hmm... jus pack my files w all my cert aft gettin my cert of graduation fr my dance gp at beginnin this mth... realized something. b it big or small, impt or unimpt, i actually got cert every yr fr yr 1994 till 2008 except for 2009 & 2010.
so 2009 & 2010 i didnt accomplish anything??? eerr... actually, on serious note, by right should ve graduated fr dance gp in 2010 but got delayed due to d xmas day performance so i should only say just left 2009?
so i didn't accomplish anything in 2009? not exactly again cos i had a breakthrough to b a emcee for d 1st time & it's in front of ~300+ ppl for a weddin banquet.
however, sad to say, not all things will ve d so call certificate to proof wat u had done. & seein d empty 2009 & 2010 cert did sadden me in a way cos d trend of cert collection yrly was broken. but nvm tt. so wat if thr r so many cert? hw many r useful when i seachin for my future job? guess d main r my 'o' lvl cert, my poly cert & my uni cert ba. & at most my testimonials.
if i apply for job beyond my field of study, mayb a few other cert might b useful but tt oso depend on wat type of job. but still some cert r useless... though i work hard. wat u may like b4 may not b of help nw.
like i like maths last time, represent sch go other sch for comp but jus get a cert of participation. so wat if i got a prize? so wat if i top sch for maths? w jus an expire maths, wat job can i find?
& i was in uniform gp, was in sjab & cant go for camp. parents did allow eventually but they kept scarin me till i got panick attack & dare not go. so, i was jus a small fry & yet hold many positions like logistic, secretary, public duty, first aid i/c, etc which my sch only recognize 1 which was 'climb' to d top which was secretary cos d rest were jus an assistant. so wat? w effort done, i jus got a b3 for my eca. anw, think of it, even if i got A, so wat again? wat i'll b doing next? will i need d knowledge of 1st aid? do i need to lead ppl? do i ve wat it takes to lead ppl? i not in nursin, i not a paramedic, so wat i'd again might not b of use...
& next. so wat when i got a grade 5 piano & music theory cert? can i teach & earn extra w tt? no. can i perform to earn? no. can i use it for job hunt? no. will i need for job in my field or sales or admin? no. it end up jus for recretion only.
so all in all, havin so many cert oso no use. it only show tt i'm a master of none. but at least will ve a decently professionalism which is bio sci ba. but still, if u ask me do, ok but if u ask me theory. i'm dead again.
& so, seeing my rojak cert made me feel more demoralize actually unlike when i was a fresh graduate from poly. so much optimistic to think tt this might help, tt might do. but nw. aft facin d harsh reality, know d impossibility unless miracle.
Monday, 31 January 2011
irritating, thick skinned, selfish ppl
i don understand... y thr r such irritatin & thick skinned ppl ard... i agreed w d prof who wanted anyone to jus clear d waste bag once full & though i m jus a fyp student, i still did it... anw, it's not d 1st time i did this kinda rubbish work le. i did for 4 yrs when i was still workin b4 i came back to study, clearin all d bags of rubbish which d students dump.
anw, thr is an autoclave rm at b1 unlike last time when i'd to autoclave to sterilize all d waste myself so jus nw, seein d bin was full, i changed a new bag.
actually, thr was a duty rooster in d lab. each wk, some1, graduate student/staff, would clear it esp to write d necessary info & bring downstair. & apparently, i was doin right beside d graduate student, ZH, & she treat s if nothing had happened. nvm tt. i oso duno she was d 1 but seein d bin full & can't throw anymore so i clear & ask d 1 i was under on wat to write. was told tt it was ZH's turn & since i alrdy clear, all i ve to do is to ask her to write & prob send down. Don need her to clear d bins le but den...
when ask ZH, she act blur like duno wat happen & y she need to write. & she still asked if it's her turn & she still ask if another graduate student had done yet. i alrdy help her to clear d bin & tie up leh. she alrdy is in advantage & yet still wanna push to this & tt... & she den act act n see see & say, 'oh u alrdy do ah? den u put thr loh'. didn't even bother to thk me. i did not jus 1 bag beside her. i did 2 bags right beside her leh. auntie, r u too much???
everything oso wan ppl let u use 1st. everything oso want d best. scare ppl take ur things. r u a prof? r u a president? r u a queen? u r jus a graduate students like 2 others in d lab lah. & u r not even graduating yet loh. wat's so big deal bout ur project? u gonna find some breakthru for d whole world? if not den shut up lah. ppl cannoy put things on ur desk but u can put urs on others? u r a selfish old hag lah... u r not so old but ur doing is makin u looks really old & ugly fr within.
anw, thr is an autoclave rm at b1 unlike last time when i'd to autoclave to sterilize all d waste myself so jus nw, seein d bin was full, i changed a new bag.
actually, thr was a duty rooster in d lab. each wk, some1, graduate student/staff, would clear it esp to write d necessary info & bring downstair. & apparently, i was doin right beside d graduate student, ZH, & she treat s if nothing had happened. nvm tt. i oso duno she was d 1 but seein d bin full & can't throw anymore so i clear & ask d 1 i was under on wat to write. was told tt it was ZH's turn & since i alrdy clear, all i ve to do is to ask her to write & prob send down. Don need her to clear d bins le but den...
when ask ZH, she act blur like duno wat happen & y she need to write. & she still asked if it's her turn & she still ask if another graduate student had done yet. i alrdy help her to clear d bin & tie up leh. she alrdy is in advantage & yet still wanna push to this & tt... & she den act act n see see & say, 'oh u alrdy do ah? den u put thr loh'. didn't even bother to thk me. i did not jus 1 bag beside her. i did 2 bags right beside her leh. auntie, r u too much???
everything oso wan ppl let u use 1st. everything oso want d best. scare ppl take ur things. r u a prof? r u a president? r u a queen? u r jus a graduate students like 2 others in d lab lah. & u r not even graduating yet loh. wat's so big deal bout ur project? u gonna find some breakthru for d whole world? if not den shut up lah. ppl cannoy put things on ur desk but u can put urs on others? u r a selfish old hag lah... u r not so old but ur doing is makin u looks really old & ugly fr within.
Sunday, 30 January 2011
a lost dragonfly
1 aft another...
b4 my tummy got any much better... saw something fly into my rm. tot was d small beetle so ignore but d sound really irritate me cos it's late at nite & i don like d fear tt it'll fly to me in d middle of d nite so turn to look ard for tt 'beetle', wantin to grab a plastic bag to catch it & dump it outside.
in d end, wat i saw was not d usual beetle i always encounter. it's a dragonfly!!! OMG!!! a big dragonfly jus flew into my rm. hw to catch it? it'll bound it fly ard if i try to catch it w a ntuc plastic bag & d probability of touchin me is super high s compared to catchin d small beetle w tt size of plastic bag. gosh...
plan A:
off d bedrm light
on d livin rm light, since it's not a pest, wont breed like tt, let my parents settle it d next mornin when they went into d livin rm ba.
& i left my window open so it can fly out too.
den i realized my laptop screen still on & i quickly off it.
so did it work? i tot it did cos i no hear anymore of d irritating flyin sound & so i tot i can slp in peace until a while ltr when i heard d irritatin flatterin of d wings again ard my wall mount fan. use torch to look carefully n saw it was caught behind d fan. cos it's not a pest, i didn't wanna harm it & yet i was worried it was alrdy injured. & so,
plan B:
off bedrm light
on livin rm light
window alrdy close. didn't wanna waste time open since probability of flyin to livin rm higher cos of d light
pulled my mattress away fr d wall cos if it was injured, it would fall. didn't wan it to land on my mattress or pillow or i'll ve to figure out hw to get rid of it & hw i slp ltr on?
den off my fan
outcome?
s i off my fan, saw my laptop screen still on. so, i quickly wanna off it but... it flew to my hand s i was tryin to off d screen. i got a 'heart attack' & almost scream out loud if it's not too late. s i jumped backwards, it fly & stop on my laptop. OMG!!! hw to off d screen? if don off, den will it stay thr whole night? den isn't it d same s slpin w it in my rm w d chances of kissin it in d middle of d nite.
so hw? parents said gd nite le, dear went back le. wat to do? lucky for me, saw parents rm light still on. so mum haven slp. ask her for help le cos no choice. mum caught it & let it out of my window but it flew back in & fly ard. aft much accomodation, mum re-caught it & let it off at d main door & off it went. *phew*
b4 my tummy got any much better... saw something fly into my rm. tot was d small beetle so ignore but d sound really irritate me cos it's late at nite & i don like d fear tt it'll fly to me in d middle of d nite so turn to look ard for tt 'beetle', wantin to grab a plastic bag to catch it & dump it outside.
in d end, wat i saw was not d usual beetle i always encounter. it's a dragonfly!!! OMG!!! a big dragonfly jus flew into my rm. hw to catch it? it'll bound it fly ard if i try to catch it w a ntuc plastic bag & d probability of touchin me is super high s compared to catchin d small beetle w tt size of plastic bag. gosh...
plan A:
off d bedrm light
on d livin rm light, since it's not a pest, wont breed like tt, let my parents settle it d next mornin when they went into d livin rm ba.
