plans for next week

today, completed consolidatin & updatin d softcopy of d FY2008 excel file. finally. many missin info left by previous staff...

anw, tml wont b gg in cos last time my manager said in her email to eliminate d half days... & next wk, though sch haven starts, think i will work only at most 10 hrs a wk ba... cos they wanna raise budget for my salary & once sch start, i can only work max 10 hr a wk. they jus put in general in d mth of jan, feb & mar & raise budget for max 10 hr a wk for me.

if i work extra, i wont get paid... so i guess i would work max 10 hr next week. i might just go for a full day meaning 8 hours only and that's it. or maybe I would work a full day plus 2 more hours or maybe 3-4 hours to cover back the long lunch i had been takin these few days?

shall see hw next week. cos oso dunno if they will change if they realized sch haven start... if no change will accompany mum go sgh for her blood test & urine test. & most likely b meetin an 'old' friend for lunch at her workplace. heard a gd news fr her. she was pregnant w her 2nd child. her 1st gal is startin sch next wk le. happy for her. & oso try to meet uni friends for cyclin or at least a meal ba.

but i cant cfm anythin nw cos i dunno if they will change my work hour next week. esp when i'm jus done w 2008 excel file. still got 2009 & apparently i think they want me do other things oso... if limited to max 10 hrs a wk b v hard to complete... esp when sch start & ea day not tt long hr... these few days manager aka my boss not ard... so cant check & cfm... sighed...

i actually wish i no need go back sch... i wish i jus work. cont'd wat i do nw oso nvm... cos lunch means lunch, finish work means finish work. no need think bout work. no need think bout study when leave d place. but this will jus b a thots onli...

anw, if weather ok, might go for a run tml mornin... though i noe for sunday training will oso run. & till nw, i still not hungry though i ate a pc of waffle... well, not empty & yet not full. hee... shall see hw ltr. if hungry, den find things to eat ba...

waffle s dinner

though i ate proper lunch these few days, i'm still back to square one. had waffle for dinner jus nw... oops... i noe many ppl will say me but hear me out...

went to jp aft work. reach aft 6. go develop photo. went popular get double sided tape. super long queue. guess cos last 2 days of 20% discount for members with the coupon fr d bk. spent like an hr in jp. at 1st planna order cake thr but den on 2nd tots, decided not to.

sat my dad's bday & i dunno wat to get for him so decided to get him a cake since mum said 'celebrate' dis sat though his lunar bday was jus few days ago. y sat & not few days ago? cos dad comin hm earlier on sat than on weekdays & cousins b ard.

thus, decided to go lot one to order d cake in case they need at least 3 days in advance. so cant go tml. if i order at jp, den b more troublesome to go collect on sat unless i jus happen to go thr. so in d end make a trip to lot one loh even though late le.

since d cake shop got sell waffle, may s well jus get & eat thr while choosin d cake. was alrdy late. was alrdy hungry. & if i go elsewhr tabao go hm eat, b even later. & mum sure unhappy cos i eat so late. thus, to save d trouble of gg ard spendin more time outside, & to avoid my ears fr d naggin & to avoid seein black face, eatin waffle then was d best choice le.

d main issue nw is at least i ate. at least i nvr skip meal. so dun 'nag' at me. i dunno hw long a pc of waffle can last. if can, gd. if cant, mayb wait parents go to bed den go find biscuit to eat so they dun find out.

gotten results...

gotten my results... sighed... forever cannot make it...

why??? i jus dun get it. i find dis yr paper more do-able. managed to ans... managed to write... yet generally, did worst than past few sem when i got papers which i left many many blanks... those papers i really scare i cant get through but i did.

might b d bell-shaped gradin sys ba... guess to many ppl feel d same or did much better than me... sighed... it's pretty unfair... but cant do anything bout it. can only tell myself... work even harder next 2 sem... at least i clear d elective. nw left a biz elective to clear.

tokin bout elective, i actually more scare of elective than my core but it's apparently better than my core. actually, all my electives r better than my core in general. hw come? choose wrong core?

told my friend tt my grades seemed to b opp of my poly grades. pretty much opposite. my best in poly aren't my best. actually can become my worst. poly mainly 'B's & some 'A's & only few 'C's & 'D'. 'C's r mainly english based modules. nw my results mainly 'C's & 'D's & d most surprisin is my english based modules become 1 of my best grades...

y, dun ve to bother bout me. i may grumble over my grades, i ve d never give up spirit which my friend said she v 'pei fu' about. & i arent someone to trifle with. lol... nvm... like wat she said... next time can tell employer durin interview tt at least i tried to upgrade myself & at least i never even give up and strive till d end...

post x'mas task

x'mas eve watch movie till jus b4 clock strike 12 midnight & x'mas watch movie at 11.50pm... guess wat... aft all d enjoyment... was given a post x'mas task... had to battle w a cockroach... i had a lethal weapon which it cant escape & nvr escape when it had d chance to... but it's still disgustin... give me d creep... *EEEKKK*

it's dead but too creepy for me to pick & throw. so i had to share d nite in a rm w it's corpse... can i dun sleep... mum sleepin... cant help me clear... :(

hw i wish i could dun come hm but not possible... cos like tt den wont see it... but... it might 开支散叶 wor... sighed...

anw, glad i came back in time to see it & fought a battle w it. at least i'm awake. at least i can think & noe it's late & noe i shld not scream. jus imagine if i'm sleepin when it got in... if i see it den, i think i would scream le loh... cos cant think right then le ma...

thus, i can only fight it but not clear it... i hate creepy crawlers... creepy crawlers r my enemies... they r my 死穴... hw to overcome dis phobia???

different x'mas eve but more enjoyable...

i felt like i'm in wonderland for d past few days & i wished i need not go back to reality... however, reality will always strike me hard in d face... it will come no matter wat. memories of malacca is gettin further & further away & soon dec will come to an end... & another 'hell' will begin... sighed... hw i wish i can freeze d time or to forward to whenever i want...

anw, usually x'mas eve was spent w my relatives, my dad's siblings & their families. it was jus a gatherin but most or all of them b at d mahjong table or playin poker... fr young, mum refused to let me touch those. so i'd learnt to sit there & do nothing... v bored...

used to become part-time nanny for my cousins while my aunts & uncles 'played' but d kids had grown up oso & could self-entertained w their PSP, etc etc. they more tech-savy than me... so i can only say tt it's bored thr.

this yr, prob due to d 'long' weekend, they pushed d gathering back a day to x'mas day itself. thus, i had my eve free.. had dinner w grandma den went for movie w dear which ended at 2359 hr. so when d clock strike midnite, wished dear 'merry x'mas'.

s he was slightly hungry, went ard searchin for place w light supper but ended up at d coffee-shop near my place. a 24 hr coffee shop but only left d coffee stall open eventually so he had breakfast-like supper before sendin me back.

though didn't do much, it'd been a more enjoyable x'mas eve than d past but it would still come tml... will sit thr & stone s nothin to do... sianz... if i dun go, dad sure angry... if go, gotta wait for dad to decide to go den can go back cos i cant go back myself... :(

wat a wet x'mas eve mornin... gd day to sleep in but not gd for my initial plan. sighed... planna go run in mornin but it rain... guess it's tellin me i shldn't push myself to hard... cos my hip not quite in prime condition. not to d extend tt it'll hurt or so. jus noe it's not quite tt right since d trip... anw, went to bed pretty late ytd...

well, though nvr get to run, i went to trim my hair. got bit of split end since 1 or 2 mths ago but i refused to go cut cos i dun wan it to get too short. however, last nite, made up d decision to trim it since i oso need to cut my fringe. in d end, trim become cut bout 2 inches... at least didn't look tt dry than b4. but it's much shorter than wat i hope for. nvm hair will grow one. if healthy hair, will grow fast one. jus ve to be patience...

i'd learnt to try out on my hair esp my fringe... cos i know that no matter what, hair will grow. dun like it, jus let it grow & dun cut tt way again loh... lol... became more 'adventurous' but not to d extent of cutting my hair short lah... i prefer to ve long hair or my face will look v big...

anw, x'mas is comin. so i hereby wish everybody a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

got a god-daughter

last nite, received a sms fr philippines fr my cousins' 3rd maid whom we known each other as sis. she left us in 2007 s her hubby kept askin her to go back. though she left us for at least 2 yrs, she nvr forget us at all & would send sms greetings to me or to ask me to pass to my parents, cousins, etc durin our bdays, seasonal holi, mother's day, etc.

she had given birth to a 2nd daughter recently in oct & last nite she asked if i could be her daughter's godma & said tt her color & eyes r like me. i agreed though i could not do anything or wat to help them. anw, sis nvr ask me to do anything.

mayb in future, mayb aft i really started workin, i could get her add & paid her & her family a visit. saw her older daughter's photo b4 when she worked for my aunt but nvr see my god-daughter's pic b4.

her youngest daughter due date was supposed to b d same s her sis but in d end was brought forward. d older daughter was 8 this yr and was born on 18 oct. her youngest daughter was born on 14 oct this yr so she was jus 2 mth old. anw, her youngest daughter aka my god-daughter's name is Jhenica Mae.

jus nw, read news tt thr will b volcano eruption in philippines. hope it wont affect them at all. b4 sis gave birth, they alrdy suffered knee-deep flood. recently oso got tt killing thr & nw d volcano. can only send prayers to them to protect them fr all these harms... & i do miss my sis... we were v close when she was w us.

malacca trip

back fr Malacca, i missed d trip till i dreamt i was still thr...

