today had my 2nd paper... it seemed to go ok... & i managed to ans d short ans qs & longer structure qs right fr d beginning to d end. make me feel tt i shld at least get a pass. s for scoring, i shant hope much cos i scare tt history like last sem will repeat itself...
but if compare to 1 of a paper many sem ago, tt paper i really almost skipped fr beginning & reached d end in less than 30 min. it was terrible & yet i managed to pass it. but... if history repeat... den i duno wat to say le
i do feel tt i noe wat d qs is askin, & i sort of was lucky to have looked thru d notes & d part which d qs was askin. i rmbr certain pts, & a few other pts which i only rmbr vaguely while a few other pts i simply cant rmbr but i sort of rmbr d gist of d portion. so i managed to write & write until i got stuck.
nw can only keep fingers crossed but at least this paper boast my confident abit but the next 2 papers r gonna be tougher especially when they r back to back 1 day aft another. 1 got certain topics which r so unclear while another got hundreds of drugs to memorize but i had sort of summarized out the notes for d fri paper. so hopefully it will help me in my study & memorization work.
i noe aft fri, i sure b drained & wont wanna touch on another notes so i tot of maybe finding my friends to go get d hse-warming gift for another friend but my friend aren't free. shall wait for her to arrange another date & tt will only b after my final paper le.
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
Monday, 26 April 2010
start of exams
today marks d start of my exams... 2 wks of exams w 6 papers & 4 of them r this wk... great... jus great but at least aft this wk, can sort of relax a bit & soon it'll b over...
didn't want to blog nw but jus open my blog to see see & saw my art blog... it's been a long time since i do something i enjoyed... cant wait for exam b over... den i can draw, play piano, etc when i'm free... tt's wat i like bout being in d workin field... if possible, don bring work back & so work means work, aft work means enjoy, relax, etc...
s a student, ya, we do ve holi & even long vacation break... but... think of it... during long vacation, we would most likely end up workin, attachment, etc. so we oso cant really enjoy much except after work. so no of break is actually lesser unless u r super rich & no need work & can jus play for ~3 mths... nah... i wont envy them... cos got $$ doesn't mean really happy. i'll b satisfied if i can get a decent job to sustain my living & take care of my parents. i don ve strong ambition of wantin to be at d top rank lvl otherwise i would not ve d childhood ambition of being a nurse.
at times, i wonder if i had picked d wrong choice... shld i ve opt to transfer to a better sec sch? shld i ve transfer to nursin dip rather than biotech? shld i ve take up paramedic job rather than a lab tech job aft graduation? shld i not ve taken full time biosci deg & took up part time instead or shld i took up other short courses instead?
anw, back to reality... i cant go back in time. i cant undo even though i actually prefer health sci rather than bio sci. but still, thr r some link isn't it? so shall work hard nw for these 2 wk... but i cant wait for it to be over... i die die must clear all modules... gambette!!! & my rewards aft these 2 wks of chionging will b d HK trip, & mayb do things i like w/o worryin bout tut, reports, tests, exams, ...
& aft exam, durin my 'holi', got 2 friend's weddin to attend & i'll b an emcee for d 2nd time. gd trg to train up my confidence for my FYP presentation? lol... & if i got familar bein an emcee, next time i shall charge le. haha... anw, tt friend oso asked me b her jie mei but i sort of decline s her weddin is on weekday & i havin attachment & would ve jus come back fr HK. not v nice of me to tell boss to say i need another off day again... nvr be jie mei b4 & actually i'm interested to be & help her. she a v gd friend of mine wor... but i cant... make me regret decision for attachment rather than work... cos work would be more flexible in time. but i cant choose work cos attachement more related so get better stand in my resume & oso may link up to FYP.
a friend once said to me something like 'oh, all ur friends shld ve gotten married alrdy right, so all these wedding dinners etc shld get lesser & lesser'. well actually no... i think it'll b continuous... my friends may not b alot but whrever u go, u'll oso meet new ppl & not all my friends r attached & married oso. but it's a gd news to hear tt friends r getting married esp if to a gd guy/gal. not everybody can get d chance to b w their loved ones for life like d guy fr china who married his dead gf at her funeral. i was touched by d guy's action & felt very sad for d couple.
& oso seein mich's blog on d fisherman, i oso read of it b4 but when i saw her blog about it, it's really true tt it's v impt to know wat u wan & to treasure whoever came by u, esp those who care alot bout u. it really doesn't matter if u make big money or not. it's hw happy u will make ur loves one be & hw happy u'll end up w. 没人知道明日事... don think u can jus earn more nw & use it ltr. no one can tell u exactly wat will happen d next day. so treasure each day & live w no regrets ba!!!
kk. enough of 'big talk'. shall get back to my notes le... wish me luck...
didn't want to blog nw but jus open my blog to see see & saw my art blog... it's been a long time since i do something i enjoyed... cant wait for exam b over... den i can draw, play piano, etc when i'm free... tt's wat i like bout being in d workin field... if possible, don bring work back & so work means work, aft work means enjoy, relax, etc...
s a student, ya, we do ve holi & even long vacation break... but... think of it... during long vacation, we would most likely end up workin, attachment, etc. so we oso cant really enjoy much except after work. so no of break is actually lesser unless u r super rich & no need work & can jus play for ~3 mths... nah... i wont envy them... cos got $$ doesn't mean really happy. i'll b satisfied if i can get a decent job to sustain my living & take care of my parents. i don ve strong ambition of wantin to be at d top rank lvl otherwise i would not ve d childhood ambition of being a nurse.
at times, i wonder if i had picked d wrong choice... shld i ve opt to transfer to a better sec sch? shld i ve transfer to nursin dip rather than biotech? shld i ve take up paramedic job rather than a lab tech job aft graduation? shld i not ve taken full time biosci deg & took up part time instead or shld i took up other short courses instead?
anw, back to reality... i cant go back in time. i cant undo even though i actually prefer health sci rather than bio sci. but still, thr r some link isn't it? so shall work hard nw for these 2 wk... but i cant wait for it to be over... i die die must clear all modules... gambette!!! & my rewards aft these 2 wks of chionging will b d HK trip, & mayb do things i like w/o worryin bout tut, reports, tests, exams, ...
& aft exam, durin my 'holi', got 2 friend's weddin to attend & i'll b an emcee for d 2nd time. gd trg to train up my confidence for my FYP presentation? lol... & if i got familar bein an emcee, next time i shall charge le. haha... anw, tt friend oso asked me b her jie mei but i sort of decline s her weddin is on weekday & i havin attachment & would ve jus come back fr HK. not v nice of me to tell boss to say i need another off day again... nvr be jie mei b4 & actually i'm interested to be & help her. she a v gd friend of mine wor... but i cant... make me regret decision for attachment rather than work... cos work would be more flexible in time. but i cant choose work cos attachement more related so get better stand in my resume & oso may link up to FYP.
a friend once said to me something like 'oh, all ur friends shld ve gotten married alrdy right, so all these wedding dinners etc shld get lesser & lesser'. well actually no... i think it'll b continuous... my friends may not b alot but whrever u go, u'll oso meet new ppl & not all my friends r attached & married oso. but it's a gd news to hear tt friends r getting married esp if to a gd guy/gal. not everybody can get d chance to b w their loved ones for life like d guy fr china who married his dead gf at her funeral. i was touched by d guy's action & felt very sad for d couple.
& oso seein mich's blog on d fisherman, i oso read of it b4 but when i saw her blog about it, it's really true tt it's v impt to know wat u wan & to treasure whoever came by u, esp those who care alot bout u. it really doesn't matter if u make big money or not. it's hw happy u will make ur loves one be & hw happy u'll end up w. 没人知道明日事... don think u can jus earn more nw & use it ltr. no one can tell u exactly wat will happen d next day. so treasure each day & live w no regrets ba!!!
kk. enough of 'big talk'. shall get back to my notes le... wish me luck...