& i left my window open so it can fly out too.
den i realized my laptop screen still on & i quickly off it.
so did it work? i tot it did cos i no hear anymore of d irritating flyin sound & so i tot i can slp in peace until a while ltr when i heard d irritatin flatterin of d wings again ard my wall mount fan. use torch to look carefully n saw it was caught behind d fan. cos it's not a pest, i didn't wanna harm it & yet i was worried it was alrdy injured. & so,
plan B:
off bedrm light
on livin rm light
window alrdy close. didn't wanna waste time open since probability of flyin to livin rm higher cos of d light
pulled my mattress away fr d wall cos if it was injured, it would fall. didn't wan it to land on my mattress or pillow or i'll ve to figure out hw to get rid of it & hw i slp ltr on?
den off my fan
outcome?
s i off my fan, saw my laptop screen still on. so, i quickly wanna off it but... it flew to my hand s i was tryin to off d screen. i got a 'heart attack' & almost scream out loud if it's not too late. s i jumped backwards, it fly & stop on my laptop. OMG!!! hw to off d screen? if don off, den will it stay thr whole night? den isn't it d same s slpin w it in my rm w d chances of kissin it in d middle of d nite.
so hw? parents said gd nite le, dear went back le. wat to do? lucky for me, saw parents rm light still on. so mum haven slp. ask her for help le cos no choice. mum caught it & let it out of my window but it flew back in & fly ard. aft much accomodation, mum re-caught it & let it off at d main door & off it went. *phew*
overbloatedness
tummy weird since aft steamboat... believed it's cos by too full...
i understand tt parents wanted more ingredients & thus, much more food & try to clear s much s possible but tot they oso understood tt if full, tt's? esp aft let them noe tt dear went for endoscopy??? & since previous steamboat they nvr force us???
jus nw, dad took d pig kidney & left 3 & ask us to clear. & last time, he asked if we wan d prawn den put in but jus nw, he jus dump in & say each pax is 3 prawns. & he oso bought 1 flower crab for each pax & dump in at d end.
was full almost to d v max but tot 3 prawn & 1 small flower crab wont harm much but looks like i'm wrong. v bloated, v xin ku & dear ask me took d MMT. didn't quite felt better & in d end felt like vomittin. dashed to d bathrm but cant vomit anything out but tears were forced out... took anti vomitin med aft tt. nw tummy still weird weird la... :(
when can my parents learn their lesson? do i really ve to look unwell in front of them? to show them hw back it felt rather than tryin to look ok? do i ve to vomit in front of them then they can b happy? hw many times do i ve to say i don wanna eat too full? & esp for dear?
he's other ppl's son. does they wanna make him unwell den happy oso? last time when went for dinner w his nanny's family & he ended up vomitin at nite alrdy made me felt so guilty. if it's due to my parents, i'll feel even worse. can they put themselves in my shoes?
anw, jus hope d terrible feelin will go away. last time i rmbr feelin d overbloatedness in serious case was oso steamboat but was w my friends at turf city. & it lasted till d next day. hope this time wont ba.
i understand tt parents wanted more ingredients & thus, much more food & try to clear s much s possible but tot they oso understood tt if full, tt's? esp aft let them noe tt dear went for endoscopy??? & since previous steamboat they nvr force us???
jus nw, dad took d pig kidney & left 3 & ask us to clear. & last time, he asked if we wan d prawn den put in but jus nw, he jus dump in & say each pax is 3 prawns. & he oso bought 1 flower crab for each pax & dump in at d end.
was full almost to d v max but tot 3 prawn & 1 small flower crab wont harm much but looks like i'm wrong. v bloated, v xin ku & dear ask me took d MMT. didn't quite felt better & in d end felt like vomittin. dashed to d bathrm but cant vomit anything out but tears were forced out... took anti vomitin med aft tt. nw tummy still weird weird la... :(
when can my parents learn their lesson? do i really ve to look unwell in front of them? to show them hw back it felt rather than tryin to look ok? do i ve to vomit in front of them then they can b happy? hw many times do i ve to say i don wanna eat too full? & esp for dear?
he's other ppl's son. does they wanna make him unwell den happy oso? last time when went for dinner w his nanny's family & he ended up vomitin at nite alrdy made me felt so guilty. if it's due to my parents, i'll feel even worse. can they put themselves in my shoes?
anw, jus hope d terrible feelin will go away. last time i rmbr feelin d overbloatedness in serious case was oso steamboat but was w my friends at turf city. & it lasted till d next day. hope this time wont ba.
Thursday, 27 January 2011
change of role...
changed of role...
had been a lab tech prep & guidin undergrads for their yr 1 & 2 prac class n apparently, a staff in my prof's lab was 1 of d students den n recently, she had advice me to go for endnote course which is supposed to help me in d referencin for my fyp report & taught me on some of d function of MS word...
jus nw, she taught me on other functions again & i even learn bout d 2 diff color settin of photos. she oso taught me on other things. 风水轮流转... lol... & she is leavin le. haiz... too bad...
anw, by right our fate should ve ended in 07 when she entered into yr 3 cos i only take 1st 2 yrs of prac. but cos i further my studies n had chosen to do attachment n fyp in this lab, i got d chance to know her s a friend. life is jus unpredictable...
had been a lab tech prep & guidin undergrads for their yr 1 & 2 prac class n apparently, a staff in my prof's lab was 1 of d students den n recently, she had advice me to go for endnote course which is supposed to help me in d referencin for my fyp report & taught me on some of d function of MS word...
jus nw, she taught me on other functions again & i even learn bout d 2 diff color settin of photos. she oso taught me on other things. 风水轮流转... lol... & she is leavin le. haiz... too bad...
anw, by right our fate should ve ended in 07 when she entered into yr 3 cos i only take 1st 2 yrs of prac. but cos i further my studies n had chosen to do attachment n fyp in this lab, i got d chance to know her s a friend. life is jus unpredictable...
Monday, 24 January 2011
BORED!!!
bored... I'm super bored... dear workin 24 hr, my friend everday lesson, planna go jog aft work yet sky dark dark n started rainin when i reachin my stop... n hm don ve photoshop for me to play w... s d pic & so tempted to edit. i should ve jus stay at d lab instead... once hm means hm, JAILED... jus not a gd day today, not a gd start of d week... :(
tired yet too early sleep, n too tired to enjoy playin piano so no pt... only thing i wish can do is jus photoshop la cos i don believed i cant get d softcopy out fr d hardcopy. wanna 气死 picture ME & to feel more 爽 but no chance to. no other mood for other things. I'M SO SO BORED!!! 闷死人啦!!!
tired yet too early sleep, n too tired to enjoy playin piano so no pt... only thing i wish can do is jus photoshop la cos i don believed i cant get d softcopy out fr d hardcopy. wanna 气死 picture ME & to feel more 爽 but no chance to. no other mood for other things. I'M SO SO BORED!!! 闷死人啦!!!
