shoudl i go school to do my report? but sittin at benches outside b v hot... yet i scare in lib, too cold & i headache again... thus, decided to stay hm since cousins not ard in morning... but.... mum on her sound sys loud again... aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh........................
but w d disturbance i cant think well & summarize................. sianzzzzzzzz & i don ve my textbooks w me when i in sch esp if i not in d lib... f***...
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
Monday, 27 September 2010
head burstin...
have i got sinus infection or wat? since ytd headache. realized or coincidentally, when in colder air con place, it's more intense... tt's y suspect sinus prob... lesson in sch w air con was a torture so decided to skip lunch/tut & lect to go home thinkin it'll b better
in d end, not any better cos mum blast her sound sys... d bass v strong. made my pain so much more intense oso... make me cant tahan & wish i could jus cry so i quickly take my clothes & go shower rm cry...
headache yet worried cant finish assignment alrdy stress but i no whr to go le... in sch, no laptop so need go lib or so but it's air con. at hm, bombarded by loud music... i'm gg nuts... my head burstin...
in d end, not any better cos mum blast her sound sys... d bass v strong. made my pain so much more intense oso... make me cant tahan & wish i could jus cry so i quickly take my clothes & go shower rm cry...
headache yet worried cant finish assignment alrdy stress but i no whr to go le... in sch, no laptop so need go lib or so but it's air con. at hm, bombarded by loud music... i'm gg nuts... my head burstin...
Wednesday, 22 September 2010
medication..,.,
medication...
i'm sure everyone would have somehow or rather need to take medication in ur life... jus nw, while chattin w dear, realized something...
mayb cos i'm a biotech & biosci student. i noe more bout d drugs effect, etc. i ended up naggin my parents to finish their antibiotic, etc. & nw, i ended up even nagged at dear...
well, wat i realize was tt my parents & dear would ve d mentality to stop takin d med once they feel slightly better. but s a sci student, i noe tt d bacteria, virus, etc were not totally eliminated. & it could potentially got worst if d bacteria, virus, etc mutate & grow resistance to d medicine. prob oso cos i had experience incident of takin panadol for fever (durin tt time when i got dengue fever) & when i felt i'm ok & stop medication, d fever came back oso. so i usually cont'd take for prob up to a day more. s for antibiotic, i cfm will finish unless i felt d side effect like too drowsy or too acidic...
however, though i noe all these, my parents & dear who aren't sci student & had none of such knowledge had always been stubborn & refused to listen. made me feel so naggy. -.-"
oso, so far, i had managed to curb & prevent any bad illness esp long term cough by self-medicatin if i felt not right or go to d doc immediately but dear would only take medicine if he was unwell alrdy & tt was usually when i make him eat d medicine. he would only go see doc when he felt it got worst. though he said in d past, he would not go till it's really bad, i told him tt he go see doc & not see oso make no diff. cos once he felt slightly better, he stop medicine & take it again after he felt much worst esp when he had miss once or twice of d original prescription. this is true even if i nag at him esp if i not by his side.
anw, like me, if he got runnin nose & don recover soon, he'll get phlegm in throat & end up w cough which was wat happen nw. d medicine he took for a couple of times didn't seemed to help & so i change his flu med but it was too late. he got phlegm so i ask him take d phlegm med. in d end, he ah... say felt better so nvr take this mornin but afternoon it got worst. he only started takin tt ytd loh & it's once a day prescription. den he say like feel no diff. -.-" i asked him if tt's 仙丹. den he argue say d flu med oso like tt. well, previously when he took d one his doc give, his nose was still like runnin tap. at least it had stopped loh... still wanna argue... if he take consistently, mayb it might not feel it got better, mayb it would not feel worst. don he understand?
well, i oso notice my parents oso same. take med once will expect d effect to b immediately. but they react differently. dear would either cont'd take & stop when he felt slightly better. s for my parents, they would complain say doc no gd den go see another doc when they just take d med like once or twice. this was diff was dear cos he would only change doc if i keep naggin at him.
last yr, when dear got unwell, he only go to d doc when he was really unwell & he ended up feeling out of breathe & even more lethargic. tt was scary so i kept remindin him to take med but i wanna vomit blood le. at least nw my parents do listen to me & finish up at least d antibiotic le. mayb if i don ve tt slightly more knowledge of med, i would not b so naggy & yet had to vomit blood ba. medicine is not 仙丹 leh.
mayb this is oso 1 of d cos of d growin no of more resistance bacteria, etc ba. med to counter is not easy to find. it take a decade or more loh... if there is really a 仙丹for all illness, i don mind gg to produce it. tt'll help ppl & i no need to become an 'ah po' who contantly nag & nag & nag,
i'm sure everyone would have somehow or rather need to take medication in ur life... jus nw, while chattin w dear, realized something...
mayb cos i'm a biotech & biosci student. i noe more bout d drugs effect, etc. i ended up naggin my parents to finish their antibiotic, etc. & nw, i ended up even nagged at dear...
well, wat i realize was tt my parents & dear would ve d mentality to stop takin d med once they feel slightly better. but s a sci student, i noe tt d bacteria, virus, etc were not totally eliminated. & it could potentially got worst if d bacteria, virus, etc mutate & grow resistance to d medicine. prob oso cos i had experience incident of takin panadol for fever (durin tt time when i got dengue fever) & when i felt i'm ok & stop medication, d fever came back oso. so i usually cont'd take for prob up to a day more. s for antibiotic, i cfm will finish unless i felt d side effect like too drowsy or too acidic...
however, though i noe all these, my parents & dear who aren't sci student & had none of such knowledge had always been stubborn & refused to listen. made me feel so naggy. -.-"
oso, so far, i had managed to curb & prevent any bad illness esp long term cough by self-medicatin if i felt not right or go to d doc immediately but dear would only take medicine if he was unwell alrdy & tt was usually when i make him eat d medicine. he would only go see doc when he felt it got worst. though he said in d past, he would not go till it's really bad, i told him tt he go see doc & not see oso make no diff. cos once he felt slightly better, he stop medicine & take it again after he felt much worst esp when he had miss once or twice of d original prescription. this is true even if i nag at him esp if i not by his side.
anw, like me, if he got runnin nose & don recover soon, he'll get phlegm in throat & end up w cough which was wat happen nw. d medicine he took for a couple of times didn't seemed to help & so i change his flu med but it was too late. he got phlegm so i ask him take d phlegm med. in d end, he ah... say felt better so nvr take this mornin but afternoon it got worst. he only started takin tt ytd loh & it's once a day prescription. den he say like feel no diff. -.-" i asked him if tt's 仙丹. den he argue say d flu med oso like tt. well, previously when he took d one his doc give, his nose was still like runnin tap. at least it had stopped loh... still wanna argue... if he take consistently, mayb it might not feel it got better, mayb it would not feel worst. don he understand?
well, i oso notice my parents oso same. take med once will expect d effect to b immediately. but they react differently. dear would either cont'd take & stop when he felt slightly better. s for my parents, they would complain say doc no gd den go see another doc when they just take d med like once or twice. this was diff was dear cos he would only change doc if i keep naggin at him.