Friday, 23 April 2010
today, studied pharmaco in sch lib... study bout drugs... yet i think i may end up requirin d drugs to treat myself instead...
early mornin, when i went out, realized i forgot bring bread as lunch & no time to go back take or i'll miss my bus. these 2 days been like tt cos i sort of only woke up at 7 & leavin hm by b4 7.40. within 40 mins, wash-up, breakfast, change & read newspaper...
anw, i end up gg canteen & managed to get sandwich s lunch b4 gg lib. when i passed by d lib, again see d big crowds. so kua zhang but i don care. i noe will still get a sit esp d side whr thr r comp.
well, i study & though i took d sandwich w a pkt of crysanthemum drink, at near 2 pm, i felt weak. like giddy giddy, head light light, seeing double... felt not so well like motion sickness... . went for a toilet break but still feel same aft i got back... i wish i could jus simply sleep & don care & i actually regretted agreein to start my attachment immediately... shall monitor & see hw...
i did rest for a while but forced myself up knowing that i must be focus... i think i forcin myself too much... actually till nw, i still do feel weak. i jus wanna sleep. i jus need to tahan & hang in thr for another 2 more weeks... 2 wks ltr, at this time, i'll b free fr study... gambatte...
early mornin, when i went out, realized i forgot bring bread as lunch & no time to go back take or i'll miss my bus. these 2 days been like tt cos i sort of only woke up at 7 & leavin hm by b4 7.40. within 40 mins, wash-up, breakfast, change & read newspaper...
anw, i end up gg canteen & managed to get sandwich s lunch b4 gg lib. when i passed by d lib, again see d big crowds. so kua zhang but i don care. i noe will still get a sit esp d side whr thr r comp.
well, i study & though i took d sandwich w a pkt of crysanthemum drink, at near 2 pm, i felt weak. like giddy giddy, head light light, seeing double... felt not so well like motion sickness... . went for a toilet break but still feel same aft i got back... i wish i could jus simply sleep & don care & i actually regretted agreein to start my attachment immediately... shall monitor & see hw...
i did rest for a while but forced myself up knowing that i must be focus... i think i forcin myself too much... actually till nw, i still do feel weak. i jus wanna sleep. i jus need to tahan & hang in thr for another 2 more weeks... 2 wks ltr, at this time, i'll b free fr study... gambatte...
Monday, 19 April 2010
study, attachment, HK
it's exactly 1 wk to d start of exams... gosh... i must buckle up & get down to serious biz le... i'm sort of equip to stay in lib today w 3 pcs of plain bread, a small packet of kong guang biscuit, a packet of crysanthemum drink, bottle of plain water & mint sweets.
anw, i don think i'll study at hm in case i got in trouble or mum mood swing again & i end up feelin low... it's not d time to get all emo in this sense. so i'm back to square 1. study in d lib & survivin w not so nutritious bread or biscuit for 3 wks...
ya. 3 wks. dis wk sort of a study wk cos my paper commence next mon & my paper end on d last day of d exam wk in sch. always like tt & i heard even d last sem oso same... sian... tt means end of yr oso like tt & so my paper gonna end right b4 xmas... wat a xmas present...
well, for this 3 wks, i'll either mug in sch lib or at dear's place ba. so i may not b survivin on bread & biscuit for every day dependin on whr i'm at.
anw, shall chiong nw & den 3 wks ltr, gonna start of my attachment. wonder hw it will be, will it b manageable & hw much i can ctrl my own time cos it'd been long time since i did full lab work... but i'm more lookin forward to d 7th wk fr nw when i'll alrdy b in HK. haha...
jus nw chat w a friend in d bus & apparently she stayed same hotel s me b4 & her comment is gd. haha... so guess it's a gd decision, a gd deal. hee. chat w her till i wish i could go thr tml. so long s my parents stay ok, i guess it'll b a v enjoyable trip. i cant wait to go thr & escape fr all d studyin but back to reality... JESS, GO STUDY HARD NOW!!!!
anw, i don think i'll study at hm in case i got in trouble or mum mood swing again & i end up feelin low... it's not d time to get all emo in this sense. so i'm back to square 1. study in d lib & survivin w not so nutritious bread or biscuit for 3 wks...
ya. 3 wks. dis wk sort of a study wk cos my paper commence next mon & my paper end on d last day of d exam wk in sch. always like tt & i heard even d last sem oso same... sian... tt means end of yr oso like tt & so my paper gonna end right b4 xmas... wat a xmas present...
well, for this 3 wks, i'll either mug in sch lib or at dear's place ba. so i may not b survivin on bread & biscuit for every day dependin on whr i'm at.
anw, shall chiong nw & den 3 wks ltr, gonna start of my attachment. wonder hw it will be, will it b manageable & hw much i can ctrl my own time cos it'd been long time since i did full lab work... but i'm more lookin forward to d 7th wk fr nw when i'll alrdy b in HK. haha...
jus nw chat w a friend in d bus & apparently she stayed same hotel s me b4 & her comment is gd. haha... so guess it's a gd decision, a gd deal. hee. chat w her till i wish i could go thr tml. so long s my parents stay ok, i guess it'll b a v enjoyable trip. i cant wait to go thr & escape fr all d studyin but back to reality... JESS, GO STUDY HARD NOW!!!!
Friday, 16 April 2010
flash flood
shockin news: flash flood only at 9th floor of a HDB flat...
haha... i v 'li hai'... cook & wash till i flood my kitchen... not jokin... really flooded cos of choked pipe. i rarely cook at hm so i didn't rmbr d prob... so i was happily washin d plates, etc & when i'm done, vola... flooded fr d drainage hole on d floor in d kitchen. 3 piece of floor 'towel' is not enough. think mayb 10 pieces or more ba... tt's y i say flood... think wet at least 1 square meter or area. ended up spendin quite some time clearin d mess... oops...
haha... i v 'li hai'... cook & wash till i flood my kitchen... not jokin... really flooded cos of choked pipe. i rarely cook at hm so i didn't rmbr d prob... so i was happily washin d plates, etc & when i'm done, vola... flooded fr d drainage hole on d floor in d kitchen. 3 piece of floor 'towel' is not enough. think mayb 10 pieces or more ba... tt's y i say flood... think wet at least 1 square meter or area. ended up spendin quite some time clearin d mess... oops...
cook dinner
while on d way home today, d sky turned v dark & seemed to be gonna downpour any moment. so i decided to back hm cook dinner instead.
tot of cookin white fungus w mushroom soup but decided not to when i see d remainin luncheon meat aka cold cut. & somemore, d otah tt i'd opened was pretty long le. mum buy le oso nvr cook or heat it up. so end up 1 block of otah, i had already cut 1/3 twice so left another 1/3.
however, if jus fried d otah or luncheon meat, seemed bit dry to eat w rice & d only option i can think of is to cook w egg. yet, otah & luncheon meat taste don seemed to be able to match tgt of mix & cook tgt.
end up... cook 2 types of eggs. 1 egg steamed w otah. 1 egg fried w luncheon meat + 'cincaluk' (can't rmbr hw to spell again). & don worry. it's not all for me lah... i not tt siao to eat 2 eggs in a day though i noe d limit is 7 a week. haha... i cook 2 types cos i wanna clear up d luncheon meat & otah. & d remainin will give my parents eat. oso cant mix d otah w luncheon meat cos mum don like d smell. so she can eat d steam egg instead. haha.
d scramble egg with luncheon meat & 'cincaluk' is a derivative of d scramble egg with 'cincaluk'. last time at melaka, thr r ingredients in d egg so tt's y nw i add d luncheon meat. diff ingredient fr d original nonya version but nvm. can eat can le. furthermore, i got no original recipe wor... thus, i shall b d modern nonya & not followin d original recipe. at least i can come out w my own recipe aft tastin d food somewhr & end up tellin mum hw i cook. well, she can cook for my cousins eat ma. haha...
anw, below is my dinner, only finish 1/2 of each egg cos i dun ve big appetite...
tot of cookin white fungus w mushroom soup but decided not to when i see d remainin luncheon meat aka cold cut. & somemore, d otah tt i'd opened was pretty long le. mum buy le oso nvr cook or heat it up. so end up 1 block of otah, i had already cut 1/3 twice so left another 1/3.
however, if jus fried d otah or luncheon meat, seemed bit dry to eat w rice & d only option i can think of is to cook w egg. yet, otah & luncheon meat taste don seemed to be able to match tgt of mix & cook tgt.
end up... cook 2 types of eggs. 1 egg steamed w otah. 1 egg fried w luncheon meat + 'cincaluk' (can't rmbr hw to spell again). & don worry. it's not all for me lah... i not tt siao to eat 2 eggs in a day though i noe d limit is 7 a week. haha... i cook 2 types cos i wanna clear up d luncheon meat & otah. & d remainin will give my parents eat. oso cant mix d otah w luncheon meat cos mum don like d smell. so she can eat d steam egg instead. haha.
d scramble egg with luncheon meat & 'cincaluk' is a derivative of d scramble egg with 'cincaluk'. last time at melaka, thr r ingredients in d egg so tt's y nw i add d luncheon meat. diff ingredient fr d original nonya version but nvm. can eat can le. furthermore, i got no original recipe wor... thus, i shall b d modern nonya & not followin d original recipe. at least i can come out w my own recipe aft tastin d food somewhr & end up tellin mum hw i cook. well, she can cook for my cousins eat ma. haha...
anw, below is my dinner, only finish 1/2 of each egg cos i dun ve big appetite...