1st day thr, w/o a decent detailed map was blur blur... but aft tt, it was ok. hotel location v gd... right in front was a megamall. nearby oso got historial & architechual site to see see look look & take pic. can walk to & reach d chinatown aka Jonker street in at most 20 mins. oso got night market at Jonker's street thr on fri to sun till 11pm. nearby oso got a few recommended gd food ard.

recommended food like satay w pineapple in satay sauce (near maritime museum), satay celup (somewhere behind d hotel which nvr get to try), teochew bak kut teh (3 streets in front of d hotel which oso nvr get to try), Nyonya chendol (d one at Formasa Chicken rice shop is nice), Nyonya Asam Laksa ('88' shop at Jonker street), Chicken rice ball (but tried the wrong shop which weren't nice, if u want, shld try d one at entrance of Jonker Street or a little further in, dont try d Fomasa Chicken rice shop one). oops... when had i become a 'mei shi zhuan jia'...

anw, i registered for my followin sem modules at d hotel. had to pay for internet access but no choice cos scare like last time, my friends cant log in. so brought laptop over. heavy sia... but i go & came back w like w/o additional stuffs & spent less than SGD 100. ok lah. cos food & transport being paid for mainly by dad.

d whole trip was ok except sometimes, either my dad or my mum become grumpy lo. & it rained when my friend said d weather was v hot & she returned a day b4 i go wor... sighed... luckily 1st day only drizzle. 2nd day only rained in late afternoon but i still went to d night market w/o my parents (not on purpose but cos dad nvr see my sms)

well, i shall try to rmbr not to try to plan for trip w parents again... esp w/o much info & detailed map... hard to explore & they not happy w this or tt. even for a RM10 river cruise per pax for 45 min oso grumble bout d price. but 1st day blur blur, dunno hw walk wor & drizzlin & they unhappy explorin by foot ma. b4 go thr, say up to me. anything oso up to me. follow me. next time, shall ask them plan themselve. research themselves. see if it's v d easy. den i shall follow them. lol...

d main thing is, overall, can b more fun for d trip but it's ok. ^.^ lookin forward for more trip to get away fr study, etc... cant wait for next exam to end on 7 may 2010 cos it would b a long holiday till 30 aug 2010. if got $$, i dun mind MIA for long... but tt's impossible... though i'm a quater pernankan, i dun ve much $$ to spend like those pernankan in Malacca where they can spent lots of $$ on hm reno, clothes, utensils, etc... they could spend yrs on hse reno lo... but i must admit d culture is v rich... too bad... no one to ask alrdy. grandpa left when dad & his siblings still v young...

survived 1.7km of run

earlier this mornin 吓到 mum cos she was engross at d kitchen basin when i walked thr to d bathrm to wash up. well, tt cos she nvr expect me to wake up mins aft she left my rm ba. oops...

anw, woke up early for a run. long long time nvr run. cos i can only run in bright daylight s parents will worry... thus, can only choose mornin or early evenin, unless someone accompany me run at night.

last time i ran in mornin cos evenin aft work, hungry alrdy so whr got energy to run. & tt meant wakin up early 7 days a wk... furthermore, d last time i ran, bump into weird muslim guy who pestered me. so to avoid him, i stopped running.

when heard my friend did go for run aft work, asked her jio me mths ago but think she was too busy and tired to go oso. so, decided to start myself. choose mornin again cos nw not everyday work. so still can run in mornin. d only pro was my runnin shoes spoilt less than a mth ago. too long nvr wear yet spoilt aft wearin.

well, d pro was solved ytd aft i bought a new pair of ELLE Active running shoes at less than $40. i dun go for higher end one lah. can wear, can run, can le. even tot of wearin d slip-on sch shoes (d type which pri sch & some sec sch gals like to wear). i noe i shld not wear tt but i survived pri & sec sch so i dun see why i cant wear tt. at initial plan was to draw & create a one-of a kind shoes to wear but i simply cant come out w any design. since i not wearin tt to run, shall cont'd to think of design for tt shoes.

enuff of crap... this mornin, aft wash-up & changed, did bit of warm-up before runnin. started fr d void deck of my blk. i knew i dun ve stamina like ages ago. so decided to start shorter distance. anw, i will change course s time goes (of course increasin distance s well). oso to avoid bumpin into same person all d time. dun wanna meet weird ppl again.

i deviate fr my initial plan of a rough measure of bout 1.2km. d last time i believed i ran oso ard 1.2km. i assume tt d other path i started off will allow me to run bit more than 1.2km but aft did a rough measurement on d map, it was bout 1.7km. i didn't noe tt path i took allow me to ran extra 400m.

k lah. at least manage to survive thru. did stop a while to transfer $ to d account i use usually to sort of prep for d next sem... if i dun transfer when i rmbr, will forget soon. esp w all d holidays.

for a total of bout 1.7km plus gg to d atm, i managed to get back hm in less than 20 mins. i noe thr will b many others who could do much better but i'm satisfied cos other than tt stop at atm, i managed to pull myself throughout d whole journey which i didn't managed to last time. but i wont push myself too hard in case i injured my hip again. i got phobia tt i might 'break' my ligament esp aft last time when i could not even stand up straight or walk upright. though i recovered, it's v v scary...

i'm still thinkin if i shld bring hp out or not. cos if i bring, den i'll ve to bring pouch & realized it's movin ard my waist. v irritatin. if i dun bring, ltr i can mati if i uncontactable by my parents... but i scare my phone dropped fr d pocket. somemore, d phone is quite long & broad except d thickness was still alright... shall think of ways to settle tt...

anw, i shall work forward to completin at least 2.4km by end of dis vacation period ba... ^.^

New love...

today, went sch to scan docs & oso to pay for staff bus. after tt edited my resume & went search for running shoes. decided to give up & if run, will wear a slip-on sch shoes which pri sch gal & even sec sch gal likes to wear. tot tt since in pri sch & sec sch i can survive PE w tt type of shoes, decided not to get proper runnin shoes

but... eventually i bought 1 at $38.35. at 1st was $59.90 and got 20% discount. though my friend got somemore discount. thus become less than $40. d brand was not d usual brand for running shoes like nike, rebok, etc... it's elle active.

well, d only thing is tt it seemed a gd deal. since i dun think i'll run tt often, d shoes i jus bought is gd enough. & i like d heels cos it's unique... ^.^ hope gettin this shoes will motivate me to run. i noe my stamina gettin weaker unlike sec sch le. though i nvr participated in sports events durin sports day, i could still make a dash (s though i'm runnin d race & sometimes even slowed down so tt it's not obvious) to those who fall. furthermore, my timin for 2.4 km aren't tt bad then. so shall train slowly w shorter distance.

oso hope running will make me healthier but i'm jus worried if it might worsen my old hip injury. recently dun feel tt norm. hope d jog will strengthen it instead of worsening it... keeping fingers crossed

bridal studio & bubble photography

today was an eventful day...

mornin, breakfast at JP
afternoon, KFC lunch & went junction 8 to find presents & changed for a photo pass for giant bubble wrappin ard us
evenin, a BBQ session

busy but fun... & while at junction 8,

when gg to search for presents, kanna stopped by ppl fr bridal studio. kanna asked again if i singaporean... oops... do i so not look like a singaporean??? anw, d person said we look v young. me ard 23 & dear ard 25. so i dun understand y they stopped us & even asked when is our ROM & actual day and asked if they would be held tgt... when asked bout occupation, dear told her tt he was in police force & i jus kept quiet & i said i yr 3 student & d person tot i graduatin soon & i jus let it b. lol... wat a lie we have said... wahahaa...

anw, aft we shopped for d presents, we went to exchange for d photo pass. 2 big kids... lol. was amazed tt thr weren't many ppl & so not many kids ard... well, we did get d photo & below is wat was typed on d inside (left side) of the photo card.

Every bubble is unique,
Every person is unique,
Enjoy your one of a kind,
Bubble photo... from Fan Yang

i loved d 1st 3 lines cos it reminded me tt everybody is diff, everybody is unique, everybody's mission & task is diff & so we ve to accept every individual for who they r.

1st day at work

jus a day immediately aft my final paper, started workin... for lunch, too lazy to walked all d way to canteen so i survived on bread again. this time not plain bread. bought sausage bun to eat instead. it reminded me of my friends who tease me ytd when they saw bread along d way... lol...

well, though i only ate d bread, in d end, my colleagues asked me eat some small 'bun' fr delifrance but i didn't take. in d end, they put on my desk... & even gave me a cup of hot tea. d tea is nice. lol... & when thr r buffet outside, they even dragged me out to eat. but i eat v little. scare i dinner cannot eat cos i dun quite eat tt much.