Saturday, 22 January 2011
heart attack
ytd took time off to go for workshop on endnote which a friend in d lab recommended when i was doin attachment mths ago. it supposed to end at 2 pm so i tot got lunch break n i forward d mail to d prof to say i need time off during d time for course. end up, no lunch break. jus a slight longer break w old chang kee curry puff at ard 10.30 am. so i end up gg straight to lab cos prof been really unhappy bout punctuality lately. n was busy immediately. luckily got incubation time so went downstair to find something to eat but d hotdog bun was like cannot make it. it's not only cold. d bread's hard & dry too. no wonder whenever i go thr find something eat, i end up walking off. haiz...
well, beside tt, i got a heart attack during my 2nd break (toilet break) of d course. received a SMS fr dear saying tt his tyre came off when he alrdy said he's gg off awhile ago aft his car was serviced at paya lebar. d duration oso meant tt he should be somewhr else le so it's even more scary. but to receive his SMS, it oso tells me tt he's still 'ok'. but hw 'ok'? tt i not sure. so i quickly call him.
thru d phone, he assured me tt he's alrite. he was still ard d workshop area. his speed was slow. initially hear softer sound so he slow down bit. den sound grew louder n he go even slower till when d sound got super loud tt he stop immediately & walk ard check n found a miss wheel. he oso nvr go find d wheel but walked straight to d workshop to get d ppl to come n check.
when i got to see him, found out it's d back wheel at d left side tt came off n d car was slanted n d wheel was found like ~10 m away. can't imagine if he's gg at higher speed or worse, at expressway at peak hr. dangerous to himself n oso to others cos of d loose wheel.
ask if d workshop compensate anything or refund d $$ for servicin, n there is none. jus say if car got prob n is related to this, they will service for free. who wanna go back thr la... i forbid dear to go back. i rather spend more if other place is more exp n to make sure tt d car is really safe to drive n tt d driver n all passengers will b safe n sound. n oso not pose danger to other drivers on d road than to get this kinda of slip short service. should check properly den give back d keys lor.
anw, i don think dear will go complain tt company cos he go thr cos it's an old friend of his mom. but no matter wat d relation is, should check properly ma. i don care d relationship. i jus wan dear to b safe so i wont allow him to go back thr again. 1 careless mistake can take away ppl's life leh... life is not something to play w...
well, beside tt, i got a heart attack during my 2nd break (toilet break) of d course. received a SMS fr dear saying tt his tyre came off when he alrdy said he's gg off awhile ago aft his car was serviced at paya lebar. d duration oso meant tt he should be somewhr else le so it's even more scary. but to receive his SMS, it oso tells me tt he's still 'ok'. but hw 'ok'? tt i not sure. so i quickly call him.
thru d phone, he assured me tt he's alrite. he was still ard d workshop area. his speed was slow. initially hear softer sound so he slow down bit. den sound grew louder n he go even slower till when d sound got super loud tt he stop immediately & walk ard check n found a miss wheel. he oso nvr go find d wheel but walked straight to d workshop to get d ppl to come n check.
when i got to see him, found out it's d back wheel at d left side tt came off n d car was slanted n d wheel was found like ~10 m away. can't imagine if he's gg at higher speed or worse, at expressway at peak hr. dangerous to himself n oso to others cos of d loose wheel.
ask if d workshop compensate anything or refund d $$ for servicin, n there is none. jus say if car got prob n is related to this, they will service for free. who wanna go back thr la... i forbid dear to go back. i rather spend more if other place is more exp n to make sure tt d car is really safe to drive n tt d driver n all passengers will b safe n sound. n oso not pose danger to other drivers on d road than to get this kinda of slip short service. should check properly den give back d keys lor.
anw, i don think dear will go complain tt company cos he go thr cos it's an old friend of his mom. but no matter wat d relation is, should check properly ma. i don care d relationship. i jus wan dear to b safe so i wont allow him to go back thr again. 1 careless mistake can take away ppl's life leh... life is not something to play w...
Thursday, 20 January 2011
20110118 - 2 Free Pictures taken at Snapz Image
last fri played w photoshop (PS) CS5 usin d healin tools & i got hooked to d software... had PS 7 but not s suang s PS CS5... damn... but whr got cheap cheap lobang???
anw, did my minor touch-up usin PS CS5 on d CPU in lab ancillary office behind prof's back... *ssshhhh....* didn't ve much time to explore cos 1st day in lab alrdy super busy... & cant do it openly oso la...
didn't noe hw to do much... jus removed d uneven paintin of d background, remove d grey floor for d standing pic, removed d loose hair dangling ard... wish got time to explore more & wish i'd a softcopy to try at hm too...
anw, these shoots were FOC... they somehw got dear's no & call him & so we went & no scam & pestering. they quite suang kuai. n i believed it's d same place my friend went to last yr for her 2 free photos too... & oso same period (january)... coincident? watever... it's free anw w free make-over & oso help me removed d make-up & hairdo & even advice me hw to wash my sprayed hair...
20110102 - taken at picture ME again cos 无知
8R
5R
4R
5R
4Rwe 无知 & we went thr again for photo takin w my parents... haiz...
20101223 - Photo Shoot from the 'well-known' picture ME at Suntec
4R
5R
4R
5R
8Rwell-known for 'i'll get back to u again' -.-"
anw, pardon me for d pic w lots of noise. still wonderin hw to reduce tt cos they printed it on v rough photo paper... -.-" anybody noe can teach me??? thanks!!!
Tuesday, 18 January 2011
*phew* i can graduate in mid this yr le...
though i cant say i'm really satisfied, i'm glad tt i can say nw tt i can graduate by mid this yr... *phew*
was super duper scared & worried all these while but thks to dear who kept me accompany all these while, encouragin me, stayin w me despite my jumpy temper, willin to go thru w me even if it's d worse, cheerin me up, & esp thru chattin w me on d line jus nw till i finally noe my grades even though u wanted to go slp le.
well, actually, frankly speakin, i'd forgotten tt results b out at 12 am of 18 jan 11 esp when i'd a day which i nvr expected to b so. i noe all these while, i always rmbr but jus duno y somehw, i totally forget results b out jus in less than 24 hr when mon arrived. guess i jus refused to rmbr ba cos i still rmbr i'm startin my fyp on d 18th. funny right? i happened to fix d fyp on date of exam results release n i can rmbr my fyp but not my results.
i was still so lookin forward to 'tml' n yet when my dear friend reminded me tt results is comin out, my mood totally changed. i was really afraid & worried. it's my last sem of exam & if i can't clear, it meant tt i'll end up delayin my graduation. i dread d time tt passed. i don wanna noe. i'm scare to noe. i'm scare till i almost cried n actually wish dear was ard but he's at hm but he called. b4 he called, i actually scare till i went to kneel down n chant for a while till dear call.
n b4 tt, due to my stress, when a sick indian guy called n askin me hw i'm & cont'd a few times, n when asked who is he & who he's lookin for, he said his name & den asked if i can talk to him. & thks to him, i managed to destress bit s i scolded him w a 'f' word & hung up. & he dared not call back le.
i can nw slp at ease le. :)
was super duper scared & worried all these while but thks to dear who kept me accompany all these while, encouragin me, stayin w me despite my jumpy temper, willin to go thru w me even if it's d worse, cheerin me up, & esp thru chattin w me on d line jus nw till i finally noe my grades even though u wanted to go slp le.
well, actually, frankly speakin, i'd forgotten tt results b out at 12 am of 18 jan 11 esp when i'd a day which i nvr expected to b so. i noe all these while, i always rmbr but jus duno y somehw, i totally forget results b out jus in less than 24 hr when mon arrived. guess i jus refused to rmbr ba cos i still rmbr i'm startin my fyp on d 18th. funny right? i happened to fix d fyp on date of exam results release n i can rmbr my fyp but not my results.
i was still so lookin forward to 'tml' n yet when my dear friend reminded me tt results is comin out, my mood totally changed. i was really afraid & worried. it's my last sem of exam & if i can't clear, it meant tt i'll end up delayin my graduation. i dread d time tt passed. i don wanna noe. i'm scare to noe. i'm scare till i almost cried n actually wish dear was ard but he's at hm but he called. b4 he called, i actually scare till i went to kneel down n chant for a while till dear call.
n b4 tt, due to my stress, when a sick indian guy called n askin me hw i'm & cont'd a few times, n when asked who is he & who he's lookin for, he said his name & den asked if i can talk to him. & thks to him, i managed to destress bit s i scolded him w a 'f' word & hung up. & he dared not call back le.
i can nw slp at ease le. :)
Sunday, 16 January 2011
driving
oso, ytd i drove back fr ps but sort of lost my way lah... cos i went ps n forget my other phone, dear went thr to look for me in case i'd to leave my phone thr n thus, become uncontactable. but s he had drink many d nite b4 fr his gatherin n end up w terrible hangover + vomited 2 more times when he reached ps, he asked me to take over d wheels.
he, himself oso didn't really noe d way back & worse is tt he's feelin so terrible & so at times, he told me pretty last min to turn or keep to whichever lane. & was worried for him so i forget to turn which he asked me to & had to move ard to find back a right path. & many times, i had to literally cut across a few lanes to get to d opp lane to make a turn. wasn't such a gd experiences on d wheel but it's alright la. still so much better than being beside dad or take dad's car.
anw, i got back my gps navigator app bought by my dad. so next time, shouldn't ve d prob of missin a turn or goin in wrong way. haha... i think i'm more used to drivin w d 'trainin' fr dear. at least, i can have a rough idea if i can change lane w d speed of another car fr my side mirror. last time, gotta think longer but nw, shorter time to think & go.
