b4. oso learn fr dear on roughly wat is OMV, etc. felt so suaku but nvm, life is full of chances to learn new things b it minor or big... hehe...
so i guess in future, if i ever got 1k to spare, i oso wont go invest in any car. unless my job requires me to travel alot ard sg. if not, i would nvr ever get a car to give me all these prob.
in a way, havin a car means conveniences but d price to pay seemed quite high. jus imagine, nw my transportation is less than 100/mth but if u own a car, u would need 10x d amt needed by takin public transport. but d time save is oso much more if own a car cos no waitin time for public transport & so can slp more. however, when hit d road w jam, den tt's it, mayb mrt will b faster. but when in time of need like tt day when i forget to off a machine in d lab, if i got car, i can reach in 15 min but w/o, i would only reach in 1h. 45 min diff per trip = 1.5 hr in total leh...
last time, dad is d only close one who drive & he always go servicin, etc w/o me knowing. so i totally duno anything bout cars... i can try dismantle lock, unscrew things, try to unclog d draining pipe below d sink, etc... but i noe nothing about car n d mechanism on hw it works...
but in this 2 yrs aft i noe dear, i learn more bout it, or rather d prob tt might arise... i noe bout d ncd & for d insurance, & even after servicing oso gotta check properly cos wheel might roll off if nvr screw tight, hw small punctate can cos d rubber tyre to come off, 1st time experience in an accident (minor) & hw to go about d claim, etc. jus last week, i oso 1st time noe tt hole might happen somewhr in d car causin d 'floor' to b wet... i cant imagne whr till dear show me. many things is so unexpected if u nvr experience b4. oso learn fr dear on roughly wat is OMV, etc. felt so suaku but nvm, life is full of chances to learn new things b it minor or big... hehe...
so i guess in future, if i ever got 1k to spare, i oso wont go invest in any car. unless my job requires me to travel alot ard sg. if not, i would nvr ever get a car to give me all these prob.
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
blur n sucky day
gosh... i so blur... or mayb cos i multi-task till i blur. always was asked to do this n tt mayb jus cos i noe hw to juggle n catch d incubation time in btw to do others.
cos i don like to work till too late, always squeeze in n do many things at one short but of course puttin priority to those needed la.
end up, today after usin d FPLC machine, left it to wash in d afternoon n forgot bout it after do other experiments n d dental.
jus nw, d graduate student check if i got off it. initally, i jus tot tt d beaker collecting d waste would b overflowin n wonder if i should go back to off it. but aft thinkin, it's best to go n off it but not sure if she would go back or i would.
i cant say i got car but mayb i can sneak n drive dad's car out but surely, my parents b angry aft tt. but if i tell them, it's harder for me to drive back alone. n surely they would nag & grumble at me w/o knowin wat i'm gg thru all these while. d next solution i can think of is to get dear to drive me back. i noe he wont nag or scold me n b more than willin to send me back, it would oso make me feel bad cos he oso been v tired. if only he stay v v nearby den i can take his car out.
sometimes, i really wish i got a car or at least a van to drive but car is so exp. d monthly installment, d servicin, d insurance, d taxes, licences, maintenances, petrol, n not to say d other prob tt might happen. n car is jus too chim for me too. duno d mechanism so totally ve no idea waht might happen n wat cos wat...
anw, while i was waitin for reply to c if i should b gg back, my dad wanna swop back his spare phone w my spare phone. cos he more used to d alarm clock fr tt phone. n he asked me to transfer d pic fr his phone to d other. since i was copying usin d sd card fr d phone, i oso transfer pic taken fr d studio beginning this yr for him & set for him s wallpaper for his hp.
guess wat, when mum noe, she kept sayin, 'she do for u, nvr do for me, blah blah blah'. wah lan eh... dad's phone usin micro sd card n i got sd card reader n d sd/micro sd card adaptor so of course i cant transfer la. her phone is sony ericsson, use diff memory card so hw transfer. somemroe, my laptops both weren't installed w d connection softward for her phones. n somemore, i oso duno whr her cables r. n oso i usin iphone so hw to transfer photos to her phone when d bluetooth is diff. told dad to blue tooth d pic to mum's phone cos tt's d only way yet mum still repeatin n repeatedly say, 'she do for u, nvr do for me, blah blah blah'.