& i think i made many ppl confused w my status. d professors who passed by alrdy got used to me as s student cos i was a ex-staff b4. when they think they saw me in d office, they turned back & look again. lol... i think they must ve find tt i'm hauntin them... wahahaaa... previously s staff, den s student, den s a helpin in d core facilities stuff & nw in d office clearin paper work... lol...

even d manager, FN, who hire me oso got confused & asked if i wnet to d office b4 & if i noe whr d pantry & washrm r. lol... so funny. though i may not noe d sch buildin inside out, i dun think i'll get lost one loh. wahahaa... jus me alone can cos so much confusion... hee...

aft work, went lot 1 to look for travel bk on malacca but cant find... so search info online loh. oso went lot 1 to check out d myr exchanged rate. was 243+ nw... wonder whr else go gd exchange rate... i noe bpp sure less than lot 1... fr wat i noe. ard whr i stay, lot 1 has d highest previously. anw, must go change $$ soon...

finally over... had great fun w great companies...

stupid cockroach... made me so alert last nite. so so so hard to get to slp... woke up feelin extremely tired when i'd mornin paper... argh...

anw, aft paper, had busy afternoon but great fun w great companies... dear drove my friends & i to imm for lunch, go chevrons for 2 bowlin sessions den go clementi for a 4 hr karaoke session in d new partyworld.

d only prob is... got k/o in d late afternoon again... i really dislike afternoon. mayb i'm really a vampire or a zombie. dislike daytime. no lah. mayb cos i tired lah... & b start workin tml w/o break...

really regret nw... nvm... since alrdy agreed, though not right to think this way, but well, for 'money sake', shall endure...

shall oso look up on malacca trip & go check out money exchange rate soon... sighed... thr r so many things i wanna do oso... which is y i did tot of not workin. always got plans for holi but forever nvr able to do. :(

cockroach

tml is finally d last paper... guess wat... a cockroach came out to pre-celebrate my freedom a while ago... made me jumped out of d bathrm...

i still dun understand y i so big & it's so small yet i'm afraid of it... jus hope no nightmare for tonight & not too 'excited' tt i cant get to slp. tml mornin paper wor... sighed...

If...

recently on 1 of fb application sort of quiz... came across this sort qs a no of time. like, if can go back in time, when would u wanna go back to. for me i choose to stay on to build a better memories / future but ytd i suddenly tot of many 'if'...

if i'd work harder in pri sch,
if i'd not quiet-en down since p5,
if i'd choose for a transfer in sec sch,
if i'd gone for eca trg camp,
if i'd been more bold & participated in d wushu competition,
if i'd focus on 'o' rather than eca,
if i'd attended at least 1 of d 'camp',
if i'd choosen nursin s my course of study,
if i'd taken up cca in poly,
if i'd choosen to b paramedic over d lab tech job,
if i'd not learn piano yrs ago,
if i'd not join d dance gp,
if i'd not register for degree,
if i'd not taken up degree course,
if i'd not learn to b more bold & b my friend's wedding banquet emcee esp in front of my parents,&
etc etc...

wat would i b like nw? i realized tt thr is really no way to go back to d past when all these decision made. though i may ve regrets in some, i guess it's still not bad after all. at least i got to whr i m nw & r still able to survive & shld b able to... no one can escape all these decision making. d most impt is it's hw we faced it when we realized we shld ve taken d other path.

eventful sun mornin

recently my hse gettin more & more eventful.

on sat nite (shld say sun mornin), thr r indians quarrelin at d void deck... i was quite pissed off so i went to d window jus happen to see like 3 of them strugglin like in a fight or so. thr was a kid by d side oso. in d end, d guy (a man) fell backward & hit d floor hard & could not get up. seemed unconscious & d rest panick & were 'cryin' & screamin. so i call d police.

mayb u can say i k-po. but i ignore when they made lots of noise at 1+am & ignore when they fight. but when i see d guy unconsious, i cant ignore. wat if it's v serious. but while describin d prob to d police on line, d guy managed to regain consciousness & got up & they went into d void deck. of course told d police but paramedics still came.

well apparently, not only i called. got other ppl called s well. paramedic & police came but cant find d ppl so my dad & i went down & i explained wat i saw to d officer.

apparently they stayed same blk s me. in d end, d guy, d lady & d kid came down & wasn't happy that police were called. they brought d officer back to their hse & so i went back hm w dad.

& cos of tt, i only slept like 1.5 hr b4 plannin to drive my bf to go for his marathon. in d end, cos of all these events, my dad drove us thr instead. well, managed to slp another like 6 hr aft sent him thr.

even when it's daytime, my dad oso drove me thr to pick him up aft his run. in d end, he came back feelin feverish prob cos of heat stroke & got body ache fr d run.

oso nvr really tot i would study much today but i sort of studied like 2+ notes of total of 9 fr ard 7 till 10+. shall ganbatte for dis final module which is normal type of mcq. shld b ok ba. ^.^

after papers for next sem

shit... aft chattin w my friends & look at next sem exam timetable, realized tt all r afternoon papers...

i hate afternoon paper. i not a v afternoon person. recently been k/o esp durin afternoon. cant stay really active till late oso... cannot dun admit i 'old' le...

even when go karaoke w friends in afternoon, i can oso get k/o loh eventually loh...

WHY??? WHY???? WHY ALL AFTERNOON PAPERS??? *SOB*

checking out next sem modules

i really really HATE MCQs with multiple answers. so tricky... must shade all correct ans. if not no marks... sighed... well, it's better than marks being deducted... but still bad... last sem, 2 modules almost died cos of such MCQs. hope history wont repeat itself...

anw, aft today's paper, didn't started studyin for next immediately like previous papers. looked at next sem modules cos gotta choose 4 out of 8. main thing i wanna check if d no of vacancy & if can add in biz elective.

d no of vacancy v impt cos i'm scare i dunno if i'm able to go online to register myself s d time clashed w my 1st day at malacca. damn... think 2 sem ago, it clashed w my piano prac exam & my friends were unable to log-in and register for me then. if vacancy many, den at least got some time to sort out d prob.

well, aft elimination mtd, left 5 modules tt got 250 vacancies. so i guess shld b not tt bad ba... & thr is a biz elective tt can fit into d timetable. it's fundamental of management.

d course description read:
To function in an organisation, technical skills by themselves are insufficient; they have to be supplemented by management training. Success in an organisation depends as much on general management skills and understanding operational systems as on technical expertise. Hence, students need a firm foundation in management skills. This course is designed for non-business students and aims to equip them with the knowledge, skills and competence in various aspects of management, including: the role of management and managers; decision-making, planning and strategy; managing organisational architecture; managing individuals and groups; and controlling critical organisational processes.

wonder if it'll b too difficult for ppl w no biz b/g... anyone can advice??? cos i really dun wanna wait till followin sem again biz elective. if cant fit in tt timetable, den gotta fix durin fyp le. or else, must fix durin d special sem durin d final long vacantion break in 2010 durin may to aug.

anw, d sian part is, my next sem paper end on d v last day of d exam period again... y??? for all sem, it's always like tt... always end on d last day when see many ppl all finish theirs le... v sian one leh...

somemore, thr will b total of 6 papers if include d biz elective. not any better than nw... sighed...

well, tt's still far away... in a way. so back to present. 4 more days to freedom. had mornin paper. so might b gg lunch w friends to celebrate our freedom. mayb bowl or so aft tt ba... at least something to look forward to...

m i a weird gal???

ytd, adjusted my watch stripe but jus cant rmbr whr i put d rest. only rmbr jus nw & fixed & kept them tgt.

rmbr tt mum said i'm a weird pig... cos i sort of dun mind get myself 'dirty' to do all these job... climbin d stairs to change light bulb, dismantlin d lock of d letter box, dismantlin d fan to wash, takin hooks off d wall & patchin d hole left, paintin d hse, fixin d stereo sys, change watches batt, adjustin d stripes, tot of clearin d clot in d pipe under d basin, able to do some basic sewin skills, etc... she said tt she dunno if my cousins would do all these themselves... lol...

well, i shld say it's all trained by my parents. though not all they teach me but cos my dad always asked me help when he try to fix this & tt, i would look at hw he do it. tt's whr i picked up all these skills ba... also, when i was a kid, saw hw mum help ppl made clothes & made clothes for me & my doll. thus, helpin them had become my trg ground.

not only tt... i shld oso say cos i v 粗鲁... i not really those lady-like kinda gal ba... guess oso due to d nature of my dad's job. guess if not cos i was sort of fed up w my friends in pri sch for always friend or dun friend this person or tt person, guess i might not ve become such a quiet gal. i was pissed off then so decided to b neutral & keep quiet in p5. & since then, it'd become a habit of me. so i can sort of show diff personality???

haha... well, at least if can, can do thing by ownself w/o troublin others or even spend less $$ like changin watches batt. rmbr tt my friend oso once said tt i'm diff fr all her friends who r like me d only child of d family. well, guess tt cos my parents r strict & nvr spoilt me ba...

need sleep...

seldom had i got d chance to sleepin till later. but nw, i woke up cos still got exam to study & was pretty noisy... cos of d repaintin work on my blk nw... i dunno wat d hell r they doin. they keep dragging things fr 1 end to another & somemore, i'm stayin at d top floor. can hear super clearly... i could not remember or could ve forgotten tt it can b this noisy for repaintin work. d last was more than 5 yrs ago.

anw, i guess aft tml's paper, i dun care le. i would wanna sleep in on sat. hope sat not so noisy le ba... think i terribly need sleep cos even chicken essence + kopi-o dun help me at all. ytd was k/o for almost an hr in d late afternoon jus aft 3 consec days of exams.

