Monday, 21 September 2009

feelin awful for being caught in d middle causin disappointment in others...

2day didn't really went quite s well. was caught in d middle dunno wat to do. no matter wat decision to make, will disappoint either side. or worst.... stepped on dad's tail...

few days ago, mum got said tt dad wanna eat steamboat at hm. told her ytd i most likely wont b free cos got friend's ROM and dunno if will go out aft tt. in d end, really go out. go buy mooncakes & did tot of givin his parents & nanny if possible. managed to give his nanny ytd but his parents weren't hm so eventually brought d other 3 boxes (for his parents, my grandma & godma) to keep in my fridge 1st.

dis mornin, heard my grandma b waitin for us & wont go out so we went a while aft breakfast. my grandma looked happy & aft a while, went back to my hm to watch drama. guess wat. my parents wanna go out & my dad kip askin if we'll b eatin. i noe wat he meant by but i pretent tt he asked bout lunch which he said dinner. kip askin & askin till we said we cfm again ltr. my mum came by too & asked if i noe wat my dad wan. i noe. steamboat. but i really cant cfm cos his parents noe i bring mooncake over today & i believed will most likely wan me to dine thr.

anw, aft he noe wat my dad wanna eat, at 1st he wanna tell his mum we not eatin & ask if his mum b hm at ard 12+. told him tt he shld jus ask if she ard tt time cos if not, we can still go ltr. her reply was tt she'll b hm whole day. i sensed 'trouble' cos which mean to say she'll b waitin at hm for me in a way but he agreed to dine w my parents. i noe tt my dad wont b happy if i dun wanna eat at hm. esp when he agreed yet i said 'no' or 'see how'. sighed...

when we reached his place, his mum asked if we b havin dinner & said she already prepared soup. i really wanna dig a hole s i didn't noe hw to react. he told his mum tt we wont b eatin & i could see tt his mum was disappointed. she even told her husband tt we arent eatin dinner at hm. in d end, i agreed to drink d soup his mum prepared but i do not know if it's alrdy done so tot might stay till it's done which he said at most aft he got hm, he helped to clear d soup.

at 1st his mum poured me a cup of soy milk but she told me to drink d soup instead as it was alrdy done. actually i alrdy got a sip of d soy milk but his mum said it's alright & pour it into her cup. she scooped some soup for us and even thank me for helpin to clear some. it made me feel more awful. i felt so bad & paiseh but i dun think i can call my dad to tell him tt i cant eat w him. he will b disappointed & mayb even b angry.

dinin at either side, i'll feel bad. cos no matter wat, will cos disappointment & even anger. jus told my mum wat happened & told her tt if ever this happen again, i'll do d extreme. i wont go either side to eat so i dun side anyone. i noe tt way, both parties will b disappointed & i dun like to see ppl disappointed, but i got no choice. i dun wanna go here & den d other party said i dun like them or so & vice versa. i dunno bout his parents but i think my dad will. if i go out w friends & not him, he'll said i dun like him, etc... argh... i dun like to caught in d middle lah... T.T

oh ya. in afternoon, i dare not quite nap. cos dad's hm. i scare he not happy again. so jus close eyes & doze off like 10 min. & again, i lie on my tummy & 'napped' w my notes in front of me. any prob, i can say i doze off while studyin cos i didn't even took off my specs. ya. tt's hw i usually napped at hm if not i dun nap at all aft tt incident tt my dad was angry & said i only noe hw to slp...

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