stress

dis mornin was super rush. went to d lab cos i believed tt d graduate student would not b able to be back so early if she would come. since prof & her had asked me to look after d cells, i went back to change new growth medium for d cells but i only had at most 40 minutes & had to print lecture notes. well, i can don care since she asked me do for 2 weeks but i don wanna screw up my effort, thus, though rush, i went back.

i could actually go after lesson but tot of reports made me decided to make d rush. my report due on 15 sep ma. so no time to lose.

well, i rush not cos of class but cos of dental appt. in d end, got delay & i almost gotta b late for class & surely b nagged by d prof. he v naggy one.

anw, b4 d dentist do anything, ask him bout my pain & cfm it's due to d wisdom tooth. say it's growin slanted & cant get out & my top wisdom tooth exertin pressure so once a while will have such discomfort. say it can & may eventually b a serious pain due to inflammation & swellin of d surroundin gum. haiz...

anw, i tot of extractin it long ago. to think of it, i think hor, this tooth give me prob b4 i go back to sch. jus rmbr i told my ex-colleague b4 but always nvr do anything bout it. jus say say only but i'm really determined to get rid of it. any recommendation for cheap & gd place? sch seemed pretty exp leh. $150 - $300 wor. & apparently, he said tt d top is at d lower range while d bottom tooth is at d higher range. -.-"

i oso check on d top cos though it nvr cos discomfort, i had difficulties cleanin it cos both r slantin outwards. dentist say if i wan, he can extract both my top & bottom. both on d side tt i experience d pain. he said tt d other side can wait. but i say i think bout it. $300+$150 = $450 wor. v v hard to earn tt amt of $$ nw so if got a cheaper & better place, i will go.

anw, i doubt i wanna go back thr for wisdom tooth extraction, duno if he was rushin or wat. 1 of d equipment was hot & it burn d side of my mouth & i believe it's a blister nw. hope wont become ulcer or it'll a a long one. & realize tt sometimes while he clean, d pain i feel was fr d mirror he used to see & open my mouth. i was siam-in fr d mirror pain rather than d cleanin pain & so i doubt i would go back d next trip which was in mar. thus, i cant even rmbr when was tt appt. oops... haha... but i cant denied tt i like d feel of my tooth w/o those cavity build-up. mayb go elsewhr ba. so any recommend?

well, today, after class, i was super tempted by my friends who was gg to d archery ground to try out. it's 1 of d sports which i tot of wantin to at least try but my heart was on my report. haiz... so i decided to go hm & not join them. sorry gals. mayb cos this is my final sem to chiong, i think i'm especially stress up & constantly thinking of d reports & weightage. haiz... if can, i oso wish to join d fun & try out. i noe i may not get d chance to try out aft leavin sch but no choice. my priority is study nw.

talkin bout such priority. i'd made up my mind. if i got report, etc due-in, & had not complete, i guess i would not go for my dance trg. in d past, i always study in d bus, b4 it start, etc but i see no pt. it's makin me more tired. i rather b hm. if dear oso ard, mayb can nap a while oso since parents wont possibly say or scold me then. so if i really got tired, i can ve d chance to rest & not exertin myself mentally & physically. i noe they will bug me eventually but sorry. i wont give in. if i would, today i would go w my friend for archery.

anw, dad got me d iphone 4 on sat. i only load my sch edventure website, hotmail, yahoo mail, facebook, msn into it & nvr bother do anything or play much w it. felt it's not d right time to get d phone but i could resist d temptation to figure out & download games. a friend said tt can become 机不离手 but to me, it's jus a norm phone right nw. can u imagine, i go load my sch edventure website s 1 of d shortcut icon? crazy right? & even bout d ms office so tt i can do report, etc if needed. i think i'll 走火入魔 w studies soon but at least i got dear & friends to accompany me.

last week, had d fyp briefin & wonder if i wanna venture out, today, i had a feel tt was 60% stay cos of d convenience & reputation i'd made in my attachment lab. but oso cos i didn't really ve d time to look through other alternative lah. thr r other reasons which i tot of earlier but i cant recall them nw. mayb after i settle at least d report to be submitted v v soon b4 made further decision. i'm really racin against time.

i'm so lookin forward to d break in oct to go batam & get away fr everything & another break aft exams. i most likely wont start my fyp too too early though can choose to start early. i need a real break loh...