hopefully, will get more practice. honda fit is a really gd car to start off w to practice. it's small & it's auto gear. haha. shall practice more if can & oso learn parallel parkin ba. if all ok, den mayb 1 day if can, try on manual gear car den on van/lorry. haha... i super long time nvr drive manual gear le lah. last time, tried w pickup but stressful cos dad beside, nvr get to learn n practice much.
anw, thanks to dear for d trust la. car not a cheap asset but he let me drive n practice. n cos of tt, managed to noe hw to go to orchard n city hall thr, n oso d lanes of d rd at jurong thr. seated s passenger is really diff. won't notice all tt but when drive, den prob will come cos in wrong lane, den haha, u'll end up gg other places. hee...
he, himself oso didn't really noe d way back & worse is tt he's feelin so terrible & so at times, he told me pretty last min to turn or keep to whichever lane. & was worried for him so i forget to turn which he asked me to & had to move ard to find back a right path. & many times, i had to literally cut across a few lanes to get to d opp lane to make a turn. wasn't such a gd experiences on d wheel but it's alright la. still so much better than being beside dad or take dad's car.
anw, i got back my gps navigator app bought by my dad. so next time, shouldn't ve d prob of missin a turn or goin in wrong way. haha... i think i'm more used to drivin w d 'trainin' fr dear. at least, i can have a rough idea if i can change lane w d speed of another car fr my side mirror. last time, gotta think longer but nw, shorter time to think & go.
hopefully, will get more practice. honda fit is a really gd car to start off w to practice. it's small & it's auto gear. haha. shall practice more if can & oso learn parallel parkin ba. if all ok, den mayb 1 day if can, try on manual gear car den on van/lorry. haha... i super long time nvr drive manual gear le lah. last time, tried w pickup but stressful cos dad beside, nvr get to learn n practice much.
anw, thanks to dear for d trust la. car not a cheap asset but he let me drive n practice. n cos of tt, managed to noe hw to go to orchard n city hall thr, n oso d lanes of d rd at jurong thr. seated s passenger is really diff. won't notice all tt but when drive, den prob will come cos in wrong lane, den haha, u'll end up gg other places. hee...
new iphone 4 handset
oh ya... i'd gotten a new set of iphone 4 ytd at ps... cos recently my phone been havin sort of poor reception.
initially, i notice tt i received sms late fr dear but might b due to d telco reception. but in past nvr had this prob except like on 12am of x'mas, new yr or cny.
anw, dear was 1st to notice s he can't contact me when he called. which made me take note too.
den, we oso noticed tt sometimes when he called or i called him, we couldn't hear each other n thr r weird background sound. only after we hung up n call again den ok.
den tt day, when i met my friend aft my dance gp graduation, my friend oso said she cant get hold of me when she reached & try to locate me. & tt made me suspect tt it's fr my phone. b4, i can't cfm s dear's phone oso bit siao siao & he'd been complainin bout it. but aft my friend oso experience tt, i believed it's fr my phone.
anw, most of my call & sms is w dear & i cont'd to experience d delayed sms once a while & d weird noisy background noise & uncontactable once a while.
i got d phone in sep last yr & in ard nov, it blackout once & i ended up havin a prepaid card on an old spare phone which i still can use nw but it's expirin. n tt time, when i called up m1, i managed to revive my phone & no need to ask my dad to go down to service centre. i'll b dead if he knew i actually did drop my phone tt day.
so since i noe tt my dad must b presence, i'd been kiv for my phone prob until late late fri nite, in fact, it's sat le. aft meetin my friend n reached hm, i wanna informed dear like usual so he wont worry. along d journey hm, i'd exchanged a couple of sms w him & my phone was still alright. but when i reached hm & dropped him a sms, d sms failed to send & i notice aft my shower. tried many times but d sending bar was stuck at ~80%. i tried to send to my friend but oso d same & so it's not cos of dear's phone again. luckily my friend oso give me d wat's app which she bought & it was workin & so i managed to get my friend to test n check my phone w me.
conclusion den was, i can't call out, ppl cant call in, i cant sms out n cant received sms too. however, i can use d wat's app which uses 3G. & tt means tt my internet service should be alright but not d calls n sms. It's only normal aft i did d master reset which i learnt months ago when my phone blackout.
thus, i can't take it any further but to wait till d next mornin n called up m1 to check whr d service ctr is. i called at 8.40 but was stated tt line only open at 9 am. called at 9.20 am but cant get hold of technician for many times. wanted to go IMM s thr is 1 service ctr thr but luckily tried d general enquires s iphone service ctr r only at ps or paragon.
i seldom frequent orchard so d most easiest place is ps s it's aft d istana. & i went thr immediately cos i don wanna b in too far queue. reach in an hr but haven open n so walked ard but when i got back, got a no of ppl queuin le. luckily i nvr walked till d door open.
i went down cos d person say if jus checkin, no need my dad's presence. only if need to do other things. but in d end, d person at counter told me tt it was due to software prob w/o even testin. so i guess this had happened to others too. he oso told me tt blackin out is quite common for iphone. gosh... tt's terrible. luckily only happened once. n so i guess, it's not cos i dropped my phone a couple of times but i nvr say tt lah. since d person say change a new set, den change loh. & so i nvr ask much le. & best part is don even need dad to b ard. haha... phew. till nw, he didn't noe i had a replacement handset le. oops...
n d weird thing was tt it was workin fine but when i reachin home, i wanna call my friend to check if she was hm so tt i can pass her ext hdd back but i cant type or do anything inside d phone call app. i got quite fed up then s i tot i'll ve to go back to ps again when i'm jus few blocks fr hm but aft doin a master reset, it's ok again. shall moniter n see hw but i'm still happy w a new handset cos i'd dropped d previous one for bit far too many times. haha...
anw, it's amazin tt d synchronizing of previous phone (app, doc, pics, mp3, etc) all r transferred back to my phone aft i plug in n type in my id & p/w. power. initially, i tot i'll ve to reload everything but didn't ve to do so 1 by 1. cool. save so much time. so it's 1 more plus pt of iphone despite d hanging, etc. quite a neat phone.
initially, i notice tt i received sms late fr dear but might b due to d telco reception. but in past nvr had this prob except like on 12am of x'mas, new yr or cny.
anw, dear was 1st to notice s he can't contact me when he called. which made me take note too.
den, we oso noticed tt sometimes when he called or i called him, we couldn't hear each other n thr r weird background sound. only after we hung up n call again den ok.
den tt day, when i met my friend aft my dance gp graduation, my friend oso said she cant get hold of me when she reached & try to locate me. & tt made me suspect tt it's fr my phone. b4, i can't cfm s dear's phone oso bit siao siao & he'd been complainin bout it. but aft my friend oso experience tt, i believed it's fr my phone.
anw, most of my call & sms is w dear & i cont'd to experience d delayed sms once a while & d weird noisy background noise & uncontactable once a while.
i got d phone in sep last yr & in ard nov, it blackout once & i ended up havin a prepaid card on an old spare phone which i still can use nw but it's expirin. n tt time, when i called up m1, i managed to revive my phone & no need to ask my dad to go down to service centre. i'll b dead if he knew i actually did drop my phone tt day.
so since i noe tt my dad must b presence, i'd been kiv for my phone prob until late late fri nite, in fact, it's sat le. aft meetin my friend n reached hm, i wanna informed dear like usual so he wont worry. along d journey hm, i'd exchanged a couple of sms w him & my phone was still alright. but when i reached hm & dropped him a sms, d sms failed to send & i notice aft my shower. tried many times but d sending bar was stuck at ~80%. i tried to send to my friend but oso d same & so it's not cos of dear's phone again. luckily my friend oso give me d wat's app which she bought & it was workin & so i managed to get my friend to test n check my phone w me.
conclusion den was, i can't call out, ppl cant call in, i cant sms out n cant received sms too. however, i can use d wat's app which uses 3G. & tt means tt my internet service should be alright but not d calls n sms. It's only normal aft i did d master reset which i learnt months ago when my phone blackout.
thus, i can't take it any further but to wait till d next mornin n called up m1 to check whr d service ctr is. i called at 8.40 but was stated tt line only open at 9 am. called at 9.20 am but cant get hold of technician for many times. wanted to go IMM s thr is 1 service ctr thr but luckily tried d general enquires s iphone service ctr r only at ps or paragon.
i seldom frequent orchard so d most easiest place is ps s it's aft d istana. & i went thr immediately cos i don wanna b in too far queue. reach in an hr but haven open n so walked ard but when i got back, got a no of ppl queuin le. luckily i nvr walked till d door open.
i went down cos d person say if jus checkin, no need my dad's presence. only if need to do other things. but in d end, d person at counter told me tt it was due to software prob w/o even testin. so i guess this had happened to others too. he oso told me tt blackin out is quite common for iphone. gosh... tt's terrible. luckily only happened once. n so i guess, it's not cos i dropped my phone a couple of times but i nvr say tt lah. since d person say change a new set, den change loh. & so i nvr ask much le. & best part is don even need dad to b ard. haha... phew. till nw, he didn't noe i had a replacement handset le. oops...
n d weird thing was tt it was workin fine but when i reachin home, i wanna call my friend to check if she was hm so tt i can pass her ext hdd back but i cant type or do anything inside d phone call app. i got quite fed up then s i tot i'll ve to go back to ps again when i'm jus few blocks fr hm but aft doin a master reset, it's ok again. shall moniter n see hw but i'm still happy w a new handset cos i'd dropped d previous one for bit far too many times. haha...
anw, it's amazin tt d synchronizing of previous phone (app, doc, pics, mp3, etc) all r transferred back to my phone aft i plug in n type in my id & p/w. power. initially, i tot i'll ve to reload everything but didn't ve to do so 1 by 1. cool. save so much time. so it's 1 more plus pt of iphone despite d hanging, etc. quite a neat phone.
