crazy weekend

it'd been a crazy weekend though many might b in celebration mood.

sat, mum received a call tt her sis aka my godma fainted n fall at work n was bleeding lot so we rushed down. end up it's not bleedin but a hug swell at back of her head. tt's y i don like words tt r passed down.

d story we found out was tt godma was at work n den they heard loud bang n found her on d floor. they tried to wake her up for quite a while n den brought her to clinic downstair to c doc. godma vomitted at clinic n doc referred her to nuh. d supervisor called my grandma to ask her to bring my godma to hospital so grandma called my mum instead. n durin journey to nuh, godma vomited twice again.

when i initially heard bleedin, i asked y d supervisor n colleagues nvr call ambulance. den when heard she vomitted n when doc refer her to nuh, y nobody call for ambulance again. next qs i ask is, y they call my grandma, my godma is alrdy in her 60s n grandma in 80s. my grandma is alrdy old n hw she got d strength to support my godma who is still giddy n blur n in tt condition. furthermore, hw my grandma noe hwo to admit my godma at d hosp even if they get a cab to go nuh.

when i heard tt they tried to wake her up for quite sometime, i asked next qs, y they nvr call hospital immediatley? or get d doc fr d clinic downstair up to check on her? den i found out tt actually d supervisor actually still wanted to bring my godma to company clinic elsewhr when actually thr is a clinic downstair only. -.-"

mayb i got my trainin in sjab, mayb cos i worked b4 n i noe thr should ve a risk assessment n sop to deal w such situation. so i felt tt my godma's workplace's safety is really bad. n when d supervisor came to visit my godma n saw all of us thr, she can try to comfort us by telling us not to worry so much but instead, she said 'don worry so much, she looked v well, her color tone is norm, she is ok'. F*** la, if she really ok, she wont b in hospital, bedridden w tag of high risk of fall n admitted to d 'icu' for d cardiac patient n she wont need temp pacer to control her heart beat le.

oh. anw, tt day godma was admitted, we waited quite a while n end up didn't cos dad call it a day sayin tt it oso shall b a lesson for godma s no one 'visit' her s she always ignore her doc advice to cut down on certain food for her hypertension n chloesterol. but i felt bad cos godma jus got divorce recently n she had no child n she quite dote me.

tt evening (sat), hospital called n say they moved her to d 'icu' cos found her heart got 2nd deg block (heard fr d hospital staff). n sun mornin, heard fr mum tt godma called grandma n said middle of night her heart stop beatin. my heart skipped a beat den but though i was skeptical cos thru words of mouth, hw can i not b affected to hear tt heart of someone close to me stopped beating.

actually, it didn't stop but it was super weak. so i was more relieved cos i was so worried till i got panic attack earlier at dear's nanny's house cos they celebratin her nanny's birthday cum mother's day n i skipped lunch w them. dear oso accompany me n skipped d lunch. really thank him for his company.

n nw, when i c miss call, i would feel v uneasy cos w someone close n w heart prob in d hospital, it's really scary to see calls esp unknown no or calls at unexpected time. think i'm freak out.

i guess for these few days or so, i might b running fr home to sch den to nuh n vice versa. i jus hope tt godma b ok aft they implant a perm pacemaker for her. n den prob i would oso ve clear up my poster oso.

luckily my prof quite nice to sit w us n edit our thesis n oso to look at d poster. if not i might gg even crazier. n oso luckily i started my poster early. i got my 2nd draft out le but today no time to show him. i jus basically go n hand in my thesis hardcopy to him n leave aft i go w dear for his medical checkup den print d thesis.

while worried for my godma, dear brought me to watch a movie but i was bit too tired tt i dozed off once a while for few min. n den send me over to hospital aft hearin tt d doc wanted to speak w someone. thks dear dear. ur effort is registered in my memory le.

sorry to those who read this, it's v not oriented well cos i not really thinking well. paiseh. d flow is everywhere.