granted an interview cos i did a survey???

jus received a call. a call fr a company called 'michelle ng and associate'. sayin i did a survey about management or something like tt in sch b4 and i'm shortlisted for an interview s a 6 mths interns in d company.

if i'm not wrong, i think i noe roughly when i did & whr i did d survey. it's behind d 7-11 while i wait for my friends. cant really rmbr d actual content of d survey.

i told d person i do not have d luxury of 6 mths to do interns but she said can dun do it straight 6 mths. told d person i only got sci background & she said it's ok. tt's y they grant me an interview. it'll allow me to find out more. i was thinkin, is thr any loophole or anything? cos it's so weird. anyway, d interview date is on 11 may 3pm so i think i still got time to find out more about the company & agreed to attend. but i realized i cant find any info at all. i really do not noe wat they do... the person jus i can find out more in d interview.

she den sms me d address of d company and said it'll b a formal interview and asked me bring along my resume. d company, michelle ng and associate' is located at 80 anson rd #05-05 fuji xerox tower and she told me to take mrt & alight at tanjong pagar stn.

i'm thinkin of going to 'see see' since she said i can find out more but i oso worried tt it'll b a scam & there is some loophole which i dunno cos i got no biz background. gosh... hw i wish i can find out more bout tt company... anybody got any idea???

it's really over lah...

yay!!! it's over. exams r finally over!!!!!

i think i'd been repeatin wat i do till it became a habit already. or rather, i still cant get d fact tt it's really over. too tense up over d past few weeks ba. i woke up jus nw, still askin myself, 'wat day?, 'do i still ve to wake up to study?', etc. gosh... this is not gd... 'jess, wake up!!! it's over, it sch holi nw. got 3 mth break, no need study study study & do nuthin else. so relax!!!'

anyway, aft ytd paper, accompanied my friends to go collect their hw111 final assignment den guess wat? we went to find a table & open up 'life' to look at movie screenin time. aft decidin gg vivocity & watch 'taken' at 7.25pm, we got so much time left tt we opened up 'classified' & started lookin for our temp job. fast right? jus aft exam, immediately flipped 'classified'... so no life... hahaa.... but aft tt we went vivo & eat, shop & watch movie...

reach vivo at ard 1+. went to d street directory. my friends see whr to eat while i see where d cinema is. we went to buy movie tickets aft tt. d person v funny lo. thr is only 3 of us & he asked if we buyin 4 tickets. whr is d 4th person? we jokinly said mayb it's our 'piao mei' (she in taiwan). aft tt still cant decide whr to eat, went back to d directory. haha... we went marche in d end & took photos too. well, i took photos most of d time. hahaa.... stayed till ard 4pm b4 we leave but still walked till dunno where to go cos we like sort of past by each shop at least twice. we nvr went into all d shops la... in d end, went to take a sit at the couch outside d movie threatre.

C was sort of too tired but MT pei wo feng... haha... & i took a few more photos while waiting for our movie. not all d photos nice lah. i not pro ma. but it's alright. it's digital cam. can delete if not nice. haha...

so aft a almost 2 hr show, 3 of us like stayed in vivocity for almost whole day. fr 1+ to 9+. & only reached hm at ard 10.15 & went online aft my shower to upload d photos & tag my friend in facebook. haha...

最后冲刺！！！

my last paper of my crazy semester of 7 examinable modules + 2 non-examinable modules will be over by 11.30am tml!!! like my friend said in her blog. nvr ever will i b so crazy to take up so many modules again. this is madness!!!!

even b4 my 5th papers, my mind is goin nuts... wakin up at ard 2.40am in d mornin, havin feelin tt i overslept & thinkin it was almost 7am in d mornin when i'd 9am paper tt day & wantin to wake my parents up at tt time s i tot they overslept oso... luckily i u-turn back when i almost at d door to check d time b4 i go wake them. if not, i'll gonna ve a real bad day tt day cos my mum once awake cant get back to sleep & would b easily angered if she dun sleep enuff. think due to d scare of late, i was super wide awake then & almost go to d extend of studyin but i scolded myself & forced myself to go back to sleep. followin tt nite, similar thing happened again. woke up in d middle of d nite again. this time i 4got wat day it will be & wonder if i need to go sch. of course i went back to sleep aft tt cos it's sat.

