exams fever

saw d maddness of d exams fever kickin in early in d mornin... yes! it's MADDNESS!!! -.-'''

d queue outside lib b4 d openin hr is not progressively increasin but rather it is exponentially increasin. ytd & d day b4 was more or less d same except tt thr were more ppl waitin outside d lib than mon. however, today's queue was really crazy. i think it might get worst s days goes by until d last few days ba... well, it's wat i expected s it had been d same previous sem but it's still to 夸张 alrdy.

tt's not d worst of d exam maddness. d worst thing was tt for d 1st time despite d fact tt i did went to d lib to study last sem oso, i saw a no of ppl runnin a race, dashin into d lib once it's opened. i understand tt they want to get a seat but d no of ppl queuein is not to d extent tt they wont get any seat at all loh. even if they could not get d seat tt they would prefer, they would still b able to get other seats ma. so is thr such a need for d rush???

d scene b4 my eyes made me dunno to laugh or to cry... they were carryin big bags (some backpack, slingbag, etc) and they looked quite 'cartoon' when they made the dash which made me feel like laughin but i ended up shakin my head. i bet d librarians would ve seen such a crazy scene too.

y did i say i wanna cry? it's cos wat i seen made me more stress over d exams & i really hate it... i dun wanna get nightmares over studies again... exams haven start & last nite i alrdy had sleepless nite. stayed up till quite late last nite cos jus cant fall asleep. & guess wat... i ended up hypothesizing experiment on hw to characterize certain type of cells durin embryonic development... hw weird. i nvr even study tt development bio module for d last 2 days & yet my mind autorun d program for d module. had to scold myself & forced myself to get to sleep though it didn't help much.

i'll nvr ever put myself in dis shoe ever again aft i graduate. i rather picked up other short courses to upgrade my skills, etc, rather than tryin to upgrade 'academically'. it had gone beyond my threshold limit alrdy & i jus ve to pray hard i dun end up in IMH by d end of my 4 yrs course. T.T

i think i shld give up tryin to stress myself over d type of degree i would get eventually. cos i realized for d past few sem till last nite, i ve been slpin & do tut in dream, wakin up in middle of d nite thinkin i'm late for exam, havin slpless nite over exams, wakin up wonderin if i need to go sch, wakin up wondering wat to study/revise next when exams alrdy ended, etc...

but of course if can, 2nd class would b d best & b a miracle if i can get. it's still an aim to work forward to. w my current grade, if can get d 3rd class alrdy gd enough le. anw, jus hope i can get through this final 2 yrs smoothly will do. so long s dun fail den gd enough le even if i jus get a degree w/o an honor. if i push myself too hard, i really think i'll end up in IMH.

i shldn't ve cont'd on for dis degree. i dun mind being a master-of-none or to put nicely, jack-of-all-trades. at least i'm well versatile. & capable of do more things. i dun see hw dis degree further enhance my academic knowledge for it's makin me more stress... anw, since i'm in dis & had been my 5th sem and thr r 'jus' 3 more sem to go, i'll cont'd to persevere on. 'jus' 3 more sem aft this is jus a way to console myself.... sighed... T.T

hang on... 20 more days to temp freedom... 真是个好漫长的20天... 可一定要努力.不然就不只要熬多3个学期了... *touched wood*