last yr, when dear got unwell, he only go to d doc when he was really unwell & he ended up feeling out of breathe & even more lethargic. tt was scary so i kept remindin him to take med but i wanna vomit blood le. at least nw my parents do listen to me & finish up at least d antibiotic le. mayb if i don ve tt slightly more knowledge of med, i would not b so naggy & yet had to vomit blood ba. medicine is not 仙丹 leh.
mayb this is oso 1 of d cos of d growin no of more resistance bacteria, etc ba. med to counter is not easy to find. it take a decade or more loh... if there is really a 仙丹for all illness, i don mind gg to produce it. tt'll help ppl & i no need to become an 'ah po' who contantly nag & nag & nag,
Tuesday, 21 September 2010
graduation trip
sun, dear's cousin tempted me on graduation trip. v temptin but many things to consider. $$, duration, when, w who, whr...
don ve or wont ve much $$ left by den so... cant go far & long...
aft finish fyp, etc shld b ard jun & tt's peak period & so more exp but cant delay oso since oso need to get a job... either i go trip immediately or get a job immediately s i cant possibly stay hm & rot...
den w who? parents only allow me go w 3 of my sec friends or dear but if dear, den they might end up taggin along since it's sch holi & cousins' mum might take leaves. i don wanna get caught in between & get stress over thinkin of best plan & best iternary for them & not for me. if tt's d case, i would rather slog & work. at least i'm earnin $$ & so i would gain something rather than jus losin everythin.
if i can go w who i enjoy & whr i can have fun & etc, i would definitely b more than willin to go. i don mind eatin cheaper food nw to save up more but... wat r d chances like? frankly speakin, if i can go w dear alone, i think i would feel so much better than w parents too. tt famosa trip was fun. we nvr bother hw much we spend though we end up oso nvr spend tt much. at least no one was thr to grumble & show black face & end up i'm being accused to show black face. holi is meant to have fun, relax & enjoy & get away fr current lives & stress & not to add up more stress.
friend said 'rest is to walk further' but if d rest means to rot more at home or to go w charcoal face ppl, i rather not rest. i rather work & work & work. & dear told his cousin tt i hardcore cos all these while, i start work immediately aft exam, i start attachment immediately aft exam. & previously, i start work almost immediately aft i finish my poly exam oso. 家家有本难念的经...
don ve or wont ve much $$ left by den so... cant go far & long...
aft finish fyp, etc shld b ard jun & tt's peak period & so more exp but cant delay oso since oso need to get a job... either i go trip immediately or get a job immediately s i cant possibly stay hm & rot...
den w who? parents only allow me go w 3 of my sec friends or dear but if dear, den they might end up taggin along since it's sch holi & cousins' mum might take leaves. i don wanna get caught in between & get stress over thinkin of best plan & best iternary for them & not for me. if tt's d case, i would rather slog & work. at least i'm earnin $$ & so i would gain something rather than jus losin everythin.
if i can go w who i enjoy & whr i can have fun & etc, i would definitely b more than willin to go. i don mind eatin cheaper food nw to save up more but... wat r d chances like? frankly speakin, if i can go w dear alone, i think i would feel so much better than w parents too. tt famosa trip was fun. we nvr bother hw much we spend though we end up oso nvr spend tt much. at least no one was thr to grumble & show black face & end up i'm being accused to show black face. holi is meant to have fun, relax & enjoy & get away fr current lives & stress & not to add up more stress.
friend said 'rest is to walk further' but if d rest means to rot more at home or to go w charcoal face ppl, i rather not rest. i rather work & work & work. & dear told his cousin tt i hardcore cos all these while, i start work immediately aft exam, i start attachment immediately aft exam. & previously, i start work almost immediately aft i finish my poly exam oso. 家家有本难念的经...
Sunday, 19 September 2010
manicure & pedicure
went to my vietnamese aunt's new shop today w my cousins. she is doin biz on nails. d deco is simple but nice. basically, i jus tot of going thr to see see since i nvr been to any of such shop b4.
ya. i nvr do any menicure & pedicure in any shop b4 cos i felt it's too exp. i'd always paint myself or draw or put stickers myself but recently no time to play though it was part of my interest in d past.
anw, she kept askin me to do & do it personally for me. pedicure & den menicure & i actually been watchin hw she do rather than restin there. erm... to 偷师also. lol... tt way, i can do myself unless necessary lah. haha...
after polishin my toenails, she den asked if i wan paint 1 color. den think she take me to experiment. apply glitter on my toenails. den on my hand, tried out the colour & the apply the white layer at the edge (think it's called french nail or so?) den she experiment further by putting crystal on my fingernails too. she also asked her cousin to apply a layer of colour on my cousin (which is also her niece) too.
well, tt's not all. while my nails are drying, her cousin, friend & her took their dinner (i cant s i gg for dinner elsewhr). after finishin her dinner, she bought out a tin of desolved wax. she wanted to wax my leg. gosh... i felt i was thr for her to play & she didn't want to get any $$ fr me. it made me felt bad esp since she jus started her biz days ago. she need d $$ to cover back her 'investment' & to gain capitals for more supplies, etc.
but guess wat... she literally chase me out & say we r relative & say bye to me & close d door. i'd no choice but to go & find my uncle & pass d money to him instead but had to resort to stuffing the money in his chest pocket & run away. eventually i convinced him to take s i really didn't want them to have losses since i had done so many of their services.
i nvr been to other place b4 so i not sure hw gd my aunt is but to me, she seemed v skilled. she had diploma cert & was very 细心while she was working. prob because it is the traits of 'artistic' ppl, she seemed not able to take it that somehow, there were a teeny tiny black dot tt came to 1 of my fingernails & there were furry threads or minor minor accident touch & 'chip' at d edges though i was her relatives & she didn't intend to take $ from me.
d only prob is tt her cousin & her friends are also vietnamese & so they only know how to speak chinese but not english or dialect. i was her translator when there was an angmoh lady who came. tt do worries me hw to do biz tt way. but tt lady gave a thumb-up b4 she left & didn't want her $2 change. so i hope it would go well for her. but i can only hope her temper can b kept under control. heard she got bad temper but i nvr experience it since i seldom see her. mayb cos i treat her good tt time for her weddin studio shoots & get strepsils for her tt time, etc so she still treat me gd nw. jus hope this will continue ba.
anw, d pic of her works on my toes & fingers are attached. her shop location too.