Thursday, 15 April 2010
my bag was 5 kg...
eh-hem... jus did something stupid... go put my bag on d bathrm scale
my bag contains 3 ring files of notes + umbrella + water + tissue + wallet + 3 slices of bread + ... so guess hw much it weigh on a compact scale? it's 5kg.
i'll b like bringin a 5kg pack of rice walkin in sch tml? -.-" v gd ah... better drink up d water tml cos i usually wont... at least can lessen load bit? i hope. haiz...
my bag contains 3 ring files of notes + umbrella + water + tissue + wallet + 3 slices of bread + ... so guess hw much it weigh on a compact scale? it's 5kg.
i'll b like bringin a 5kg pack of rice walkin in sch tml? -.-" v gd ah... better drink up d water tml cos i usually wont... at least can lessen load bit? i hope. haiz...
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
3 revision lect = 3 ring files of notes to bring???
gosh... jus realized tt tml lesson really need heavy duty... 3 modules ea w notes tt filled up a ring file. & tml sort of all revision... to bring all, is oso crazy. if dun bring... wat if need to refer? so bring or not??? mayb bring lo... but heavy sia... somemore, gotta rush ard. fr my sch to LT20 den back to my sch... -.-"
well, actually, i got another option. bring my laptop. but think it's heavier though not s bulky s 3 ring files but... d battery cant last tt long lah... esp when it's 7 hrs straight of lesson. impossible... den i'll waste energy bring it oso. so back to square 1. bring my notes...
well, actually, i got another option. bring my laptop. but think it's heavier though not s bulky s 3 ring files but... d battery cant last tt long lah... esp when it's 7 hrs straight of lesson. impossible... den i'll waste energy bring it oso. so back to square 1. bring my notes...
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
luckily i did piano servicing now...
did my bi-annual piano tunin today. fixed d appt almost 2 wks ago. oso did servicin aka clean up & checkin of d piano.
d servicin supposed to b done 2-3 yrs but i only sort of noe aft my previous tunin. yet i busy so i nvr call for d servicin. since this mth gotta do tunin, i asked for servicin too.
luckily i did cos d technician said thr r worms startin to make my piano their hm. d worms sort of fed on d felt material & apparently if i delay another 0.5-1yr, think all d felt will be gone & to replace tt, hmm.... d technician said may cost to 700+++...
*phew* or my pocket will b burnt. all my hard earned $$ b gone jus like tt. so i rather go for servicin 2-3 yrs cos it only cost ard $50+. anw, d technician ask me go get d special moth ball for piano. say it can last 1-2 yrs depends on d room environment aka humidity, etc. i shall make my way to get it soon b4 d bugs came back...
d servicin supposed to b done 2-3 yrs but i only sort of noe aft my previous tunin. yet i busy so i nvr call for d servicin. since this mth gotta do tunin, i asked for servicin too.
luckily i did cos d technician said thr r worms startin to make my piano their hm. d worms sort of fed on d felt material & apparently if i delay another 0.5-1yr, think all d felt will be gone & to replace tt, hmm.... d technician said may cost to 700+++...
*phew* or my pocket will b burnt. all my hard earned $$ b gone jus like tt. so i rather go for servicin 2-3 yrs cos it only cost ard $50+. anw, d technician ask me go get d special moth ball for piano. say it can last 1-2 yrs depends on d room environment aka humidity, etc. i shall make my way to get it soon b4 d bugs came back...
Monday, 12 April 2010
once she start, her engine hard to halt
further enhanced d fact tt once the engine was started, it cant b halt tt easily. wat i meant was when mum started tokin, she really can don care bout other things one...
last time, mum tok till can ignore my cousins for lunch & askin them to eat bread for time being when it's 11+ am alrdy.
jus nw, met my friend aka my financial consultant who came to collect my recepts & oso mum's receipt. he was d son of her gd friend whom she always tok to & jus nw she keep tokin & tokin to him non-stop downstair. i was ok to stand thr & tok. at most go back slp ltr. but i felt bad...
felt bad cos my friend's pregnant wife was ard too & we were all standin s mum tok non-stop. furthermore, it was almost 11 pm le & she shld noe tt tml is still a workin day & so she shld let them go back earlier & rest esp his pregnant wife whom EDD was in july.
luckily my friend still need to rush elsewhr to meet 1 last client so he stopped her & said he need to go. i cant imagine if not den hw. if i say her, ltr she angry again. can she b more rational? think b4 she kip tokin non-stop. b more considerate & not think of her ownself can or not? & nw i cant remind her le or she'll angry. haiz...
last time, mum tok till can ignore my cousins for lunch & askin them to eat bread for time being when it's 11+ am alrdy.
jus nw, met my friend aka my financial consultant who came to collect my recepts & oso mum's receipt. he was d son of her gd friend whom she always tok to & jus nw she keep tokin & tokin to him non-stop downstair. i was ok to stand thr & tok. at most go back slp ltr. but i felt bad...
felt bad cos my friend's pregnant wife was ard too & we were all standin s mum tok non-stop. furthermore, it was almost 11 pm le & she shld noe tt tml is still a workin day & so she shld let them go back earlier & rest esp his pregnant wife whom EDD was in july.
luckily my friend still need to rush elsewhr to meet 1 last client so he stopped her & said he need to go. i cant imagine if not den hw. if i say her, ltr she angry again. can she b more rational? think b4 she kip tokin non-stop. b more considerate & not think of her ownself can or not? & nw i cant remind her le or she'll angry. haiz...
Saturday, 10 April 2010
overstress...
had bad dreams last nite... 1 of it related to sch, studyin/revisin for exams... i ytd jus started on 1 lecture leh... like tt i alrdy had a bad dream... jus imagine it's like my mum said, my exams only end at d end of next mth. i think by then you can visit me in IMH le...
i alrdy take it easy though i noe i'm esp lost in 1 of d modules... i'm actually ahead of my study plan leh... yet... i'd a bad dream bout exams... my mind seems not to listen to me... i can b calm & relax but deep deep in, it's havin super strong worries... guess i'm jus like d big seas/ocean. looks calm but thr can b strong currents fightin against each other deep in.
i alrdy take it easy though i noe i'm esp lost in 1 of d modules... i'm actually ahead of my study plan leh... yet... i'd a bad dream bout exams... my mind seems not to listen to me... i can b calm & relax but deep deep in, it's havin super strong worries... guess i'm jus like d big seas/ocean. looks calm but thr can b strong currents fightin against each other deep in.