i hear le super vex. i cant help but told her staright not to say tt way cos it's really not i wan. i cant care if she get angry b'cos of tt. i alrdy do wat i can n more even. i told myself, i shall nvr do any of these extra things ever again. will jus do watever i'm being ask to will do. y put myself in such situation again.
say mum, she will angry, don say her, she kept sayin till i don wanna do for her n i did for dad or etc. i really had enough le. i don even have time to dig out older photos to put in dad's phone oso lor. those pic r wat i had in my laptop nw wor. n oso copied fr his phone. like tt oso wanna get jealous n not happy. win le lor...
next time, don complain tt i totally nvr do anything, i totally nvr 'care'. ^$*%^%(
cos i don like to work till too late, always squeeze in n do many things at one short but of course puttin priority to those needed la.
end up, today after usin d FPLC machine, left it to wash in d afternoon n forgot bout it after do other experiments n d dental.
jus nw, d graduate student check if i got off it. initally, i jus tot tt d beaker collecting d waste would b overflowin n wonder if i should go back to off it. but aft thinkin, it's best to go n off it but not sure if she would go back or i would.
i cant say i got car but mayb i can sneak n drive dad's car out but surely, my parents b angry aft tt. but if i tell them, it's harder for me to drive back alone. n surely they would nag & grumble at me w/o knowin wat i'm gg thru all these while. d next solution i can think of is to get dear to drive me back. i noe he wont nag or scold me n b more than willin to send me back, it would oso make me feel bad cos he oso been v tired. if only he stay v v nearby den i can take his car out.
sometimes, i really wish i got a car or at least a van to drive but car is so exp. d monthly installment, d servicin, d insurance, d taxes, licences, maintenances, petrol, n not to say d other prob tt might happen. n car is jus too chim for me too. duno d mechanism so totally ve no idea waht might happen n wat cos wat...
anw, while i was waitin for reply to c if i should b gg back, my dad wanna swop back his spare phone w my spare phone. cos he more used to d alarm clock fr tt phone. n he asked me to transfer d pic fr his phone to d other. since i was copying usin d sd card fr d phone, i oso transfer pic taken fr d studio beginning this yr for him & set for him s wallpaper for his hp.
guess wat, when mum noe, she kept sayin, 'she do for u, nvr do for me, blah blah blah'. wah lan eh... dad's phone usin micro sd card n i got sd card reader n d sd/micro sd card adaptor so of course i cant transfer la. her phone is sony ericsson, use diff memory card so hw transfer. somemroe, my laptops both weren't installed w d connection softward for her phones. n somemore, i oso duno whr her cables r. n oso i usin iphone so hw to transfer photos to her phone when d bluetooth is diff. told dad to blue tooth d pic to mum's phone cos tt's d only way yet mum still repeatin n repeatedly say, 'she do for u, nvr do for me, blah blah blah'.
i hear le super vex. i cant help but told her staright not to say tt way cos it's really not i wan. i cant care if she get angry b'cos of tt. i alrdy do wat i can n more even. i told myself, i shall nvr do any of these extra things ever again. will jus do watever i'm being ask to will do. y put myself in such situation again.
say mum, she will angry, don say her, she kept sayin till i don wanna do for her n i did for dad or etc. i really had enough le. i don even have time to dig out older photos to put in dad's phone oso lor. those pic r wat i had in my laptop nw wor. n oso copied fr his phone. like tt oso wanna get jealous n not happy. win le lor...
next time, don complain tt i totally nvr do anything, i totally nvr 'care'. ^$*%^%(
dentist visits
i swear i would nvr ever go back to d dentist in my sch anymore le... nvr ever again...
last time, i went, i felt pain cos of d round mirror held by d dentist on my gums s he did d cleanin, etc n alrdy not happy w d service le. but still i gave 1 more chance since i oso like to ve my tooth clean.
guess wat happen ytd. fr my memory, i rmbr tt my appt is ytd mornin n i free so i don mind gg back but den when i call to cfm, d assistant told me 2.50 pm n since got bit of time, i still go but den realized tt my time is actually 9 am while another hs is at 2.50 pm. cant they check properly. surely not 2 HS got same surname even if, highly fr diff sch wat...
