aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! suddenly feel like screamin... screamin my heart out... screamin my lungs out... cos of a no of reasons...
since jus b4 sch reopen, nose started unwell... den cold & feverish, & occassional headache & today stomach ache durin lecture. read d 2010 prediction for pig & said tt grades could improve but health would b a hinderin pro... wth... seemed like really true.
somemore, ytd right hip doesn't feel tt right again. luckily today got better. i phobia of havin pain till i cant even walk properly & stand up straight... so health do have become a hinderin pro for me... sighed...
tt's not d main reason y i wanna scream la... it's cos of a 臭男人... no. no. no. not my bf. he'd been treatin me v well. it's my godma's hubby la... at 1st wanna hush hush cos it's their personal pro but i cant take it anymore. no whr to let it out le...
few yrs ago, my godma noe of her hubby at work & they got tgt. Dec 07, they ROM & she moved in w him. few mths ago, she found tt he got mistress(es) & he admitted. wanted to chase her away. brought mistress back & mess up d rm & bathrm. well, till nw, i heard he actually knew his mistress b4 ROM w my godma. so i pity her. but she doesn't seemed to help herself...
oso pity my mum. she v suay... keep seein d guy & his mistress pretty frequently recently. even at d ulu ten mile junction, in lrt, etc oso can bump into him. guess wat. he go back always scold my godma say my mum go catch him. den godma will always call & scold mum. tt's y i say she not helpin herself.
furthermore, her colleagues noe & saw tt he always sms while workin & snap pic of tt wantin to complain to his superior but godma begged them not to. she even wanted to resign so she could b w him but hw can all d time somemroe, if he wanna go, she can nvr do anything. so she must think of way to take care of herself rather than savin tt asshole lo...
mum nvr do anything yet always kanna scolded by her. ten mile junction, other shoppin ctr, lrt, etc r public places, & only god noe whr he will be wat.
today mum v aggitated. cos early mornin, my grandma called & scold her & asked her over immediately. reason: tt asshole said my mum go gossip & tell her friend workin at YT. please la. my mum do like to talk. may only gossip at most w her friend whom she always chat on phone. tt friend not stayin at YT & oso wont go thr oso lo.
so end up, my grandma & godma don wanna listen to my mum & keep scoldin her. think she told dad so he went to look for tt asshole to talk talk. i do pity my mum but i dun understand her oso. she shld avoid topic related to him w my godma & grandma & yet she go tell grandma tt my dad went to tok to him.
mum ended up aggitated again. this time, i think served her right. cos think grandma brought up d mornin issue again so she became v aggitated & loud. made me have mixed feelings. pity her yet feel she find trouble herself oso... make me feel so vexed...
hw gd it would b if i not at hm. if i can not b at hm. if i can go out. thr is no peace at hm. feel more vexed at home tt make me feel like cryin. feel like screamin, yet i cant. can only plug in ear phone & try to blast my ears, to blast my head, to blast my mind, to hope tt it'll overpower all d troubles and worries...
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