Friday, 9 April 2010
changed in mobile plan + applied for bursary
mornin had > 8 hr break. so came hm. i could stay in sch to study but decided not cos i'll end up stayin in sch for 11 hrs & if i survive on bread or biscuit, it wont last me so long. so i go back hm.
suppose to study but i ended up calling up 2 places for enquiries. 1 is d telco company. found out tt thr is no more of d 45% discount if i change d plan & d bill rebate thingy is not really applicable. tt one is tie w re-contract + cannot get another hp upon re-contract. either choose rebate or new HP. anw, i oso cant re-contract nw. cos it's only 14th mth.
so aft tt, i spend time draftin out & doin 'accountin' check but it's still cheaper by ~ $6.60-8.56 esp when i'd spent more on SMS. somemore, it got 3 M1 line to call for free & so it's better for me. cos usually it's mum & dear who call me. they both use M1 line.
for dis comin bill, my phone call (incomin & outgoing) was $14++. was higher than previously cos dear nw call me at times aft he added me to 1 of his 3 M1 friends. my plan only got $20 of free local call.
so aft doing my calculation, called up to check d change of plan & my contract. found out tt change of plan got no effect on d contract so i changed my plan immediately. i choose d SunSaver plan rather than d 1 w d data bundle cos i do use tt often. only once a while.
if i nvr use d data bundle, den d plan will b >$10 more expensive than my new plan. which is ~$2 more than my original plan. it'll only gd if i use d internet often. if ever i need to, den i change to tt plan loh. otherwise i'm happy w my current new plan.
so if i gotta use, i'll pay d amt s i use loh. otherwise i would be imputtin like >$10 more every mth which is like >$120/yr. for wat... i dun think i would use tt much at d end of 1 yr.
other than this, i actually applied for d bursary thingy. will go earlier to sch to zap & print necessary doc & mail out these few days. applied cos i believed i wont get any more $$ out of my attachment. if i can get d bursary, even if d min amt of $800 is still better than nothing. it's almost equivalent to a mth of temp job though lesser lah. but it's like me working for 3-4 mth s a clinic assistant over d weekends. hope i can get it... it shld b able to last me at least 1 mth plus w tt amt. *keepin fingers crossed*
anw, i shall go slowly get ready to go sch le. initially i tot of stayin hm do some study & even a nap but guess no time for nap le. luckily today not really tt tired but i still slept late last nite cos i check d mobile plan again b4 i go sleep...
suppose to study but i ended up calling up 2 places for enquiries. 1 is d telco company. found out tt thr is no more of d 45% discount if i change d plan & d bill rebate thingy is not really applicable. tt one is tie w re-contract + cannot get another hp upon re-contract. either choose rebate or new HP. anw, i oso cant re-contract nw. cos it's only 14th mth.
so aft tt, i spend time draftin out & doin 'accountin' check but it's still cheaper by ~ $6.60-8.56 esp when i'd spent more on SMS. somemore, it got 3 M1 line to call for free & so it's better for me. cos usually it's mum & dear who call me. they both use M1 line.
for dis comin bill, my phone call (incomin & outgoing) was $14++. was higher than previously cos dear nw call me at times aft he added me to 1 of his 3 M1 friends. my plan only got $20 of free local call.
so aft doing my calculation, called up to check d change of plan & my contract. found out tt change of plan got no effect on d contract so i changed my plan immediately. i choose d SunSaver plan rather than d 1 w d data bundle cos i do use tt often. only once a while.
if i nvr use d data bundle, den d plan will b >$10 more expensive than my new plan. which is ~$2 more than my original plan. it'll only gd if i use d internet often. if ever i need to, den i change to tt plan loh. otherwise i'm happy w my current new plan.
so if i gotta use, i'll pay d amt s i use loh. otherwise i would be imputtin like >$10 more every mth which is like >$120/yr. for wat... i dun think i would use tt much at d end of 1 yr.
other than this, i actually applied for d bursary thingy. will go earlier to sch to zap & print necessary doc & mail out these few days. applied cos i believed i wont get any more $$ out of my attachment. if i can get d bursary, even if d min amt of $800 is still better than nothing. it's almost equivalent to a mth of temp job though lesser lah. but it's like me working for 3-4 mth s a clinic assistant over d weekends. hope i can get it... it shld b able to last me at least 1 mth plus w tt amt. *keepin fingers crossed*
anw, i shall go slowly get ready to go sch le. initially i tot of stayin hm do some study & even a nap but guess no time for nap le. luckily today not really tt tired but i still slept late last nite cos i check d mobile plan again b4 i go sleep...
change mobile plan...
considering considering... m really givin my mobile plan a deep tots...
my current plan is an old old plan. old till i duno even noe wat d plan consist but aft dividin, i think thr is only 300 SMS free unlike d current 500 SMS free package. nw i still thinkin which plan to change to. i duno need many talktime but i need more SMS cos i always exceed my sms limit cos i still gotta sms my friends fr soka bout mtg, etc...
thr is a sunsaver plan w 100 mins + 500 SMS. though 500 SMS is not enough for me, yet i think my bill will still b cheaper by $10. & i think for this plan, thr can b another 45% discount for customer w d telco company for more than a yr. if so, den my bill can reduce by ~$22.
however thr is oso another plan w 100 mins + 500 SMS + 12GB of data usage. for this plan, i think my bill will jus b reduce by minut amt. but i can get to serve d net which d previous plan dun ve. but... i think this is a new plan & thr seemed not to ve d 45% discount for 'old' customer. if thr is, i think i sure take this plan ba...
shall think carefully den call up to check out. mayb take d previous plan cos it can save up to $22 on my bill. $22 x 12 mth = $264 wor... since i seldom use d net... but i oso gotta call up & check if i can change d plan w/o affectin d re-contract. if not, den i gotta cont'd d old plan till i can re-contract. hope can ba. den i can start cut down on dis unnecessary expenditure soon.
actually, i oso hope tt can transfer d name fr my dad to me. but oso not sure if possible. cos wat i'm usin is his line. not mine. but this is not tt critical lah... mayb i shall jus call up d telco soon... but... if gotta press 1, for this... press 2 for tt, den i'll ve prob w my hp nw... cos of d auto keylock on d touch screen...
my current plan is an old old plan. old till i duno even noe wat d plan consist but aft dividin, i think thr is only 300 SMS free unlike d current 500 SMS free package. nw i still thinkin which plan to change to. i duno need many talktime but i need more SMS cos i always exceed my sms limit cos i still gotta sms my friends fr soka bout mtg, etc...
thr is a sunsaver plan w 100 mins + 500 SMS. though 500 SMS is not enough for me, yet i think my bill will still b cheaper by $10. & i think for this plan, thr can b another 45% discount for customer w d telco company for more than a yr. if so, den my bill can reduce by ~$22.
however thr is oso another plan w 100 mins + 500 SMS + 12GB of data usage. for this plan, i think my bill will jus b reduce by minut amt. but i can get to serve d net which d previous plan dun ve. but... i think this is a new plan & thr seemed not to ve d 45% discount for 'old' customer. if thr is, i think i sure take this plan ba...
shall think carefully den call up to check out. mayb take d previous plan cos it can save up to $22 on my bill. $22 x 12 mth = $264 wor... since i seldom use d net... but i oso gotta call up & check if i can change d plan w/o affectin d re-contract. if not, den i gotta cont'd d old plan till i can re-contract. hope can ba. den i can start cut down on dis unnecessary expenditure soon.
actually, i oso hope tt can transfer d name fr my dad to me. but oso not sure if possible. cos wat i'm usin is his line. not mine. but this is not tt critical lah... mayb i shall jus call up d telco soon... but... if gotta press 1, for this... press 2 for tt, den i'll ve prob w my hp nw... cos of d auto keylock on d touch screen...
not completing my antibiotic when i shld....
as a sci student, i'm doin something which i shldn't... i'm not gonna complete my antibiotic which i got on sun for my sorethroat.
but i got reasons. i think it's too strong or too acidic for me. i keep feeling hungry till it cos me discomfort s thr is slight pain. i don really ve gastric prob & i don intend to get it at all. so i decided to stop d med.
though i noe i shld not do tt but i experiment by skippin 2 adminstration time which was last nite & dis mornin & i could feel d diff. ytd mornin, ate 2 slices of bread at 6.45 am but i was hungry & feelin discomfort at ard 10 am. today, i ate 2 slices of bread at 7.45 am, i can last till 1+pm. so no matter wat, i'm not gonna take d med.
i alrdy supplement it w gastric med to 'protect' my stomach but it didn't help much so i'd to stop d med. must rmbr tt i shall not get back Erythromycin...