anw, it's cheaper than outside but basically only for ~15 min. initially will do ok. but i noe s it got ltr, cleanin not s long s d start on each tooth. but i don expect it to b so bad tt aft d cleanin, i can still feel something stuck in btw my tooth even w/o usin my tongue to feel it. end up, guess wat? i use floss n pick out vege fr btw tt tooth. pls la. vege leh, it's green leh, tooth r white wor. so obvious, not those white white stuff, meaty stuff wor.
wat i sian more is tt, initially after dentist looked into my mouth, he said review 6 mth ltr den c hw & so b jus doing clenain ytd. n aft he reach my top row of tooth, he den say, cannot wait 6 mth. d back of my front tooth not so gd condition & need patch up. -.-" s a dentist, if u cant cfm initially, den don say lah. WTH
if not cos my d back of my front tooth r not in gd condition n need patch up, i wont go back again. manage to fix today for tt appt. went back. guess wat... d whole process, i heard countless of 'sorry' fr d dentist aft i felt pain fr my gum. n actually, i think nw, got bit of d patch work chip off.
enough is enough. i'm not gonna go back unless dis patch work don last s it should. so pls b warn... esp for those who nvr go to d dentist in ntu, pls pls don ever go to d dentist thr... really cannot make it.
last time, i went, i felt pain cos of d round mirror held by d dentist on my gums s he did d cleanin, etc n alrdy not happy w d service le. but still i gave 1 more chance since i oso like to ve my tooth clean.
guess wat happen ytd. fr my memory, i rmbr tt my appt is ytd mornin n i free so i don mind gg back but den when i call to cfm, d assistant told me 2.50 pm n since got bit of time, i still go but den realized tt my time is actually 9 am while another hs is at 2.50 pm. cant they check properly. surely not 2 HS got same surname even if, highly fr diff sch wat...
anw, it's cheaper than outside but basically only for ~15 min. initially will do ok. but i noe s it got ltr, cleanin not s long s d start on each tooth. but i don expect it to b so bad tt aft d cleanin, i can still feel something stuck in btw my tooth even w/o usin my tongue to feel it. end up, guess wat? i use floss n pick out vege fr btw tt tooth. pls la. vege leh, it's green leh, tooth r white wor. so obvious, not those white white stuff, meaty stuff wor.
wat i sian more is tt, initially after dentist looked into my mouth, he said review 6 mth ltr den c hw & so b jus doing clenain ytd. n aft he reach my top row of tooth, he den say, cannot wait 6 mth. d back of my front tooth not so gd condition & need patch up. -.-" s a dentist, if u cant cfm initially, den don say lah. WTH
if not cos my d back of my front tooth r not in gd condition n need patch up, i wont go back again. manage to fix today for tt appt. went back. guess wat... d whole process, i heard countless of 'sorry' fr d dentist aft i felt pain fr my gum. n actually, i think nw, got bit of d patch work chip off.
enough is enough. i'm not gonna go back unless dis patch work don last s it should. so pls b warn... esp for those who nvr go to d dentist in ntu, pls pls don ever go to d dentist thr... really cannot make it.
Sunday, 13 March 2011
eeky, peelin hands
gosh... aft wks of being assigned to wash d bathrm every weekends, think my palms & fingers gettin more n more fragile.
last time when i was workin, i do wash d bathrm & clean d hse once a while. but thr is a period whr i woke up much much earlier daily to sweep & mop d floor & hang d done laundry cos tt time i v sian when my mum kept black face aft doin d biz but they ended it le.
oh well, since i started sch, i only once a blue moon tidy up my 2 rms until recently when mum asked me to wash d bathrm on weekly basis.
i had a habit. if i don do, den i will close an eye till i cant take d state of hw d bathrm is. jus like my mum's bathrm. d mirror & d inside got d black slimy stuff & it's gettin more n more but since they can accept, i leave it s it is. however, i simply cannot accept d bathrm to b in tt state so i would clean d common bathrm, d 1 i used more often, when i really cant close an eye anymore.
