hm = wat???

i think i really got 'phobia'. jus nw, mum said go out dinner tgt aft dad got hm and when i see tt it's gettin late (almost 6), decided to ask mum wat time dad will be home so tt i can get ready b4 he got hm. guess wat... i dashed off for shower aft i heard d phone ring (i noe it was fr dad) and i believed i showered ard 5 min... luckily i'd got gd 'trg' to do so... but it's v jialet leh... always worry i stepped on their tail due to such minor things... sighed...

anw, mum said she scolded dad cos ytd she was in my rm when he 'flared up' so she knew wat exactly happen and it's not my fault. at least this time i got a witness but so wat? it's over. cant undone but hope my dad realized d prob. mum & i always told him tt most of d time when he speaks normally, can oso make ppl think he not happy... well, if not dad, den will b mum and once in a blue moon, den i kanna both... den i can say i suay to d max then.

but so long s mum & dad dun curb their temper, i think i'll always b tormented by worries of steppin on their tail anytime anywhere... but it'll act s a reminder to me to ctrl my temper and tone esp if i get too busy or moody...

watever it is, i really hope my hm will b a shelter for me rather than i had to always seek shelter in sch lib or elsewhr. if tired, wanna nap oso worry till kanna 'nightmare'. cant even rest at ease. & it's not productive to do tut, etc when i was too tired... sighed... hm = stress? or hm = shelter? i wish to choose d latter.