actually, i previously bought gastric med b4 but not really for myself & doc tot i got gastric prob but when i said i don ve, he gave me tt antibiotic. guess it's really too power for my stomach or mayb i really do ve gastric prob but milder case.
anw, this antibiotic is like d med anarex (suppose to help relax muscle) which will make me go hungry v v easily. so you wan me gain weight, mayb drug me w anarex or erythromycin ba... haha... cos i think it really works. cos i gained 1 kg le.
i gained tt kg jus in time cos dear said he calculated my BMI for fun after he calculated his & he found that i was underweight but w my current weight, i jus hit a normal BMI range. lol.
but i got reasons. i think it's too strong or too acidic for me. i keep feeling hungry till it cos me discomfort s thr is slight pain. i don really ve gastric prob & i don intend to get it at all. so i decided to stop d med.
though i noe i shld not do tt but i experiment by skippin 2 adminstration time which was last nite & dis mornin & i could feel d diff. ytd mornin, ate 2 slices of bread at 6.45 am but i was hungry & feelin discomfort at ard 10 am. today, i ate 2 slices of bread at 7.45 am, i can last till 1+pm. so no matter wat, i'm not gonna take d med.
i alrdy supplement it w gastric med to 'protect' my stomach but it didn't help much so i'd to stop d med. must rmbr tt i shall not get back Erythromycin...
actually, i previously bought gastric med b4 but not really for myself & doc tot i got gastric prob but when i said i don ve, he gave me tt antibiotic. guess it's really too power for my stomach or mayb i really do ve gastric prob but milder case.
anw, this antibiotic is like d med anarex (suppose to help relax muscle) which will make me go hungry v v easily. so you wan me gain weight, mayb drug me w anarex or erythromycin ba... haha... cos i think it really works. cos i gained 1 kg le.
i gained tt kg jus in time cos dear said he calculated my BMI for fun after he calculated his & he found that i was underweight but w my current weight, i jus hit a normal BMI range. lol.
Thursday, 8 April 2010
condemn a prof
great... thks... thks to a prof... who postpone our class of ~50 students to interview student. is he out of his mind?
& cos of him, another prof gotta push forward a lecture which in d end clashed w another. & nw, cos of tt, d other prof will b pushin his lecture back to another day. d prof shld actually noe he got class but yet arrange d interview durin class time. -.-'''
for his convenient, cos inconveniences to so many ppl. he wont feel pai seh ah??? anw, this prof got history of no show for lecture b4 plus being late... & he even posted a scanned copy of not so readable handwritten notes w certain pages cant really tell wat it's written.
d notes was so bad tt even my coursemates decided to type out & email all of us d revised copy of whatever they could make out. nice of my coursemates.
for dis module, i think i mayb >80% duno wat's gg on but i'm not d only 1... but mayb cos d cohort for dis module is small, it's seemed like i can feel tt ppl ard r not selfish like d 3 who took time to get a better notes out & yet they email all of us. & oso as a gp of us gotta rush for another class aft tut, if they copied d ans or impt stuffs to their thumbdrives, they would email all of us oso. so other than d content of d module, i quite like this gp of coursemates.
anw, my friend, mich, & i condemn d prof le. will try to avoid his module if thr is for comin sem... haiz... notes cannot make it, no time management, ... hw can learn fr him???
& cos of him, another prof gotta push forward a lecture which in d end clashed w another. & nw, cos of tt, d other prof will b pushin his lecture back to another day. d prof shld actually noe he got class but yet arrange d interview durin class time. -.-'''
for his convenient, cos inconveniences to so many ppl. he wont feel pai seh ah??? anw, this prof got history of no show for lecture b4 plus being late... & he even posted a scanned copy of not so readable handwritten notes w certain pages cant really tell wat it's written.
d notes was so bad tt even my coursemates decided to type out & email all of us d revised copy of whatever they could make out. nice of my coursemates.
for dis module, i think i mayb >80% duno wat's gg on but i'm not d only 1... but mayb cos d cohort for dis module is small, it's seemed like i can feel tt ppl ard r not selfish like d 3 who took time to get a better notes out & yet they email all of us. & oso as a gp of us gotta rush for another class aft tut, if they copied d ans or impt stuffs to their thumbdrives, they would email all of us oso. so other than d content of d module, i quite like this gp of coursemates.
anw, my friend, mich, & i condemn d prof le. will try to avoid his module if thr is for comin sem... haiz... notes cannot make it, no time management, ... hw can learn fr him???
fast or slow
shld i say it's fast or wat??? 1Q of 2010 is alrdy over... & it's alrdy 8 apr nw & 1 mth ltr, i'll b a free piggy (temp)... i oso dono if i'll b lookin forward to it... cos i'll b doin attachment... if i can ctrl time, den i guess it'll b fine. but... if experiment / time is gonna ctrl me, den i'll b v sian... but no choice... for experience sake & prob for FYP, i gotta go thru d process.
anw, end of d mth b exam. this time will last 2 wks. most will clear by 1st wk. mum ytd said she told her friend tt i exam till end of next mth. if so, i think i in coma le... cannot la. exam so long can s well jus murder me. last sem exam for 3 wks i alrdy cant tahan leh...
well, watever it is, for this 1 mth, i shall work hard b4 gg for attachment & my HK trip. quite look forward to it. jus hope my mood wont b spoilt by eh-hem... you know who...
ytd at d hospital, tv got showed d weather broadcast & parents comment say it's cold nw... told them it'll b summer when we go & it might be hot. told them bout prob gettin a small portable fan in case hot but i gotta think & say so tt mum don think i targettin her... stress leh... when i blurt bout d fan, i regretted immediately cos i gotta think fast & cont'd & sum up since i started...
if she cont'd this way, either i acquire d skill to twist d story ard or i may jus end up don say anything. but to master d skills, i dono hw many brain cells r dead & hw many RAM space i'm usin...
anw, end of d mth b exam. this time will last 2 wks. most will clear by 1st wk. mum ytd said she told her friend tt i exam till end of next mth. if so, i think i in coma le... cannot la. exam so long can s well jus murder me. last sem exam for 3 wks i alrdy cant tahan leh...
well, watever it is, for this 1 mth, i shall work hard b4 gg for attachment & my HK trip. quite look forward to it. jus hope my mood wont b spoilt by eh-hem... you know who...
ytd at d hospital, tv got showed d weather broadcast & parents comment say it's cold nw... told them it'll b summer when we go & it might be hot. told them bout prob gettin a small portable fan in case hot but i gotta think & say so tt mum don think i targettin her... stress leh... when i blurt bout d fan, i regretted immediately cos i gotta think fast & cont'd & sum up since i started...
if she cont'd this way, either i acquire d skill to twist d story ard or i may jus end up don say anything. but to master d skills, i dono hw many brain cells r dead & hw many RAM space i'm usin...
Wednesday, 7 April 2010
accidents...
accidents do seemed to visit when you least expected...
dis mornin, d vacuum cleaner in d store rm dropped on mum's toe while she was tryin to get something. accordin to her, it went white for long & in afternoon, turned black (bruised)...
i was worried of complications like fractures, etc so i suggested bringing her to Westpoint Hospital rather than letting her go normal clinic whr thr is no X-ray facilities & places like NUH, etc sure long queue. anw, she wanted dad to send her thr cos she knew dear's mom already cooked our dinner & she didn't want us to rush back for dinner.
after dinner, dear sent me back & happened to bump into parents at d carpark. so ended up we sent my cousins back while dad bring mum straight to see doc. & dear sent me over aft tt & accompanied till mum was 'discharged' w/o any serious prob. THANKS HONEY!!! you always been so sweet, nice, caring & considerate...
when i 1st heard my mum said, i almost got a heart attack & my heart almost stop beating cos d way she said it. she 1st said she wanted to go see doc. waiting for dad. den said d vacuum cleaner long time nvr used den 'pomp...' & her leg all black black... so image of she tryin to use d vacuum cleaner & it explode & thus hurting her legs. thus black black cos of burnt...
