Tuesday, 23 October 2012

无能为力

sorry aunt. i noe u said b4 tt w/o ur generation of ppl, my generation of ppl nvr take initiative to meet up w our cousins. but aft dis incident, thr seems to b a v big gap btw ur daughter & son w us. i doubt i ve d ability to communicate w them & frankly speakin, i guess i choose not to than to makes my blood boils again.

太过分了!!!!

my blood boiled aft gettin a fxxxxxx rude reply fr a cousin. i m always tryin to b neutral & jus 1 ear in & d other out whenever my mum said tt she kan bu qi all of us. but aft d incident which she 不留面子for our aunt on a X'mas eve gatherin & her reply nw, think i cant b bother w her anymore.

X'mas eve, we always have gatherin & exchange gift. once, right in front of other & me, when she received a gift fr an aunt, she jus simply blurt out, '这礼物纸不是去年的吗?'. her younger bro stopped her & say how can she say like tt, & she replied, '根本都是吗。这明明是去年的。'so fr then, her present, i wont put in effort to buy.

my mum always say she come on CNY cos of angbao, & tt keep saying others gave her how much. & when my relatives were talkin ab my weddin date, she said tt mth she usually go holi, etc. but all i choose not to register.

however, d reply i got jus nw, is like tellin me she don ve d heart to come. her heart isn't w us. her parents divorce & she don wanna ve so much link w us. anw, i don care if she wanna come anot. if u don wanna come, jus say u go holi la. not like i will cx ur passport or so wat.

d whole episode happened in aug durin a gatherin, i asked my aunt aka her mum if she & her bro will come & to get their address & contact. however, my aunt cant cfm & don know their add. ok. nvm. nothing weird. cos my parents till nw oso cant write out my new add. so my aunt gave me their contacts.

knowin dis cousin, i choose to ask d bro 1st. d bro end up dk who i'm till i say i fr his mom's side & stay where. he den reply to ask me to check w his sis for his name & add cos he's workin. fine. i cx w her & she give me only 1 add which i noe is not whr d bro is stayin.

last week, aft my mum ask me to cfm w them their attendance & if need baby chair, etc. so once again, i sms them separately. i asked d bro 1st again. & he reply pretty quickly & said he may b workin & tt his dad & sis will go. thus, i asked hw i should address d invitation card to. he replied & said address to his dad but i don ve his dad's name & so i asked him again.

on d other hand, right aft i ask his attendance, i sms his sis to ask her too. & she replied tt she will be attendin w his bro's wife & baby & tt she's reply on his bro's behalf too & so his bro wont reply me. yet her bro alrdy relied me w diff ans. so i reply them separately, askin them to cfm & let me noe. she immediately reply to say tt their dad wont be attendin but thr is no news fr d bro.

aft like almost a week, there is no reply. so dis time, i sms them both tgt w 1 msg. sayin tt we will mail 2 cards to her & her bro & we will save 3 seats & 1 baby seat for them. But i would need them to discuss & cfm who will attend once cfm. i alrdy don care if lesser ppl will come. but y i need to noe who is attendin cos it's really impt. if their dad r comin, he wont wish to sit w my aunt. so we will need to swop my cousins fr another table with them so they will sit at diff table. we cant cfm tt only on tt day itself esp if all ppl alrdy come. it wont b nice to swop seats when ppl alrdy seated ma.

her reply:
'Shan Shan, as this is a happy occasion for you, I really do not want to say things too harsh, have to tell u, we have already informed who will be attending the wedding. So that will be the attendees. If possible please do not ask the same questions over and over again... Regards!'

hey, if you both give me a definite ans, do i have to ask again? ur bro nvr say ur dad not comin. he totally nvr reply my request for ur dad's name. so d ans is not clear. I also asked u previously if it's cfm tt it will b u & ur sis in law & baby but u oso nvr cfm. if u think i keep askin redundant qs, den in dis reply, u can oso jus say d attendees again so i wont ask. replyin like tt means wat?

dear asked me to reply her back say it's they who nvr cfm w us. bro say dad & sis comin. sis say dad not comin & tt she b comin w sis in law & baby. both ans r diff, & nvr reply a confirmation. but i guess i gonna listen to a friend, wait at least a day see if d bro reply. but i jus 咽不下这口气. i really wish to say back. i don care if she end up really not comin. i don 稀罕.

Thursday, 11 October 2012

Good fortune

I have a really nice boss despite d fact tt he is always chasin aft us for results. though i m in dis place for more than 9 yrs, undertakin diff roles, i m so blessed to meet nice ppl ard. ya. thr r few tt don accept me but those ppl aren't impt. most impt r those ppl tt recognise me & my effort & thus givin me so many opportunities all these yrs esp since i quit to go back to study.

i can say dis is a place whr i can call s another hm yet i noe in long run, i shouldn't b here forever even if diff roles. but it's a place whr i can learn n fr current situation, allowin me to progress towards whr i would prefer to be. it allows me to grow up & learn here but i guess ultimately i would ve to leave though no matter hw reluctant i may it.

well, i feel so much cos i guess i will miss stayin w my parents though thr can b times i don agreed upon certain behaviour, etc which made me really upset. i actually feel like huggin them, & no matter hw i thank them & even those tt help me along d way is nvr enough to really express hw i m really feelin right nw. frankly speakin, i do feel like cryin right nw.

i guess all d gd fortune i had accumulated durin all d tough struggle in d past for those SOKA performance & being a leader is still embracin me. I must try to accumulate more good fortune b4 wat i had accumulated become depleted or gone into deficit.

Sunday, 23 September 2012

wedding troubles

dis isnt jus all ab myself n my encounters but is wat i see fr others oso..

traditional chinese wedding will start off w d customary ceremony where groom come to pick d bride & d bride's jie mei will make it difficult for d groom n tt is wat we called s gate crashing. den d groom & bride will go to their home for tea ceremony before gg back to bride's side for tea beremony or even for outdoor shoot b4 returning. simply s it may sound but if got mamy relatives
den even if w/o outdoor shoot, may oso b v rush.

other prob can oso surface at d hotel or restaurant. like pen no ink, media cant play, laptop cant  connect to projector, mic quality poor, things not set, things forget bring. certain things r unavoidable, certain things r avoidable. yet thr still can have many other prob. like uncoorporative guests. guest who 自作主张, 自已为是 & assume can bring any no of ppl they wan despite ppl tekling them cant. but at least these r minority.

wedding is a once in a lifetime event. everybody w well state of mind will want their weddinv to b perfect. to b how they wish it would b. would participate n find watevet thry can. would find ideas.would b worry if anythibg would go wrong. yet today, now, i m at a most disorganise dinner at a really bad location or rather in a building tt ihas really bad structure design w confusing signs. d bride is fr laos so if she didnt care is undrrstandable cos she dk. but d groom, a fellow singaporean & he been to many dinner & b brothers for few times, yet he didnt care & leave all to hus coordinator n 4 bros to manage a rented ballroom arranged w 50 tables. emcees only come at 7pm n attempted rehearsal makin ppl blur b4 they stopped. d groom still wanna think of more ideas like popper when his bros r all shag out & tired.w last min role changes & additional of numerous tasks. w last min searching of all songs for march in, montages, etc. & his cocktail montage seems to b jus open d slideshow fr his laptop photo gallery w scenaries, other ppl, w table plan comin in when guest comin, w last min chsnges n shifting ppl fr 1 table to another, w certain tables where ppl r unknown where to sit & too msny to b named.

y i say d buildin is bad. lvl 1 no toilet. d toilet is deep inside d ballroom so w/o emtering d ballroom, there is no way to access d toilet. d card stated lvl 2 but they don wan ppl take lift up cos no space for recept. but i see ppl in wheelchair, w walkin sticks. d signage put is lvl 1 but there is only 1 restaurant thr. n there is another weddin stated at lvl 2. i came early to pass dear his shirt. i noe lvl 2 but blur when see lvl 1. i climb stairs up to see another function so i climb fown. not onlt i blur. ppl come take lift but saw lvl 1 sign n they wanna press lvl 1 in d lift. lift door openat lvl 2 they oso blur. ppl come uncertain of d chinese name n ask d waitress for d restaurant n they oso confuse n almost bring to wrong place. ppl oso commemt tt d toilet is v far. there is no seats at lvl 1 for ppl who came early. only got seats outside restaurant for restaurant.

d groom himself is like umsure of wat he wants n unsure of everything. florist close at 9 yet he wan to collect flowers aft. yet he wan bring his in laws to tour ard. book mpv oso book late. no car to chauffeur ppl ard fr laos like his in laws n so coordinator need to help him find driver but can last min chsnge plan. end up we only reach home at almost 11 ytd to iron dear clothes. for all these effort. is only worth angbao of 20+. haiz. y can there b such ppl ard???