5 of 7 papers cleared

it's d middle of d wk & exams seem never ending. sighed... at least cleared 5 out of 7 le.

ytd halfway thru my paper, felt not so well. so 30 min aft i finish, i left. didn't wanna stay long in air con cos like gonna runnin nose again. at least nw ok. *phew*

oso luckily last nite i took d bread & keep in my bag or today no lunch for me b4 i go for my exam... brought 3 pieces of bread but only ate 2 cos not hungry & jus dun feel like eatin. even mornin oso find d noodle too much... anw, my friend finished up d other piece of bread cos she nvr had lunch. ask her eat in case got too hungry durin exam.

well, i'm countin down to 'freedom'... still got almost a week... nvm... it'll come eventually. jus hope time pass faster...

today is a long day in sch. been out since 7.40am & exam only start at 5 & end at 7.30pm.

for whole day, b survivin on my last stolen packet of biscuit & 2 pcs of stolen bread. had really become a thief this exam period. oops... pls dun call d cops...

wonder if thr r some more biscuit to 'kope' fr hm. if not, will ve to figure hw wat to sneak into lib for lunch le... cant possibly tabao proper lunch into d lib wor... i not so 'dan da bao tian'...

mayb can go out earlier to coffeeshop opp bus pick up pt to tabao 包. but... it's b cold & 'hard' aft bein in d air con lib for hrs which is y biscuit & white bread is better fr hm is better.

anw, i jus need 4 more days of 'lunch'... so if no small packet of biscuit or white bread, den i guess i shld 'jiang jiu' w d hard & cold 'bao'... at least better than nothin.

& d chicken essence really does no effect on me. even when i 'coupled' w thick kopi-o. i can still get k/o aft i study a while... napped twice le (~15 min each)... sianz... think i'll stop studyin & napped another 15 min b4 gg for exam ltr. need to read research journal article & do dunno wat. sighed... hope wont oversleep. mayb ask my friends call me. guess i shld... in case i k/o till deep slp...

血光之灾

it really seemed to b a wk of hell... so many things happen jus in a day... early mornin, start of my crazy wk of 4 papers in 5 days. tt's alrdy madness...

den back hm, while i havin my exam, someone 'flew down' fr d stairs beside my hm except dunno which floor. suspect was lvl 7 or so while i stayed at lvl 9. mum saw d corpse when she got back.

& guess wat... a while ago, not long aft dad sent cousins hm, mum got a call fr aunt sayin 1 of my cousin fall & hit d head & was bleedin much... parents rushed over & mum jus called sayin they sendin him to KK for stitches & x-ray...

so many 血光之灾... twice in a day... well, if include thurs, think 3 血光之灾 le. cos tt day got dried spots of blood at d lift lobby outside my hse & blood stain in d lift. wat's wrong??? pretty scary loh... *shivered*

jus heard fr mum tt someone attempt to b superman today at my blk. d person had alrdy 'flew' down when my mum returned w my cousins & thr were police ard. my cousins almost went forth to see wat happened but my mum chased them into d lift. wat will i do if i'm hm then? will i b scare? or will i go down & try to help d man? anw, i cant b hm at tt time. was havin exam in d mornin ma. sighed...

rmbr tt mayb a yr plus ago, when my dad drove me to work at d clinic, passed by a lorry which d driver had heart attack & passed away. my dad sort of knew d person but we nvr tot something was wrong. i did think back & wonder when d uncle had heart attack. if my dad & i stopped & check, would he still b alive?

well, life is so unpredictable. so fragile tt it can scare me at times... i oso did wonder if i had chosen to take up nursin s my course in poly or if i had chosen to b a paramedic aft poly graduation, hw would i view death when i face it right b4 my eyes esp for d 1st time. i bet it would affect me somehow.

anw, y is my blk so eventful one??? ppl treatin d stairway s toilet, s bathrm, to drink, to gamble, to dye hair & tt day even got spots of blood at d lift lobby & even in d lift & nw, someone 'flew' down... it seemed to b gettin more & more unsafe s time passed. must b alert & b more careful when i go out & go back. sighed...

dis wk is a hellish wk... 5 days got 4 papers. can go nuts... anw, d wk of hell officially commences early this mornin at 9am. dad bought chicken essence for me ytd & mum said it'll really help but it doesn't seemed so on me leh.

coffee, tea & dis chicken essence nvr seemed to able to keep me awake. on d way to sch, followin dad's car, i almost doze off le loh... & somemore, i went to bed at 10++ ytd. but i do appreciate my dad's effort to try to help me b awake.

& dunno y. mayb too stress & tired? been havin headache once a while for days le... not those super jialet kind tt needs pain killer. jus feel bit uncomfortable but i cant slp thru cos need to study... but i did slept till almost 10 last sat. luckily dad not hm or ltr he angry again... *phew*

well, 1 more paper down aft clearin 2 exactly a wk ago. thr r another 3 more dis wk & i bet i shld b in holi mood by end of dis wk. thr r many many ppl who alrdy completed all their papers for dis sem loh. while i not even halfway cleared... so far only 3 down & 4 more to go...

shall mug nw & tml for d wed paper though tml oso got another paper. but tt paper is based on english & clear mind & so cant do much study. but i super dun like d time of tt paper. fr 5 - 7.30. not here not thr. go back sure v hungry & no energy to study oso. luckily followin day not mornin paper or i can die.... den shall study for fri paper on thurs.

anw, think tml might ve to go canteen see if got any light food to eat at ard 4pm tml b4 i go for d paper. can't possibly survive on a small pack of biscuit for lunch in d lib & go for d paper. stomach sure make lots of noise one.

tml 5-7.30 paper, wed 1-3.30, fri 2.30-5 and finally tue 9-11.30. so wed & fri oso must think of hw to settle lunch. those timin, canteen sure pack. hope got white bread at hm to steal ba. ;p

last 2 papers r mcqs. d last one is d normal type of mcq w/o marks deduction & it's 1 of d modules i managed to understand & was wide awake durin lecture. so tt's y i say aft fri will sure b in holi mood le. hw i wish fri come soon!!! if can, let it b fri tml ba...

paranormal activity

it's fri... & it's a public holi. spent it at hm s usual. & thr was time when i felt bit weak & was tremblin & jus b4 lunch, outside d kitchen, sudden 'black out' for a split sec. prob due to imbalance of ear fluid due to sudden standin up & walkin to d kitchen. luckily jus for split sec only & nvr really black out or it would scare d hell out of 3 persons at hm. think it's been a long long time since i like tt le. last time was when i was in poly yr 3??? cant really rmbr le. & a while ago, got bit of throbbin headache. guess i shld go slp asap...

anw, jus nw, watched 'paranormal activity' online. found it creepy yet interestin esp d last 10-15 mins. it's a true life story unless someone fake it. a story pieced fr video footage fr a couple yrs ago over ard 20 nites & sadly, i think both died. guy killed by gal & gal shot by police.

beginnin was kinda slow. esp for d filmin durin daytime. but d last short part was diff. when d 'board' whr ppl used to communicate w spirit moved by itself & burnt itself, when d door moved & even slam by itself, when 'something' seemed to crawl under d blanket, when there were powdered footprints into d rm, when the gal was dragged down fr d bed & got pulled to another rm down d hallway by no one visible, when d gal was in 'trance' & dunno wat she was doin, etc. (sry, all sequences might b jumble up)

d part whr d board moved by itself & esp d part whr d gal was dragged down from bed & to d other rm was d most powerful one. i think those who r scared of such 'other world' shld not watched esp my cousin who jus finished her 'o'. might give u nightmares or u might even b scared to go to bed...

usually, i always watched horror movies alone in my rm s no one in my family likes to watch such genre of movies. used to it already. at most 'jumped' when d ghost or wat suddenly appeared. but this did give me d creep (since a long time ago cos of 'd ring' whr sadako crawl out fr a well & then out fr d tv). when i saw d 'something' seemed to crawl under d blanket & it made me look back at my bed & blanket & made me wonder if i would 'dare' to go to sleep ltr on cos i sleep alone since i got no sibling to accompany me. anw dun think tt might happen ba.

d door tt moved & slam & movin board could be an effect made w 'invisible' fishing thread tied to d door or d board. but wat bout those footprints, movin blankets & esp when d gal was being dragged off... wat explanation could thr b? i wonder...

if u said d gal was tied by d 'invisible' fishin thread at her feet & hand as she was dragged off, hw come thr aren't any sign of being tied & pulled. thr should ve tighten line on d feet & hand wor.

thus, i can say tt this movie successfully pump adrenaline into my blood stream for d last part. & it still made me wonder wat 'scientific' explanation thr could b. i noe such activities may not b able to b explained all d time so this show is indeed creepy... *shivered*

but i would still b interested to watch more of such 'real-life' movies if any. i rmbr once i saw a video footage on youtube tt a 'ghost' appeared in a lift & was caught by d cctv. i always wonder hw 'they' co-exist w us, y some can see 'them' while others dun, y 'they' exist, hw 'they' exist, hw 'they' could harm us, etc etc...

this show oso made me rmbr tt once i dreamt of my late grandma a couple of yrs ago. she's someone whom i nvr see before & yet she was standin so life-liked, so 3-D right in front of me when i only see her pic b4. it was a creepy dream esp when i noe she was alrdy not ard.

oso rmbr bout d yellow tower at east coast park which was said to be haunted accordin to an email i received when i was still in poly. tt time, i was holdin on to a cheap camera working w films. dad took pic of d tower but i noe it's supposed to b haunted & was worried tt dad would anger those spirit. in d end, it turned out tt those few pic could not be developed s nothing was exposed on d negative. i oso rmbr tt d day when i collected my photos after developin them, my rm light spoilt & i was watchin a horror show screened on tv while viewin d newly developed photos. felt eerie then.

though i like watchin horror shows or such genre, i shld not say i not scare of 'them' or not believing in such. jus dun think too much bout it & dun think 'they' will harm me if i nvr do anything bad or wrong ba.