aft askin more, found out tt it seemed like only 1 toe black & not whole feet so i asked more. den i realized d vacuum cleaner nvr explode but it dropped & landed on her toe. yet her story is incomplete. only while sendin my cousins back tt i realized tt it happened in mornin & she still went over to fetch my cousins & 1 of them still stay back in sch so she had to walk over.
since she complain of pain + bruised, i was worried of fracture & she was worsenin it but was glad now that she cleared her x-ray report. anw, suggested tt place cos it wasn't tt exp. today her consult + med + x-ray cost less than $80. & d place was much faster than d govt hospital like NUH... furthermore thr is x-ray facilities unlike norm clinic or she may end up havin to go & queue at 2 places or more.
anw, was relieved nw tt she was alright & i'm really thankful to Dear who still accompany me & b my chauffeur. you are there when i'm feeling very down & trusted in me; you are there even when i may ve serious prob w my hip, you even rush over aft work wantin to accompany me see d specialist, you bring & accompany me for my MRI scan; & etc... & nw you still accompanied me & my parents when my mum injured herself. mayb really 患难见真情.... thks!!!
dis mornin, d vacuum cleaner in d store rm dropped on mum's toe while she was tryin to get something. accordin to her, it went white for long & in afternoon, turned black (bruised)...
i was worried of complications like fractures, etc so i suggested bringing her to Westpoint Hospital rather than letting her go normal clinic whr thr is no X-ray facilities & places like NUH, etc sure long queue. anw, she wanted dad to send her thr cos she knew dear's mom already cooked our dinner & she didn't want us to rush back for dinner.
after dinner, dear sent me back & happened to bump into parents at d carpark. so ended up we sent my cousins back while dad bring mum straight to see doc. & dear sent me over aft tt & accompanied till mum was 'discharged' w/o any serious prob. THANKS HONEY!!! you always been so sweet, nice, caring & considerate...
when i 1st heard my mum said, i almost got a heart attack & my heart almost stop beating cos d way she said it. she 1st said she wanted to go see doc. waiting for dad. den said d vacuum cleaner long time nvr used den 'pomp...' & her leg all black black... so image of she tryin to use d vacuum cleaner & it explode & thus hurting her legs. thus black black cos of burnt...
aft askin more, found out tt it seemed like only 1 toe black & not whole feet so i asked more. den i realized d vacuum cleaner nvr explode but it dropped & landed on her toe. yet her story is incomplete. only while sendin my cousins back tt i realized tt it happened in mornin & she still went over to fetch my cousins & 1 of them still stay back in sch so she had to walk over.
since she complain of pain + bruised, i was worried of fracture & she was worsenin it but was glad now that she cleared her x-ray report. anw, suggested tt place cos it wasn't tt exp. today her consult + med + x-ray cost less than $80. & d place was much faster than d govt hospital like NUH... furthermore thr is x-ray facilities unlike norm clinic or she may end up havin to go & queue at 2 places or more.
anw, was relieved nw tt she was alright & i'm really thankful to Dear who still accompany me & b my chauffeur. you are there when i'm feeling very down & trusted in me; you are there even when i may ve serious prob w my hip, you even rush over aft work wantin to accompany me see d specialist, you bring & accompany me for my MRI scan; & etc... & nw you still accompanied me & my parents when my mum injured herself. mayb really 患难见真情.... thks!!!
Tuesday, 6 April 2010
confusion
ytd, went for d medical appt & a MRI scan. i keep gettin confused & wanted to say NMR... guess BS303 did its job well in hauntin me down... oops... haha
anw, i need not do anything. jus lie down thr & do nothing. cant move oso. if u duno, d machine is really loud like wat i source fr d internet. i was given a pair of ear plug + a stereo headset w loud ricky martin's songs over my head coverin my ears. quite old songs alrdy. even got d 'she bangs', d one which william hung sang for american idol. reminds me of him when i heard d song. lol... d machine was so loud tt it can still muffled d songs, d sound waves tt could only enter my ears. tt's hw loud it is.
i was lying thr for mayb 30-45 min? so i ended up dozin off... napping inside d MRI machine. ppl w phobia of being trap in a small space might ve prob cos when i was pulled into d machine, i can see tt thr is really a small space 'in front' of my eyes. it's like a pretty small round tunnel. cant even crawl in on all 4. even d flat on d floor crawl like army ppl is oso bit hard cos cant even stretch d elbow so broad to d side. mayb can try to 'worm' thru it ba. haha...
hwever, i don care. i cant b bothered w d space or noise. since i cant move or do anything, i jus sleep loh. i drifted in & out of slp inside d machine while it run. & b4 i know it, it was done. of course, in my heart, i prayed too... tt it'll b a successul one & i no need injection to enhance the image not b'cos i scare of needle but cos so tt i'll pay d min amt & my prayers were answered.
anw, all these while, i oso prayed tt ytd would b my last trip thr & i will find out d cause & know what I can do in terms of exercise & no need any physiotherapy, etc. all my prayers were answered. haha... but i'd to admit, i didn't chant s much s possible but i'd strong faith & conviction. but i noe it shldn't b this way.
anw, i need not do anything. jus lie down thr & do nothing. cant move oso. if u duno, d machine is really loud like wat i source fr d internet. i was given a pair of ear plug + a stereo headset w loud ricky martin's songs over my head coverin my ears. quite old songs alrdy. even got d 'she bangs', d one which william hung sang for american idol. reminds me of him when i heard d song. lol... d machine was so loud tt it can still muffled d songs, d sound waves tt could only enter my ears. tt's hw loud it is.
i was lying thr for mayb 30-45 min? so i ended up dozin off... napping inside d MRI machine. ppl w phobia of being trap in a small space might ve prob cos when i was pulled into d machine, i can see tt thr is really a small space 'in front' of my eyes. it's like a pretty small round tunnel. cant even crawl in on all 4. even d flat on d floor crawl like army ppl is oso bit hard cos cant even stretch d elbow so broad to d side. mayb can try to 'worm' thru it ba. haha...
hwever, i don care. i cant b bothered w d space or noise. since i cant move or do anything, i jus sleep loh. i drifted in & out of slp inside d machine while it run. & b4 i know it, it was done. of course, in my heart, i prayed too... tt it'll b a successul one & i no need injection to enhance the image not b'cos i scare of needle but cos so tt i'll pay d min amt & my prayers were answered.
anw, all these while, i oso prayed tt ytd would b my last trip thr & i will find out d cause & know what I can do in terms of exercise & no need any physiotherapy, etc. all my prayers were answered. haha... but i'd to admit, i didn't chant s much s possible but i'd strong faith & conviction. but i noe it shldn't b this way.
Monday, 5 April 2010
MR HIPS
MR HIPS
History: (R) hip pain. X-ray - subchondral acetabular cysts.
unenhanced multiplanar MRI sequences of the hips were performed.
A few subcortical cysts are detected at the right sided acetabular roof, measuring up to 1.1cm. There is no cortical defect/breach, bone expansion or associated soft tissue mass. No adjacent bursitis, joint effusion or marrow oedema is detected. The acetabular labrum appears intact.
There is no evidence of contour change of the femoral heads. The hip joint spaces are also unremarkable.
No bone or soft tissue oedema is seen. The bony alignment is within normal limits.
Both visualised ovaries contain several follicles/cysts, measuring up to 2.6cm on the right.
CONCLUSION:
Right acetabular roof subchondral cysts are demonstrated. There is no other significant associated abnormality.
so final conclusion is tt my ligament is ok. d prob tt might cos d pain is d cysts. d pressure of landin on d hip w d cysts. & so no need to care cos nothing can b done unless it got bigger & causin severe pain which doc said is v unlikely.
anw, he asked me no dance for 2 mth to rest. swim is ok. jog prob not. guess d impact is too strong. aft 2 mth, gradually go back to my normal dance trg but if still affect me, den i gotta quit. luckily i this yr alrdy 5th yr in d gp cos our lifespan thr is usually 5 yrs. i don wanna pre-maturely graduate.
so eventually, i cant join d dance performance in june even if i got no HK trip. haiz...
though it's an expensive way to find out d cause, but at least like i prayed for, it ended aft today, aft i noe d root cause. & i noe wat i can or cant do.
however, something still puzzled me cos i forgot to ask d doc why den i can twist my leg in certain angle like my left leg do & why it's so much weaker. did i trained too much on my left leg tt it felt like my right leg is so weak? d twistin of angle part, mayb i can make an assumption tt d cysts is blockin certain movement. cos doc oso asked me not to twist my leg so much cos it's not really a norm movement... (bit hard if wanna dance).
mayb if i happened to need to go see my family doc (touch wood), i shall bring my MRI scans to him & seek his advice on my queries... but i might go find him to regulate my mens for my HK trip cos based on calculation, it may find me anytime durin my stay at HK... so if i go see him den, i shall bring my report too...