Thursday, 13 September 2012

a sad news

dis mornin, once i log-in my FB & looked at my neighbourhood gp, saw a really shockin & sad news. a lady seemed to ve jumped down w her few mth old baby & both were dead aft.

aft followin d posts & their threads, found they jumped fr my blk. & those who can see clearly were fr my units at diff lvl. OMG!!! it's still unclear why this happened but they anticipated tt they fall fr a lvl above me but may not b fr d unit above. not sure if 1 of d residences anot. but still 1 lvl up is still s scary sia. so near.

anw, someone posted d wanbao's 1st pg. d baby is a gal & jus 6 mth old only. somemore, d lady were only married since mar last yr. so newly wed & d baby is so innocent. ppl oso say based on d paper, think they werent a residence & they fall fr d highest lvl (25). well, guess cos my blk is d tallest amg d other blk fr d same proj.

nw is still lunar 7th mth & dis kinda things happen. d last i heard of such news was fr d place i am stayin at nw. i wasn't sure if i should really b tt glad tt i wasn't thr seein what happened for both time. but fallin fr such height, even if i m thr, even if i can try renderin 1st aid, think oso hard. nw can only pray & chant for them.

Wednesday, 22 August 2012

BTOs near parents

talkin ab far fr my parents, jus saw tt recent BTOs thr r near my parents one & comin sept will b even closer to them than d recent past BTOs. haiz. if not cos jus got d hse recently & within 5 yrs cant sell, if not i might b tempted to apply for the comin BTOs.

cos if so, den i no need to change job eventually, & if really in future, got kids, can let my mum to help supervise even if got maid or so. & at least i still can meet my friend for supper & walk home even aft mid-night movie or to go for swim tgt. i guess i gonna miss these gd old days cos less than 100 days, gonna b far away le.

but i got an idea, if possible, if dear gg meet his buddy for chat & drink at night, den i take his car to meet my friend & den go pick him aft tt to go home lor. but hope really got d chance. cos sayin easier than doin. haiz.

Seletar Mall

slowly fallin in love w my new place but it's still too far fr work & fr parents. but d consolation is tt thr will b a mall near me. less than 400 m away? & it'd been cfm tt thr will ve cinema too.

been following d facebook gp of my estate & always don dare believe when they say d triangular plot of land in front of a lrt stn gonna ve a mall cos tt land don look big. even when d chinese yao cai dian ppl oso say thr will b a mall i still don dare believe cos scare of disappointment. even when the wooden barrier ard tt land got the mall's name den i believe thr will b a mall but still i wanna see fr my own eyes & so i did last mon.

when ppl fr fb anticipate if thr will b cinema, i still don believe. even till someone said cfm got cinema jus duno which co cos fr inside story of his co yet i still don believe. even when ppl say cos got pic of a couple eatin popcorn & i oso see fr my v own eye on mon i still don dare to put too high hope cos tt land really don look big for cinema.

but today, saw link tt tt fb gp put & now i guess i believe. since it's in d news though online, so it cant b fake right? hehe.

http://business.asiaone.com/Business/News/Story/A1Story20120821-366666.html
New mall at Sengkang named 'The Seletar Mall'
'... ...
The four-storey shopping mall is designed to include a gross floor area of 284,000 sq ft which includes two basement levels and a Cineplex.
... ...'

Seletar Mall to be completed end-2014

http://sbr.com.sg/retail/in-focus/sphs-seletar-mall-be-completed-end-2014
SPH's Seletar Mall to be completed by end-2014
'... ...
These include a Cineplex on the 4th storey, a food court on the 3rd level, anchor retail shops at the 1st, 2nd and 3rd storey, and a good-sized supermarket at Basement 2.
... ...'

other than d distance to work & fr my parents' place & only 1 feeder service to khatib/yishun mrt, i still quite like d location provided drivin la. cos gg town, etc is actually quite near. but i guess i wont drive. cos no $ = no car. if sg don rain, mayb i might consider learnin motor bike cos cheaper than car though more dangerous. at least distance to work wont b any issue anymore.







Tuesday, 21 August 2012

小孩的天真

sometimes i really envy kids. they r so pure & innocent though they can b really mischievious. sum had a family gathering at uncle's place & saw d youngest 2 boys playing hide & seek. the youngest took time to find d elder one & when it is his turn to hide, he will repeat where the elder hide. the cycle repeats itself till all of us were laughing but still he don noe wat happen & cont d whole process. however s n adult, we arent suppose to make such silly mistake or rather we try v hard not to so tt we wont b laugh by others. tt's y i hate being grown up but we had to face it. time wont wait for us.

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

hope i wont b bias

i really hope aft all these incidents, i can still b s neutral s possible to all pr esp fr tt origin. it's not gonna b easy but i'll try my v best. cos ultimately, we r all humans. pls proof me so cos i really don wish to become bias esp if there r only some black sheeps.

Liar Liar

It takes great skill to b a liar tt can converse w a wonderful story 'impromptu' or do they rehearse & think of all possible question or wat will follow aft each sentences?

ytd, i got to noe of a colleague tt either she is lying to me or she is lying to another. but i guess most likely to me esp since aft previous incident tt she think i don wanna help her, she seldom chat w me or rather, she wont come & act pitiful w me.

ya. she is d one tt rather serve net, online shoppin, den end up complain boss push her for her thesis & so she gotta do till 4 or 5 am & comin in showin she worked hard & wanted us to pity her. & she is d one who wants ppl to repeat her experiment & put aside ppl's own experiment & yet when ppl don wan or wanna push aside hers, she would get offended & think ppl don wanna help. & she is d one who isn't happy when her original country is at lugi in d olympic while she is a sg pr. well, she is a graduatin phd & is currently converted recently as staff while waiting to graduate.

so, wat happen was last week, thr is a PH on thurs. on fri, i was told by another colleague, d one whom she was closed w tt she wont b comin in cos she was gg to bali for diving. & when she went to boss to 'apply leave', boss did ask if she got leave. s a staff, i noe tt leave is earned slowly. tt's y i've been tryin so hard to save leaves now. yet she give reason tt she is entitled to d leaves cos she like did more durin d thesis, btw d conversion fr student to staff. & eventually, think boss oso give up & said he pretend he nvr hear anything. tt means, any pro, she will have to ans by herself. i really feel she is really bold. like tt oso can? & she can go psycho d other colleague who jus become student to submit leave application form for boss signature & then don bring downstairs for processing, tt way, d leave will always b thr. @@ no wonder she can like go for so many holi.

anw, d thing is tt she didn't noe i alrdy noe she went for divin ba. so ytd, she came to 'ask' me if her eyes look diff. & den said is cos of mosquito bite den progress to say her husband kena many & allergic reaction till lymph node all swells. said her husband kena bite on a night & so i ask if got see doc. she carry on to say tt d followin mornin when her husband go for shower & found thigh area oso got swell on lymph nodes area & so they got scare & went to hospital. aft take med, swell reduce but her husband v tired w slight fever & so she keep takin care of him & thus didn't come back to work on fri & her husband keep feelin tired & slept for d next 2 days.

she even said she worried if it's dengue so i told her d symptom since my dad & i kena b4. & told her tt mayb she can try get mosquito patch, or those anti-mosquito gaghet & she said mayb but suspect only like take a mth of anxiousness den aft tt wont cont'd. & tt is v rare to get biten by such poisonous mosquito for such allergy in sg. guess, is only a really rare chance.

deep in my heart i wonder, u sure is in sg? tot u go divin? but since she nvr tell me, i assume i don know. so i nvr questioned her. but i did cfm w d other colleague when she go but w/o cfm i alrdy noe sure is tt weekend cos b4 tt she was ard. true enough, it's tt weekend. & she even viber tt colleague to give pitiful smiley face tt she miss her flight & need stay at airport 1 night to catch d next available flight. & tt was wed night tt suppose to be her original flight. so if she tell me, her husband kena bitten d night b4 fri, tt means on thurs, she is suppose to b in sg & on fri at a local hospital. yet, she was catching a mornin flight to bali on thurs mornin. WOW. POWER SIA. so which is correct?

I jus feel tt she is a v li hai ppl cos watever i can ask to carry on d conversation, she can con't her story w/o any loophole. like everything is pre-rehearse. guess, i need to beware of this person. if not, die oso duno how i die.