20091126 - random

time passed & it's d 3rd day studyin in lib aft d start of my papers & guess wat. my 3 pcs of bread r still in my bag. think they shld b squashed by nw. oops... ytd only ate a packet of biscuit s i was too engross till i nvr notice d time & was not hungry. actually tot of skippin lunch alrdy since i was not hungry & somemore it was gettin late but i still ate d biscuit. in d end, i took late dinner cos mum chatted non-stop w me aft i reached hm... -.-'''

for d last 2 days, i been wearing long sleeves tee s last wk, due to d rainy weather, it was rather cold in d lib. in d end, last 2 days, there was no rain so wasn't tt cold in d lib & mum laughed at me. today, saw tt it was cloudy till 6pm fr NEA website & wore sleeveless top but mum took out her bedsheet to wash. when she did tt, it would usually rain. hope today wont happen though i got cardigan but it doesn't help much...

& d queue outside lib seemed to get lesser. is it cos many ve alrdy finish their papers??? gd for them cos thr r still more than 10 days for me till my last paper end. i still ve 5 more out of 7 loh... wished it would come to an end soon though i would ve to chiong & end up w nightmares...

well, tml is a public holi but due to exams, thr is no such thing s public holi... if i dun ve exam, would ve taken up a dance proj but i decided to back out since next wk got too many papers le. was a mass dance where all of us in d dance gp would b involve. it'd been a long time since i was given or was involved in dance performance le. think d last time was end of last nov right aft my exams. almost a yr ago le.

dec oso got another dance proj but who was involved was not cfm yet. but i noe i oso wont be able to cos i was still at malacca on d day of performance. anw, dance proj oso means additional trg on weekday nites and sat. so it might still b too taxin on me if i'm involved (but i wont be).

toilet flooded for a short while...

realized tt recently, like got many things to post bout... previously, light in my rm died. a while ago, my kitchen toilet jus flood... water kip flowin into d tank non-stop till it over-flow.

wash washin my face then & had no specs on. heard water flowin unlike usual. believed got leak but cant see cos no specs. was a blind piggy. tot burst pipe or so & use hand to over all d pipe below d sink but no water flowin out.

i oso tot if it's d water tank but nvr feel any water leaking out fr tt side till i go over & see d other side. water showered out like fr d shower-head jus at 1 side. weird so i open up & see d tank. realized d water was overflowin but there is a pipe where d extra water will flow into. tt's y causin d leak only at 1 side.

i off d tap switch & check d stopper. seemed alright so i on d switch & test d flush a couple of time & it was workin fine alrdy. weird... at 1st was sleepy le loh. cos of this stupid flood. nw much more wide awake. argh... of all time. when i wanna sleep then flood. sighed...

anw, shall monitor & see hw. will tell mum to monitor tml when she's hm. if cannot, must tell dad le. cos it's beyond my limit le. i dunno hw to change d stopper. lol... well, i shall force myself go sleep le lah...

studious me...

jus nw, reach d bus-stop early so i flipped thru my notes till i nvr notice my friend was thr alrdy. tt's wat happened when i get too engross... ah yan, sry!!! hee...

anw, she said she almost nvr notice & recognize me cos i looked quite studious... is tt gd or bad??? hmm... most prob cos today i wore d blue specs + tied up my hair + jus wear a long pants & long sleeve tee + had notes laid on my lap. haha... actually b4 she said tt, i did tot so too when i was in d washrm earlier on. well, tot d weather b wet ma. den lib b v cold... so i wore like tt loh. cant wear short pants oso ma. cos i took d staff bus. whr got staff wear short pants to work one. & if wear skirt, gonna sit really well or will 走光. so limited choice of clothes to wear ma.

well, i guess it's a gd thing. at least i do look studious durin these exam period. if not, den i think jialet le loh. think if so, i think i can jus stay hm & dun go take exams le. lol...

mission impossible...

so much tok this mornin bout bread stealin, eatin bread & '减肥'... it seemed like a mission impossible esp for '减肥'... lol...

went out of sch jus nw for lunch. had bak kut teh instead of my 3 pcs of plain bread... tt's y it is relatively mission impossible esp when dear ard. he knew i stole 3 pcs of plain white bread fr hm for lunch but when he got few hr to spare jus nw, he came to pick me out for lunch, send me back to sch den go back to work again. thanks!!!

he said i'd been survivin too much on bread le (cos last fri ate 2 pcs of plain bread & ytd oso ate bread s lunch). oops... haha... at least i nvr survive empty stomach or on biscuit like last sem...

anw, my 3 pcs of bread shall become my lunch for tml. i like v v d 省 loh. jus 2-3 pcs of bread can last me for days... but i nvr 省 on purpose one. hee...

official bread thief of d hse???

oopss... had i become an 'offical bread stealer' of d hse??? lol...

yup... i 'stole' d plain bread at hm again last nite though i was 'drunk' w tireness. was a 'drunk, bread robber'... lol... last tue, 1st time & tt 2 pcs of bread last me till fri. no lah. i dun mean i eat 2 pcs of bread s lunch for 4 days. haha... i only ate it last fri cos previous few days nvr eat d bread & by fri, d bread was pretty squash...

2 nites ago, mum bought bread again in case dad hungry at nite cos we ate dinner relatively early tt day. so last nite, i went to take bread again. took it when parents in bed cos cant let them noe i survivin on biscuit or bread in sch... or u can see another 'murdered news'... i'll b dead if they noe... tt's y i say i'm a bread thief. do it only when parents in bed. so unless u wan me dead, if not, pls keep this to urself... haha...

this time took 3 pcs. so can last me for 6 days? nope. i not so 省 lah. & wont 虐待自己 oso la. tt's y took 3 pcs of bread or ppl'll say i 减肥 again. mayb wat my friends said is true. dun believed till today wore a pant i got yrs ago. was usually pretty tight (sometimes gotta breath in to button) but nw, no need. oops... even last wk, d pants tt button came off in sch was bit loose rather than jus fittin. mayb i could even wear back my pri sch, sec sch & older type of sjab uniform w/o any 'sweat'. could wear previously but was bit too tight... mayb can try someday if i v bo-liao??? wahahaaa....

oh ya. mum not well. last nite gonna no voice & yet she simply dun wanna rest her throat. jus wanna tok & tok. sighed... told her to rest her throat, she dun wan. say if she dun tok, will die... -.-''' sometimes she can jus repeat her story again & again loh. asked her see doc, she oso dun wan. so stubborn...

anw, today has such a nice weather to slp in & i still no mood to start studyin but cannot la. so i'm back to d lib & again, saw d big crowds at d entrance. at least nw not s k/o s ytd (for nw)... even FN comment tt i looked v tired ytd when she saw me right aft my 2nd paper & said tt i shld rest today rather than comin in early to sch to study. i wish i could but still got 5 more papers.

got 5 papers within 9 days and bout 6 days b4 d real hell begins cos 4 of which is within 5 days. luckily actually can say only got papers tt need to study on alternate days. d other 1 just need a clear mind to read & understand d articles on d spot & do watever needed to & oso relied on my strength of english (which sad to say, aren't strong...) cant do anything bout tt anyway...

jus hope i can chiong d 3 modules nw s planned. at least, last wk, i managed to go s planned. so if dis wk can go s plan, den shld b not so bad ba. i dun mean i'll score. but at least can scrape thru??? keepin fingers crossed...

batt flat jus aft 1st day of exams...

d battles commenced at 0900 exactly today... within 6.5 hrs, cleared 2 papers w jus slightly more than an hr break in btw...

shld say do-able but still ve to hope tt not many ppl find it easy or i'll b right at d end again due to bell-shape curve... for both core & elective modules today. esp elective.

actually not 1st time worried bout elective. cos of d s/u option, if get s = satisfactory, den wont need retake & wont affect gpa even if it's a 'C' (though we wont get to noe). but if get a 'D', though pass, it'll b graded s u = unsatisfactory. thus,ve to retake. so jus pray hard tt i dun get push to d back cos of d bell-shape curve...

last nite went to bed early. this mornin, felt refreshed. & nvr had difficulties gg to slp like last few sem. but durin journey to sch, started to feel k/o. was ok lah. not k/o to d extent of cant think.

aft 2 papers end, was tired mentally alrdy but still managable till 8+... really k/o totally. when i got up, got feelin of high & floatin with not much energy. & when i stood up, i jus wanna sit back down again & feel like lyin back down to sleep. i knew i would b tired aft today's 2 papers. but jialet leh... jus 2 papers alrdy can make me so 'drunk'... luckily d next paper tt will come is followin week... but still gotta start studying.