her shop details & service w pricing are as follow:
Queen Nail Spa
女皇美甲护理
Blk 359 Bukit Batok West Ave. 5 St. 31
#01-387
Singapore 650359
Tel: 6562 1928
Operating Hours: 1000 to 2100 hours
Getting there:
NS3 Bukit Gombak MRT
Bus 945
Manicure & Pedicure Services
- OPI Lacquer $6 Student $4
- Express Manicure $10 Student $8
- Express Pedicure $12 Student $10
- Full Classic Manicure $18 Student $15
- Full Classic Pedicure $28 Student $25
- Gel Manicure @ Colour $100
- Acrylic Extension $80
- Nail Art $2 & above
Waxing Services
- Full Arm Wax $25
- Half Arm Wax $18
- Full Leg Wax $35
- Half Leg Wax $22
Others
- Eye Brow Trimming $5
女皇美甲护理
Blk 359 Bukit Batok West Ave. 5 St. 31
#01-387
Singapore 650359
Tel: 6562 1928
Operating Hours: 1000 to 2100 hours
Getting there:
NS3 Bukit Gombak MRT
Bus 945
Manicure & Pedicure Services
- OPI Lacquer $6 Student $4
- Express Manicure $10 Student $8
- Express Pedicure $12 Student $10
- Full Classic Manicure $18 Student $15
- Full Classic Pedicure $28 Student $25
- Gel Manicure @ Colour $100
- Acrylic Extension $80
- Nail Art $2 & above
Waxing Services
- Full Arm Wax $25
- Half Arm Wax $18
- Full Leg Wax $35
- Half Leg Wax $22
Others
- Eye Brow Trimming $5
Thursday, 16 September 2010
think i shld go sleep earlier ba... been havin headache for these few days & even super hard to keep awake in class (though i always had tt problem but not to d extend of simply jus k/o right fr d beginning)...
anw, serve me right. been 'watchin' d dvd on d korean drama which my friend lend me. didn't wanna dragged till more reports/assignment come & oso feel bad for borrowin for too long. thus, watched till like 2 or 2+ am for past few days. last week jus started & this ytd, alrdy started watchin d 3rd disc out of think 8. thr was a total of more than 100 eps when i'm like at d 30++.
but i really think i shld stop 'watching' till tt late though i not quite watchin it w full attention. i do my report & other things while d dvd is playing. only watch at times... if i don stop, i think i can jus forget bout tryin to strive for this sem le. but will i b too harsh on myself? i dono...
anw, serve me right. been 'watchin' d dvd on d korean drama which my friend lend me. didn't wanna dragged till more reports/assignment come & oso feel bad for borrowin for too long. thus, watched till like 2 or 2+ am for past few days. last week jus started & this ytd, alrdy started watchin d 3rd disc out of think 8. thr was a total of more than 100 eps when i'm like at d 30++.
but i really think i shld stop 'watching' till tt late though i not quite watchin it w full attention. i do my report & other things while d dvd is playing. only watch at times... if i don stop, i think i can jus forget bout tryin to strive for this sem le. but will i b too harsh on myself? i dono...
bday surprise
had a pleasant surprise fr my sch friends today. they went to get cake & catch me aft my work to celebrate w me. thanks gals.
受宠若惊
today's my bday & i got a surprise, a shock right aft d clock strike 12 midnight.
i'd many greetings, even fr friends not in contact for long. but still not s surprisin s d 1 i got right after midnight.
it was shockin cos it's not a greetin fr friends, relatives or a strangers but it was fr dear's mom. her sms read:
'To: Jessie
wish u a happy birthday n all the best for whereever you are n whatever you're doing.
Rgds: aunty'
she got my no tt time cos dear was late & she wasn't ard & so got my no for contact when she got back since she had alrdy prep dinner. but i didn't expect tt she will drop me a sms to send me a bday wish. & esp when she was d 1st & it was send at ard d 1st few min of d start of d day.
seein tt sms made me go in state of shock. i was blur. duno wat to say or do but replied her a thanks & have a gd nite rest.
anw, my cousin's last maid whom i called friend/sis also rmbr my bday aft she had left us for a couple of yrs & she oso send me a sms. tt's really nice of her s she could simply jus forget & save d overseas sms money. so it still touch me w her effort...
i'd many greetings, even fr friends not in contact for long. but still not s surprisin s d 1 i got right after midnight.
it was shockin cos it's not a greetin fr friends, relatives or a strangers but it was fr dear's mom. her sms read:
'To: Jessie
wish u a happy birthday n all the best for whereever you are n whatever you're doing.
Rgds: aunty'
she got my no tt time cos dear was late & she wasn't ard & so got my no for contact when she got back since she had alrdy prep dinner. but i didn't expect tt she will drop me a sms to send me a bday wish. & esp when she was d 1st & it was send at ard d 1st few min of d start of d day.
seein tt sms made me go in state of shock. i was blur. duno wat to say or do but replied her a thanks & have a gd nite rest.
anw, my cousin's last maid whom i called friend/sis also rmbr my bday aft she had left us for a couple of yrs & she oso send me a sms. tt's really nice of her s she could simply jus forget & save d overseas sms money. so it still touch me w her effort...
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Gift
Gift from a part of China. It was given to me by the graduate student whom i was helpin durin my attachment. d accessory was said to be 招财. think it's d son of dragon, got big mouth & tummy but small small buttock. say will swallow all d wealth & not releasing them.anw, d pic was taken fr my iphone4. i nvr do any editin. jus use a d/l camera w d lomo filter. quite like d effect.
ya. i got d phone but felt not right time. no time to play ard... yet, dad oso get d phone & kept buggin me. in d end, he find out hw himself... AAHHHH..... tell him so many times he oso cant get in. i say i no time try & play ard wor...
not only him. even mum oso. asked me for my ocbc atm card. say she wanna deposit into our joint acc which she was usin only. but ocbc got a pro. if got multiple acc, only 1 card & so must noe hw to use. told her b4 leh but again, like dad, she forget. yet she still wanna get d card fr me. so i understand y she get fr me again. jus hope she wont get such a shock if she use my card due to some reason or others...
but i'm glad i managed to complete my report due tml. another 1 due next week & another 2 due d week aft.
my future
seldom check email & today, jus b4 class, saw tt d prof i was attached to emailed me & asked me to look for him today regardin d culture i did for these 2 weeks. but i got no time to reply so i went impromptu aft class...
aft checkin out & cfm wat & hw i did, he cont'd to say 'future' work. he say s though i will still b thr in d lab but he asked me to focus on my studies. & he was v enthusiatic bout me gg back for fyp & cfm w me then. guess i alrdy cfm w him le ba & so i think i wont look for others. anw, i guess i will have another possible chance for job...
...
prof: ... nw all u ve to do is to strive & get a 2nd upper
me: it's impossible. all i can strive for is a 3rd class
prof: y?
me: i calculated my gpa & no matter wat, i can only get a 3rd if i get As & Bs
prof: watever it is, must strive & most importantly is to clear everything
...
prof... wat is ur plan?
me: ???
prof: ur future plan after u graduate
me: mayb PO?
prof: ... i'll see if i got grant at d end of d yr, if no grant, i cant do anything oso. & oso if u no clear, even if i got grant i oso cant wait another yr.
...
so... i guess if he got grant, i can secure a job s PO? all i ve to do is to clear my studies nw... well, tt would oso means i would stay in d same place for almost a decade... & i'd become JL of all trade here w multiple identities. anw, tt's gd news... at least i noe in here, i will still have chances to get job.
s for my attachment, prof wanted to complete d project soon & get it publish in a better paper. he wanted it fast so tt can get gd gradin rather than publish aft others published. he wanted it to be a novel publication. if so, if my name was also thr, it'll benefit me ba...
den, s for d fyp, prof got a novel project in mind in continuation of my attachment project & tt is if it can b published. tt would oso means if everything smooth, i'll get to start a brand new project? i really hope everything can b so smooth ba.
aft checkin out & cfm wat & hw i did, he cont'd to say 'future' work. he say s though i will still b thr in d lab but he asked me to focus on my studies. & he was v enthusiatic bout me gg back for fyp & cfm w me then. guess i alrdy cfm w him le ba & so i think i wont look for others. anw, i guess i will have another possible chance for job...
