Thanks Dear

last nite, hug onto my big bear & cried to slp & dis mornin was feelin slightly better. but found out tt mum's door was locked made me feel slightly more upset again.

in d end, s i was outside, i called d auntie to check if she had any idea wat my mum was upset about. i noe i will end up cryin & upset but i still wanna noe wat's wrong. so in d end, i sort of cried fr d journey fr jurong onwards s i called d auntie then. i was actually on my way home then but i ended up askin dear to stop over somewhr s i was still on d phone.

i'm really glad tt dear was ard. i was still cryin when i put down d phone & he immediately extended his arm to hug me & patted my back trying to coax me. he was also affected by seein hw upset i was & yet he was still thoughtful to suggest to go to d coffeeshop to drink something s 1 look at me, could tell tt i'd cried.

when i got home, mum was not in. i was worried for her esp when i noe tt she had told d auntie tt she wanted to run away before. yet i was scared of callin her if she was still unhappy but dear encourage me to call.

after dinner outside w parents, they wanted to go IMM & asked if we wanted to go back 1st. usually we wld go back 1st esp since ytd we jus went thr but dear oso noe tt my mum was unhappy, he agreed to go & so we basically jus walked ard every level, even d furnitures & reno area while waiting for parents to call me. in d end, they somehw ended up behind us for quite a while but not sure when.

well, i'm jus a norm gal who jus need a simple life w/o havin to go thru all these repeated tremors. if can, i wanna give up on air con, tv, vcr, etc... i can even slp on d floor & simply eat plain bread daily. all i need is peace & if it's my fault, jus tell me so i can change & settled everything once & for all. even till nw, i cant say i'm really ok. i'm still cryin & bleedin in my heart but at least d flow rate had decreased v much.

anw, dear's care & concern & thoughtfulness had always made a vast difference fr home. & he's always thr for me when i'm down even not physically if tt's not possible due to work or we r both at hm. i'm sorry for always being so emotional & crying so v often. it's really hard to ctrl esp when u r hurt but i will try to cheer up more. dear, thanks for being patient w me & takin care of me & treatin me well. even auntie oso could tell tt u r treatin me well, & said tt it was even better than my mum. thanks!!! i love you.