wont b stayin hm to study. cos if i stay hm, mum wont b able to come back s she oso dun wan cousins to play till disturb me. anw, hm too much distraction so still gotta wake up early. at least will push myself wake up early & study. but i do feel like stayin hm & 'nua' for a day... NO NO NO!!! i must not get tt idea... jus another 15 more days to d end... hang in thr. & i regretted havin agreed to start work d day immediately aft my papers end. hope i still got d energy then...

can only say, 'i'm flat'... batt flat...

random - hp, paintball, sport shoes, joggin

hp seemed to b ok aft actin weird over bout 24 hr period. tt nite, it deleted all of my sms history w/o seekin my permission & leavin no trace and followin nite, it resend 1 sms to me. luckily nw nvr act strange again. this phone not even 1 yr old leh...

well, i noe my mobile plan only end by end of next yr but i did check out d student plan but found tt it's not applicable for me for thr is an age limit. so i guess i shall stick on to my current plan ba. didnt check on purpose cos thr is still another yr till my mobile plan end. jus happened to see a link & found tt d students plan seemed attractive.

anw, today, went to sg discovery ctr. not to d discovery ctr itself but for d paintball. due to d bad weather... cant proceed. sad... but we were allowed to try d stimulated shootin for free. i v 'sua ku' lah. nvr held d pistol (p226) or rifle b4. found out tt they were pretty heavy. & need practice to b able to aim well and managed to shoot bout 7-8 targets with each weapon. at least nvr get zero score & it was quite interestin. a new experience. at least nw not so 'sua ku'. it reminded me of my uni friend, C. think if play w her, sure lose one. well, today oso cant win lah. cos was w my bf's friends with only 3 gals includin myself in a big gp of 10 odds.

& guess wat. think long time nvr wore my sport shoes le. it gave way jus nw. luckily was alrdy below my hse when it gave way. s i dun really exercise, bought this cheap sport shoes w no brand yrs ago. tt time, i did jog every wk but aft bumpin to a weird malay guy, & havin to wake up early daily, i gave up joggin eventually. jus when i tot i could try joggin closer to hm dis comin dec holi when i not workin, my shoes gave way. well, at least a cheap pair of shoes last me for a no of yrs le. haha... shall source for a new pair soon so i can jog dis comin holi to train my stamina, to b healtier & hopefully can strengthen my right hip ligament & not worsenin it. shall monitor & see 'if' i really get to start joggin.

my initial plan was if i nvr work dis holi, i'll start jog d small round of my neighbourhood den progress to d external round ard my neighbourhood. last time, i went to jog near my friend(s)' place w each round i think at most 300 m. nw, i cant estimate d distance le. nvm lah. though may jus able to run a short distance by end of dis yr, tt's if i can motivate myself to do so. most impt is i must motivate myself. lol...

beginnin dis yr, initially still got go swim w my friend almost every wk but in d end oso nvr go. oso asked her jio me to jog if she go but think she oso got too busy. shall start myself & not wait for ppl jio me. i jus tot i'll b more motivated if i got company and lesser chance to meet weird ppl. anw, will progressively changed my joggin route & time or day to jog not fixed dependin on when i not workin. so dun think will meet weird ppl lah. jus ve to motivate myself will do. haha... always easier said than done...

being kiasu???

back to study in lib. ytd nvr came so dunno hw d queue & scene were like aft lib opened.

today seemed better. lesser ppl than wed & though no one ran today, thr r a couple of students who half-ran up d stairs... r they kiasu & stress or m i too relax??? i was strollin slowly up to get a place to sit while they r rushin up or down.

will thr b time tt i might get influence by them & become so kiasu oso??? hope not... sg is alrdy a fast-pace country. y d rush & stress when certain things can b done at a much relaxin state? of course when thr is d need, den rush la. if not jus take it slow ba. y 虐待自己???

anw, think today i will finish up d 2 slices of plain bread i 'kop' fr hm 2/3 days ago. checked d exp date ytd & saw tt it's tml so still can eat. d only prob is tt d 2 slices of bread r squashed & 'distorted'. lol... however, still edible lah so long s not expired & no mould. i v 'shui bian' w food one.

anw, 3 more days to start of exams, 18 days to final papers & < a mth to malacca trip. cant wait for exams to end. at least b gd to fast forward to 14 days ltr cos d final paper shld b much much more managable than d rest. anw, 14 days more means 'jus 2 weeks' (to cut d figure small). lol... ganbatte!!!

tt day, found out d weather forcast for these few days in malacca. it's wet weather with thunder. hope by d time i go, weather b gd. & heard 2nd recommendation for d chicken rice balls.... shall do research aft my exams...

changed light bulb

early this mornin, climbed up high. lol. to change d light bulb lah. cos d previous bulb went haywire on me last night... 无药可救 so i dump it away le... wahahahaa...

workin in d dark...

i am workin in d dark rite nw. i noe it's dark outside but it is in my rm oso. bout an hr ago, my rm light flicker once. nw, it's non-stop. dunno if it's cos of d light bulb or d 'starter' or watever u call tt. at least tt's wat my dad called it.

i managed to find a spare new starter in 1 of my tool-boxes. well, not quite my tool-boxes la. shld say my dad's but nw was sort of re-pack & kept by me. lol...

however, i could not find any spare bulb in d drawer i used to keep in d livin rm. ya. it's me again. haha... i'm sort of d person who kept such things, in another words, 管家妹??? dun laugh, i'm d youngest at hm so still can treat myself s '妹' rather than '婆'. & cant see any in d store esp when d store's really packed.

since i cant find, i wonder if tml mornin d shop b opened for me to get when i go buy breakfast den can change. if not, shall do it aft i got hm in d afternoon ba. must changed or hw i study... i noe i shld study in study rm lah but i prefer to be in d comfort of my own rm...

almost sprain my ankle...

went for a psychology paid study jus nw & on d way back to lib, almost sprain my right ankle. luckily nvr or d $$ oso cant even cover d med expense... *phewed*

well, not d $$ issue la. it's exam comin, dun wanna injured myself...

exams fever

saw d maddness of d exams fever kickin in early in d mornin... yes! it's MADDNESS!!! -.-'''

d queue outside lib b4 d openin hr is not progressively increasin but rather it is exponentially increasin. ytd & d day b4 was more or less d same except tt thr were more ppl waitin outside d lib than mon. however, today's queue was really crazy. i think it might get worst s days goes by until d last few days ba... well, it's wat i expected s it had been d same previous sem but it's still to 夸张 alrdy.

tt's not d worst of d exam maddness. d worst thing was tt for d 1st time despite d fact tt i did went to d lib to study last sem oso, i saw a no of ppl runnin a race, dashin into d lib once it's opened. i understand tt they want to get a seat but d no of ppl queuein is not to d extent tt they wont get any seat at all loh. even if they could not get d seat tt they would prefer, they would still b able to get other seats ma. so is thr such a need for d rush???

d scene b4 my eyes made me dunno to laugh or to cry... they were carryin big bags (some backpack, slingbag, etc) and they looked quite 'cartoon' when they made the dash which made me feel like laughin but i ended up shakin my head. i bet d librarians would ve seen such a crazy scene too.

y did i say i wanna cry? it's cos wat i seen made me more stress over d exams & i really hate it... i dun wanna get nightmares over studies again... exams haven start & last nite i alrdy had sleepless nite. stayed up till quite late last nite cos jus cant fall asleep. & guess wat... i ended up hypothesizing experiment on hw to characterize certain type of cells durin embryonic development... hw weird. i nvr even study tt development bio module for d last 2 days & yet my mind autorun d program for d module. had to scold myself & forced myself to get to sleep though it didn't help much.

i'll nvr ever put myself in dis shoe ever again aft i graduate. i rather picked up other short courses to upgrade my skills, etc, rather than tryin to upgrade 'academically'. it had gone beyond my threshold limit alrdy & i jus ve to pray hard i dun end up in IMH by d end of my 4 yrs course. T.T

i think i shld give up tryin to stress myself over d type of degree i would get eventually. cos i realized for d past few sem till last nite, i ve been slpin & do tut in dream, wakin up in middle of d nite thinkin i'm late for exam, havin slpless nite over exams, wakin up wonderin if i need to go sch, wakin up wondering wat to study/revise next when exams alrdy ended, etc...

but of course if can, 2nd class would b d best & b a miracle if i can get. it's still an aim to work forward to. w my current grade, if can get d 3rd class alrdy gd enough le. anw, jus hope i can get through this final 2 yrs smoothly will do. so long s dun fail den gd enough le even if i jus get a degree w/o an honor. if i push myself too hard, i really think i'll end up in IMH.

i shldn't ve cont'd on for dis degree. i dun mind being a master-of-none or to put nicely, jack-of-all-trades. at least i'm well versatile. & capable of do more things. i dun see hw dis degree further enhance my academic knowledge for it's makin me more stress... anw, since i'm in dis & had been my 5th sem and thr r 'jus' 3 more sem to go, i'll cont'd to persevere on. 'jus' 3 more sem aft this is jus a way to console myself.... sighed... T.T

hang on... 20 more days to temp freedom... 真是个好漫长的20天... 可一定要努力.不然就不只要熬多3个学期了... *touched wood*

bad dream... i'm scare! T.T

woke up rmbr-in i got a really bad dream jus b4 i woke up. *shivered*...

almost become like this -> T.T but at least i knew it was jus a dream (although couldn't really rmbr d dream).

not a smooth day yet not a really bad day...

didn't quite had a great start for today. woke up 'limpin' so in d end, i go back on my words. nvr go get bread or something to smuggle into d lib for lunch. thus, i survived on biscuit again. oops... luckily i got put biscuit in my bag as backup... or i'll b fastin le...