i think i seriously need a break. & i'm so glad it'll soon b over. i'll ve 3 mths break. yay!!! haven found my job but my uni friend said, '慢慢来' cos we still got 7 partyworld vouchers of 4 hrs ea. haha... ya. 7 vouchers. i got 2, C got 2, and MT got 3. though i nvr sing K b4, i think go thr ve fun oso gd... go thr enjoy & relax... if we start work le den hard to go cos it's only for weekday daytime & b expirin in june.

anyway, alrdy got plan for a couple of days. straight aft exam, will go out w C and MT. mayb even a movie session. followin day, meetin ML for dinner & mayb a movie too. oops... this yr really a movie yr for me. labor day, b gg JP buy d beads & 'figurine heads' to make mothers' day pressies. ya mothers' & not mother's. makin for my grandma, godma, cousin's mum and i'll try do a bracelet for my mum. nvr attempt bracelet b4 so will try to do so cos my mum quite like d one in 1 of d books i bought. will try to modify & do w d rubber string instead of hook cos tt's wat my mum prefer.

sat, i'll b wat MT said, hm-alone kid, & think i really so goin nuts fr my study tt i jus simply dun wish to stay hm oso cos of d crazy weather & d 'xi zao' in my rm. so it's my 1st time to sort of jio friend out. ytd ask ML if she free & i'm really glad she's. so, we'll b gg out aft lunch. & she sort of got it all planned for tt afternoon. haha... if ask me plan, i won't noe whr to go cos my usual hang-out place was JP, BPP, L1. tt's oso y i always jus tag along if friends jio me out. if not i nvr quite initiate but think this time, i feel almost suffocated by study & weather so i jus wanna get out. even if ML is not free, think i might jus find a place to go myself ba. but tt's b so lonely.

anyway, exams over oso means i can have time to play w my piano. hope i can practice back all d pieces i'd learnt b4 cos nw all forgotten except simplified version of 'my heart will go on', & 3 other pieces. all not gd. though my nails r long nw, but i jus wanna play. able to play quite nicely is v fun. hee...

i oso wish i can draw again... so long since i grab a pencil & paper & draw. actually, i still did scribble (in my lecture notes) when i started to fall asleep but not quite wat i wanna draw... but think i'll do tt aft i settled all d mothers' day 'beaded' pressies (if i'm successful).

piano, draw, beaded crafts... all so not science-based... haha... mayb i really in wrong field... ;p anyway, oso hope to go swim w ML. i can cont'd to learn & practice on my own. but it's quite shiok to get in d water once a while. ;p if she still go joggin, might tag along w her. cos i dun wanna meet another weird person like d last time i go jog alone (which is yrs ago). must build back my stamina & hopefully wont fall sick tt easily (which is my ultimate purpose).

next wed, will go help my grandma made d yam 'abacus' cos if not she will ve to do alone. it's not easy cos it's tedious esp for her age. fri will ve to make agar-agar for d mother's day celebration @ my grandma's hse on sat. so my schedule is almost planned till end of next week. oops.. jus like tt 1 week will be gone.

hope followin tt week will be even better! ^.^ but...

nw, shall do my 最后冲刺 for d last paper. not d v last but at least d last one for this semester! ganbatte!!!

find temp asap!!!

need to find temp job asap... mum started making plans...

20090501 - go JP buy beads make mother's presents for my grandma, godma & help my cousin make for her mum.

20090507/08 - go help my grandma make the yam abacus so that she can cook on the mother's day celebration on 20090509.

though i dun mind wat mum suggesting nw, but, i better get my job before she plan more, if not my holiday will be burnt again.... but there is no offer in today's classified... & i dun wanna let her noe i planna find temp to do. cos she'll go ard tellin & dun wanna work at ntuc w my godma for my schedule will still be under her knowledge and ctrl. i dun wanna work so near my hse where my mum could like come find me or what or dad go drive me hm. it'll be good for him to pick me up aft work to go hm faster once a while but not all the time. cos it'll be back to usual where i go work, go hm, go work, go hm, or at most go out w parents.