nw tt i'm asked to wash on weekly basis, i oso have a habit. if i wanna do, den i do it proper. cannot anyhw do. so though i do weekly, i wont jus 随随便便 wash. but i should say i alrdy not s 'strict' s last time when i do once a blue moon & esp when cny is ard d corner. tt time, i really scrub every inch & every corner. & brushed d edge of d tiles w old & unwanted toothbrush so last time i can take hours washin a bathrm. n tt time, to clean thoroughly, i oso would use stronger detergent & i really manage to scrub d blackend wall tiles edge to become white.
even if i not s particular s last time, i still scrub & clean everywhere i can. 1st wk, i can feel my hands dry aft washin so i applied lotion & hands ok. but s it progress on, last wk realized tt my hands started peelin but dis week it had gotten worse.
jus nw, saw my hands in d state which i feel so eeky... it's peelin worse than last week. last week don look obvious but nw it's is so so obvious. d dry flaky skin looked so 'hairy'. d whole hand feel so rough. & it's peelin esp fr d bendable area & yet cant really peel all out. hw i wish i m like a snake whr d whole dried & dead skin can jus peel off leavin a whole new skin. at least it wont look & feel in such terrible state like nw.
i hope sometime in dis whole week (weekday), i got time go find & buy a box of latex glove (small size) so i can use b4 d next washin. i noe it may not help 100% cos surely water & detergent will flow in somehw fr d opening since it's not coverin d whole hand but at least should b better. anw, this kind of glove at least won't make me feel so retarded & clumsy s those normal, thick & big glove sold outside for washin.
hw i wish thr is a cleanin solution tt is strong & gd enough to wash d bathrm & yet not damagin to skin...
last time when i was workin, i do wash d bathrm & clean d hse once a while. but thr is a period whr i woke up much much earlier daily to sweep & mop d floor & hang d done laundry cos tt time i v sian when my mum kept black face aft doin d biz but they ended it le.
oh well, since i started sch, i only once a blue moon tidy up my 2 rms until recently when mum asked me to wash d bathrm on weekly basis.
i had a habit. if i don do, den i will close an eye till i cant take d state of hw d bathrm is. jus like my mum's bathrm. d mirror & d inside got d black slimy stuff & it's gettin more n more but since they can accept, i leave it s it is. however, i simply cannot accept d bathrm to b in tt state so i would clean d common bathrm, d 1 i used more often, when i really cant close an eye anymore.
nw tt i'm asked to wash on weekly basis, i oso have a habit. if i wanna do, den i do it proper. cannot anyhw do. so though i do weekly, i wont jus 随随便便 wash. but i should say i alrdy not s 'strict' s last time when i do once a blue moon & esp when cny is ard d corner. tt time, i really scrub every inch & every corner. & brushed d edge of d tiles w old & unwanted toothbrush so last time i can take hours washin a bathrm. n tt time, to clean thoroughly, i oso would use stronger detergent & i really manage to scrub d blackend wall tiles edge to become white.
even if i not s particular s last time, i still scrub & clean everywhere i can. 1st wk, i can feel my hands dry aft washin so i applied lotion & hands ok. but s it progress on, last wk realized tt my hands started peelin but dis week it had gotten worse.
jus nw, saw my hands in d state which i feel so eeky... it's peelin worse than last week. last week don look obvious but nw it's is so so obvious. d dry flaky skin looked so 'hairy'. d whole hand feel so rough. & it's peelin esp fr d bendable area & yet cant really peel all out. hw i wish i m like a snake whr d whole dried & dead skin can jus peel off leavin a whole new skin. at least it wont look & feel in such terrible state like nw.
i hope sometime in dis whole week (weekday), i got time go find & buy a box of latex glove (small size) so i can use b4 d next washin. i noe it may not help 100% cos surely water & detergent will flow in somehw fr d opening since it's not coverin d whole hand but at least should b better. anw, this kind of glove at least won't make me feel so retarded & clumsy s those normal, thick & big glove sold outside for washin.
hw i wish thr is a cleanin solution tt is strong & gd enough to wash d bathrm & yet not damagin to skin...
