tired

ytd, didn't go sch so didn't noe d condition of d yog blockage. mornin, heard it was alright. but as i worked, i forget about d yog thing & thus, left only 1 entrance & exit. & so if finish work at office hr, best take d staff bus back.

almost hit wrong timin, or might end up caught 'jam' somewhr. quickly rush off & managed b last to get on d single-decker 179 out of sch & seein d staff buses started to crawl up d slope. so nw, either i shld take d staff bus or go off earlier or later. sianz...

if i go hm, i wld not wish to go back so fast & yet don wanna loiter in sch too long oso lah. but... no other better option loh. unless meet friend or dear. if so, i don mind gg off earlier but experiment usually don end too early esp if those need to incubate o/n. those by right shld not started too early & usually it's a whole series of experiment & then d timin will sort of hit jus nice. but not jus nice nw cos of d single exit via d pioneer rd north.

dis is really stupid loh. & furthermore, i only saw email on d internal shuttle bus, pioneer shuttle bus & 179 bus route. wat out whr r d rd blockage & r thr any time schedule?

dear jus nw drove me back to see whr he could take to go in & i saw tt thr seemed to be a rd sign saying bout no entry fr 15 aug but on rd side & inside movin car so cant finish readin. so i wonder if tt road which i told dear would be affected also. if so, den whr can i meet him?

i really find dis yog security very crazy. think ppl can only take in bomb or sharp item? inside can oso have sharp item, inside oso got chemicals, potential of explosion or causing fire, etc. so... prevent fr outside so wat. made everybody so mafan. & yet gotta last for d whole month. -.-" but anw, better than me stayin hm.

i'm tired. really tired. ytd dear came & managed to take a nap when he did... but still not enough. today, was asked when i usually sleep & they seemed to b amused tt i not tired. well, deep inside i'm alrdy at d max. i can jus sit thr & doze off. i can even type & doze off. but wat to do? i slp at hm oso got phobia. scare to sleep late alone. scare to take nap. have to do backup plan b4 i can take a nap which i cant sleep soundly. tired till keep gettin headache jus tt i'm avoidin panadol reliance. basically at hm, cant really do wat i wanna do. i miss my a'famosa trip whr i can ignore everything. d freedom thr, d air was so light...

jus nw at dear's hse, tired till i can ignore my growlin stomach. & wished i could jus sleep but it's not my hse & weird to sleep thr cos i feel bad when his mom prep dinner & yet i slp. these few days, i'd been going to bed earlier. earlier than my usual & yet still feel not enough slp. hw to cont like this if sch reopen?

& i might ve another temp to do too. if they ok w d timin, i wld work & earn extra pocket money. money tt can probably b use for more short getaway trips. but i wld not mind if i got less money. mayb i could end up dozin in my 2nd hm, d library. shall see hw it goes. but i really badly need to catch back my sleep b4 sch reopen at d end of d month.

& i really hope i can graduate in sep for my dance like for d past graduates. i need d rest & not more activities. & so i hope i wont get bugged more or i wld mia one loh. i hate when ppl force me. i'll repell more. & d funny thing is tt they said they worry me cos i tired & too many things on hand & yet want put me more. haiz...

when can i really get d sleep i need. made me even tot of wantin to be attach overseas or to further my studies overseas. cos stayin hm only bring me bad memories & stress & i cant rest. mayb stayin away awhile might do gd for me. but d chances is almost 0%. but i cant always get d headache & have to find excuse to nap while laid books, etc in front of me.