i got list of things i like and wish to do also after my exams... i need rest... sleep to be exact. i wanna meet up my close friends who i quite some time nvr meet. if can, draw cos it'd been a yr since i last draw. practice my piano, go meet up my friend and cont'd to learn to swim. run & try to train back my right leg since d physician said it's ok to run. & i can exercise and slowly train my leg. shop around, and go have fun w friends. d kind of fun w parents & friends r so different. w parents, will hold back... w friends, can really jus 放loh.

w my mum, will be looking after my cousins most of the time even when gg out... she'll say, oh ur cousin like this like tt every morning, blah blah blah. tml u wanna go over see? but in actual fact, is not an option. it's more like onli one choice, u MUST go... tt's y i dun like to let her ctrl my whole holi if not i'll b more tired...

dream/nightmare/reality

was chatting in email with my friend & she was talking bout dream... not d sort of dream u'd while u sleep but it reminded me tt last night i'd a dream... a nightmare to be exact... & i cant get back to reality again when i jerked up on my bed.

last time was leg cramp. dreamt i'd it & followin mornin i felt my leg aches... this time, i'm lost btw reality & virtual again. when i jerked up d 1st time, i nvr care & went back to sleep. min ltr, i was jerked up again... this time, i suddenly tot it was early mornin & i should get up & d sun is almost up (which means almost 7am) when i got exam at 9am. & my parents overslept too as the living room was dark & quiet.

in my mind, i was cursing myself on oversleepin on impt day & when i haven finish studyin & planned to reach sch at 7+ to cont'd studyin. so i jumped out of bed wantin to wake my parents too. when i was almost to the door, i decided to u-turn and look at the alarm clock. the only clock tt i can see then was fr my hp. guess what. it was only 2.38am... s i very awake then i thought i slept v long but i only slept for 1hr+. gosh...

i think i'm too stressed up ba... though got facebook, & msn, d rest of d time, i'm in front of my notes... been going sch early, gg back only at 5+ & do nothing else is not doin any good... i was so awake then tt i suddenly had d crazy idea due to worry tt i cant finish studyin. i wanted to on d lights & study s i was really in a d wide awake state... good state to study. but i noe deep inside that i should not do so & scolded myself & make myself go back to sleep. cos if not, i would be flat when i'm in d examination hall.

when i woke up eventually at the right time, i feel tired actually. hw i wish tt d wide awake state of mind was at tt time....

Random Thoughts

yesterday when i got home after studying in school, i found my room with 35 degree C again. gosh... that is terrible. i'm glad i studied in school instead in the comfort of the cool air-con.

after such a hot afternoon, there was a 'sudden change' in the weather. i suddenly heard noises like door slamming and things dropped, etc and when i opened my window to see. i could feel the strong and nice wind on my face & see the trees swayed quite vigorously. even the empty plastic bag that some idiot might have anyhow dumped were swirling in mid air like in a 'tornado' (bit too 'kua zhang'). haha... the wind was actually so nice that i actually wished to open my window wide & sleep but the wind also blew the rain in so i had to shut it completely. if not i might dream that i'm swimmin or worst still a nightmare that i'm drownin. well, as a matter of fact, i do feel like i'm drownin. drownin in the flood of notes, etc... haha... today, a few aunties also commented on the wind last night.

back to my studies. i think i managed to secure at least a B for an non-examinable communication module. hope the other 7 examinable modules (5 core & 2 electives) don't fail me... *pray hard* i'm already much more focus & hardworkin than last 3 semesters though i can be even more focus... jia you!!! 4 papers down & 3 more to go (many people already finish their exams le... *sad*)

after takin the staff bus for almost 6 yrs, this mornin, another bus came to fetch us. reason cos our usual bus was stuck in a jam & could not come on time to pick us up. so both buses swapped the pick-up points instead. this bus was so much newer as compared to my bus but i'm fine with my usual bus. as long as can go school easily, it's ok... ^.^

jus nw, saw another message in facebook from a leader for student division (SD) of Soka members studyin in NTU. last week, she came across my art blog & ask why aren't i studying in ADM... lol... told her i got no creative gene as i could only draw what i can see. her comment now was, 'seriously, ppl usually start off with drawing things they can see, that's how all artists do their thing! hehe. so i dun think it's that u dont have the creative genes in u, maybe ure just more comfortable with other subjects ba.'