Monday, 6 August 2012

PR

Last night saw a neighbour (PR) also hang Sg flag outside their unit. quite surprise cos recently, a colleague of mine told me that she jus merely comment on d olympic, something not gd on a country & the other party originate fr tt country (though a PR now), become defensive to her own country. it really makes me wonder if Sg should really reconsider getting in so many PR without really selectin carefully.

changes

Blog background template gone. Change template & all my links all gone too... haiz...

seemed like thr r changes everywhere & will need to adapt, readapt & get use to new changes otherwise, b 淘汰 lo...

yet, i'm still in ntu, in my comfort zone or so i guess. but slowly, shall see if able to crawl out. :)

Friday, 22 June 2012

尘归尘,土归土。

尘归尘,土归土。heard fr mum last nite tt when they went to pick my ah gong's bone for cremation due to d road expansion at bukit brown, they couldn't find anything except 2+ nails and think a pair of socks. no coffin, nothing else. even d stone, gem or watever tt they said is inside my ah gong's mouth has also disappear. y did i say 2+ nails. accordin to my parents, they said tt 1 of d nails seemed to be 'meltin off'.

previously, when my ah ma's bone is being picked for cremation, i was told that 'kid' shouldn't go when i wasn't a kid but i noe they mean our generation. however, my cousins went. dis time, i'm forbidden to go cos of d plannin of marriage at d end of d year. actually, accordin to d tradition, shouldn't even have such event but no choice as government wants the land. otherwise, we are also not suppose to shift my ah gong out cos he still got ancestors around d area. so unless his ancestors had all been shifted, otherwise he cant b though we did bought a place in the temple for him. so though i may seemed to b jokin but i'm serious tt i feel that aft being separated for so long, i felt tt mayb my ah gong wants to be nearer to his wife. he passed away since my dad is ard 10 or 10+ wor so it's been decades. but now that my parents said they cant find his bones, etc, i'm not sure wat is the situation. has my ah gong reincarnate? i hope he does since his physical being had already gone back to nature.

but everytime i pass by bukit brown through lornie rd, i always miss d place whr i visited my ah gong every yr esp aft i gotta noe he will b removed fr thr though my great grandpa & great great grandparents are still thr. actually in recent yrs, i do have d chance to visit d place more than once a yr cos we went for d halloween event thr & though i cant venture out to pay my respect, i can still b able to 'see' whr my ah gong's grave r fr d road we passed through so i could still look over & pray in my heart. thus, i will really miss whr he would be. though i nvr see him in person b4, he will b missed & i will still pray for his well-being wherever he is now.

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

by all means, b angry lor...

OMG... cant imagine such ppl still got cheek to b angry. last wk ask me help & though reluctant, i agreed though i push back cos i oso need do my experiment. plus, i don understand y while u r rectifyin & findin out d exact prob, yet u need to pull me in to do tgt. if u r findin d cause of y it don work, u should jus try & find out den ask me to repeat ma. can u imagine if it don work den i wastin my time leh. of cos if it works, den gd la. but d thing is ur dis experiment is like sometimes ok, sometimes not when diff ppl do. so if u really find out a gd candidate for d prob, den ask me do la, if so, i wont b so grumpy ab it cos u alrdy got me to do it twice le leh.

& hey, i jus push fr wed to thur though actually i wanted to do on fri. end up i over-run my samples but managed to get ur expected results. & ur reason is really selfish cos u say u hope to get result b4 boss come back on mon so tt's y u wan me to do on thurs. com'on. i oso need to produce results. boss will oso ask me for results, not jus u. & indeed he asked. & cos i over-run mine, i got no results & i need repeat d whole experiment twice & not jus fr d midst of d experiment cos i ran out of d samples. luckily boss accepted tt i will repeat d whole thing. & boss oso ask me ab d mutation i need to make but i oso cant get it last wk. & luckily i alrdy got alternative method & r alrdy doin.

so instead of feelin apologetic or appreciate tt i did help u last thurs though i wanted fri, end up u become angry & don talk to me. well, up to u la. anw, i noe i will need redo 1 more time for u based on boss's comment lookin at me but that is when 1 reagent came but meanwhile i can focus on my own experiment & will focus on mine.

like i say b4 i 问心无愧. cos i noe even if i go back earlier or so, i came in earlier too & start my experiment. & i will do wat boss gave me too.

Friday, 1 June 2012

regrets not showin boss tt results, ur prob become mine

eh... hello. i got my own experiments. & though boss not ard, i not like u, come in almost 11. i come in early/usual & start work early/usual. by time u reach now, i m alrdy done w d cell lysis & d protein in d protein dye r alrdy sittin comfortably in my freezer drawer. & my WB is like 60% done oso.

cos of ur exp prob, previously i alrdy sacrifice my time to help u when boss last min wanted me to do urs. & i squeeze many things to do tt day. i noe u r worried ab d results but i really don like ppl to tag along w me to d dark rm. i wan short or long exposure is my prob. u r thr Qs me, u r thr rattling non-stop when usually i could like watch show/drama or play game or even sit on d table for tt few min of exposure esp if nobody is ard so i could rest & catch my breathe aft busy for whole day w/o being able to sit much. & i tot it's over yet, last week boss ask me to repeat again w change of protocol & i noe i'd no time to ask u tt day & thus, i noe it's impossible for me to do on mon cos by time u reach & i clarify w u, it'll b too late cos i need to reach home by 6 cos of a/c servicin. manage to push back d experiment but u wanted wed. ok w me

actually now, it made me think if u pursposely push to wed. so u can do WB on thurs & drag till fri so u wont give boss d results on thurs b4 his leave. 1) u r hopin it works den u can b free d whole week 2) u can rectify d experiment b4 boss come back.

& now u ask if it's cos of pH diff of d buffer when i follow ur formulae to prep it. ur buffer was prep long ago & jus nw, u get my buffer to test pH. & u made me go into d lab & told me tt thr is a diff in pH when u could oso tell me when i'm in office. so, u don wan wear lab coat, u wan get caught, ur biz la. made me go in lab to tell me tt thr is diff in pH & tell me u been wonderin if it's cos of tt last nite. hey, i don wan get caught w/o labcoat & cover shoes lor. & keep sayin u prep v long ago while mine diff. hey, i copied ur protocol to prep lor.

& den u ask me to repeat w ur buffer next week. how come ur prob become mine? if u suspect it's d pH diff, den, mayb u can repeat w urs & mine. if it works, den u can tell boss & if he wants me to repeat, so b it. now is like u think of a diff, den u wan me repeat for u. if not tt prob, does it mean u will think of any prob & made me repeat?

all these while, u been sittin in office much more than me while i'd been in d lab rushin like mad esp in mornin & u come in later oso. u drag ur thesis writing yet comin in to complain u tired wanting us to 同情 u but i find it really hard.

& now tt next week boss on leave, & i jus managed to clear my pull-down experiment temp, i tot i could enjoy abit of boss absent though i still got experiment on going. yet, ur prob now become mine & i gotta repeat it for u. not tt i wanna b selfish but how many times can i keep repeatin for u till u got results. den wat? my experiment no need do?

& take all chance to 'kope' others gel plates & combs can? com'on la. i purposely stick tape ard tt box use to dry plates & combs yet u can still take it & ask y got my plates & nvr return me my combs. I noe something not right so i went in lab & true enough my combs r missin. haiz... y r thr such ppl ard?

i really regret not havin much more time ytd so i can show boss d results though u don wan me to show. y i so nice to help u delay.

Tuesday, 29 May 2012

Discipline? Considerate?

wat is discipline? is it so hard to follow? even basic self-discipline?

com'on, how old r u? u should noe jolly-well tt if u spent all ur free time on online-shoppin, viewin ppl's blogs, lookin at gossips, etc, den surely u r sacrificin ur precious time to complete ur thesis. u'd been buggin boss, askin him when u could start & so u could head-start s compare to ur peers so u could ve more time to start earlier. yet u choose to copy & paste fr papers, etc till boss comment tt d sentences look familiar & he sat beside u to edit ur intro para by para.

cos of d experiment hiccups recently, there is alrdy a delay in ur thesis writin cos 1) u say u no mood, 2) boss oso nvr amend so u oso cant cont'd cos u duno right or wrong. fine. but u could cont'd aft boss sit with u to amend ur intro.

u'd so many weekends to do even if u say boss made u do more experiment to put in ur thesis. but u choose to do online shoppin, etc. so when boss tot u ve done ur data & cos he's gg on leave soon, wat's thr for u to complain. u got time while waitin for ur experiment yet we reminded u to do ur thesis but u don wan. so we give up. u even go out to print fotos in d evenin when tt could wait or could get d other PO to print for u since she is gg. furthermore, u choose to slp d moment u reach home & woke up later in d night to start & cont'd w ur thesis. yet nw, at 11 den u come in givin d 'wei qu & tired' look & try to grumble & say u do till 5am. com'on la. say u start at 12midnight. u do it in 5 hrs. if u ve done some over last weekend, if u ve done ytd afternoon, if u ve done some w/o gg out last nite, if u ve done some more instead of slpin last evenin, do u think u even need to stay awake last nite den use tt excuse to come in at 11?

wat irks me is tt u always come in w all sort of reasons, say husband slp late, husband toss & turn, husband cough, etc etc till u cant slp so u come in late when boss say b4 tt d latest he allow is by 10. u come in at 10+ & den say u hungry & rush us to go lunch w u. if we busy, u wanted us to push our experiment back. do u exercise it urself? when u got ur experiment, do u push back to go lunch while we wait? i takin staff bus so i don give a damn. tt's y i nvr follow. but hey, i really pity d other PO who stayed jus beside ur blk. cos she isn't a local & so not many relatives ard, u made her wait for u to go back, u made her wait for u to come back on weekends. u forced her to go out w u sayin u only ve her s friend givin her pressure if she don.

u go out use ur husband's card. u no need pay house, bills, etc. of cos u ve d money to buy s many things u wan, eat watever u wan s & when u find excuses & pull tt poor PO along. luckily i really broke now. & i oso not free to follow u like tt.