Saturday, 12 March 2011
Friday, 11 March 2011
weight gain/loss
my body weight been movin up & down... actually it was gg up since sec sch & maintained ard thr till ard 2008-09 when i lose my appetite for quite a while. my weight dropped to ard 5 kg then but this 1 yr or so, slowly gain back ard 2-3 kg.
however, d recent 病 cos me to at times got no appetite again & end up nw, my weight dropped back another 2-3 kg.
recently, it's like i can b hungry but after i eat like 1/2 way, no more appetite to finish & had to struggle to finish. if not den totally don feel like eatin. but at times, i still can eat like norm. & sometimes, i get hungry late at nite too but i refrain fr eatin so late unless really v hungry. so by right d next mornin i should b hungry oso right? but den no loh. when i wake up, i no appetite again & not feelin hungry oso. weird... so i nvr finish my breakfast most of d time, at times don even complete 1/2.
anw, weight loss oso mayb cos i prep simple simple dinner for ownself ba. cos if i cook rice w 1 dish, i oso can save $$. but will become day in day out, steam egg, can campbelle's soup, can sardine, fried egg... sometimes if tired, will end up eatin instant noodle oso.
it's not easy to cfm wat time i can go back daily so best not to end up get mum buy or cook or else she will keep askin me & callin me all d time to cfm. i noe she care but den it's addin me pressure tt i must go back eat even if late, etc. w/o cfm w her, i got more flexible time.
anw, jus hope my weight don go any lower or wont hit healthy BMI... i no intention to lose weight. i jus wanna tone my tummy, & d flabby muscles lah... lol...
however, d recent 病 cos me to at times got no appetite again & end up nw, my weight dropped back another 2-3 kg.
recently, it's like i can b hungry but after i eat like 1/2 way, no more appetite to finish & had to struggle to finish. if not den totally don feel like eatin. but at times, i still can eat like norm. & sometimes, i get hungry late at nite too but i refrain fr eatin so late unless really v hungry. so by right d next mornin i should b hungry oso right? but den no loh. when i wake up, i no appetite again & not feelin hungry oso. weird... so i nvr finish my breakfast most of d time, at times don even complete 1/2.
anw, weight loss oso mayb cos i prep simple simple dinner for ownself ba. cos if i cook rice w 1 dish, i oso can save $$. but will become day in day out, steam egg, can campbelle's soup, can sardine, fried egg... sometimes if tired, will end up eatin instant noodle oso.
it's not easy to cfm wat time i can go back daily so best not to end up get mum buy or cook or else she will keep askin me & callin me all d time to cfm. i noe she care but den it's addin me pressure tt i must go back eat even if late, etc. w/o cfm w her, i got more flexible time.
anw, jus hope my weight don go any lower or wont hit healthy BMI... i no intention to lose weight. i jus wanna tone my tummy, & d flabby muscles lah... lol...
Monday, 7 March 2011
Chris Medina - What Are Words
What are words – Chris Medina
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close
indeed, words will jus b words if they had no meaning behind... it'll b so empty... if one don mean it, den don say it since thr is no meaning behind d words.
1st run of d yr
had my 1st run of d yr. & oso since most prob a yr ago. weaker stamina than b4 but i oso not sure if oso due to me haven really recover fr d stupid 病... actually, last wk, alrdy had d mood to wanna run for at least 3 of d days but cos i was coughin, decided not to.
wonder y i suddenly wanna go run again? i guess i been hearin too much of it in d lab cos my lab friends often go run tgt in d late late afternoon ba. anw, i cant join them cos d distance they run is ~5km w numerous slopes. i noe my limit. i don ve such stamina yet so i don wanna strain & aggravate my right hip problem. i had enough of d pain & discomfort. anw, not only fr my lab friends but oso fr dear who oso been running.
d other reason is oso to be healthier & oso to let time passed more easily when i'm more free. actually, i miss d weekly swim w my friends long time ago. if not cos i still a learner & d time tt i can swim is when d crowds come, i guess i might oso go swimming oso.
to think of it, when is d last time which i really exercise? i bet it's when i was in pri & sec sch & when i was in d jc 3 mth course & when i was still in wushu till dec 2000 ba. & my injury might oso b cos by wushu too.