History: (R) hip pain. X-ray - subchondral acetabular cysts.
unenhanced multiplanar MRI sequences of the hips were performed.
A few subcortical cysts are detected at the right sided acetabular roof, measuring up to 1.1cm. There is no cortical defect/breach, bone expansion or associated soft tissue mass. No adjacent bursitis, joint effusion or marrow oedema is detected. The acetabular labrum appears intact.
There is no evidence of contour change of the femoral heads. The hip joint spaces are also unremarkable.
No bone or soft tissue oedema is seen. The bony alignment is within normal limits.
Both visualised ovaries contain several follicles/cysts, measuring up to 2.6cm on the right.
CONCLUSION:
Right acetabular roof subchondral cysts are demonstrated. There is no other significant associated abnormality.
so final conclusion is tt my ligament is ok. d prob tt might cos d pain is d cysts. d pressure of landin on d hip w d cysts. & so no need to care cos nothing can b done unless it got bigger & causin severe pain which doc said is v unlikely.
anw, he asked me no dance for 2 mth to rest. swim is ok. jog prob not. guess d impact is too strong. aft 2 mth, gradually go back to my normal dance trg but if still affect me, den i gotta quit. luckily i this yr alrdy 5th yr in d gp cos our lifespan thr is usually 5 yrs. i don wanna pre-maturely graduate.
so eventually, i cant join d dance performance in june even if i got no HK trip. haiz...
though it's an expensive way to find out d cause, but at least like i prayed for, it ended aft today, aft i noe d root cause. & i noe wat i can or cant do.
however, something still puzzled me cos i forgot to ask d doc why den i can twist my leg in certain angle like my left leg do & why it's so much weaker. did i trained too much on my left leg tt it felt like my right leg is so weak? d twistin of angle part, mayb i can make an assumption tt d cysts is blockin certain movement. cos doc oso asked me not to twist my leg so much cos it's not really a norm movement... (bit hard if wanna dance).
mayb if i happened to need to go see my family doc (touch wood), i shall bring my MRI scans to him & seek his advice on my queries... but i might go find him to regulate my mens for my HK trip cos based on calculation, it may find me anytime durin my stay at HK... so if i go see him den, i shall bring my report too...
Sunday, 4 April 2010
hostel is my backup plan nw...
history always repeat itself... i'd to go thru d process of feelin 怨望 & angry yet cant do anything bout it...
jus nw, dad had a failed attempt to get me to eat d curry puff he bought.
dad: i bought 3 curry puffs. 1 each per person. i don care
me: i don wan. i full
dad: i don care. 1 each per person
me: i eat as breakfast tml
dad: cannot. alrdy bought
me (pissed off but still remain calm): i oso don care. either i eat as breakfast or jus throw away cos i full nw
mum: y you so fierce
me: (thinkin, facts don always sound gd) it's true cos if i full nw, hw can i eat. so either i eat as breakfast or i don. (thinkin: since i noe eat too full will uncomfortable, hw can i force them eat, anw, if so, they will oso angry).
dad was ok then while i go shower . tot at most they jus not really tt happy... but... ~1 hr ltr when mum was jus in my rm tokin to me, dad came over my doorway & angrily say me
dad: you cant take jokes recently. next time don tok to u alrdy...
me: ???? (puzzled, 怨望, angry + got urge to counter back but i held back).
is forcin ppl eat a joke? somemroe, it's not d 1st time he forcin me le. & oso if he treat s a joke, thr shld ve a limit cos he shld noe thr is 2 outcome, either 1 eat or i don. if i eat, i may end up uncomfortable which he shld understand. somemore, i give alternative say i eat next mornin. so he shld jus stop thr for a joke but he nvr... he oso cannot accept tt i eat next day. so is tt still a joke? do i still laugh it off? wat sense of humor is tt? hw will he feel if i force him eat?
somemore, i oso not feelin tt quite well. throat givin way & while nappin, feelin me not really tt well. actually, i dare not nap for today one cos i alrdy napped for 2 days. i scare even mum oso not happy.
they r givin me more stress. they wan me accompany them yet wat they do make me repell more. wantin to stay out more. i tot of a backup decision which is to stay in hostel for my fyp. say inconsistent time. but... it's not easy get a hostel plus i may not ve d money & i may not ve d time esp if need cca pt.
b4 i got into uni, i did tot of takin up d dance or d wushu cca but aft i got intensive pain in my hip aft i join my dance gp since 2005, i oso give up d idea so wat else can i join s cca if i got d time... but i shall find out more bout stayin in hostel.
i really had enough of swallowin my pride, etc. i got a feelin tt it's enhancin them to cont'd d way they r. but w d ponderin, it's not right to counter back s it will worsen d situation. it's really hard to b a filial daughter & yet a happy gal at d same time if they cont'd like this. so i'm serious bout my hostel backup plan...
cos jus nw tt situation, even explain to mum oso no use. she'll still end up complainin to her friend. say i fierce, say i no gd, say i made her in difficult position, etc... prob even say she wanna run away fr hm when i shld b d one doin so...
i'm really losin myself... losin my ability to smile... losin faith... losin d fightin spirit... i need a backup plan like d hostel plan b4 i give up totally... at least b4 i was thrown & fallen to d valley w a black hole, i got a rope to hang on to pull myself up slowly & yet steadily...
jus nw, dad had a failed attempt to get me to eat d curry puff he bought.
dad: i bought 3 curry puffs. 1 each per person. i don care
me: i don wan. i full
dad: i don care. 1 each per person
me: i eat as breakfast tml
dad: cannot. alrdy bought
me (pissed off but still remain calm): i oso don care. either i eat as breakfast or jus throw away cos i full nw
mum: y you so fierce
me: (thinkin, facts don always sound gd) it's true cos if i full nw, hw can i eat. so either i eat as breakfast or i don. (thinkin: since i noe eat too full will uncomfortable, hw can i force them eat, anw, if so, they will oso angry).
dad was ok then while i go shower . tot at most they jus not really tt happy... but... ~1 hr ltr when mum was jus in my rm tokin to me, dad came over my doorway & angrily say me
dad: you cant take jokes recently. next time don tok to u alrdy...
me: ???? (puzzled, 怨望, angry + got urge to counter back but i held back).
is forcin ppl eat a joke? somemroe, it's not d 1st time he forcin me le. & oso if he treat s a joke, thr shld ve a limit cos he shld noe thr is 2 outcome, either 1 eat or i don. if i eat, i may end up uncomfortable which he shld understand. somemore, i give alternative say i eat next mornin. so he shld jus stop thr for a joke but he nvr... he oso cannot accept tt i eat next day. so is tt still a joke? do i still laugh it off? wat sense of humor is tt? hw will he feel if i force him eat?
somemore, i oso not feelin tt quite well. throat givin way & while nappin, feelin me not really tt well. actually, i dare not nap for today one cos i alrdy napped for 2 days. i scare even mum oso not happy.
they r givin me more stress. they wan me accompany them yet wat they do make me repell more. wantin to stay out more. i tot of a backup decision which is to stay in hostel for my fyp. say inconsistent time. but... it's not easy get a hostel plus i may not ve d money & i may not ve d time esp if need cca pt.
b4 i got into uni, i did tot of takin up d dance or d wushu cca but aft i got intensive pain in my hip aft i join my dance gp since 2005, i oso give up d idea so wat else can i join s cca if i got d time... but i shall find out more bout stayin in hostel.
i really had enough of swallowin my pride, etc. i got a feelin tt it's enhancin them to cont'd d way they r. but w d ponderin, it's not right to counter back s it will worsen d situation. it's really hard to b a filial daughter & yet a happy gal at d same time if they cont'd like this. so i'm serious bout my hostel backup plan...
cos jus nw tt situation, even explain to mum oso no use. she'll still end up complainin to her friend. say i fierce, say i no gd, say i made her in difficult position, etc... prob even say she wanna run away fr hm when i shld b d one doin so...
i'm really losin myself... losin my ability to smile... losin faith... losin d fightin spirit... i need a backup plan like d hostel plan b4 i give up totally... at least b4 i was thrown & fallen to d valley w a black hole, i got a rope to hang on to pull myself up slowly & yet steadily...