& luckily i gonna stay far away & so i insisted tt i would like to come in earlier & go back later to avoid d crowds so i could still rest at home & do basic hse keepin. i wont listen to u to come in late & go back late. i wan some life lor, not to go back hm, can only slp & den slp till late den come in work. tt means work, slp, work, slp everyday. no way i gonna do tt for u jus cos u wan company. i m only child oso. i don like eat alone but i can make do. eat at home & do watever i wan.

pls lar. exercise discipline or at least basic self-discipline & b more independant. & oso b considerate to ppl can?

Monday, 21 May 2012

Vacation at New place

i guess all d packin to & fro plus stayin overnight over d short weekend at new place oso ve d effect like gg for vacation except it's a familiar view every week. & more shiong than stayin in hotel/resort cos unlike those, gotta do own house keepin. but everytime, nvr fail to b reluctant to come back. however, today, i even had d feelin tt it's like a long time since i come back to work when it's jus last fri. body not fully rest well & refresh but it still feel like long since i'd been working & abit disoriented.

Thursday, 17 May 2012

wat has sg become?

eh... jus nw saw a headline fr 1 of a friend's post in FB. it reads: 'PM Lee and DPM Teo to Singaporeans: Do not blame all foreigners for Bugis accident'. there r mixed feelings. indeed tt not all foreigners r d rotten apples & surely thr r nice ones too. my workplace oso got PRC & malaysian & i'm ok w them.

but look at recent accidents? d bus & den dis? & surely many might ve experience sittin or standin in bus driven by FT. to me, i seriously don think makin them passin our driving test b4 they can get on d road. i doubt it's anything hard for them esp if they alrdy ve drivin experience mayb even for yrs.i believed they don mind b obedient & law abiding for once to get their license & den they can do watever they wan on d road. esp if they r rich & wanna show off their supercar like d ferrari accident. jus look at d video. look at d speed at hw fast it's comin. c if any hint of slow down. any hint of steerin off & avoidin? 就算赶着投胎也不用连累无辜吧. so come'on la. tt is not a gd & ultimate solution. a leopard can nvr change its spots one la. but i wont cos of dis & assume & conclude all FT r rotten apples la. yet, oso cant deny d fact tt those rotten ones can b 'killers' too...

anw, recently seen another clip on a bus. jus try search 'bus berserk.mp4' in youtube. & is oso in sg. it really made me wonder wat sg has become? it doesn't seem s safe s it seem to b on d surface. now, 1 can nvr predict wat will happen d next day. haiz...

Sunday, 13 May 2012

Depletion

OMG... all these yrs, i manage to get thru my studies w my past savin & doin part time & even manage to still ve some leftovers. though nw i'm workin & had been workin for mths, yet i depleted my remainin savings till max to set up d new hse. little things really add up to a huge significant amt. & most of it is pay by dear.

really should ve insist on gg for installment plan for certain huge items cos aft barely make it to pay off his credit card bills dis mth aft his pay jus got in + d remains of past savings, nw d other prob comes. he still got car installment, insurance installment, petrol, etc to pay till his next payday which is like almost 1 more mth to go. tt's y i dare not take up too many insurance plan or too huge amt though i started workin & startin such plan earlier is oso cheaper & better. haiz. even if by time i got my pay by 15th, even if i eat bread daily for breakfast & lunch, i oso cant help him fully. guess need to discuss w him on d solution when i get to see him. it's not easy sia

Tuesday, 8 May 2012

Ideal dream home

I bet in everybody's mind there is an idea of an ideal dream home & there is no standard that will fit each & every one's point of view cos everybody's upbringing & what they gone thru are diff.

Now tt I got my own place, due to d fact tt I need to work, etc, I prefer my place to b neat & easy to maintain & so hopefully minimal things if possible & minimal or no display especially those that will trap dust.

True tt false ceiling with light coming fr d edge etc may look nice but it will trap dust. Thus we go for simple lightings, full height shoe racks etc so as to have lesser place trapping dust.

Talking about ease of maintenance & wanting minimal things, I oso jus hope to have only the essential & I don mind paying for whatever I need & equipping with whatever suit my taste. Even to d extend that I need to survive on bread & cup noodle fr now till payday cos I only left w like $100 to use till I get my pay. At least at d end of d day, I'm d one staying at my place & looking at it daily & I'm happy & relax.

However reality isn't so simple. Parents & in laws are also excited & getting things for us. Be it what we need it not & what is suitable or not. Cos they oso have their own idea of an ideal dream home. I bet dealing w own parents' purchase might b more acceptable than in laws cos ultimately we grow up w own parents & so d culture b more acceptable ba.

But den like tt oso got another prob. If u r a female, den d male side may think that they r d guy's side so they should b d one who prep or buy most or all d things. Whatever it is, whoever it is, will be caught in between. Between either parents & even own ideal home ideas. It's jus so torturing.

Use either parents' purchase will hurt another. & still have throw away own ideal ideas esp if idea clash. But how to stop all of them?

Seriously I don mind eating non-nutritious meal temporary so I can wat I really wan & need. & at least I oso no need to get caught in btw everybody $ myself. ESP when it's really almost every gals' dream to build their own ideal home. A happy, relaxing & comfortable place to live in for the rest of our lives.

Tuesday, 17 April 2012

whoops... for once, i appreciate my ownself so much better. esp aft gettin keys.

细心 & 仔细 & persistant allow me to spot flaws (big or small) tt even a friend once said tt she may only spot d prob mayb aft she shifted in to her new place in future.

though i no go thru D&T in sec sch, i guess my dad's trainin in gettin me to aid him here or thr when he fixed things is gd

lovin maths is gd cos i love to map out dimension & put into shapes & playin puzzle allow me to try to piece out where i can put certain things

playing spot d diff oso allow me to spot diff of my new place. esp on d kitchen kerb which cabinet had been mounted atop though i nvr notice on d spot.

& of cos lovin to capture photos of everything s evidence s a habit has also been put in gd use now to cfm d diff & to b use s proof

my past experience in designing wardrobe, L-shaped wardrobe, TV console, Bedframe, Bookshelf, Shoe cabinet had been of gd use nw

my 3D perception also allow me to visualize hw i want things to be and i could sketch it out though i can do it in accurate 3D drawing w d laminate using software. but at least i can use paper & pencil or even really simple sketch usin paint.

me lovin to take down notes oso allow myself to check & cfm on all changes in dimensions.

my eyes r oso sharp enough to spot changes in d cabinet depth, or even d wardrobe diff based on wat had previously been suggested.

so i guess though being too meticulous & perfectionist had been my flaws, they r also my strongest power. but of cos thr should b a balance of everything.

anw, w d spotted changes, i'll check w my ID & shall c wat she can say. will try push c if can don top up any amount if needed or discount if none.

but don b mistaken. my ID had been gd. have no issue w them. they do deliver job tt we r quite satisfy with except some small unavoidable issue but they will rectify. d lady which we liase w oso had been nice to ans all our queries & entertain my demands & she is definitely reliable cos she could ve many chances to run away when she went back to malaysia but she always got back to me once she is back & update me on d status & helpin us liase w Citigas ppl. & they deliver wat we wanted too esp d kitchen cabinet whr we sav bit on d carpentry $ for d wall behind d beam. but of cos need to b bit sharp to spot d diff & noe wat u wanted in case miss out anything.