it makes me think again why i'm in sciences. i think it goes back to secondary school ba. only 3 classes to choose so i can only picked the best combination. i did better for mathematics followed by sciences and that is how i choose science field after i got my 'o' level. but i realized now that i'm not good in science actually. maybe like the term that i learnt only recently was that i'm a 'jack of all trade'. this is to put it nicely. in another word, i'm jus a master of none. even the facebook quizzes oso always give me different types of jobs that i can do or will say i can do a variety of job... haha... it can be good or bad depending on how you see... ;p but i think i'll go for whatever job i can get in future & maybe go pick up other skills that i like better ba. be it piano, handicrafts, drawin, etc... i must at least get my income 1st... so i think i noe what i could do when i graduate 2 yrs from now? i guess so... though not very clear but it gives me some light on my future path... at least i dun feel so lost now. a lost soul no more... haha...

MCQs... & temp job...

finally finish half of my exams but there are still 3 more to go... sighed... it's takin much longer than i can imagine...

though d previous paper was a mix of MCQs and a structured essay question, the MCQs were enough to kill. since i got into uni, i found that i grew to hate MCQs more and more. in d past, i loved MCQs as i need not study that much & i could score alot esp if i get d chance to practice on past Qs. but nw...

d reason was due to d creativity of my professors... they will either deduct certain marks for wrong answers or have multiple choices for each Q. for the multiple choices Q, they will set it in a way that either u get correct or u'll get zero... so means to say u must choose d correct answers without missing any or choose extra... worst still, multiple choices with mark deduction if got wrong (cant really rmbr if there is)...

so, conclusion is MCQs are really a gd choices for examinations... but if nvr study enuff, essay Qs can kill too... sighed...

anyway, while studyin, been in d look out for temp vacation job for period btw 30/4 to 7/8. slightly more than 3 mths. last week, saw job offer fr marks & spencer s temp sales assoc but d walk-in interview is ytd & today. so decided to give it a miss... today, saw fr d straits time classified that there is a holiday students/temp for data entry & filin & it's 5 days wk (8 to 5.15) at jurong for $1k/mth. still decidin if i should call up. furthermore, i might not b in sg btw 21-25/5. should i call & check out???

disastrous week...

after sending my mobile for repair on thursday, went JP walked around before going home. parents didn't find out but asked why i was home early. only said i'm tired and so i went home early. i used the sony k750i w/o the clear button and had to use it w/o being found out. but was quite worried that i would have to pay for the servicing as accident by water is not covered according to the terms & conditions.

& lucky me. had been going school to study on weekday so i could go and collect my mobile on the followin day when i received the notice that it's ready for collection. & luckily the k750i battery managed to last till then as i have no access to the charger. i'm glad too tt i need not pay for the servicing as it is still under warranty or it would cost like almost $400. gosh... more expensive than what my dad had gotten the phone for.

anyway, thought such disastrous week will be over then but last night, my nose blocked & itch & i wanna sneeze but mostly cant. throat oso giving way then & went to drink plenty of water. but it doesn't help. this mornin, woke up for dance training but in d end decided to go see doc as my throat hurts. nose still d same. i noe if i dun see doc, tml will be worst. cant afford tt cos i got 3 papers this week. 1st 2 is on mon & tue. must get well asap...

damn suay

think today is really a bad day for me even though i dun wanna be bothered by wat happen dis mornin.

jus went to d washrm & accidently dropped my hp. & it went swimmin. & nw d touch screen dun seemed to work. shit... if my dad noe, he'll sure scream at me again. think i shall stopped studyin & go service centre to see hw ba... then walk ard jp for a while ba. b4 gg hm & face everything. sighed...

so unlucky...

step on a mine again...

it'd not been a good start dis mornin. i felt quite bad then & worst still had a early morning virology paper. it's all b'cos of d paper actually. cos my dad today accompanyin my mum to sgh for her annual checkup, he not workin & dun intend to drive to sgh. heard fr my mum tt day so i nvr ask him to drive me to sch for my early mornin paper. & they'll b gg breakfast like usual. so i decided to go w them & take public transport to sch instead of d staff bus.