WARNING!!!
WARNING!!!
pls b warned tt picture ME (suntec) after services suck to d core. it's motto / values / vision & mission r 'I'LL GET BACK TO YOU AGAIN FOR YOUR ORDERS COLLECTIONS' & 'delayed of promised order collection date'...
pls b warned tt picture ME (suntec) after services suck to d core. it's motto / values / vision & mission r 'I'LL GET BACK TO YOU AGAIN FOR YOUR ORDERS COLLECTIONS' & 'delayed of promised order collection date'...
i went on 23/12 for 1st set, went to try make use of a slight cheaper promo fr d ndp booklet. was told can collect in 2 wks + will call me. on 2/1, went w my parents to take another set so happen to ask them, & they say ready on 7/1, but when call to enquire, can't find & say get back to me, den say need 2-3 more days. & nw, still can't find n say get back to me. called 3x to d shop, attended by 3 diff staffs, all say same thing & nvr get back to me. & worse was to hear tt 1 of d earlier staff actually went for dinner. !@#$%^&* was referred to manager but still say get back to me again.
given a choice for them to mail over but i won't. don trust them anymore. wat if photo of gd? must go thr personally to check. think like tt can get rid of me? not so easy.
ask for all softcopy s compensation, manager say get back to me again. call at least 3x aft >1hr ltr, no pick-up. sms oso no reply. when finally pick-up, say again i'll get back to you shortly. den when finally call back, say can only give me another offer of $88 package when d original package is $99. say tt's d best she can compensate.
wat sort of compensation is tt? i still have to pay $88 for 1x 8R, 2x 5R & 2x 4R only? & it's jus cheaper by $11? & den go through d whole process of hearing 'i'll get back to you again'? even if you give me FOC, i oso will ve to consider. will nvr go back for graduation pic when i graduate...
& d crap reason she gave for calls i made today to d shop was cos d photographer in charge was on leave n they cant find him. den wat bout those other days when i all b4? she oso said tt d delay was because d production got problem. she even said d order alrdy stated call when ready but it oso state '2 WEEKS'. if production got prob, when i call all these while, y nvr inform me & ask for a ltr date tt u can promise? even d 2nd set which by right today can collect couldn't b found oso wor. luckily i nvr go down today w my parents. luckily i decided to call s i tot of gg down tml b4 my fyp start.
wat sort of service they r providin? can't promise such an earlier date den state a later date la? production got problem, pls inform ur customer & apologise la. F*** @#$%^&*
i not in biz field oso noe tt a company should ve a vision & mission esp a customer based service company & to abide to it w customer 1st thinkin. but thr isn't any vision & mission fr tt studio website & all they say is 'i'll get back to u again'. if i noe, i wont ve get another package for my parents. so f*** up...
Friday, 14 January 2011
life-long learning journey
life is nvr easy. humans r nvr satisfied. every human r diff. it's d matter of hw we face & deal w each other & hw we accomodate to each other.
let's jus throw away d fact tt i'm d only child + a female so even more protective. recently i can feel d diff of being alone & being in a relationship.
being alone means everything on own. no 1 to report to. jus a free n easy being. but when comes to unhappy, sad, worrying, stressful, etc encounters, jus ve to deal w all these alone. no 1 to support & encourage u.
being in a relationship really needs lots of effort too in addition to accomodating to 1 another s no 2 individuals r exactly d same. cannot only think of own self. must bear in mind tt thr is 1 more person close to u who u must proceed in d same direction with. not s easy s said.
n to make it worse, other than d relationship u r in, thr r other commitments like family, work & also others & also of course friends. juggling everything tgt is even tougher. & i don think i'm doin a v gd job.
had let go of many things these few yrs. my work, my past clinic job, my piano lesson, & recently my dance oso & yet time is still limited. n thr r lingerin of some regrets here & thr in addition to d tiredness i'd accumulated all these years. *shake head*
well, to add on, i'd choosen a bf who is working shift, shift that is constantly changing & so meet-up is always known a day ago or even on actual day. longer period of time tt can't meet up is also possible & tt makes it harder to keep everything in ctrl & esp w a mum who scare i dun wan her. it jus feel at times tt i'm being tore apart. family, bf n friends n my soka activities too. hw would u rank according to priority?
family should be given priority right? wat bout bf? he should b amg d high priority oso right + he workin shift so if don meet den duno when d next time can le. soka activities is religion activities & so oso got a certain weightage. friends oso impt & so hw? all equal? hw to? chinese always say, pian xin which is true. d heart is slightly to d left & not at d center. cfm meet say friend den end up 'o. oh' got soka activities den hw? religion wor. den if is meet bf den got soka den hw? might not c him for duno hw long wor. if only everything can go swee swee, fixed nicely into schedule but den life is always not so easy.
for dear, he felt tt 1st come 1st serve no matter who u r but for tt i beg to differ. thr should ve certain priority for certain things or people but it's indeed hard to decide when thr can ve many combination of people & events. like wedding dinner of a not so close friend but still consider ok s compare with a normal get-tgt dinner w a gp of extremely close friend tt u long time nvr meet. anw, doesn't it sound ridiculous tt someone really close like ur mom / dad / grandparents / husband/wife / bf/gf / kids needs to book an appt w u to do or get certain things?
anw, sometimes, it's also gd to mayb choose by queueing to b s fair s possible but i feel tt it should b flexible too & ppl like ur friends should understand if gotta change plan eventually. tt's y all these while it's jus not easy to get 3 of my other close sec sch friends tgt.
well, even if go by 1st come 1st serve, also need d courtesy to also inform someone, even if they r ur 'partner', s they might b expectin u & ur presence that u might not b able to so that at least they could change of plan soon too if they wan. it would be their decision to decide wat to do when d time end up free. anw, this shoudl apply even for last min events which has more priority like for eg, i cant possibly say, 'but u alrdy promise to meet me, so u can't go work'. if not, he oso wont end up cancellin medical appt because of work or other issue. & wat's more impt than health oso?
so watever it is, esp in relationship, 1 ve to learn to think of 1 another & understand & accomodate with each other & not fr single party & oso rather than, i wan this, i wan tt & even at last min. must think of each other feelings too. thr is jus so much more lesson to be learnt in life. we must learn to b satisfied with watever we got & look into each other's 'you dian' rather than flaws oso but of course we must strive to change for d better too b it small thing or big major revamp & tt's is oso termed 'human revolution' which i learn in my soka.
i noe i got so much more to learn, so much more to change to b better but i'll appreciate watever i'm blessed w right nw. shall try to b a more easily satisfied person too. life is a life-long learning journey.
let's jus throw away d fact tt i'm d only child + a female so even more protective. recently i can feel d diff of being alone & being in a relationship.
being alone means everything on own. no 1 to report to. jus a free n easy being. but when comes to unhappy, sad, worrying, stressful, etc encounters, jus ve to deal w all these alone. no 1 to support & encourage u.
being in a relationship really needs lots of effort too in addition to accomodating to 1 another s no 2 individuals r exactly d same. cannot only think of own self. must bear in mind tt thr is 1 more person close to u who u must proceed in d same direction with. not s easy s said.
n to make it worse, other than d relationship u r in, thr r other commitments like family, work & also others & also of course friends. juggling everything tgt is even tougher. & i don think i'm doin a v gd job.