& i'm definitely lovin d outcome of my new place. :)

Sunday, 8 April 2012

distant relatives

all these yrs, w watever my memory permits, i can say i'd been gg 扫墓 annually esp to my dad's side to visit my grandparents & great grandpa. in recent yrs, my dad's cousin had brough us to my great great grandparents' too & so we had been visiting annually ever since.

dis yr is sort of quite 'special' as it would be d last time we would b visiting my grandpa at d v same spot as his was 1 of those tt would need to be removed due to the road works. However, though situated at bukit brown are my great grandpa & great great grandparents & other ancestors/distant ancestors which we don't know whr, s far s we know, only my grandpa is affected. thus, mayb some time soon, we would ve to put him in a temple whr my dad & his siblings had alrdy bought a niche already.

if not cos of dis roadwork, we also r not supposed to dig out grandpa's grave s it was said tt if thr r ancestors ard d same area, can only remove if ancestors r removed b4 d 晚辈's grave could be & great great grandparents aren't under our care & decision. well, though ppl may think i'm joking, i believed tt mayb grandpa wants to b beside grandma & accompany her in d temple whr we had already placed her. esp when they had been apart for decades cos my grandpa pass away when he was still quite young.

in dis 1 or 2 yrs, actually i was ard tt area bout 1 more time a yr than my parents due to d Halloween event which dear & i join. to me, tt place is familar & if i could, i would wan to go over to pay my respect to them. However, it was not possible for the halloween events which we join but i would also pay my respect in a distant. i guess soon, d place would feel v different. d way to enter/walk in would oso differ greatly & so i'll really miss d place.

wat irritate me further is tt when i heard my uncle & aunt's bf said tt it would be d last time ever tt we need to come here to 扫墓. hey, my great grandpa aka their grandpa & my great great grandparents aka their great grandparents r still thr lor. i guess i bit too tradition kind ba.

well, wat makes dis yr so diff is tt when my parents, dear & i went to pay respect to my great great grandparents, we saw 2 pax cleaning d tombstone in a distant & my dad greet & ask which family they r fr. erm... till nw i still ve no idea wat's gg on. all i noe is tt they r my dad's aunt & uncle which means they r my grand aunt & grand uncle (i suppose). they don look their age esp my grand aunt who is already 70+ & i suppose they r quite well to do esp my grand uncle who said he's working part time now & is/was a director of somewhr like hong kong bank or something.

anw, hw i deduct tt they r well to do r tt based on their age, if they aren't tt well educated & be in d workin world, plus d fact tt my grand uncle is/was a director of some bank or so, plus, he said his name had been in d directory & tt we could even 'googled' his name & find his details fr a bank company or so, & tt they had tried to contact my dad's cousin via SMS, i don think they would b so clear bout wat google is or hw to SMS.

wat really made me 打开眼界 is tt they r really spring cleaning d tombstone of my great great grandparents. they brought many big bottles of water, gardening cutter, a few brooms to sweep the dried leaves, brush, detergent etc to really scrub & sweep all the dirt away & cut away all branches tt r covering d tombstone. no wonder whenever we go over, d place looked so well-maintained. accordin to them, they used to bring acid to wash also. OMG!!! hw many ppl will really do tt nw?

anw, d feelin is so weird. i m always curious & wonder hw my distant relatives r like & yet when i met them, they r like a total stranger to us & yet keep trying to tell us stories/history/memory of theirs. though i not sure if ever i'll meet them again though they did get my dad's no, mayb thr will b chance, mayb not. till then, shall c hw.

Sunday, 25 March 2012

handy woman cum doraemon

recently due to my new home, i'd started 'doin' more 'side' jobs.

i scanned d floorplan layout given by HDB & erase off d labellin so i could sketch in our idea in 2D by pencil. i end up drawin in paint s well & even coloured it.

i den even do a 3D rough sketch b4 finally engagin our ID so we could show him/her in case they don understand wat we meant. when we finally engage our current ID, she was surprise & tot i'm a designer when i'm not.

den, to make things easier & in case i need to go over new place suddenly, i brought measurin tape out daily. not only tt, i oso brought d contract & other invoices out in case need to call them up for delivery or discuss anything & so i oso brought my floorplan out & all my designs out so i can refer anytime anywhere. & our ID once again was caught offguard w wat i brought out.

when thr is once i was sketchin better 3D drawings, while sketchin, someone passby & comment tt i should pick up architect. trigger me to wonder if i'd taken d wrong course esp when it's not d 1st time i sketch 3D drawing of my current wardrobe, my parents' wardrobe, & 2 cabinets & TV console in my living rm & a shoe rack too. so mayb i should ve gone into interior design. i shouldn't ve hold back on design course s i felt i don ve much creativity. mayb it might b b'cos i don ve much exposure? well, it's over & mayb too late for d switch when i alrdy had a degree in sci. is thr a need for d switch at dis moment? mayb if i got no commitment, i might venture out, i may take up such courses. but nw, finance & time is tight.

sat, when we met w d capenter, we give him d drawin for d interior of d wardrobe. our ID joke & said tt mine is more pro than his & even joke & ask if i wanna do part-time. actually, if i got d time, i don mind to earn extra bucks. but hw possible when ppl use software & printout while i only use paper & pencil den outline w marker. i'm so old tech. & whr really got such gd lobang for me to do part-time?

anw, recently i'd oso become more doraemon than ever. since poly, my friends had been commentin tt i'm a doraemon. but my bag don ve too much of extra items like recent. ever since tt day when dear met w d accident & need my help to take photos for him, w only iphone camera, d lighting isn't gd enough & so fr tt day on, i decided to bring camera out daily.

& nw cos of d new hse, i oso started to bring measuring tape. well, i use it to measure any location of d hse tt i need to know so i know d dimension of d carpentry work, d dimension of sink, stove, etc tt i need buy, etc. & cos sometimes, i may last min decided to go over to new place or to go somewhr to get something, i may need d measurin tape & oso to prevent me fr forgetin to bring out, i ve it in my bag all d time. i guess i might ve intimidate our ID but at least she knew that she cannot anyhw whack & squeeze all our juices out. haha...

anw, aft last wk, actually i should rmbr scissors/penknife cos tt day when we went over to take note of d stove serial no, we forget to bring any & we had hardtime taking off d pink plastic string tt was use to secure our stove + provide s an handle. yet, i forgot to bring again on sat for check of delivery. luckily d delivery man got something to cut d tape from the carton. so i decided to bring a scissor & even a penknife.

not only tt, aft we wanna install d fan, i realize tt i should also ve a screwdriver oso. esp if thr can ve many diff types of heads & sizes. tt day, i manage to find something in my bag to unscrew & screw back d screw for d fan cover. but not always can ve so coincident ma. so best would be for me to b equip. so i guess i can oso b call a handy woman le. LOL...

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

jobs, car, grumble

searchin for a job aren't easy... thr r more sales job than watever more relevant to me, if not those requirin pharmaceutical cert, etc.

i not so thick skinned type so i not so sure if sales b right for me but i need to b open for more option. yet, seein d need for a car really puts me off. party cos of d cost & i not sure if i could afford but d main main reason is tt if i got my own car, surely any thing, small thing, big thing, my parents will sure say, 'shan ah, can u do dis dis dis, can u drive tt tt tt, can u go here here here, can u bring me go thr thr thr, etc'.

y do i say so. b4 i noe dear, only my dad drivin, tt time even when he end up drivin a car, he will go back to office to change for a lorry to pick all up to go 扫墓 or to move dis or tt. even when cant, they will look for my aunt, etc cos for 扫墓 for my mum side, only visit my grandpa's grave so it's their father & their siblings mainly. well, thr was once tt we couldn't make it cos date clashes w my dad's side & my grandma they all take bus to d cemetry & it's jus 1 direct bus & bout 20 min journey.

once i got to noe dear, my mum will come & say, 'can he drive us thr, blah blah blah'. & tt time when my godma's hospitalized, i doin FYP & yet she will call & ask if dear can go help bring back certain things. when told her he's working & duno end wat time, she not happy. com'on, wat bout my aunt, her younger sis? if everybody working, den take cab la.

but b4 all these, she will comment & say tt dear's mum shouldn't make her son to go sign up a new contract for new hp when he worked till late or work till morning, etc. saying so nicely tt should b considerate & let him rest.

weeks ago, my mum told me d date & said tt if i need to go back to settle my new hse, jus go ahead. den days ago, she said tt if dear's workin, den can i drive my dad's car while my parents take bus over. it's so weird. i can understand tt we should pick my grandma who is old & my godma aka her 2nd sis esp when recently she been weak due to her heart prob. s for d rest of d ppl esp like my xiao jiu, if really not enough seat, den take bus la. cant expect to ve a chauffeur all d time wat. so my parents can drive my grandma & godma & at most 1 more person & den meet over thr lor. whoever is capable of walking and standing should get their way thr themselves. tt should b quite fair. i wont mind taking bus thr myself & give up d seat to those who need it most.

n jus nw, she still ask me again if dear's working. when i say he not suppose to be, she asked him to drive. so i ask who's gg & i said tt mayb should jus ask grandma & godma only la. it's not tt it nvr happen b4. den she said my xiao jiu insist on gg, & my da jiu oso. my xiao jiu always go round sg, so wat's so difficult for him to go by himself. s for my da jiu, his eldest daughter got car or her husband got car & she did drive once when tt time not enough car. so if my da jiu wanna go, he should rely on others like me. hey, i not his daughter. whr is d sincerity of wantin to go? if really sincere, surely will ve own way to go.

i not sure my mum will angry me again but i got no choice but really need to tell d facts. ok, dis time dear's not working. fine. he can drive. in future? nobody can tell. so? those who are capable to walk & stand take public bus lor. not a long journey. i always pass by thr when i go work every mornin. if duno whr to walk, den d person who drive mayb can pick in them at d flower shop. nothing difficult ma. but i wont b surprise if mum b unhappy. tt's y i really hope i can nvr ve my own car. by then, if i don help, they will surely b angry w me. haiz...

so i really hope i don ve to go into any sales tt need a car.