...
prof: ... nw all u ve to do is to strive & get a 2nd upper
me: it's impossible. all i can strive for is a 3rd class
prof: y?
me: i calculated my gpa & no matter wat, i can only get a 3rd if i get As & Bs
prof: watever it is, must strive & most importantly is to clear everything
...
prof... wat is ur plan?
me: ???
prof: ur future plan after u graduate
me: mayb PO?
prof: ... i'll see if i got grant at d end of d yr, if no grant, i cant do anything oso. & oso if u no clear, even if i got grant i oso cant wait another yr.
...
so... i guess if he got grant, i can secure a job s PO? all i ve to do is to clear my studies nw... well, tt would oso means i would stay in d same place for almost a decade... & i'd become JL of all trade here w multiple identities. anw, tt's gd news... at least i noe in here, i will still have chances to get job.
s for my attachment, prof wanted to complete d project soon & get it publish in a better paper. he wanted it fast so tt can get gd gradin rather than publish aft others published. he wanted it to be a novel publication. if so, if my name was also thr, it'll benefit me ba...
den, s for d fyp, prof got a novel project in mind in continuation of my attachment project & tt is if it can b published. tt would oso means if everything smooth, i'll get to start a brand new project? i really hope everything can b so smooth ba.
Monday, 13 September 2010
stress
dis mornin was super rush. went to d lab cos i believed tt d graduate student would not b able to be back so early if she would come. since prof & her had asked me to look after d cells, i went back to change new growth medium for d cells but i only had at most 40 minutes & had to print lecture notes. well, i can don care since she asked me do for 2 weeks but i don wanna screw up my effort, thus, though rush, i went back.
i could actually go after lesson but tot of reports made me decided to make d rush. my report due on 15 sep ma. so no time to lose.
well, i rush not cos of class but cos of dental appt. in d end, got delay & i almost gotta b late for class & surely b nagged by d prof. he v naggy one.
anw, b4 d dentist do anything, ask him bout my pain & cfm it's due to d wisdom tooth. say it's growin slanted & cant get out & my top wisdom tooth exertin pressure so once a while will have such discomfort. say it can & may eventually b a serious pain due to inflammation & swellin of d surroundin gum. haiz...
anw, i tot of extractin it long ago. to think of it, i think hor, this tooth give me prob b4 i go back to sch. jus rmbr i told my ex-colleague b4 but always nvr do anything bout it. jus say say only but i'm really determined to get rid of it. any recommendation for cheap & gd place? sch seemed pretty exp leh. $150 - $300 wor. & apparently, he said tt d top is at d lower range while d bottom tooth is at d higher range. -.-"
i oso check on d top cos though it nvr cos discomfort, i had difficulties cleanin it cos both r slantin outwards. dentist say if i wan, he can extract both my top & bottom. both on d side tt i experience d pain. he said tt d other side can wait. but i say i think bout it. $300+$150 = $450 wor. v v hard to earn tt amt of $$ nw so if got a cheaper & better place, i will go.
anw, i doubt i wanna go back thr for wisdom tooth extraction, duno if he was rushin or wat. 1 of d equipment was hot & it burn d side of my mouth & i believe it's a blister nw. hope wont become ulcer or it'll a a long one. & realize tt sometimes while he clean, d pain i feel was fr d mirror he used to see & open my mouth. i was siam-in fr d mirror pain rather than d cleanin pain & so i doubt i would go back d next trip which was in mar. thus, i cant even rmbr when was tt appt. oops... haha... but i cant denied tt i like d feel of my tooth w/o those cavity build-up. mayb go elsewhr ba. so any recommend?
well, today, after class, i was super tempted by my friends who was gg to d archery ground to try out. it's 1 of d sports which i tot of wantin to at least try but my heart was on my report. haiz... so i decided to go hm & not join them. sorry gals. mayb cos this is my final sem to chiong, i think i'm especially stress up & constantly thinking of d reports & weightage. haiz... if can, i oso wish to join d fun & try out. i noe i may not get d chance to try out aft leavin sch but no choice. my priority is study nw.
talkin bout such priority. i'd made up my mind. if i got report, etc due-in, & had not complete, i guess i would not go for my dance trg. in d past, i always study in d bus, b4 it start, etc but i see no pt. it's makin me more tired. i rather b hm. if dear oso ard, mayb can nap a while oso since parents wont possibly say or scold me then. so if i really got tired, i can ve d chance to rest & not exertin myself mentally & physically. i noe they will bug me eventually but sorry. i wont give in. if i would, today i would go w my friend for archery.
anw, dad got me d iphone 4 on sat. i only load my sch edventure website, hotmail, yahoo mail, facebook, msn into it & nvr bother do anything or play much w it. felt it's not d right time to get d phone but i could resist d temptation to figure out & download games. a friend said tt can become 机不离手 but to me, it's jus a norm phone right nw. can u imagine, i go load my sch edventure website s 1 of d shortcut icon? crazy right? & even bout d ms office so tt i can do report, etc if needed. i think i'll 走火入魔 w studies soon but at least i got dear & friends to accompany me.
last week, had d fyp briefin & wonder if i wanna venture out, today, i had a feel tt was 60% stay cos of d convenience & reputation i'd made in my attachment lab. but oso cos i didn't really ve d time to look through other alternative lah. thr r other reasons which i tot of earlier but i cant recall them nw. mayb after i settle at least d report to be submitted v v soon b4 made further decision. i'm really racin against time.
i'm so lookin forward to d break in oct to go batam & get away fr everything & another break aft exams. i most likely wont start my fyp too too early though can choose to start early. i need a real break loh...
i could actually go after lesson but tot of reports made me decided to make d rush. my report due on 15 sep ma. so no time to lose.
well, i rush not cos of class but cos of dental appt. in d end, got delay & i almost gotta b late for class & surely b nagged by d prof. he v naggy one.
anw, b4 d dentist do anything, ask him bout my pain & cfm it's due to d wisdom tooth. say it's growin slanted & cant get out & my top wisdom tooth exertin pressure so once a while will have such discomfort. say it can & may eventually b a serious pain due to inflammation & swellin of d surroundin gum. haiz...
anw, i tot of extractin it long ago. to think of it, i think hor, this tooth give me prob b4 i go back to sch. jus rmbr i told my ex-colleague b4 but always nvr do anything bout it. jus say say only but i'm really determined to get rid of it. any recommendation for cheap & gd place? sch seemed pretty exp leh. $150 - $300 wor. & apparently, he said tt d top is at d lower range while d bottom tooth is at d higher range. -.-"
i oso check on d top cos though it nvr cos discomfort, i had difficulties cleanin it cos both r slantin outwards. dentist say if i wan, he can extract both my top & bottom. both on d side tt i experience d pain. he said tt d other side can wait. but i say i think bout it. $300+$150 = $450 wor. v v hard to earn tt amt of $$ nw so if got a cheaper & better place, i will go.