& guess wat... d button for d pants tt i wore to sch today got loosen & dropped... ya. i was alrdy in sch. no pants or skirt to change. i v long nvr wore tt pants le & this happened to me... sighed... d pants was alrdy much loose than d last time i wore cos i rmbr d last time, i can only tighten a bit of d stripe behind. luckily i can tighten to d end nw & it can last me d whole day in sch w/o droppin down... or i might b in 1 of d news in d next chronicle (sch newspaper) w title prob like, 'gal study till pants dropped'... =X

i oso had plan to mayb buy a small loaf of bread aft i go hm via d 'sch' bus. gettin bread for lunch in case i nvr go in d mornin again. i noe my feet still hurt but mayb got used to d pain le (habituation). so managed to walk better. tt's y tot of alightin earlier to d ntuc to get d bread but in d end, plan disrupted again cos of d weather.

so today haven been a smooth day for me but ok lah. cant say a really bad day... jus hope my feet will get better...

haunted by d effect of runnin w slippers.

ah....

woke up haunted by d after effects of runnin w slippers... it's worst than ytd esp on my right sole. sighed... limped to d bathrm jus nw & slowin adaptin to it so nw nvr limp tt obvious le. mayb ytd trg did use d muscle thr so tt's y it hurt more nw.

v sian loh. cos i still gg sch wor... not a gd decision to stay hm cos cousins b hm. guess gotta 'limp' thr. hope it gets better s time pass den wont 'limp' back. hopefully...

not in optimal condition...

went back for my dance trg aft givin a miss cos unwell last wk. early mornin, 'mopped' aka wiped d floor. either cos of air con or cos i still not fully recover, felt 闷闷的 durin trg but was better aft d air con was adjusted so most likely cos of air con. but shld b cos i not fully recover, not much strength & stamina durin d trg oso & v hard to concentrate & learn d dance of like 20 eighths. anw, oso cos of my right hip lah. morning whole right leg felt like 酸酸的...

anw, i still suffered fr d aftermaths of d ~20 mins run in slippers fr sch to lib & back. when i wore slippers out today, my sole (bottom of my feet)were in pain. much more than i walked barefooted. luckily today didn't did much jumps or tip toe or i think i'll b of much worst state during trg but it does affect me somehow. jus hope it'll get better...

so in conculsion, today's trg didn't go tt well for me cos i not at d optimal condition to 'perform' like i used to do (esp yrs ago). 1 word to describe me during trg, 'dead'... lol...

oh ya. it's mon tml... think cousins b hm... so will go sch study... must try get some buns or bread fr coffeeshop b4 i take bus to sch. if cant, nvm, got stock-up biscuit in my bag. oso got green tea to make w d 'hot' water fr d water dispenser in d lib if it gets too cold. cant drink too much or i'll get leg cramp in middle of night again.

& i guess i might get another $5 in near future cos i signed up a psychology study on virtual reality in sch & got it. always couldn't sign up for studies like this cos it's a paid study and many poor students like me ard to sign up. lol... d study was on wed btw 9.40 to 10.10 so mayb i shall go submit my lab report on wed mornin b4 gg for my paid study. ^.^

studyin away fr hm is a gd choice...

jus a short while alrdy told me tt i make a right decision to go out of hm to study for my upcomin exam.

my cousins jus nw played till pretty noisy & mum played her CD loud s usual. & cos i need to study for my exam, oso can hear my mum grumble & shoutin at my cousins... sighed... so i'd closed my door & plug ear phone in my ears. thus, away fr hm is d best choice to study ba. jus tt gotta wake up v early & no proper lunch. anw, even if study at hm, if mum comin back late, may ve pretty late lunch oso. so next wk for term break, i cfm b gg study most likely in sch lib...

cold & tired in lib...

today had been a wet day. was rainin like non-stop durin d daytime esp while i was in sch lib...

didn't managed to grab a sandwich to sneak into d lib s my lunch & so i survived on a pkt of biscuit. i noe i shldn't b but jus say i simply plain lazy to go out and grab sandwich again. anw, was stuck at d final bit of my lab report den due to an annonymous protein but i found something tt might b relevant & used it in my report eventually so i shld say i'm done w my report? unless thr is error tt needs to b edited. i actually gave myself till end of d wk to complete d report but i'm glad i got it over & done w... thus, i'm ahead of my study plan for d upcomin exams... hope i will cont'd to proceed on at such steady pace...

well, next wk, b4 i go sch, i guess i'll either grab some buns fr d coffeeshop or i would ve to survive on biscuit again. & tt'll most likely b d case for d next few wks.

anw, today, due to d wet weather & prob enhance by d lack of proper lunch, it was cold in d lib & i'd to admit it was tiring to wake up early & try to chiong all d way, sittin in a small 'cubicle'. cant really stretch myself. hope next few wks wont b tt cold ba... mayb shall bring d pkt chrysanthamum tea or green tea to mix w hot water to drink den wont feel tt cold ba... dun take milk so no coffee, milo, or horlick for me.

2 job opportunities for dis dec break... wow...

ytd was finally d 'official last day' w lessons for dis sem but today, i still wake up at ard 5.45 to ve breakfast w parents & come sch s usual.

decided to come & cleared up my final pcs of lab report so i can embark on studyin/revision asap though dis sem though i got d 'luxury' of a study wk unlike d past 2 yrs.

wanted to grab a sandwich & sneak into d lib for lunch but thr was none. shld ve buy 1 or 2 buns at d coffeeshop opp my bus pick-up pt jus nw. nvm la. at least got a pkt of biscuit in my bag though i shld not b eatin tt cos haven quite recover.

well, jus nw, chat w my finance manager, FN, again & she asked if i wanna work in dec. told her mayb 2 - 3 days a wk only & she was ok w it. wow... & when she knew d rate i got fr helpin d maintenance side, she even said she will give me tt too though it was higher than her initial plan and asked me to let her know d dates i'll b available. i'm so fortunate... hee...

however, i jus opened my email & found tt d other person, A, whom i help for d maintenance side oso asked if i would b free to help out durin d dec break and said tt timin is flexible... oops... dilemma...

A said he dun mind hirin me dis holi durin my last few days at work last time but nvr cfm till nw & i nvr ask cos at 1st no intention of workin. & FN cfm w me earlier than him. so i guess no choice but to reject him ba. mayb tell him next long break i can help & will help if he is ok ba. or worst still, i help both but lesser days for ea but think b hard. cos i think i max will only work 10 days (includin 2 half-days) in dec ba. shall see hw it goes...

oso dunno if FN is alright w d dates i'm available. i alrdy max out dates i dun mind workin le & even started d day immediately aft my final paper. if not, mayb i check w A? but i alrdy replied him le. shld ve waited till FN cfm d dates w me... 'shi che'... sighed... nvm la. at most no work loh.... dis work will give me bit of extra $$... let fate decide ba... ;p

sotong me almost lose my thumbdrive containin precious info again...

today, almost lose my thumbdrive again. aft mornin lect, went to lib & i spent ard 2 hrs doing part of my lab report (completed 1 of 4 main pages) & guess wat. s i was rushin off, i forgot bout my thumbdrive & only realized hrs ltr when i was alrdy in d last lect of d day.

i dashed off immediately & ran all d way fr my sch to d lib cos i dun wanna lose my report & other impt docs & luckily i managed to get it back. i ran thr & half ran back within less than 20 min. long time nvr run le wor. & somemore, i ran w slippers. so in d end, pain lah... & was sweatin when i got in d LT. but d pain was gone nw but leg a bit jelly jelly lah... & s i haven recover fully, cough once a while aft i got back but luckily was ok soon aft...

ytd, i jus tot of mayb go for mornin jog durin my holi (tt's if i not workin)to try to strengthen my stamina & hope tt it can help strengthen my right hip ligament. i'd been tryin not to agitate it but at times, it will still come & haunt me somehow. anw, d chinese physician i went to mths ago said tt it's ok to jog. jus tt i got no chance for me go jog & i cant jog at night lah. so if i not workin, mayb can go jog. well, it's jus a thoughts & didn't noe jus aft tt thoughts, i'd to run alrdy (to d lib).

ran cos d prof alrdy reached & class b startin oso lah. so jus wanna get back my thumbdrive & get back to class asap. but d distance like not tt near, not tt far & w stairs up & down & was a wet day.

i alrdy lose this thumbdrive 3 times le. & i believed all happened dis yr. so blur of me loh... sighed... luckily all managed to find back.

did i 'ke po' myself???

had a great start early in mornin w a great news but tt doesn't help keepin me awake. k/o for a couple of times throughout the whole day.