had let go of many things these few yrs. my work, my past clinic job, my piano lesson, & recently my dance oso & yet time is still limited. n thr r lingerin of some regrets here & thr in addition to d tiredness i'd accumulated all these years. *shake head*
well, to add on, i'd choosen a bf who is working shift, shift that is constantly changing & so meet-up is always known a day ago or even on actual day. longer period of time tt can't meet up is also possible & tt makes it harder to keep everything in ctrl & esp w a mum who scare i dun wan her. it jus feel at times tt i'm being tore apart. family, bf n friends n my soka activities too. hw would u rank according to priority?
family should be given priority right? wat bout bf? he should b amg d high priority oso right + he workin shift so if don meet den duno when d next time can le. soka activities is religion activities & so oso got a certain weightage. friends oso impt & so hw? all equal? hw to? chinese always say, pian xin which is true. d heart is slightly to d left & not at d center. cfm meet say friend den end up 'o. oh' got soka activities den hw? religion wor. den if is meet bf den got soka den hw? might not c him for duno hw long wor. if only everything can go swee swee, fixed nicely into schedule but den life is always not so easy.
for dear, he felt tt 1st come 1st serve no matter who u r but for tt i beg to differ. thr should ve certain priority for certain things or people but it's indeed hard to decide when thr can ve many combination of people & events. like wedding dinner of a not so close friend but still consider ok s compare with a normal get-tgt dinner w a gp of extremely close friend tt u long time nvr meet. anw, doesn't it sound ridiculous tt someone really close like ur mom / dad / grandparents / husband/wife / bf/gf / kids needs to book an appt w u to do or get certain things?
anw, sometimes, it's also gd to mayb choose by queueing to b s fair s possible but i feel tt it should b flexible too & ppl like ur friends should understand if gotta change plan eventually. tt's y all these while it's jus not easy to get 3 of my other close sec sch friends tgt.
well, even if go by 1st come 1st serve, also need d courtesy to also inform someone, even if they r ur 'partner', s they might b expectin u & ur presence that u might not b able to so that at least they could change of plan soon too if they wan. it would be their decision to decide wat to do when d time end up free. anw, this shoudl apply even for last min events which has more priority like for eg, i cant possibly say, 'but u alrdy promise to meet me, so u can't go work'. if not, he oso wont end up cancellin medical appt because of work or other issue. & wat's more impt than health oso?
so watever it is, esp in relationship, 1 ve to learn to think of 1 another & understand & accomodate with each other & not fr single party & oso rather than, i wan this, i wan tt & even at last min. must think of each other feelings too. thr is jus so much more lesson to be learnt in life. we must learn to b satisfied with watever we got & look into each other's 'you dian' rather than flaws oso but of course we must strive to change for d better too b it small thing or big major revamp & tt's is oso termed 'human revolution' which i learn in my soka.
i noe i got so much more to learn, so much more to change to b better but i'll appreciate watever i'm blessed w right nw. shall try to b a more easily satisfied person too. life is a life-long learning journey.
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
faulty fan in my rm
my wall-mounted fan is spoilted. last nite, when i wanted to go to bed, thr was squeeky sound which i realized eventually was from my fan.
initially, i nvr on my fan but i was afraid it would get warm in the nite & so i on my fan only to heard d squeaks awhile ltr & realized it came when it turn its head & so i stopped the oscillation but there was still a faint squeaky sound. s i m sleepin right under d fan, decided to go w/o in case it fall on me s i slept.
in d end, jus nw, i on my fan & realized that it was makin much louder noise than ytd. in fact, it's much worse that my mum could also hear it outside. so i guess it's high time to change a new fan. at least i'd use d fan for yrs. at least since i was workin s i rmbr tearin it apart to wash for cny 'da sao chu'.
well, writing bout scare d fan fall on me when i slp, i rmbr today i read a pcs of news which said that a lady was 'squashed' to death by another lady jumpin down d buildin. it's freaky to hear such news n d close resemblance to wat i was sort of worried of. *shivered* anw, life is so unpredictable esp when no 1 noes when is our last day & so shall try to live life to d fullest ba w min regrets ba.
initially, i nvr on my fan but i was afraid it would get warm in the nite & so i on my fan only to heard d squeaks awhile ltr & realized it came when it turn its head & so i stopped the oscillation but there was still a faint squeaky sound. s i m sleepin right under d fan, decided to go w/o in case it fall on me s i slept.
in d end, jus nw, i on my fan & realized that it was makin much louder noise than ytd. in fact, it's much worse that my mum could also hear it outside. so i guess it's high time to change a new fan. at least i'd use d fan for yrs. at least since i was workin s i rmbr tearin it apart to wash for cny 'da sao chu'.
well, writing bout scare d fan fall on me when i slp, i rmbr today i read a pcs of news which said that a lady was 'squashed' to death by another lady jumpin down d buildin. it's freaky to hear such news n d close resemblance to wat i was sort of worried of. *shivered* anw, life is so unpredictable esp when no 1 noes when is our last day & so shall try to live life to d fullest ba w min regrets ba.
Monday, 10 January 2011
bruise bruise bruise
unsure of when i got a small bruise on my right hand, jus realized it think on fri evenin. n even b4 d dark patch of color disappear, d toilet door slam on my hand, jus slightly off right to my old bruise n thr goes... another bigger patch of blue black on my hand n this is d 1 tt is cfm so much more painful than d other bruise or mayb cos tt older bruise is on d recovery mode le...
n jus nw, after openin dear's car which i nvr open too big n not at d stoppin position n so it slam back n hit my right hand again. this time, in btw my 4th n last finger. pain pain n so i retract my hand my my back of my upper arm hit d door rim... -.-" hopefully no more bruise...
my right hand is so bruise prone these few days... better b more careful fr nw...
n jus nw, after openin dear's car which i nvr open too big n not at d stoppin position n so it slam back n hit my right hand again. this time, in btw my 4th n last finger. pain pain n so i retract my hand my my back of my upper arm hit d door rim... -.-" hopefully no more bruise...
my right hand is so bruise prone these few days... better b more careful fr nw...
Friday, 7 January 2011
nail clippers
dis is a blog entry dedicated to my nail clippers... lol... i'm jus tryin to b funny though i noe it's not funny.
anw, i always like to try to bring nail clipper out. reason being, i use my nail clipper not only for my nails but oso for cutting loose thread, etc. n today, it fulfilled another task. to help me removed a metal splinter which i got on my thumb after touching a stapled set of paper.
initially, i tot i got electric shock fr d staple but when i touch the paper part only i still had d feelin & i saw a tiny metal splinter in my thumb. thus, tried to pull out w my fingers but failed & so used my nail clipper & it worked. lol... guess my nail clipper is like me. a 'multi-tasker'. doing little things here & thr. haha...
anw, i always like to try to bring nail clipper out. reason being, i use my nail clipper not only for my nails but oso for cutting loose thread, etc. n today, it fulfilled another task. to help me removed a metal splinter which i got on my thumb after touching a stapled set of paper.
initially, i tot i got electric shock fr d staple but when i touch the paper part only i still had d feelin & i saw a tiny metal splinter in my thumb. thus, tried to pull out w my fingers but failed & so used my nail clipper & it worked. lol... guess my nail clipper is like me. a 'multi-tasker'. doing little things here & thr. haha...
disgusted...
ytd had lunch w a bunch of colleagues. of which, only 3 r my ex-colleagues & 2 of which r 1s which i worked closely w & 1 used to b super close to me & yet angry & refused to eat or really talk w me thr aft... thus, nvr ate w her & d other for almost 6 yrs le. gosh... time flies...
anw, d lunch was an accident. was meetin another colleague den she happen to see her other 2 colleagues who b meetin my other 2 colleagues & another 2 more. well, like i told my friend. i not scare to eat w them cos i noe i no do wrong. i'd nothin to b scare of & thr i go. i'm jus digusted by her behavior cos she say she didn't like to mix ard malay friends & yet her lunch buddies so many malays nw. i lunch w them but expected la. they no talk to me or to start conversation w me 1 la.
if d ex-collegue who was really close w me talk to me 1st, den i would find weird cos it's was 180 degree turn last time. so at least i feel more better than another ex-colleague who simply can jus shui shui bian bian strike a conversation w me s though we were so close last time when she nvr talk to me but zhen dui me tt time. i always felt disgusted when she talked w me jus cos she's in sales nw.
i'm not only disgusted by their behavior but oso mine cos it made me feel like hypocrite to stand thr n smile & converse w them when deep inside i noe wat they r like. OMG!!! if can, can i don see them again. wat's d point to cont'd chattin w them? they r not like my friend so i oso wont say or disclose much w them anw... haiz...
anw, d lunch was an accident. was meetin another colleague den she happen to see her other 2 colleagues who b meetin my other 2 colleagues & another 2 more. well, like i told my friend. i not scare to eat w them cos i noe i no do wrong. i'd nothin to b scare of & thr i go. i'm jus digusted by her behavior cos she say she didn't like to mix ard malay friends & yet her lunch buddies so many malays nw. i lunch w them but expected la. they no talk to me or to start conversation w me 1 la.
if d ex-collegue who was really close w me talk to me 1st, den i would find weird cos it's was 180 degree turn last time. so at least i feel more better than another ex-colleague who simply can jus shui shui bian bian strike a conversation w me s though we were so close last time when she nvr talk to me but zhen dui me tt time. i always felt disgusted when she talked w me jus cos she's in sales nw.
i'm not only disgusted by their behavior but oso mine cos it made me feel like hypocrite to stand thr n smile & converse w them when deep inside i noe wat they r like. OMG!!! if can, can i don see them again. wat's d point to cont'd chattin w them? they r not like my friend so i oso wont say or disclose much w them anw... haiz...