Saturday, 3 April 2010
watched a soccer match aft yrs...
it'd been a long long long time since i last watch soccer match... erm... i not a soccer fanatic nor a supporter of any team but it's nice to watch once a while esp for those gd matches...
d last time i really watched, even wake up in middle of nite, was d world cup or so durin my poly attachment period which was yrs ago... i got influenced by d fellow 'researchers' who went to d pantry to watch while i was thr for lunch or a break & thr was once when they gave me & my friend, some KFC chicken so my friend & i ate while we watch.
durin those period was soccer fever so i oso become excited to know d team standing & hw they score. thus, since it was telecasted on local station, i watch too. & would set alarm watched those major matches. haha
aft tt nvr got d chance to watch anymore cos i dun ve any sports channel. d previous olympic, i oso catched part of it at my uncle's hse durin dinner but wont get d chance anymore.
aft so long, i finally gotta watch a match at dear's friend's hse cos we go thr for baby shower. today was man u versus chelsea. like i said... i not fan of certain team but i heard more of man u since sec sch. so i guess i support it more than chelsea. sry to those chelsea fan though i noe it's also 1 gd team. anw, chelsea won with 2 against 1.
i may not noe much of d rules but at least i noe d basic. i oso believed some gals may say y watch a match w 22 ppl chasin aft a ball for 90 mins but i guess i enjoyed d break fr d usual stuffs. i was influenced to watch sports aft watchin anime, slam dunk & another anime on soccer. watched whole series of them. haha... i noe more of d rules thru d anime lah... not d actual match. hee...
anw, soon, thr will b a world cup... but... i guess wont get d chance to catch it unless local station broadcast. otherwise can only get d news fr papers, internet... watchin it & readin bout it is different. if only d local stn will broadcast cos i no cable tv (starhub or mio)...
d last time i really watched, even wake up in middle of nite, was d world cup or so durin my poly attachment period which was yrs ago... i got influenced by d fellow 'researchers' who went to d pantry to watch while i was thr for lunch or a break & thr was once when they gave me & my friend, some KFC chicken so my friend & i ate while we watch.
durin those period was soccer fever so i oso become excited to know d team standing & hw they score. thus, since it was telecasted on local station, i watch too. & would set alarm watched those major matches. haha
aft tt nvr got d chance to watch anymore cos i dun ve any sports channel. d previous olympic, i oso catched part of it at my uncle's hse durin dinner but wont get d chance anymore.
aft so long, i finally gotta watch a match at dear's friend's hse cos we go thr for baby shower. today was man u versus chelsea. like i said... i not fan of certain team but i heard more of man u since sec sch. so i guess i support it more than chelsea. sry to those chelsea fan though i noe it's also 1 gd team. anw, chelsea won with 2 against 1.
i may not noe much of d rules but at least i noe d basic. i oso believed some gals may say y watch a match w 22 ppl chasin aft a ball for 90 mins but i guess i enjoyed d break fr d usual stuffs. i was influenced to watch sports aft watchin anime, slam dunk & another anime on soccer. watched whole series of them. haha... i noe more of d rules thru d anime lah... not d actual match. hee...
anw, soon, thr will b a world cup... but... i guess wont get d chance to catch it unless local station broadcast. otherwise can only get d news fr papers, internet... watchin it & readin bout it is different. if only d local stn will broadcast cos i no cable tv (starhub or mio)...
Thursday, 1 April 2010
warning!!! Haha
WARNING!!!
Less than 3 hours of sleep is toxic
Please do not attempt unless necessary
But... Do not drive...
oops... tt day came out w an advert... nw came out w a warnin... do crazy things i seemed ok but when it comes to sch work... he-hem.. haha.
anw, since 2 days ago, was alrdy feelin drained... d 1st day, cant even last beyond 11 pm. ytd oso actually but got no choice. gotta rush out a report to submit or pass my friend today. thks mich... so ytd, forced myself to work & complete d whole report till ard 3 am. slp aft 3 am aft washin up, etc & woke up at 5.45 am.
thus, d drained effect was super intensified today. eventually, i give up on lect esp when there is a video lecture cos i think i can absorbt better if i'm more wide awake. so no pt stayin & forcin myself thr.
i ended up go hm & slp. nvr care mum cos too tired to bother le. slp thru fr ard 2.30 pm till 5.30 pm. & at least nw more energized... not completely recover but at least i much better s compared to mornin... shld b enough for me to embark on d presentation slides & a tutorial for next week.
anw, though i m not b a consistent learner in sch but i'm glad i'm when it comes to work tt need to b submitted. otherwise, i think i wont go to be at 3 am. i think i no need to sleep le. i still get d luxury to slp cos i'd alrdy come out w d data. just ve to input into d software. took longer cos i try to figure out d software & decipher wat i need to do for d 2 final graphs... thks to another friend who guided me thru when i ask her in d day. if not, i would still be stuck...
glad to have selfless friends ard... or i dono if i can pull thru till nw. thks!!!
tt's all for nw... shall cont'd work & work... ;p
if it's not ur intention, don say. wake me le den ask me wat i wan... -.-"
wat ans do he expect when he asked i wanna sleep or i wanna go have breakfast w them? if can, i'll choose sleep but will he say me again? will he not happy? or worst, will he angry. mum ytd said let me sleep awhile longer. if so, den y she nvr stopped dad when he wanted to wake me? so tt was not ur intention & wanna make it become my decision again? haiz...
anw, jus an extra 30 min wont help much... esp when i went to bed at 3 am. so even if + tt 0.5 hr, it's jus slightly more than 3 hr of slp. still far low... super not enough. if can, i think i can sleep for days. b a modern day sleeping 'beauty'...
well, nw i wish i got eyes tt i can see far till hm fr sch. den i can noe if mum hm or not in d afternoon. if she isn't, i'll surely come back sleep cos i v tired. but if she is hm, den i not sure. ltr she nag nag nag or wat again. & i really hate it when her thinking & wat she say is always differ. i duno hw many % is real nw...
in class oso cant slp. will sure force myself to try & struggle keep away. in lib oso cant really slp cos looks ugly lah... + position v bad. got hm but may not get to be able to nap. i miss those day when i workin & if really tired, just apply 1/2day & go back nap... but nw... haiz...
but, i guess i shall see hw... if really tired till cannot make it, guess i will don care them. at most they angry aft tt loh. if not hw i gonna get thru another few weeks... actually many more months till graduation.
anw, jus an extra 30 min wont help much... esp when i went to bed at 3 am. so even if + tt 0.5 hr, it's jus slightly more than 3 hr of slp. still far low... super not enough. if can, i think i can sleep for days. b a modern day sleeping 'beauty'...
well, nw i wish i got eyes tt i can see far till hm fr sch. den i can noe if mum hm or not in d afternoon. if she isn't, i'll surely come back sleep cos i v tired. but if she is hm, den i not sure. ltr she nag nag nag or wat again. & i really hate it when her thinking & wat she say is always differ. i duno hw many % is real nw...
in class oso cant slp. will sure force myself to try & struggle keep away. in lib oso cant really slp cos looks ugly lah... + position v bad. got hm but may not get to be able to nap. i miss those day when i workin & if really tired, just apply 1/2day & go back nap... but nw... haiz...
but, i guess i shall see hw... if really tired till cannot make it, guess i will don care them. at most they angry aft tt loh. if not hw i gonna get thru another few weeks... actually many more months till graduation.
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