this mornin, my mum last min suggest gettin my dad to drive me to sch. & i dunno wat or hw she tell my dad tt made him so grumpy & bu suang. so i kept steppin on his tail w/o knowin wat is wrong. he nvr even watered d plants like usual. had black face. grumble & scold say i need go sch early nvr say, blah blah blah... even ask me take cab to sch which i refused & he oso angry & said give me option i oso reject. y do i need to take cab? it's expensive. i not rich loh & not as if he'll give me d cab fare. he nvr even ask y i takin public transport instead. he oso nvr ask hw i planna go. & i cant even tell cos he's in bad mood & wont listen. if i argue back, he'll sure b even more angry. so i kept quiet lo.

durin breakfast, he then suggest drivin me to bp bus interchange to take 180 which i dun intend to take but he dunno lah. i tot of take train. be faster at tt time though have to transfer many times. my mum dun like d idea & he angry again. so i can only keep quiet. wanna help him go buy straits time before d noodle came, he oso not happy. when i finally get d courage to tell him i'll take train, he angry again & said he'll drive me to sch.

durin journey, he scold again, sayin next time i wanna go sch early, tell beforehand, blah blah blah... & he intended not to drive to sgh today. well, so wat if i tell? he not free wor. tell oso no use. not like tell le he'll drive me thr. he nvr even let me have a say on wat i was thinkin actually.

& aft lookin at d time, he decided to drive hm aft i got to sch. then he will take public transport w my mum to sgh. so weird. jus keep insistin not to drive. actually, few days ago, i had d thought of askin if i can drive his car (not exactly his) to sch then go hm straight aft my mornin paper. but i nvr drive alone before so i nvr voice out. somemore, i study better in sch.

but aft wat happen this mornin, i cfm dun wanna drive his car. i dun wanna go back so early. it further enhance d idea of studyin in sch. i jus wanna get away. away fr them. away fr hm. get more freedom. at least i wont get to step on their tails w/o knowin y myself. i wont get to see black face. i think i had gotten tired of seeing them black face suddenly cos it does spoilt my mood. i'm sick of always stuck at hm & i wan change of environment once in a while. i'm a human. not their puppet where they can do wat they wan. i'm not their 'chu qi tong' & i'd been tryin v hard to ctrl myself cos i noe they r jus bad mood. i noe if i try to defend myself, they'll see it s i'm 'bu shuang' or i'm angry esp fr my tone. who's tone wont be when they r wrongly blame? if there is, then d person must be a perfect person or dun ve any temper at all.

i'd been trying real hard. to balance everything in my life including them. i'm really tired. i almost can doze off durin d exam jus nw. actually, i sort of did. cant they jus try to be more understanding? had accompany them out whenever possible. & they can still black face over a small matter. either tt or they will be quite mushy at times with wat they say. (not jus quite but pretty much, & i felt so awkward thr). & i cant say i dun wanna go out w them. my dad will complain sayin i go out w friends can but not him. i dun mind gg w them. but i dun like when they suddenly say till so mushy or their face can turn black & b so grumpy & start take me to 'fa xie'.

jus nw when reachin sch, he then finally tot in a diff way & said tt i could be extra time to study. so? i like tt idea but i'll rather not aft havin deal w his temper. i'll rather go sch myself. i think for d next 3 early mornin papers, i dun care if he gg office or other place. even if he gg office, i dun wanna go breakfast w him. i'll buy bread to eat for breakfast & go sch myself (so wat if it takes much longer). more freedom & wont get to feel tt awful b4 my paper. & i must die die find a temp job to do during d 3 mth break. jus dun wanna rot at hm which is a mines where it can explode any moment. at least i can get to go out, get to be in diff environment, face diff ppl, learn new things, earn some pocket money.

another weird neighbour

was opening the letterbox when a family of 3 (neighbours) passby. d uncle walk past 1st & i nvr notice who cos i was opening the letterbox. when i turned over, saw d auntie so i greeted her but...