anw, i doubt i wanna go back thr for wisdom tooth extraction, duno if he was rushin or wat. 1 of d equipment was hot & it burn d side of my mouth & i believe it's a blister nw. hope wont become ulcer or it'll a a long one. & realize tt sometimes while he clean, d pain i feel was fr d mirror he used to see & open my mouth. i was siam-in fr d mirror pain rather than d cleanin pain & so i doubt i would go back d next trip which was in mar. thus, i cant even rmbr when was tt appt. oops... haha... but i cant denied tt i like d feel of my tooth w/o those cavity build-up. mayb go elsewhr ba. so any recommend?
well, today, after class, i was super tempted by my friends who was gg to d archery ground to try out. it's 1 of d sports which i tot of wantin to at least try but my heart was on my report. haiz... so i decided to go hm & not join them. sorry gals. mayb cos this is my final sem to chiong, i think i'm especially stress up & constantly thinking of d reports & weightage. haiz... if can, i oso wish to join d fun & try out. i noe i may not get d chance to try out aft leavin sch but no choice. my priority is study nw.
talkin bout such priority. i'd made up my mind. if i got report, etc due-in, & had not complete, i guess i would not go for my dance trg. in d past, i always study in d bus, b4 it start, etc but i see no pt. it's makin me more tired. i rather b hm. if dear oso ard, mayb can nap a while oso since parents wont possibly say or scold me then. so if i really got tired, i can ve d chance to rest & not exertin myself mentally & physically. i noe they will bug me eventually but sorry. i wont give in. if i would, today i would go w my friend for archery.
anw, dad got me d iphone 4 on sat. i only load my sch edventure website, hotmail, yahoo mail, facebook, msn into it & nvr bother do anything or play much w it. felt it's not d right time to get d phone but i could resist d temptation to figure out & download games. a friend said tt can become 机不离手 but to me, it's jus a norm phone right nw. can u imagine, i go load my sch edventure website s 1 of d shortcut icon? crazy right? & even bout d ms office so tt i can do report, etc if needed. i think i'll 走火入魔 w studies soon but at least i got dear & friends to accompany me.
last week, had d fyp briefin & wonder if i wanna venture out, today, i had a feel tt was 60% stay cos of d convenience & reputation i'd made in my attachment lab. but oso cos i didn't really ve d time to look through other alternative lah. thr r other reasons which i tot of earlier but i cant recall them nw. mayb after i settle at least d report to be submitted v v soon b4 made further decision. i'm really racin against time.
i'm so lookin forward to d break in oct to go batam & get away fr everything & another break aft exams. i most likely wont start my fyp too too early though can choose to start early. i need a real break loh...
Thursday, 9 September 2010
my silly boy...
anw, wanna thks dear... he tired aft work & yet he go home change & pick me fr sch & went to JP instead of stayin hm rest b4 i accompanied him to a children's hm to check out d charity programn which he had to plan & organize for work.
he go JP cos he noe i can collect d photo journal which i made & oso to try find & do something for me. he was a silly boy. wanted to be secretive & yet ended up tellin me wat he planna do when i was jus teasin & askin him. i nvr tot tt he'll give in & tell me so easily & his reason was tt he don wanna hide & lie to me. oops... made me feel like a bad person cos if i wanna do something, i would really b determined not to say out.
well, he said tt he wanted it s a surprise but due to work commitment & tight schedule, he could not managed to do so & could only try find & do in my presence. but it's d thoughts tt counts ba. his thoughts & truthfulness r 1 of d impt factors y i b w him. thanks dear...
he go JP cos he noe i can collect d photo journal which i made & oso to try find & do something for me. he was a silly boy. wanted to be secretive & yet ended up tellin me wat he planna do when i was jus teasin & askin him. i nvr tot tt he'll give in & tell me so easily & his reason was tt he don wanna hide & lie to me. oops... made me feel like a bad person cos if i wanna do something, i would really b determined not to say out.
well, he said tt he wanted it s a surprise but due to work commitment & tight schedule, he could not managed to do so & could only try find & do in my presence. but it's d thoughts tt counts ba. his thoughts & truthfulness r 1 of d impt factors y i b w him. thanks dear...
a fact or i give up or i got too used to current?
wat shld i do? ytd had a FYP briefin & den at nite, chat w a friend whom i encourage to try apply local uni & further studies.
this friend whom almost gave up aft failure to get a place in local m doin quite well. he's in an a* research institution doin his PhD nw while i'm still strugglin in my degree.
well, previously, & actually currently, i'm doin lab attachment in d lab & d prof wld accept me back to cont'd d proj & do it s FYP. however, there is still asmall % of not gettin in s d prof & his project must oso fit into d criteria so s to b able to accept me.
but, i can reserve d place for higher chance otherwise d rest of d proj will b to compete w ~200 students or more, for tt, must meet up diff prof & record down d date too. bit more tedious but i oso don mind venturin out of my current lab & even venture out of my sch. had my resume fill w experiences, etc fr dis place. work, study, & multiple part-times in d same location. i was in dis place till i had confused many many ppl, even d prof s they could see me everywhere.
to venture out, i noe my stand w my grades but wat my friend said is v true. nvr try hw i noe. & tt i alrdy judge my stand myself & not givin chance for me to b assess by others.
thus, i end up wonderin... wonderin if it's cos i so sure of my stand or cos i don wanna leave d comfort zone or rather d convenience?
in my sch, i got d convenience of d staff bus & so no need pay extra $$ if i go outside. ppl noe me & understand hw i work & so i got recommended & given priorities for all d part time jobs currently till my colleagues comment tt i'm 'jess' of all trade since i'm a gal & so i cant b 'jack'.
& oso in my current lab, i'd made friends & they r nice ppl. min politics & max fun like a fam. they r approachable & so i noe if i need help in my fyp i can get d help i would need. & furthermore, prof nvr bother d time i leave, etc so long s i produce results. thus, i got d freedom. & he seemed to recognize & will acknowledge my effort even in front of those potential PhD or staff who actually just came for interview & looked around.
though d proj will b a further continuation of wat i'd been doin & though wat i did now wont b taken into acc for my gradin & cant use any of d results, i still ve an advantage tt i noe wat i'd been doin so far & can start d work immediately w/o much delay. & oso i'm alrdy adapted to d lab culture & no need to readapt & readjust.
but, if i can get more exposure & more diff experience, tt would even further enhance my resume & chances to get a better job. thr r so many diff pros & cons. wat shld i do? haiz... tough decsion... mayb like my friend who asked me to try try apply outside & step out of my comfort zone? & mayb i would noe my stand. if i stand a chance to do FYP in a say gd research institution, which means i could find job easier. if not, den i might get stuck in my current place for few more yrs which erm... due to d conveniences, i don mind. but at least i noe my stand?
d prob is oso cos i wld feel bad. initially i go to my current lab cos prof wld allow me contd fyp while another don. of course another factor is tt this prof give me proj while d other jus asked me help whoever who needs. but aft i got in, though tempted, i nvr ask my prof again bout d fyp but d graduate student asked for me recently & d prof cfm it again.
well, wateevr it is, i think i jus try b4 i do any decision ba. do 1 things at a time. hehe... so long s i get d time to play ard (tt boils down to leavin whr i wish to so s to get more time).