& cos of d pain, i stopped exercisin till b4 i join d dance gp in 2005. tt time, s i kept falling sick, decided to start running weekly to b healthier till i join d dance gp. it's oso in d gp tt i realized tt d hip pain is cos by strenous exercise.
anw, since i join d gp, i stopped running again until last yr, i ran but never continue again when my dance gp oso started a running exercise. den i stopped completely when i didn't ve time to go for trg.
tt time i can still run ~1.6 km non-stopped. but jus nw, bit struggling even ard 400 m but i pressed on till i hit 1km b4 i walked for 200m den made myself run again for another 400 m. wat's d pt if i wanna stop thr. may s well don start d run. since i wanna start, den at least complete a min of 1.6 km w min walking. i hope i wont give up again & press on to continue to build up my stamina. shall aim to continue to strengthen myself & to hit 2.4 km n beyond w/o walking & to gain on my speed ba. i noe age not like when i in sec sch or jc but tt time i can press on & end up finishin 2.4 in 15+ min when initially, i near failure when i was in sec 1, i guess, i can slowly build up my stamina.
wonder y i suddenly wanna go run again? i guess i been hearin too much of it in d lab cos my lab friends often go run tgt in d late late afternoon ba. anw, i cant join them cos d distance they run is ~5km w numerous slopes. i noe my limit. i don ve such stamina yet so i don wanna strain & aggravate my right hip problem. i had enough of d pain & discomfort. anw, not only fr my lab friends but oso fr dear who oso been running.
d other reason is oso to be healthier & oso to let time passed more easily when i'm more free. actually, i miss d weekly swim w my friends long time ago. if not cos i still a learner & d time tt i can swim is when d crowds come, i guess i might oso go swimming oso.
to think of it, when is d last time which i really exercise? i bet it's when i was in pri & sec sch & when i was in d jc 3 mth course & when i was still in wushu till dec 2000 ba. & my injury might oso b cos by wushu too.
& cos of d pain, i stopped exercisin till b4 i join d dance gp in 2005. tt time, s i kept falling sick, decided to start running weekly to b healthier till i join d dance gp. it's oso in d gp tt i realized tt d hip pain is cos by strenous exercise.
anw, since i join d gp, i stopped running again until last yr, i ran but never continue again when my dance gp oso started a running exercise. den i stopped completely when i didn't ve time to go for trg.
tt time i can still run ~1.6 km non-stopped. but jus nw, bit struggling even ard 400 m but i pressed on till i hit 1km b4 i walked for 200m den made myself run again for another 400 m. wat's d pt if i wanna stop thr. may s well don start d run. since i wanna start, den at least complete a min of 1.6 km w min walking. i hope i wont give up again & press on to continue to build up my stamina. shall aim to continue to strengthen myself & to hit 2.4 km n beyond w/o walking & to gain on my speed ba. i noe age not like when i in sec sch or jc but tt time i can press on & end up finishin 2.4 in 15+ min when initially, i near failure when i was in sec 1, i guess, i can slowly build up my stamina.
Sunday, 6 March 2011
因果
i suddenly tot of dis. 1 may ve $$ & can live in bigger hse. yes u can get a hse w $$ but can u get a home? d more $$ u ve doesn't mean u'll ve a great home. u cant buy a home w $$ & likewise u can't buy love & feelings w $$.
yet sad to say, ppl r really workin so hard for $$ in order to survive in dis era. ppl r fightin for power, ppl r tryin to get more $$ & yet try to siam & push things for others to do.
sad to say, there r diff btw ppl oso. some can b so thick-skinned to push things ard & yet get away w it while some responsible chap will end up doin more things. life is jus so unfair. & ppl r jus a slavery of $$...
no matter what u work s, upper most mgmt lvl or s a cleaner, etc. everybody r workin so hard & d more harder u work, d more diff it is btw d rich & d poor cos d rate of $ income increase is jus so diff. d rich ppl will live more n more comfortably while d poor is always sufferin & strugglin to manage their own lives. & yet d expenses is forever increasing. housin, coe, food, sch fees, basic necessities. & oso hw much increment can 1 get yrly? esp esp for d lower income workers.
hw many a time can 1 really sit down & relax w/o workin ur brain & worrying bout anything? i guess mayb when u r lying in ur coffin, buried 6 ft underneath. i rather not b born in this world actually.
well, d other reason is oso cos human r always not satisfied. they would want more things at d end of d day & so keep carry on to work & work to satisfy their needs. & cos thr is such needs, thr d demand & so d supply & tt marked up d cost of living to. so in a way, can say 自作自受 but oso can say 害人害己. ppl r really sufferin nw fr wat they had sow. 因果ah... 有因必有果...
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