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
haunted by headache for days
damn it... been havin headache for days... esp jialet for these 2 days... even panadol didn't help... d throbbin pressured pain esp on my top right of my head is jus terrible. & i'm not sure if i didn't slp well or cos of d headache tt d pain 'climbed' down to my neck too. my head feels heavy too... & in fact, in mornin, when i went to wait for my staff bus, while walkin thr, i actually was scare i might black out thr... & yet i come to work... mayb i shld try a stronger type of pain killer? or mayb i shld go to d doc... but doc = spendin $$... which i'm tryin not to overspend... if not i wld ve gone for mayb at least a hair treatment & go get my facial set at d toa payoh clinic le... so i guess today, aft go back, try d stronger painkiller den see hw. if not, den see doc ba...
Monday, 3 January 2011
enjoyable days always pass so quickly...
time passed... previously stress bout exams, nw exams over for 12 days le...
didn't had much of a celebration on day of freedom but sort of ended my day w a 1st time drive to town (clarke quay), chauffeurin dear to his gatherin, den drive all alone back fr thr n got lost & twine ard orchard & raffles place thr. bo pian la... i go thr only once a real blue moon n mostly by mrt so hw i noe d rd...
anw, thks to dear who believed in me & trusted his car w me. some1 who had passed for quite a long while but seldom seldom drive n jus learnt to vertical park in this 1 yr or so in his car. n he nvr scare i got lost cos i seldom go out oso. haha...
actually, if i noe my way like my dad, i wld ve drive to another place to see see ard b4 headin back but too bad, even ard town, i can get lost. hw to go far. n cos i got lost + slight jam, i end up go pick mum hm. 1st time drive her back alone n i felt gd aft cos i managed to find my way & drive alone fr town n pick her back n park in d lot. hee... at least she nw cant say i timid. hehe...
my celebration of my freedom is actually a day late. was initially unhappy but nvm tt. cos drivin alone alrdy compensate slightly for tt postpone... went for a photoshoot which i got a slight promo fr d NDP promotion booklet. jus went thr for d fun of it. anw, i no let them do makeup n hairdo lah. i diy... let them do hor... need $50 wor... no way i gonna let them earn tt $$... haha
anw, on x'mas eve, had 2 celebrations. 1 at dear's cousin's place & 1 at my uncle's place. cant split ourselves in 1/2 so we go awhile here & then go another side. tt's to be fair or as fair as possible.
den on x'mas day itself, dear's friend invited us for weddin dinner. & den his other friend jio him go drink & so i end up drivin again. drove his friend back oso cos his friend stayed jurong. his friend end up fallin asleep in d backseat. lol... he trusted my drivin so much or mayb he simply is too too tired. haha...
on 26th, left dear's car at his place & my parents drove us back cos he stayin over s we gg penang d followin day. easier than to meet elsewhr or he take barang go my place pick me den go airport. it's v stupid la cos we take mrt. he wld need transfer many times to my place den transfer to get to changi. thus, he stay over.
27th, we took mrt to airport w a hand carry each & d 4d3n spent thr passed like a breeze. it's was over too fast le & i really feel like a dread to come back actually. comin back means dec b over soon n jan wld come n work den fyp would start... n d most love & hate day wld oso come... results release... haiz... dear must find me silly tt when i think of tt, i sort of scare till i hide beneath my blanket n let my tears flow for awhile. if can get As or Bs, sure gd but i dare of asked for much. i jus wan to clear all so i can graduate n not delay but i scare. d last time i failed was in my pri sch CA sci, my upper sec english n 1st 'o' lvl english but since i failed a module in my yr 3 b4, i became paranoid le... can only keep fingers crossed nw
on 31st, d last day of 2010, didn't went anywhr. aft dinner w his mom, dear send me back n i tot he wld leave at ard 9 pm like usual but he stayed on till aft midnight to say 'happy new year'. he countdown at my hse. lol... but gd for him. when he got back, his carpark still v empty. guess ppl all go town area countdown n wont get back s fast s him. lol...
on new year day, dear n i go somewhr in d afternoon before headin back home to rest n by dinner time, it was rainin super heavy which we tot of orderin pizza delivery cos it's my parents' turn to go for weddin dinner aft i went for 3 consec sat. however, prob due to d rain, either too many order or no delivery at all n we had to end up going out for dinner. luckily rmbr got d ulu shopping mall n went thr for dinner n was v empty. haha...
on 2nd jan which was my dad's bday, wnet for brunch w parents den followed dear to get something before headin back to 'da pan' cos i oso bought d photo package for my parents n they wanted family portrait w dear oso. so we went on d final sun b4 he goes back to work.
seein my parents takin d pic is really funny. my dad all along don smile when take pic but d photographer wanted him to smile n he found it hard n i try to make funny faces behind d photographer. like attractin small kid attentioon n make them laugh like tt but soon aft, i stopped cos i felt weak n stuffy again. when choosin photo, i can't take it but wanted to go to the cinema next door to get sweet but dear went to get for me. n dad oso wanted d sweet when he saw cos he oso felt weak but he got take diabetic med but i don.
we den go for teabreak den go walked ard individually n i went searchin for a decent small cake for my dad cos usually we had cake. i scare he unhappy if thr is none. n when i cant find d small size i wanted, i oso dare not get a slice of cake instead s they aren't s open minded s they say they are. haiz... jus too troublesome lah... n nw, aft dad's bday, upcomin in couples of days is dear's mum, den my godma... den CNY...den my insurance premium, den valentine's day, den dear's bday, den my piano tunin, den mum's bday. this upcomin 6 mth gonna ve many output sia...
ytd night oso make a rough finance check... if i don anyhw spend other than those stated above, shld ve enough n not touch a certain sum of savin. den i wont deplete all my $$ but it's not as easy s said... so i guess i made a right choice to work a couple of days b4 commencing on my FYP. but if suay suay not enough, i guess i wld go for tt sum of savin n probably will ve to let d bank deduct $$ fr me if fall below their min le... hopefully, i don ve to go n borrow fr anyone ba cos initially i tot of workin till official start of FYP but prof askin when i can start le. tt means, a week of wages lesser. haiz...
$$ prob... scare of results... n many other things to fan... it's nvr endin sia...
didn't had much of a celebration on day of freedom but sort of ended my day w a 1st time drive to town (clarke quay), chauffeurin dear to his gatherin, den drive all alone back fr thr n got lost & twine ard orchard & raffles place thr. bo pian la... i go thr only once a real blue moon n mostly by mrt so hw i noe d rd...
anw, thks to dear who believed in me & trusted his car w me. some1 who had passed for quite a long while but seldom seldom drive n jus learnt to vertical park in this 1 yr or so in his car. n he nvr scare i got lost cos i seldom go out oso. haha...
actually, if i noe my way like my dad, i wld ve drive to another place to see see ard b4 headin back but too bad, even ard town, i can get lost. hw to go far. n cos i got lost + slight jam, i end up go pick mum hm. 1st time drive her back alone n i felt gd aft cos i managed to find my way & drive alone fr town n pick her back n park in d lot. hee... at least she nw cant say i timid. hehe...
my celebration of my freedom is actually a day late. was initially unhappy but nvm tt. cos drivin alone alrdy compensate slightly for tt postpone... went for a photoshoot which i got a slight promo fr d NDP promotion booklet. jus went thr for d fun of it. anw, i no let them do makeup n hairdo lah. i diy... let them do hor... need $50 wor... no way i gonna let them earn tt $$... haha
anw, on x'mas eve, had 2 celebrations. 1 at dear's cousin's place & 1 at my uncle's place. cant split ourselves in 1/2 so we go awhile here & then go another side. tt's to be fair or as fair as possible.
den on x'mas day itself, dear's friend invited us for weddin dinner. & den his other friend jio him go drink & so i end up drivin again. drove his friend back oso cos his friend stayed jurong. his friend end up fallin asleep in d backseat. lol... he trusted my drivin so much or mayb he simply is too too tired. haha...
on 26th, left dear's car at his place & my parents drove us back cos he stayin over s we gg penang d followin day. easier than to meet elsewhr or he take barang go my place pick me den go airport. it's v stupid la cos we take mrt. he wld need transfer many times to my place den transfer to get to changi. thus, he stay over.