this friend whom almost gave up aft failure to get a place in local m doin quite well. he's in an a* research institution doin his PhD nw while i'm still strugglin in my degree.
well, previously, & actually currently, i'm doin lab attachment in d lab & d prof wld accept me back to cont'd d proj & do it s FYP. however, there is still asmall % of not gettin in s d prof & his project must oso fit into d criteria so s to b able to accept me.
but, i can reserve d place for higher chance otherwise d rest of d proj will b to compete w ~200 students or more, for tt, must meet up diff prof & record down d date too. bit more tedious but i oso don mind venturin out of my current lab & even venture out of my sch. had my resume fill w experiences, etc fr dis place. work, study, & multiple part-times in d same location. i was in dis place till i had confused many many ppl, even d prof s they could see me everywhere.
to venture out, i noe my stand w my grades but wat my friend said is v true. nvr try hw i noe. & tt i alrdy judge my stand myself & not givin chance for me to b assess by others.
thus, i end up wonderin... wonderin if it's cos i so sure of my stand or cos i don wanna leave d comfort zone or rather d convenience?
in my sch, i got d convenience of d staff bus & so no need pay extra $$ if i go outside. ppl noe me & understand hw i work & so i got recommended & given priorities for all d part time jobs currently till my colleagues comment tt i'm 'jess' of all trade since i'm a gal & so i cant b 'jack'.
& oso in my current lab, i'd made friends & they r nice ppl. min politics & max fun like a fam. they r approachable & so i noe if i need help in my fyp i can get d help i would need. & furthermore, prof nvr bother d time i leave, etc so long s i produce results. thus, i got d freedom. & he seemed to recognize & will acknowledge my effort even in front of those potential PhD or staff who actually just came for interview & looked around.
though d proj will b a further continuation of wat i'd been doin & though wat i did now wont b taken into acc for my gradin & cant use any of d results, i still ve an advantage tt i noe wat i'd been doin so far & can start d work immediately w/o much delay. & oso i'm alrdy adapted to d lab culture & no need to readapt & readjust.
but, if i can get more exposure & more diff experience, tt would even further enhance my resume & chances to get a better job. thr r so many diff pros & cons. wat shld i do? haiz... tough decsion... mayb like my friend who asked me to try try apply outside & step out of my comfort zone? & mayb i would noe my stand. if i stand a chance to do FYP in a say gd research institution, which means i could find job easier. if not, den i might get stuck in my current place for few more yrs which erm... due to d conveniences, i don mind. but at least i noe my stand?
d prob is oso cos i wld feel bad. initially i go to my current lab cos prof wld allow me contd fyp while another don. of course another factor is tt this prof give me proj while d other jus asked me help whoever who needs. but aft i got in, though tempted, i nvr ask my prof again bout d fyp but d graduate student asked for me recently & d prof cfm it again.
well, wateevr it is, i think i jus try b4 i do any decision ba. do 1 things at a time. hehe... so long s i get d time to play ard (tt boils down to leavin whr i wish to so s to get more time).
Wednesday, 8 September 2010
quittin
argh... f***
sorry... gonna grumble again... jus ignore dis post la... i jus wanna let it out... cannot take it...
i think i wanna call it a quit for my dance & asked for relieved of duty for my soka mtg le... cant tahan la...
for dance, recent mths we had hire a trainer. & so, trg initially start to end later at almost 2 but too many of us & instructor need more time so ended up tt her time start fr 9 to 2 while we started at 8.30 & end at 2.30 by right
but... usually debrief super long w all d announcement, etc. so... we end almost 3 w/o lunch break. jus a take 10. though usually will become slightly longer than 10 min but it's unofficial so none of us go eat. anw, aft eat oso not gd to train & exercise. but... oso crazy loh. breakfast at 7 like tt den intensive trg den lunch aft 3.
we not super human la. robot oso need rest & recharge. seen friends go eat sweets take a small pcs of biscuit, some giddy giddy sit thr. yet no one say anything. can don so hardcore? cannot jus say la. -.-"
anw, trg end late is a major issue le. den usually only if got performance den we got extra trg. guess wat. recently, thr was once which they tot of gg to west coast park s an outin cum scoutin d place s there was an event to b held thr a week ltr. so chief asked all of us. give us option. say either trg or go thr. if trg, b usual. end at '2.30'. but if outin, end at 12.30. all of us choose outin. guess wat. in d end, got extra trg on a sat. if like tt, may s well we choose trg den no need d extra time & day.
den nw, say d instructor not free in nov. so... jus received a sms say got extra trg on 3 other sats in additional to our usual sun trg. & tt extra trg oso b like almost another 7hr loh.
thus, seein tt sms made me made up my mind. i wanna quit. i cant cont'd like tt. i cant give up my studies. this is my last chance. i had got 5 modules & i need to get think at least Bs and As. even if all B+ oso gain me a 3rd class. i got many assignments this sem. & assignment weight much more than b4. so this can oso b my final chance to use assignment to pull up my grades. if i don, tt's it. game over for me. if like tt, i may s well don futher my stuudies. mayb i would be better in terms of career aspect & even dance i oso can enjoy & cont watever they wan.
thus, tt made me oso wanna be relieved of my duties for my soka. they had really been gettin in my nerve. keep callin me, buggin me. etc etc. d more they like tt, d more i repel oso & oso cos of my studies lah. i reall really wanna give up on all these la.
i'd alrdy given up on clinic work & try hard to use min. drink plain water even for lunch. eat sandwich, etc if i alone or if hm got whiite bread, i eat tt. i alrdy sacrifice. & don buy textbook & go to extend on sellin textbook & apply bursary. wat else they wan? they don no i quit job so at least i got the time to rest,e tc but i m thinkin tt mayb i shld jus tell
say i alrdy given up. admit i lied all these while. den say it's still a struggle for me. my grades were like jus pass & even fail a module. i need much more time & not gettin lesser time. i wanna quit fr my dance & get out of my duties and not more.
can they jus let me quit? i'm thinkin of tellin them i wanna quit but mayb not d part tt i'd quit my job long aho. if they don accept, i'll go mia le ba. since my phone plan b over at d end of d yr. i can terminate tt & sign a new line. make them cant get in touch w me. if they don believed i'd been strugglin in studies, i can print my transcript for them see. see hw 'well' i'd been doing.
