holidays

d trip should help me recharge but however, on last day, my mind sub-consiously rmbr tt i wld come back & so ended up 'dreamin' & think i heard noise outside & tt was dad who had woken up. think i really too stress at hm... & tt short getaway didn't help change much. haiz...

anw, heard of 'gd' news. mum checked w aunt & tot of gg a few days trip in d beginnin of dec since aunt is on leaves. she tot of gg penang, desaru, genting, phuket or cruise. she asked if i wanna go but i cant... i got sch. haha. at 1st i tot d chances might b less than 40% since i cant go. in d end, jus nw she told dear. so i suppose d chances wld b slightly higher.

she said tt she worried my safety esp since d ITE opp is up. well, even b4 tt, they wld think of other reasons to say but jus nw, she said if she gg, she told dear to come accompany me. if they really go then, den mayb if i gg sch, mayb i can take dad's car. i oso got evil tots. to go out & stay out late since hard to get d chance but i guess i wont unless necessary & unless it's w dear. exams wld b near anw & furthermore, it wld also be a rare chance for me to really rest but hopefully i had not been too conditioned with the fear of stayin at hm. i hope i can unconditioned myself by then.

i hope i can hear a confirmation of such 'gd' news. at least i wld noe tt my parents r independent & not so dependent & reliant on me & my presence. esp when plannin & gg holi w them was a tough chore for me.

anw, i think i got in love w tourin... w right ppl, it can really let me relax & forget every other things. i hope i can get a getaway again soon. not sure how much possible if durin d term break fr 16 oct to 24 oct but i hope can at least get another at d end of d yr or latest beginning beginning next yr b4 d commencement of my fyp. i bet aft fyp started, d next possible timin for trip would be aft my fyp & tt is if i didn't get a job by then. otherwise... d other chances wld be short getaway durin weekends or long weekends (r thr any?)