me: auntie
auntie: 做工呀？还是读书？
me: 读书。
弟弟: 读那里？(puzzled cos normally we youngster in this blk/neighbour nvr chat)
me: NTU (still puzzled)
弟弟: 我也是。什么course?
me: Biological Science
弟弟: 哦。我是triple E。我是第一年。(in my mind: 'I dun need to noe')
me: 哦。我是第二年了。(in my mind: 'so?')
弟弟: 现在在考试对吗？
me: 我刚考完回来。(in my mind: 'so?')
弟弟: 你考到几时？(in my mind: 'y do u need to noe?')
me: 29号。
弟弟: 这么久。(in my mind: 'must be another who ended earlier than my course again')
弟弟: 你几岁？(in my mind: 'huh? y so k-po? ask for wat?)
uncle: 不要问女生几岁啦。(in my mind: 'tt's better')
auntie: 你比较大对吗？(in my mind: 'so wat? it doesn't affect u')
me: 我做工了才回去读书的。
弟弟: 几岁？(in my mind: 'it doesn't concern u')
me: xx。(in my mind: 'watever. i got nothing to hide.')
auntie: 我就是记得你比他大。还记得他还这么小的时候，你已有这么大了(used her hand to show)。(in my mind: 'ya. i noe. tt's y no pt hidding my age')
me: 我做工赚点零用钱才回去继续读书的。
弟弟: 现在很多人都这样。我有个朋友今年27岁才在第一年。(in my mind: 'so?')
me: 哦。是吗？不说了。很迟了，我要回了。

throughout the conversation, their lift door had wanted to close like twice. beginning, i only greeted the auntie out of courtesy. & since she ask if i working or schooling, i jus ans loh. didn't noe tt 弟弟so kaypo. tot only aunties will do tt though i nvr encounter tt. i almost wanna blurt out saying, 'oh, tt guy who jumped down was ur senior ah. do u noe him?' mayb i should said tt when he said he was from triple E.

ytd, d indian neighbour who lives 2 units aways thought my cousins were my kids & today this. weird neighbours...

my cousins or my kids?

jus nw, in d lift, a neighbour asked hw is my baby. i was like so puzzled... then i thought maybe he might have mixed up with his immediate neighbour who just moved in not too long ago & they had a kid who is 1 years plus. or maybe because i'm sort of always with my 2 young cousins & he thought they are mine. anyway, told him that they are my cousins. cause it's very obvious that i dun like next to him.

well, he aren't the only one who comment that way. think that occurred like d 3rd or 4th time already. previously was when i was with my cousin(s).

1st time was like in year 2003 when i brought my cousins to JP with their mum to watch a 'magical bubble' show. i was called upon to go up the stage and the performer thought i was a young mum. made me even more paiseh.

subsequent time(s) was when i brought my cousins out alone or when i was walking far with my cousins in front from my parents and relatives. i was asked if those were my kids.

looks like they always associate people of more than 20+ years old and kids to be a family (as in mother and child). if they are really my kids, then i would have not completed my 'O' level le as the eldest was born when i'm having 'O' level examination. then i would have been an underage mum. and i think i might have been killed 1st before that could happen. lol.

3rd leg cramp...

less than a week aft i got my 2nd leg cramp, i got it again early this morning. this time on my left calf. i think i might ve figure out wat cause it. if too 凉 due to drinkin tea, etc can be the reason as what the older generation ppl always say.

recently, i'd been drinkin green tea usually in the evening when i got home from sch. drink tea as it suppose to be 凉 so that i dun get too heaty & started to get too 'heaty' again. but i did not drink daily. mayb i drink it too late le.

& i also just realized that it may contain more caffeine than coffee though it nvr affect my sleep. i guess i'm just too tired.

another calf muscle cramp

i cant rmbr exactly when i got my last calf muscle cramp in the middle of the night. it was relatively recent but due to low memory space in my brain. i cant rmbr when but i know it was not more than a week ago & i can't rmbr which leg that was.

this mornin, less than an hr before i had to wake up. my right calf muscle cramp when i wanted to shift my leg. s usual. it was very painful. but aft tt i fall back to sleep. & i overslept again.

luckily i could get ready fast so i still managed to go out the time i wanted but i was still late for d meetin at 10. i realized tt the journey time thr is shorter when i had to reach before 9. i guess that time was still early especially on weekend. that is y i was late as i estimate the same duration as an hour earlier.