I WANNA QUIT... I NEED TO QUIT... I HAD TO QUIT...
sorry... gonna grumble again... jus ignore dis post la... i jus wanna let it out... cannot take it...
i think i wanna call it a quit for my dance & asked for relieved of duty for my soka mtg le... cant tahan la...
for dance, recent mths we had hire a trainer. & so, trg initially start to end later at almost 2 but too many of us & instructor need more time so ended up tt her time start fr 9 to 2 while we started at 8.30 & end at 2.30 by right
but... usually debrief super long w all d announcement, etc. so... we end almost 3 w/o lunch break. jus a take 10. though usually will become slightly longer than 10 min but it's unofficial so none of us go eat. anw, aft eat oso not gd to train & exercise. but... oso crazy loh. breakfast at 7 like tt den intensive trg den lunch aft 3.
we not super human la. robot oso need rest & recharge. seen friends go eat sweets take a small pcs of biscuit, some giddy giddy sit thr. yet no one say anything. can don so hardcore? cannot jus say la. -.-"
anw, trg end late is a major issue le. den usually only if got performance den we got extra trg. guess wat. recently, thr was once which they tot of gg to west coast park s an outin cum scoutin d place s there was an event to b held thr a week ltr. so chief asked all of us. give us option. say either trg or go thr. if trg, b usual. end at '2.30'. but if outin, end at 12.30. all of us choose outin. guess wat. in d end, got extra trg on a sat. if like tt, may s well we choose trg den no need d extra time & day.
den nw, say d instructor not free in nov. so... jus received a sms say got extra trg on 3 other sats in additional to our usual sun trg. & tt extra trg oso b like almost another 7hr loh.
thus, seein tt sms made me made up my mind. i wanna quit. i cant cont'd like tt. i cant give up my studies. this is my last chance. i had got 5 modules & i need to get think at least Bs and As. even if all B+ oso gain me a 3rd class. i got many assignments this sem. & assignment weight much more than b4. so this can oso b my final chance to use assignment to pull up my grades. if i don, tt's it. game over for me. if like tt, i may s well don futher my stuudies. mayb i would be better in terms of career aspect & even dance i oso can enjoy & cont watever they wan.
thus, tt made me oso wanna be relieved of my duties for my soka. they had really been gettin in my nerve. keep callin me, buggin me. etc etc. d more they like tt, d more i repel oso & oso cos of my studies lah. i reall really wanna give up on all these la.
i'd alrdy given up on clinic work & try hard to use min. drink plain water even for lunch. eat sandwich, etc if i alone or if hm got whiite bread, i eat tt. i alrdy sacrifice. & don buy textbook & go to extend on sellin textbook & apply bursary. wat else they wan? they don no i quit job so at least i got the time to rest,e tc but i m thinkin tt mayb i shld jus tell
say i alrdy given up. admit i lied all these while. den say it's still a struggle for me. my grades were like jus pass & even fail a module. i need much more time & not gettin lesser time. i wanna quit fr my dance & get out of my duties and not more.
can they jus let me quit? i'm thinkin of tellin them i wanna quit but mayb not d part tt i'd quit my job long aho. if they don accept, i'll go mia le ba. since my phone plan b over at d end of d yr. i can terminate tt & sign a new line. make them cant get in touch w me. if they don believed i'd been strugglin in studies, i can print my transcript for them see. see hw 'well' i'd been doing.
I WANNA QUIT... I NEED TO QUIT... I HAD TO QUIT...
Monday, 6 September 2010
unsecure...
oh ya. really don like my hse location nw. it's situated at d junction opp d newly built ITE & thr r more & more ppl loiterin ard downstairs. heard fr mum b4 tt they do come up oso at times to avoid get caught & my hse outside is d stairs & lift which had become their secret hideout.
jus nw, glad was rainin so nvr go open letterbox s i realized tt actually thr r oso ppl at tt area & they ki-siao started shoutin command s in those parade command to be in attention, or at ease, etc. heard it while i was alrdy hm.
anw, jus nw almost deviate towards d lift near d letterbox which at hm aft hearin those commotion tt i realized tt it wasn't tt safe thr oso.
when i was reachin my lift, thr were a big gp of guys, indians, some smokin, & they looked much bigger size than dear. though i may have learnt wushu b4, i noe all i can do was to siam away fr them.
they looked like gg towards d lift i would take to go hm so i decided to deviate away. too many of them to overpower me so i siam. when see tt they walked further away, i go take d lift & dug my hse key immediately so tt i can get in at d shortest possible time.
if they nvr walked away, i would have walked to take another lift but tt might mean i would bump into another set of ppl. didn't wanna tell mum or ltr both my parents worried & would keep callin & buggin me but i really dislike d feel of being overpowered esp if i in midst of too many guys. haiz... so unsecure more unsafe nw...
jus nw, glad was rainin so nvr go open letterbox s i realized tt actually thr r oso ppl at tt area & they ki-siao started shoutin command s in those parade command to be in attention, or at ease, etc. heard it while i was alrdy hm.
anw, jus nw almost deviate towards d lift near d letterbox which at hm aft hearin those commotion tt i realized tt it wasn't tt safe thr oso.
when i was reachin my lift, thr were a big gp of guys, indians, some smokin, & they looked much bigger size than dear. though i may have learnt wushu b4, i noe all i can do was to siam away fr them.
they looked like gg towards d lift i would take to go hm so i decided to deviate away. too many of them to overpower me so i siam. when see tt they walked further away, i go take d lift & dug my hse key immediately so tt i can get in at d shortest possible time.
if they nvr walked away, i would have walked to take another lift but tt might mean i would bump into another set of ppl. didn't wanna tell mum or ltr both my parents worried & would keep callin & buggin me but i really dislike d feel of being overpowered esp if i in midst of too many guys. haiz... so unsecure more unsafe nw...
spam
oh ya. realized tt my chatbox is quite spam... so decided to remove it for gd. anw, if u r my friend, u'll noe hw to contact me & not via those chatbox. so no point keepin since there had been weird ppl postin weird comment.
BOO... to those ppl.
BOO... to those ppl.
i'm not pregnant...
jus back & had instant noodle as dinner as i didn't know what to get as dinner. what happened on d journey back made me cleared more of my wardrobe space. esp at d dress section & esp at d informal dresses part... well, b4 sem started, i alrdy threw a few pieces away & hide a few away but jus nw really hide d rest.
well, actually, wat happened i sort of expected it to happened yrs ago whenever mum buy those type of dresses or tops for me but it seemed like it's only within this 1 yr or so tt it really happened...
hmm... if u r still wonderin wat happen. well, today, in d mrt, thr was a lady who kept eye-in me & my bag & seemed v 苦恼 & ponderin & 'fi-git' (sry vocab weak, duno hw spell) ard & eventually stood up yet dare not tell me. all i can do was to pretend i nvr see anything & cont'd standin thr in d midst of d crowds & an uncle who was standin at d door went over to sit instead.
i believed tt was because of my loose fittin dress. last time, when mum say nice & wanna buy, i didn't wan cos i noe this may happen eventually as it would make 1 looks 'pregnant' even if not. & d worst thing is, wat mum bought was a yellow piece & she eventually went to get another blue piece so i got 2 pieces of tt. & tt was 1 of my cny clothes think last yr or so.
previously, think got 2 time w similar happening. once was w a doll dress but wat exactly happen i cant recall. think was ppl like friends or wat tell me.