27th, we took mrt to airport w a hand carry each & d 4d3n spent thr passed like a breeze. it's was over too fast le & i really feel like a dread to come back actually. comin back means dec b over soon n jan wld come n work den fyp would start... n d most love & hate day wld oso come... results release... haiz... dear must find me silly tt when i think of tt, i sort of scare till i hide beneath my blanket n let my tears flow for awhile. if can get As or Bs, sure gd but i dare of asked for much. i jus wan to clear all so i can graduate n not delay but i scare. d last time i failed was in my pri sch CA sci, my upper sec english n 1st 'o' lvl english but since i failed a module in my yr 3 b4, i became paranoid le... can only keep fingers crossed nw
on 31st, d last day of 2010, didn't went anywhr. aft dinner w his mom, dear send me back n i tot he wld leave at ard 9 pm like usual but he stayed on till aft midnight to say 'happy new year'. he countdown at my hse. lol... but gd for him. when he got back, his carpark still v empty. guess ppl all go town area countdown n wont get back s fast s him. lol...
on new year day, dear n i go somewhr in d afternoon before headin back home to rest n by dinner time, it was rainin super heavy which we tot of orderin pizza delivery cos it's my parents' turn to go for weddin dinner aft i went for 3 consec sat. however, prob due to d rain, either too many order or no delivery at all n we had to end up going out for dinner. luckily rmbr got d ulu shopping mall n went thr for dinner n was v empty. haha...
on 2nd jan which was my dad's bday, wnet for brunch w parents den followed dear to get something before headin back to 'da pan' cos i oso bought d photo package for my parents n they wanted family portrait w dear oso. so we went on d final sun b4 he goes back to work.
seein my parents takin d pic is really funny. my dad all along don smile when take pic but d photographer wanted him to smile n he found it hard n i try to make funny faces behind d photographer. like attractin small kid attentioon n make them laugh like tt but soon aft, i stopped cos i felt weak n stuffy again. when choosin photo, i can't take it but wanted to go to the cinema next door to get sweet but dear went to get for me. n dad oso wanted d sweet when he saw cos he oso felt weak but he got take diabetic med but i don.
we den go for teabreak den go walked ard individually n i went searchin for a decent small cake for my dad cos usually we had cake. i scare he unhappy if thr is none. n when i cant find d small size i wanted, i oso dare not get a slice of cake instead s they aren't s open minded s they say they are. haiz... jus too troublesome lah... n nw, aft dad's bday, upcomin in couples of days is dear's mum, den my godma... den CNY...den my insurance premium, den valentine's day, den dear's bday, den my piano tunin, den mum's bday. this upcomin 6 mth gonna ve many output sia...
ytd night oso make a rough finance check... if i don anyhw spend other than those stated above, shld ve enough n not touch a certain sum of savin. den i wont deplete all my $$ but it's not as easy s said... so i guess i made a right choice to work a couple of days b4 commencing on my FYP. but if suay suay not enough, i guess i wld go for tt sum of savin n probably will ve to let d bank deduct $$ fr me if fall below their min le... hopefully, i don ve to go n borrow fr anyone ba cos initially i tot of workin till official start of FYP but prof askin when i can start le. tt means, a week of wages lesser. haiz...
$$ prob... scare of results... n many other things to fan... it's nvr endin sia...
Gifts
wat's ur idea of gifts? hw wld u feel when u received gifts? wat if it's something not to ur liking? wat wld u do & hw wld u react?
i'm sure many wld rmbr s a kid, we'll look forward to bday, x'mas, etc whr we get gifts & get to unwrapped them. d excitment of wat's inside d gift wrappers.
n since young, i oso rmbr tt mum wld always say tt no matter u like d gifts or not, u gotta b polite & thk d person who give u d gift & not show unhappy face or say anything. so even if u don like, u oso ve to say it's v nice, i like it v much & show it in ur face. well, tt's courtesy but is it gd?
i oso rmbr i got a cousin who wld v thick skinned say something like, 'hey, isn't tt wrapper fr last yr', or even hint or even say obviously tt cny ang bao $$ too little. i felt it's rude n no give face to d person who make d effort to find n give u like d pressent. but i oso felt wrong to hide own feeling to say u like d pressent even if not practical at all for own use s it felt like i'm a hypocrite. like at times, i told mum tt i like d pressent or d clothes n even forced myself to wear at least once soon enuff aft i get d clothes to give her face. but deep inside i don like n mayb i wont wear anymore n tt once is v v reluctant...
well, tt's y i don like to get gift for ppl. i prefer to get something practical for them so that it's something they wld need n not something which is unnecessary or of diff taste like recently my godma bought 2 tee for my dad's bday. i felt tt d print is super like old uncle n refused to let my dad wore but wat can u say? den wat wld u do w d clothes? haiz...
ppl's ROM, guests usually give presents but wat? photo frame, photo album? hw many do u need? but hw many guests will give u tt?
baby shower. guests will usually give clothes set, bottle set, den wat? hw many u need oso?
hse warmin. guests might give like pots or utensils, hw many set do u need? hw many ppl in ur hse?
i guess i'd too many things. things i like to keep for memories esp gifts fr my dear ones like my family n friends but den hw much space do u ve at hm? n i had to force myself to throw away many items fr long long ago like pri sch n sec sch n many others. d rm will become so cluttered so i decided i mustn't do d same for others n always try to give ang bao instead. at least d money will b put to gd use. they will get something they really need n not ve accumulation of many same items.
mayb if they move a new hse, they still short of certain items due to lack of cash, they could consolidate a few ang bao to get wat they needed. if they had a new baby, they can save d money s edu fund, etc... isn't tt more practical? rather than getting like clothes which ppl wont wear like my godma? but i noe, mayb cos i'm jus too straight... too practical... mayb u all might think like wise... this is jus my opinion...
i'm sure many wld rmbr s a kid, we'll look forward to bday, x'mas, etc whr we get gifts & get to unwrapped them. d excitment of wat's inside d gift wrappers.
n since young, i oso rmbr tt mum wld always say tt no matter u like d gifts or not, u gotta b polite & thk d person who give u d gift & not show unhappy face or say anything. so even if u don like, u oso ve to say it's v nice, i like it v much & show it in ur face. well, tt's courtesy but is it gd?
i oso rmbr i got a cousin who wld v thick skinned say something like, 'hey, isn't tt wrapper fr last yr', or even hint or even say obviously tt cny ang bao $$ too little. i felt it's rude n no give face to d person who make d effort to find n give u like d pressent. but i oso felt wrong to hide own feeling to say u like d pressent even if not practical at all for own use s it felt like i'm a hypocrite. like at times, i told mum tt i like d pressent or d clothes n even forced myself to wear at least once soon enuff aft i get d clothes to give her face. but deep inside i don like n mayb i wont wear anymore n tt once is v v reluctant...
well, tt's y i don like to get gift for ppl. i prefer to get something practical for them so that it's something they wld need n not something which is unnecessary or of diff taste like recently my godma bought 2 tee for my dad's bday. i felt tt d print is super like old uncle n refused to let my dad wore but wat can u say? den wat wld u do w d clothes? haiz...
ppl's ROM, guests usually give presents but wat? photo frame, photo album? hw many do u need? but hw many guests will give u tt?
baby shower. guests will usually give clothes set, bottle set, den wat? hw many u need oso?
hse warmin. guests might give like pots or utensils, hw many set do u need? hw many ppl in ur hse?
i guess i'd too many things. things i like to keep for memories esp gifts fr my dear ones like my family n friends but den hw much space do u ve at hm? n i had to force myself to throw away many items fr long long ago like pri sch n sec sch n many others. d rm will become so cluttered so i decided i mustn't do d same for others n always try to give ang bao instead. at least d money will b put to gd use. they will get something they really need n not ve accumulation of many same items.
mayb if they move a new hse, they still short of certain items due to lack of cash, they could consolidate a few ang bao to get wat they needed. if they had a new baby, they can save d money s edu fund, etc... isn't tt more practical? rather than getting like clothes which ppl wont wear like my godma? but i noe, mayb cos i'm jus too straight... too practical... mayb u all might think like wise... this is jus my opinion...
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