can i noe d truth?

I HATE IT WHENEVER SUCH HAPPENED OVER & OVER AGAIN...

can i, can i noe d truth? i wan d root of d pro. even if it's really my fault. jus tell me. at most i upset once & for all & noe wat's d pro & can change to be a better person.

i'm not s strong s wat i may show ppl. i got weak heart. i'm tired. i'm exhausted. mentally & physically. had i take too much responsibilities & thus not doin well enuf for all? i'm overly pushin myself for wat?

if i noe wat's d pro, den mayb u oso wont feel so easily vexed & thus d mood swing. den mayb i wont stress to stay hm. if i noe what i can improve.

do u noe i last nite actually got bad dream cos of ur mood swing. my dreams had been either evolved ard doin sch work, study, being late, stress over nappin or ur mood swing.... if only i'm a robot. jus need plug power to charge. den no need close my eyes to sleep & so no bad dreams

met accident i oso not scare or stress like tt. i'm really too tired. d watch which i like, though it's a cheap watch since pri sch, & when u told me it got spoilt cos wash in my pants in d washin machine, i oso no feelin. see cockroach in front i oso hack care le. tt's hw tired i'm. all these r nothing. but i still a human. not numb. not a robot. not iron woman. i still ve my heart. i don wanna end up depression & end up havin to pop pills or even end up in IMH. jus tell me wat's wrong. i cant take it any further... i don wanna be d next 'super woman' in d news.