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

经典

previous post i tok bout a PhD in d lab. dis mornin her FYP student found out tt she 4got to place her tubes in cold rm overnight & wonder if she would blame it on him so we all strike a conversation tgt w another 2 PO in d lab. so it's a conversation btw 3 POs (includin myself) & a FYP.

end up, 1 PO concluded w a sentence tt trigger everybody to laugh out loud. a 经典 & power comment. & it is: 'Her maturity doesn't fit her age'. & it's really true.

well, tt PO is still v kind n said tt mayb she is stress at hm w her son, etc. so should try to mayb give in a bit. but will she appreciate d help or wat ppl give in to her?

Friday, 16 March 2012

不打自招

i jus don understand y thr r such thick skinned & irritating ppl ard.

expect ppl to always clear d wastes for her. once, twice & then will take it for granted & keep testin d sys allowin d bin to get piled up much beyond d bin could hold. or rather much beyond d XL bag could hold. 'XL' leh. not S, M or L leh... d person tt is behind her is always so nice to help clear for all of us if he's free but she's really takin advantage of him.

recently we r oso doing competent cells for clonin. since i was here s an attachment student, nvr once i see her help b4. in fact, d facts is she nvr even help for d past 3.5-4 yrs. tt day, a PhD student invite her courtesy to help & she agreed initially but then grumble aft tt pushin d responsibility to d staffs (PO). To her, she don wanna take charge of any public duty. but hello, there is dis roster in d lab n PhD r takin care of only 1 or 2 buffers while d rest r still done by PO lor. & we oso need to do many other things. Sharing jus 1 more is so difficult? anw, s expected, she eventually take western transfer experiment s excuse. & she totally MIA aft she is done w hers & nvr help. & she push to d FYP student to help us. to me, i felt tt she is really slappin her own face, her own mouth. if it is not PhD student job, den wat does it gotta do w FYP student???

not only tt, recently she is doin mouse work. thr is another PO doin d mouse work oso but they r doin separate proj, diff experiment. yet, she keep tryin to push d mouse killin n extraction of watever she need to d PO. she keep asking & hintin d PO to tag along if not try c when d PO is gg & tryin to negiotiate d PO to go on d date she wanted. den dis week, she is supposed to kill 8 mice & tryin hard to say tt she will take v long n need 'help' in front of boss & d PO. so boss did ask if d PO b free but d PO jus say 'it depends' & her face turn black w unhappiness. on d day tt she is suppose to kill d mice, she still try to get d PO along but failed to do so & it made her really unhappy. helpin if free, should b ok but we should help each other out. however, to her, it'll jus b uni-directional. only we help her but she wont help us.

not only tt, today, d person, JC, behind her cleared d waste n found needles. safety rules is tt if thr is sharp obj like needles & glasses, etc, it should b disposed separately in sharp or glass bins. it's suppose to b common sense, a knowledge, a practice d day since everyone wanna do lab work. needless to say, we all know d culprit jus didn't want to point fingers. thus, JC send an email to all PO & PhD in d lab s a reminder not to throw & tt it's oso easy to find out who but he did say tt it's not impt to find who nw. i told him tt it's oso ebst to let d FYP & attachment student noe in case they r not sure. so in a way, thr could oso b a chance tt it was thrown by d FYP student who is attached to tt thicked skinned 'auntie'.

in d end, seein d email printout on her desk which JC printed for all. she jumped back to d lab to find JC n grumble s usual. though i m in d office, i could still make out wat she said. she said tt JC is too 仔细 too 细心. say all along no one bother n tt it's d culture here. ^*&^(%* think only d culture for her ba. if she gonna tell me tt, i think i'll ask her since when? & Qs if i should bring in d current safety manager or even d previous safety manager to cfm since when ever throwin needle to norm bin is norm?

hey, i'm in dis sch, dis buildin since when? since mid june 2003 lor. i'm here sort of 1 yr since d sch started & i witness d construction of d building, d shiftin, d changes. i oso participated in d convertion of d original TE office to a store room, etc etc. i did maintenance, i did store duty, i was a TE, i did purchasin, i got account to create PO b4, i m a project officer nw doin research n many other duties. i ve been ard hauntin d sch, appearin everywhr confusin ppl so hello, who is she tryin to bluff?

i simply jus hate dis kinda of ppl. others nvr even say her, she can 不打自招, others say her, she will deny, when things happen, she will push blame away, when ppl need help, she'll MIA, when she needs help, she expect ppl to help, & she will try to push s many responsibilities away fr her & try to 'geng' to be busy or d experiment v tedious n hard n long so accordin to her, boss will feel so n wont push her, & she will b unhappy if others doin d same experiment rush to do many in a day cos d cat is leak out of d bag tt she had been faking.

haiz

Monday, 27 February 2012

wonders of make-up & dressing-up

i'm not so much of a fan of make-up. mainly put esp if i wore contact cos wanna conceal my panda eyes & i mainly wore contact when i go out & not for usual. so if u wanna c me in more make-up, tt'll b esp on occassion like dinner. thus, most often, if u bump into me, i'll b in d most comfy clothes i like to b in, i'll b wearin specs & w no make-up.

so, in a way, d line i'm in is so close to wat allows me to wear comfortably rather than b in d tight & hurtin court shoes, in d hot long sleeves, hiddin behind d thick coats of make-ups.

well, wat makes me wanna write is actually, i realize a flaw in my dressing. if ever, i search another job & got an interview last min like when i got mine for d admission to NTU as an undergrad, imagining me in short denim shirt, tee & slippers. 'ho-say-liao'.... wahahaa... & even if i noe b4hand, & i dress up at work b4 or aft an interview. my dressin would also become so much louder, tellin ppl, 'hey, i got an interview' or so...

hmm... wat makes me ponder so much is oso cos my new place is so much further to whr i'm workin nw, cant possibly work forever here. so eventually gotta get out. thus, my friend oso tell me tt i should slowly change my style of dressin so at least if thr is a chance for interview, i oso no need to take full day leave jus for tt. for her field, ok la, they can dress readily but still will find it weird to wear so nicely to a lab plus i'm so lazy to hand-wash & iron. tt's oso wat made me wanting to wear so comfortably.

well, make-up for me not an issue for interview ba. i jus need like 15 min or less to powder up, no professionally but at least look decent & i oso nvr bother to ve d full set of make-up since i don like & seldom put.

but today, d undergrad attached in d lab, a yr 3, & jus went for d sch pageant contest asked me y i nvr join b4. said tt i should join cos i m pretty when i put on make-up. well, guess he saw d PG photos ba. so it made me wonder if it's one tt's pretty or d power of make-up. to me, if by power of make-up, den not a natural beauty la. & i feel most impt is tt ppl ard like friends & loved ones must b able to accept one as they r & not cos aft puttin make-up. 只看外表不看内涵 is no use one. 内涵才是最重要的... yet, wat's contradicting is tt, i'll still make-up to try look gd for interview & even for dinner, etc.

Wednesday, 22 February 2012

A new beginning

21 feb 2012 (21022012) is really a special date. It marks a new beginning for dear & me & I choose dis date cos it's his bday cos he got bday leave so easier to dine tgt in future.

Eventually, realize d date numbers (21022012) are mirrored fr middle. Felt so cool. But wat's more surprising is tt d numbers looks d same fr top down ESP if u keyed in norm calculator n turn it over. Guess all these make d date even more special, meaningful & memorable & it's once in a lifetime.

Anw, I guess even if other dates in future can b an ambigram, it won't b mirrored in middle too.

Though it's a special date, we still make it simple & jus a family affairs. Jus his parents & mine & my grandma & godma. Cos we'll ve a dinner eventually. Thus, see no point to make it big.

& we held it at NTU. Ermmm... U may think y I'm so loyal to NTU. Well, we jus tot at registry den makan but registry thr no makan. Need teleport. Den during last yr convo, found out NTU got a solemniser & a free room to use. Plus thr is a restaurant jus beside. Some more, all of us stay in west area so it's much easier to hold in NTU.

Well, wat matter most is tt we are happy. We don wanna spent unnecessary oso.

Having it big like at hotel or restaurant means more spending & shouldn't tt it for granted tt u'll b able to cover back wat u output cos for rom, the best gift is gonna b present like photo frames. & guests will attend ur ceremony twice. 1 for rom & another for customary.