& another time was after school in mrt w my friend & an uncle kept wantin me to sit & tt time, i wore a tube doll dress & was cold fr d LT so i wore cardigan oso.
thus, tt was y i remove those doll dress by either throwin those old old ones or to hide others. i nvr had problem w d loose dress i wore today so i nvr kept them but unsure of what to wear esp in d cold 'LT', to prevent havin cold knee, i wore tt dress with a 3/4 leggings & yet this happened today. haiz...
did i get too fat? but i doubt so. ppl keep sayin i slim a lot but i noe i got put back slightly recently but not tt obvious loh. seemed like i should go back to wear my skirt & top but i always lazy to go match lah. but aft clearnin my dresses, i basically left formal dresses. super not suitable wear to sch lah. i not tt vain loh though i noe not uncommon to those few in my cohort.
all i can hope is tt mum don go get anymore of those kind anymore. it's really v awkward to be caught in tt situation loh... made me feel so paiseh & yet i can only treat as if nothing happened... or mayb i should try look more nerdy & carry textbook in front of me? lol. mayb wear my blue spec, tie hair into pony tail or mayb like those village girl, pleat them up. lol. anw, i believed this wont happen again since i doubt i would wear those again. even if mum buy, i would think twice, think thrice, think super many times b4 i wear or mayb i shld jus tell her straight tt those she buy oso looks like for pregnant lady. but tell her she sure unhappy or even angry. haiz... shall see hw...
well, actually, wat happened i sort of expected it to happened yrs ago whenever mum buy those type of dresses or tops for me but it seemed like it's only within this 1 yr or so tt it really happened...
hmm... if u r still wonderin wat happen. well, today, in d mrt, thr was a lady who kept eye-in me & my bag & seemed v 苦恼 & ponderin & 'fi-git' (sry vocab weak, duno hw spell) ard & eventually stood up yet dare not tell me. all i can do was to pretend i nvr see anything & cont'd standin thr in d midst of d crowds & an uncle who was standin at d door went over to sit instead.
i believed tt was because of my loose fittin dress. last time, when mum say nice & wanna buy, i didn't wan cos i noe this may happen eventually as it would make 1 looks 'pregnant' even if not. & d worst thing is, wat mum bought was a yellow piece & she eventually went to get another blue piece so i got 2 pieces of tt. & tt was 1 of my cny clothes think last yr or so.
previously, think got 2 time w similar happening. once was w a doll dress but wat exactly happen i cant recall. think was ppl like friends or wat tell me.
& another time was after school in mrt w my friend & an uncle kept wantin me to sit & tt time, i wore a tube doll dress & was cold fr d LT so i wore cardigan oso.
thus, tt was y i remove those doll dress by either throwin those old old ones or to hide others. i nvr had problem w d loose dress i wore today so i nvr kept them but unsure of what to wear esp in d cold 'LT', to prevent havin cold knee, i wore tt dress with a 3/4 leggings & yet this happened today. haiz...
did i get too fat? but i doubt so. ppl keep sayin i slim a lot but i noe i got put back slightly recently but not tt obvious loh. seemed like i should go back to wear my skirt & top but i always lazy to go match lah. but aft clearnin my dresses, i basically left formal dresses. super not suitable wear to sch lah. i not tt vain loh though i noe not uncommon to those few in my cohort.
all i can hope is tt mum don go get anymore of those kind anymore. it's really v awkward to be caught in tt situation loh... made me feel so paiseh & yet i can only treat as if nothing happened... or mayb i should try look more nerdy & carry textbook in front of me? lol. mayb wear my blue spec, tie hair into pony tail or mayb like those village girl, pleat them up. lol. anw, i believed this wont happen again since i doubt i would wear those again. even if mum buy, i would think twice, think thrice, think super many times b4 i wear or mayb i shld jus tell her straight tt those she buy oso looks like for pregnant lady. but tell her she sure unhappy or even angry. haiz... shall see hw...
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
sneezy...
ah... choo.... -.-" think air con too tooo toooo cold liao. esp in d LT. wore short skirt today & even my knee super cold. nvr like tt cold b4 in my impression wor. & d temp diff of LT & d lobby so obvious.
anw, today had mad rush again. doin lab work & office work & study all in 1 day. all durin office hr. by right i shld get an hr of break for lunch but... almost had to forgo lunch while waitin for d prof to check with him in case do wrongly.
ended up so disoriented. printed notes but forget bring to work where i could look thru if free. went up take but no one open door for me. saw my ex-colleague & borrowed his card fr him. yet, didn't realized i oso forget my thumbdrive. only realize when i got back to d office counter & on my laptop.
nvm, luckily my spoilt hp got a copy of d partially done summary of a lecture so transfer to my laptop to do but aft work, rush up to take den rush back down for lecture. really a mad rush.
& not sure if not enough sleep or cos of d rush, got slight headache during d final lecture. actually even nw, oso got & worst is nose feel itchy & wanna sneeze at times & had sneezed a few times. mayb cos LT too cold & oso cos i sit at d counter w d cold wind constantly blowin into my face. mayb oso cos of d curse. always got 'sick' when i start sch though i had been in sch for d whole holi.
not easy. really not easy to jagar so many things. luckily my job quite easy. easy job, easy money. jus gotta commit time. & luckily d lab only extend till end of next week. shag ah... jus hope i don fall sick need to stay healthy & stay focus.
oh ya. talkin bout stayin focus, put my name for a report due on 29 sep. diff topic due diff date & i refused to get 1 which was due aft recess so tt i can stay more focus aft tt & do my necessary revision. But... another module oso have 3 reports due b4 term break. which means excludin this week, 6 more wk b4 term break & i alrdy got 4 report on hand. & there is still another 2 modules which i not sure wat will happen but it seemed like 1 of it oso got intensive presentation/discussion.
so this 1st term is gonna b real tough. nvm, look forward to d short getaway durin recess & recharge then. work hard nw to taste d sweetness ltr. & all d more, enhance tt i don wan other commitment for trg & mtg. i'm really determined to get better grades. if only they udnerstand... haiz..
anw, today had mad rush again. doin lab work & office work & study all in 1 day. all durin office hr. by right i shld get an hr of break for lunch but... almost had to forgo lunch while waitin for d prof to check with him in case do wrongly.
ended up so disoriented. printed notes but forget bring to work where i could look thru if free. went up take but no one open door for me. saw my ex-colleague & borrowed his card fr him. yet, didn't realized i oso forget my thumbdrive. only realize when i got back to d office counter & on my laptop.
nvm, luckily my spoilt hp got a copy of d partially done summary of a lecture so transfer to my laptop to do but aft work, rush up to take den rush back down for lecture. really a mad rush.
& not sure if not enough sleep or cos of d rush, got slight headache during d final lecture. actually even nw, oso got & worst is nose feel itchy & wanna sneeze at times & had sneezed a few times. mayb cos LT too cold & oso cos i sit at d counter w d cold wind constantly blowin into my face. mayb oso cos of d curse. always got 'sick' when i start sch though i had been in sch for d whole holi.
not easy. really not easy to jagar so many things. luckily my job quite easy. easy job, easy money. jus gotta commit time. & luckily d lab only extend till end of next week. shag ah... jus hope i don fall sick need to stay healthy & stay focus.
oh ya. talkin bout stayin focus, put my name for a report due on 29 sep. diff topic due diff date & i refused to get 1 which was due aft recess so tt i can stay more focus aft tt & do my necessary revision. But... another module oso have 3 reports due b4 term break. which means excludin this week, 6 more wk b4 term break & i alrdy got 4 report on hand. & there is still another 2 modules which i not sure wat will happen but it seemed like 1 of it oso got intensive presentation/discussion.
so this 1st term is gonna b real tough. nvm, look forward to d short getaway durin recess & recharge then. work hard nw to taste d sweetness ltr. & all d more, enhance tt i don wan other commitment for trg & mtg. i'm really determined to get better grades. if only they udnerstand... haiz..
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