We oso not wanting on AD partly cos we attended b4 & need wait much longer for dinner to start w nothing to do. So we oso don wan our guests to b bored & feel same. D other reason is tt we got d AHG fr HDB n we need submit our cert since we collected keys. So tt's y we choose feb, choose dear's bday tt eventually found it's do special. Really hope it's gonna b a fresh new start... :)

Sunday, 19 February 2012

spending...

being my friends, i believed u should noe i not really into shopping but i guess d output now is so much higher... reno ID, A/C, livin rm TV, PG... all can easily hit 5 digit... OMG!!!

while earnin $$ is not easy (w all hard work), savin $$ is oso quite hard & yet spendin $$ is super easy.

even min reno itself can easily hit beyond 10k, & imagine d electrical appliances & furniture, etc. 1 thing can b small & seem so affordable but when all adds up, BOOM... all u'll c r figures....
('.') -> (-.-) -> ($.$) -> (@.@)

so save while u can...

Friday, 10 February 2012

Bad Days

I had been haunted with my headache but that isn't something new but recently once a while, I would have block nose or sometimes cough out of the blue and I do feel my throat getting weird so on Wednesday night, went to see doc and to my surprise, I had slight fever & so Doc give me 2 days MC. However, I do think of going back to lab today but in the end, I had things to settle.

Anyway, my MC isn't for me to rest. It's for me to settle things in the end. Went Queensway to collect a printout, then went to my new place to spot check and found something that disgust and pissed me off. For the wall stains, they only did for 1 obvious wall and not the other that is hidden behind the door and what they did for the chip on the toilet bowl is just to paint over it with white paint and the paint had been smeared much beyond the chip too. How can they rectify a chip just like that. It's not a small tiny chip I am talking about but it's almost a 2 cm length chip. Of course I took pic fr my camera and HP. (I had grown a habit to bring camera & even measuring tape around in case I happened to go over to my new place).

Well, I could go down and bang their table but I never. Of course if I go down, I can scold them in fit of anger but with that, I had got no black and white. To me, I always feel black and white is very important unless I can have some voice recording. Thus, I decided to go home then called them and forward them the photos.

To my horror, my MIO gave me problem again. It would not connect to the internet when I recently called to rectify the same problem. Can you imagine how frustrated I am especially when I need to forward the email to them. So I connect using my HP data.

And guess what, the email to them kept bouncing back, giving me an error message. So I called them to demand for another email address which they don't have and assure me that it's ok if there isn't any pic. Of course they OK la but not for me. As in my email, I describe everything and even stated that I noted down all the date and time we went over and what we found out and even threaten them to settle the toilet bowl well enough, otherwise i'll keep all email and photos as evidence to sue them if there is an accident with the toilet bowl. I even bring out the point that if I am not satisfied, I would report to the MP. So, since I would use this incident to warn them, how can I just let it go. This isn't the 1st time I wrote to them or complain. Previously we found the wall stains only more than a week aft we collected the keys, so obviously they did something which they had not been told to do. Therefore, how can I be nice to them?

So, I went to search for the HDB branch office email to make my complain. Currently, we are suppose to report to the building service centre (BSC) under the construction company but since I can't get them, I had no choice but to go directly to the branch office. However, my email was still bounce back. I was really quite tempted to write straight to the MP but I walked off to calm down. And when I get back and email, I managed to send out.

But early this morning, I then realized I had replied to all and so pictures are not attached anymore as the HDB officer called me today. He apologized to me for their work and asked for the photos so he could get back to them so I emailed him but I still got the same problem. It's only after a few tries and rectification that I managed to send it to him and his reply is that he would monitor it. Anyway, I think the problem is the total file size of the photos. Total 4 pics of ~5.5MB but still cant get thru. when I resized to total ~3MB, it's ok. But I never tell the officer that it's ok since he agreed to monitor it. Hopefully it's going to be much better with this HDB officer chasing after them also.

Why I cant get back to work today is because, I have to deal with another set of issue. MIO!!! last night I called and troubleshooted with the guidance through telephone. It seemed ok yesterday but the lady suggested to fix a technician over to check but if it's really ok, I shall then cancel the appointment. Fair enough and this will speed up the process also and the appointment is today. In the end, this morning when I use the internet and just when I wanted to email the photos, internet connection terminate again. Thus, I had to continue to let the technician over to check. Thus, I had to stay home in the end to settle MIO.

But it's just so concidental that yesterday when I wanted to email and complain, internet connection is down and same for today. It's as though MIO & BSC & the HDB collaborate to prevent complains like that but I know it's just pure concidents. Well, it's really frustrating when you just couldn't settle anything when internet connection is down. Glad I had got my phone data plan to tahan for time being & I really hope everything will be settled soon.

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

Amused

hmmm... found out something tt amused me awhile ago...

if you all had followed d GE 2011, you all won't be unfamiliar w d name, 'Yam Ah Mee' & if you had see on youtube, thr r many version of remix or watever.

well, i jus realized, i got his 'autograph'... haha... not exactly la. it's a printed one on 1 of my cert i got yrs ago. unless thr is another 'Yam Ah Mee'. I doubt thr is another person w tt name & surname ba.

if not cos my cert left sticky marks in my slip-in file, i wont go & laminate & if i nvr go & laminate though i'd been draggin for ages, i wont find out tt i actually got his autograph even when he's not famous then but recent. haha... so funny

Sunday, 5 February 2012

CHINGAY 2012

though nvr watched d chingay at actual ground but on tv, at least caught it & not on repeat telecast. & though not full chingay but d finale. at least managed to catch d performance put up by my fellow soka comrades.

watchin d performance & finale song & fireworks, memories flashed back. all d hard work, all d problems tt comes along, all d challenges, etc. it's really not an easy task. sometimes, it's can get so tough till u may even want to give up. but i nvr cos thr r many gd friends ard, supportin u.

well, i nvr join d chingay performance b4, neither have i join d NDP b4. but i had performed for soka internal events, & even d RC event, & oso even d mid-autumn fest lights up. big scale at sports hall, expo, chinatown, ghim moh, or even smaller scale but still thr r at least 100 ppl???

frankly speakin, i do miss d feelin esp aft managin to successfully performed finally for d actual show. it's always mixed emotions but definitely feelin v happy & satisfied esp gg thru all d ordeals. no words can ever described d feelin & emotions.

in fact, at sort of d beginning, aft performin at chinatown, though i lost my belongin, i wasn't sad tt i lost my stuffs, but i'm not scared tt my parents would nvr allow me to join my friends for performance, etc & i cried. can u see hw silly i'm. i'm scare to call my parents. to tell them d truth. so it's really a tough process tt will give u a memorable & satisfying memories.

i nvr regret joinin all performances & also nvr regret joining Soka Sunflower Dance Ensemble. it creates colours to my dull childhood.

Tuesday, 31 January 2012

gastro-desatisfied day

today had been a really gastro-desatisfying day.

imagine early mornin wake up to see d wanton mee fr d same stall which u might get to eat for conseq days for every week. so i only eat bit think tt mayb lunch might b better cos dear might take 1/2 day off so mayb i can go out of work to eat.

in d end, he couldn't so i gotta eat in. in d end, colleagues went to a canteen tt only sells real chinese food. china chinese food. 1) reminded me of esp all shanghai meal. 2) taste & everything not like in singapore. so in d end, no appetite to finish my rice & even d tomato egg. i like tomato but tt tomato egg jus taste so diff & so sweet. so i was den lookin forward to dinner cos it's dear's lunar bday.

thus, felt hungry at 4 plus & tot of eatin mayb hello panda biscuit 1st, & in d end, received SMS fr dear to say he got CNY celebration. haiz... sian la. eat wat oso no diff. so save $$ & come hm cook rice & put egg to steam on rice cooker lor. but hor... seein d rice remind me of d china chinese food. turn off my appetite again so i could onlly finish 2/3 of my rice & i don feel full oso. but nw, even beer i oso no appetite.

hope i wont get gastric cos this few days stomach sometimes got air sometimes gastric.

Tuesday, 17 January 2012

photo takin

back to sg, back to reality... it'd been a total diff experience... a 180 deg change fr d life in sg or mayb i exaggerate. anw, d trip was really cold & quite tiring & tedious.

early day 1 (8/1/12) mornin, b4 day break, cx in at airport & at 8 plus, flight took off & only landed at ard 12. we dragged d big & heavy lugguage (~24kg) ard till we cannot take it & find a nearby fastfood (KFC) to for lunch & rest & drag our time b4 headin to d train station whr we found place to deposit our lugguage. den we walked ard till no whr to go & sat outside a quieter road side beside d train station for hours w our iphone & ipod touch game s our leisure. we den search for dinner & drag time more before gg back to d train stn to collect our lugguage & cx in for our night train. anw, d temperature was ok initially. it feels s though like at genting highland. nice n coolin but s day goes, it became colder. d queue was terrible.

aft tryin to head on to board d train, it gave me a knock in d head & tt i would oso give an advice to all those who travel to country they nvr been b4. d advice is 'nvr to stuff everything into a big lugguage thinkin tt thr would be wheels to drag & so it would b easy.' 'RMBR NVR DO SO'. cos unlike sg, thr is no escalator or lift. & we or rather dear had to carry d bulky & heavy lugguage down flights of stairs packed w many ppl & so, his steps r oso restricted cos of ppl in front. though i ended up carryin d handcarry bag w shawls, gloves, caps, umbrella, water, laptop, etc, at least all r hangin on my shoulder where my body support d whole weight rather than only usin lower arm muscle to carry at an odd angle cos of d bulky-ness. tt's not all. in d train, thr r stairs too... d cabin r not all in 1 plane... thr is upper & lower lvl. & d corridor is v narrow oso.

though i booked luxury class cabin w soft cabin for the train, d cabin is still small & d bed is oso hard. w habit of not comfortable slpin w strangers, i had no choice cos it's a 4 pax cabin. anw, jus for d night & chances of bumpin to d same pax b super slim. but i still don like d idea tt a guy got d opp upper bunk while i'm below. anw, cos of d stairs experience, i exchanged out some heavier items into my backpack worryin tt it would be d same situation or even worse when reached esp if this time we would ve to climb up d stairs. but in such a narrow n small space w strangers, i didn't quite manage to pull out more items.

well, d train was quite jerky & duno y, it stopped a couple of times. thr is a time whr it stopped for ~30 min or so. though stopped for so long, it still reached on time. anw, my head was near d window & so i could see d stars clearly. i always love to see d glittery stars in d dark sky & it's definitely much more beautiful when in such a brightly litted sg.

when reached (9/1/12), we ended up gotta climb down stairs but this time, we waited till most ppl go down b4 we go so tt at least our path is not restricted but in d end we found actually thr is another way down which is a slope. @@

d time was 7 plus but it was still dark & d wind is really cold. d sky only brighten aft 8 & by den, we alrdy reached whr we stayed. it's at d shop itself which is oso their house which oso d accomodation of their employees. d boss picked us up & helped us carried d lugguage. d boss had 2 gals & they r twins. 2 yrs plus only but elder sis looked smaller size than smaller sis. for d 1st time, i feel tt it's so lucky to b d younger sis cos she would wear new or newer clothes den pass to d elder sis cos usually it's d opp. haha.

d place was so cold tt for d 1st time, i could breathe out vapor. a total new experience. d rm is quite small. jus a platform queen sized bed w tv at a corner & jus some walkin space. d bed is equiped w heating underpad. but cos of their plug, we could only choose either tt or to charge our electronic devices. so another things to note is to bring more universal plug adaptor. anw, we were given 2 nights of stay but we would need another 3 nights thr & cos of d coldness s thr is no heater in d rm, we did ponder of gg another place to stay but d price diff made us cont'd stayin.

tt day, we walked ard & we could catch d glimpse of d snow mt which we wanted to go. a place which dear found out & KIV for more than 2 yrs. but d followin day, while i was havin my hair-do & make-up, thr was changed of plan of swoppin day 2 iternary w d day 1 cos d snow mt is too foggy.

so on 'day 1' (10/1/12), we had 5 sets of costumes & took photos fr mornin till night cos we took d night shot. surprisingly, dinner was provided cos it's not stated in d contract, mayb it's included in d night shot but not stated. d day shot were bearable initially till when at d open space but still alright. d night shot was really cold & tirin cos we were walkin a long way. n ppl oso snappin pic of us like we r celebrities. well, it's cos we braved d coldness by wearin so little for d photo takin.

tt night, s i slp, i felt my throat givin way but i was too tired to bother & d followin mornin (11/1/12), i woke up w a terrible sore throat. luckily i brought anti-swell med for throat. i'm glad to ve been trained in st john & oso previous experience to bring s many necessary emergency items & tt is oso y our lugguage is so heavy. 出门在外, better to b prep.

while gettin ready to change, was told d snow mt still looked cloudy & foggy & so we decided to push back to another day but 30 min ltr, thr is a knock on d door sayin tt d fog seemed to b clearin, though they would suggest gg up tt day, they still seeked our advice & idea but of cos we follow their idea since they should know d weather thr better than us.

thus, we braved d cold once again while i'm havin sore throat & head to d snow mt. they said we were lucky cos recently it snowed & so d mt had more snow. but when we were reachin, it started to snow. 1st time i see snow. wow... & 1st time i feel d snow esp when it hit on my bare shoulder & hands. well, it's still foggy but we decided to go up d mt cos since we alrdy thr, we didn't want to jus give up. so d photos background r mostly blurry.

d most 辛苦 is d lady lor cos wearin so little, still gotta take off d cold wear 1st to take individual shots b4 d guy took off his to take tgt. & yet dear wearin 3 top & 2 long bottom & yet he still keep complainin it's cold makin me oso hard to 忍. & he's d 1st to say 'cut' for d shots. d photographer actually still wanted to cont'd esp aft we supposed to ve warmed up w coffee & tea but we decided to go down for d snowy forest shots.

thinkin tt aft gg thru d snow mt, d rest of d shots would b much easier & better? actually no. at d mt, thr isn't much wind so d cold is stationary & even. but d other place is really much worse esp all d open space. d wind is really strong plus it's snowin, plus i'm wearin so little esp d last shot w d short dress. d background scenary doesn't look cold but d place & d wind is really unbearable till i cant help but scolded dear when he tried to help me take off my cold wear at our last station. cos we r suppose to b takin tgt & either we took off d cold wear tgt or he should take off 1st since he got 3 layers s compared to me. tt's y i cant help but scolded him when he tried to help me, mayb thinkin tt i too stiff. i guess his mind oso got too stiff by d coldness so mayb to him, he's jus helpin me & tryin to get over.

d next few days, we walked ard, sit at d coffee hse, drinkin tea, etc, & spend time on our ipod touch & iphone games. we oso went for massage on 2 evenin. d ppl thr r really so relax. they can open d shop anytime they wan & closed anytime they wan. thr isn't many ppl in d shop. it's a peaceful & quiet place & really slow paced s compared to d fast pace sg. but we are really not used to d food thr. we went ard to search for jap food, italian food, KFC, pizza hut, american bf, bread, western food but not everytime successful. sg is really so much better. thr r so many range of food like chinese, western, malay, indian, taiwan, HK, jap, korean, italian, etc. & yet we always complain tt we didn't noe wat to eat. haiz...

anw, b4 comin back to sg, we packed our bags so tt d lugguage would b much lighter s compared to b4. on d last day (14/1/12) thr b4 our transit, it snowed again but lightly & shortly. & tt night after dinner, we head to d train station for our night train. seein our bed no & w previous experience, we assume tt once enterin d train, we wont need to carry d lugguage up or down d stairs & yet tt side of d door isn't open so enterin fr another side means to carry lugguage down & up d narrow stairs to d other side of d cabin. @@

in tt cabin, thr is a lady who speaks really loudly & even answer call in mid of d night loudly. @@ & d guy at opp upper bed (i'm at upper bed oso) made me feel even more uncomfortable. cos when everybody laid down, & lights still on, he took off clothes 1 aft another. i cant bear to see how much he took off till at d bottom but his top left singlet. d next uncomfortable experience is tt d supposely locked door keep openin by itself. so it made me feel really insecure so in d end i didn't quite slp & even if i did i didn't slp well. i keep wakin up & looked ard & cx my stuff. initially i did tried to close & lock d door myself den i even throw my pillow down to dear's face so he could help me but we gave up but hw can i slp well if d door is opened. it's so much unsafe.

anw, aft we reach (15/1/12), we head to d airport cos we don't feel like draggin d lugguage ard anymore. tt time, cos i lighten d lugguage for dear, my backpack became so much heavier. when cx in at airport, i found tt his lugguage is lighten by ~7kg while my backpack became 8.9 kg cos when we come, it's jus d coldwear which is really light.

overall, it's really a brand new experience. d coldness, d wind, d road/path r made of stones, d snow, & it's really cold to come out fr shower & d water outside for washin hands r really cold. thr is really lots of walkin & d roads can oso b really bumpy.

however, d photographer & his gang r really professional. helpin us carryin our things, even prep warm water when we go to d snow mt, tryin to warm my frozen fingers, standin at edges to reflect lights, photographer climb tree, laid on ground, stepped into d water jus to capture nice shots for us. he even walked faster in front to cx out d place to find nice spot for photo takin. a thumbs up for their service. & if not cos we decided to stop, actually he still wanted to cont'd takin photos for us & findin new spots for us cos he didn't want to end tt early. anw, i really like d make-up, though patch up aft patch up, it's still looked quite natural & i still can recognize myself in d photos. haha.

d only cons is tt it's external location, certain place might end up be burnt off or so & so would ve to b prep to walk a bit w d photographer till he finds a new nice spot. but d pros means, mayb u wont get same spots s previous customer. :)