anw, today while chattin w friends durin lunch, tok bout d sweets and biscuit tt i got fr a friend for my bday. told them tt i still ve a packet of biscuit tt might b my lunch & tt packet might last me a wk. they said i 'ke po' myself. & it reminded me of wat a few prof advice us to do.

i rmbr tt thr was a few prof who told us to have enough slp, 1 of d prof oso asked us to study hard & yet not forget to 'play' & relax too and have nutritious food... well... all doesn't apply to me last sem except for study cos i only study & study. & i oso survived on biscuit or bread or sandwich s my lunch durin my last sem & i do have d intention to do d same for this sem... cant eat proper meals in lib ma. 'tou chi' sandwich in lib alrdy v 'kua zhang' leh. & v sian to find seat & eat alone at canteen. i usually eat alone at hm or in office (last time) or i'll skip my meal in d past. at least nw will eat biscuit loh so i not 'ke po' on myself le right??? lol... mayb i jus givin myself excuses...

but i really cant stay home lah. i'll deviate away fr my notes one. i'll walk ard (bo si tiam), fall asleep on my bed, etc etc & cousins might b hm...

yeah!!! might ve some income soon!!! if no 'accident'

Woo~hooo~ lol... i not crazy... jus feel happy!!! hee...

thr was no class in d mornin, & only got lesson fr 12.30 but decided to go to sch earlier to study & i'm glad i did. cos mayb gonna ve a temp job when sch starts. i not crazy. noe it may b tough but jus gonna do durin my break time & max only can 10hrs per wk to help out w d paperwork for purchasin side durin sch term & i dun think i'll max it out ba.

jus nw, aft alightin fr my 'sch' bus, my sch finance manager waited for me cos she was way in front s i was d last to alight. she asked when was my holi & if i had anything on durin those days. though i did tot of not workin durin this holi, i jus told her tt i'll b away to malacca btw 17 - 19 dec to keep my options open.

aft chattin, found tt she was lookin for temp staff to help out mainly durin jan when d sch starts & i agreed immediately (verbally lah). & when she asked bout d dec holi period, told her tt i could but may not b full 5 days week cos she said tt may not need help durin d dec holi. if she need, mayb she can look for me. hee...

s i did purchasin for d undergrads practical b4 & had experiences in d purchasin sys & GeBIZ (though long ago), she said tt mayb she shld jus hire me to help her when i graduated but she said it would b a waste cos i would ve a bio degree. well, i was keepin my future career path open. jus tt i hope not to get those w shift work or research. had enough of research & found tt i dun like when i did my FYP in poly. i was lucky to ve a nice supervisor then but d other ppl like 'workaholic'. workin hrs based on experiment. go back durin public holi, stayed back till late nite... i jus wan a stable 9 - 5 job w stable income. furthermore, it might not b easy to find back a bio / lab based job w my current grades unless they looked at basic lab skills so had to open up my career options.

so nw, b keepin my fingers-crossed for d temp job in dec 09 & jan 10 & a secure job aft i graduate... ^.^

mum nvr think b4 she said anything... might gave cousin a false hope nw...

mum must b super sian w me... but had no choice but to tell her d facts...

jus nw over breakfast, she told my dad & i tt my cousin (currently p4) is interested in taggin along if we'll b gg hk next yr. i dun mind her taggin along. she v guai one. listen to us oso. but...

told my mum to consider again. cos i not so sure if my aunt would pay or not s it wont b cheap. & somemore, my grandma might most likely tag along oso. i believed my parents would not let my grandma pay or dun let her pay so much. & nw cousin wanna go somemore...so i reminded my mum tt it wont b cheap like tour to malaysia.

well, not only tt lah, thr will oso b other misc cost too... like meals, buy things, i'm sure my cousin would be interested in 1 thing or another. cant possibly b gg thr jus see only & she so young, whr got d $$ to pay. so i believed my mum would pay?

& wat bout those other stuffs like tix to places of interest? my mum said my cousin would b interested in disneyland & my mum said go hk dun go thr oso weird. so see lah... my mum nvr think b4 she said anything & if we nvr bring my cousin along, my mum b givin her false hope nw. *shake head*

throat not quite clear & nose started blockin...

ahhhh.... aft a mornin of feelin better w no k/o feelin, i think nw i got bit of nose block... cos of air con in sch??? or mayb i allergy to sch... always like tt when i wanna push myself further... :(

& somemore, i did believed my throat better cos whole day dun ve d tingly feelin tt would make me cough uncontrol-ably... yet, it did happened again jus nw. mayb drank too little water again ba...

anw, took another flu med. didn't wanna take d one prescribe by doc though tt one might b better for flu & even itch (throat itch). i really cannot take tt cos still got lesson tml wor. cant feel k/o again lah. & it's oso a tough decision if i wanna take cough syrup. i noe i cant let my cough start cos once started, d engine nvr wanna stop. but d med oso will cos me to k/o extremely long... T.T shall see hw ltr when i gonna slp. if really not tt right, better curb it & feel drowsy then let d 'engine' start ba...

slp & ponder bout report again...

mum 学乖了吗??? this mornin, both my mum & my noodle came w little sauce. i tot she would grumble again but she never wor & finished up her noodle. mayb wat i said last time to add some soup into her noodle does work. well, nvm lah. tt's a v gd sign... lol... ^.^

anw, ytd was feelin v k/o d whole day & i assume it's d effect of d med tt cos drowisness & nvr took it again last nite. guess wat. i felt much better today... better to d extent tt i wanna nap a while in d bus to sch but in d end, i cant & i sort of figured out wat future experiment i can type for my lab report. ya. figure out when i was tryin to slp. think my brain malfunctionin. when i wan it to work, it refused to work. when i wan it to rest, it went on to work. siao... & was pretty wide awake for d whole journey to sch & i sort of completed my report. now left the final summary part. few more % & i'll b done w it. yeah!!!

i tot i would b tired cos last night, i went to bed at 10+ and woke up feelin awake at ard 1 and i forced myself to sleep again aft tt. w d intermediate slp, by right shld feel more tired but was ok today. gd for me. haha...

hot weather... feelin so k/o

it'd been a stayed hm weekend. though i dun usually go out but this time, i nvr went for dance trg.

well, ytd when i got 1 of d med, i knew this would happen if i took it. doc said take once at night only but i can still feel d k/o effect for d whole of today even till nw. like no energy loh... i did nap though dad's hm but cos i really cannot tahan lah. but didn't nap for long. shall not take it tonight le cos tml got class. dun wanna get so k/o in class.

& d weather sucks... when i cant on d air con, d weather is so hot... feel so hot & sticky. wonder hw to really sleep well tonight... & i dunno if it's cos of d weather or d k/o effect tt i feel my head heavy & at times like gonna headache. shall go bed earlier today ba.

my throat did feel better than ytd and not tt dry but mornin got bit loss of voice. & like wat d doc said. once a while i did cough when my throat get d tingly feelin. sighed...

enough of lab report...

though doc told me not to clear my throat, it seemed harder than said loh. drink water oso not much help & i'm bloated w water.

other than bloated w water, d weather is v gd for sleep... yet, i was tryin to complete my lab report. it's sort of almost done. mayb 90% le? jus need to think bout future recommendation for experiment and summary d whole thing in a 200 words abstract.

d future recommendation will b a headache. cos i dunno hw to design experiment & not in d right state of mind to think. this time, i actually hope my sub-conscious mind can tell me wat to do even in my dream. i may jus leave my intro s it is, unless i could find more info. at least i nvr exceed d word limit lah. tt's more impt. haha...

shall take a break for nw... & guess wat, my mum 'sponsored' my medical fee. lol... it doesn't hurt when swallowin but still not v d right... & dunno if really like wat d doc said, i did cough a bit jus nw but was ok aft i drink warm water. i think i drink much more water than usual loh. told my friends, i could be a camel. cos i can go w/o water one. i noe it's not gd. but unless i thirsty, or i at sch lib studyin, or w dear cos he'll pour water for me to drink. mayb tt's wat cos my dry throat ba. mayb i shld say 'serve me right'... :X

seen doc, got med which i arldy took but got new advices...

eventually decided to pay d doc a visit but... i got back d med i self-medicate... so i'm payin to see d doc's face... lol. if i noe, i would not ve gone cos i alrdy got d medicines... tt's y i'm always reluctant to see doc for such pro but cos exam is near, so i decided to go.

well, this time, got new explanation & advice so guess i'm payin for tt advice lah. thus, not tt bad. he told me my throat is dry & prob due to breathin thru mouth esp when slpin at night when nose got block, etc. asked me not to slp in air con rm esp these 2 days (anw, wont lah, weather not hot le lah), asked me not to tok these 2 days (so i gotta b a mute), asked me not to breathe thru mouth, etc.

he oso asked me not to clear my throat (cos i did when i was tokin to him). he said tt was not gd for throat. it can get worst & even hurt vocal cord. v serious sia... he said i may even got phlegm & thus, cough but no matter wat, jus dun 'er-hamm' (clear throat), & jus drink a sip of warm water & tt'll help.

he oso asked me stay indoor for these 2 days. hw can? i still got trg tml mornin. but i oso noe d rm is air-conditioned which i shld avoid... but i'd skipped quite a no of times le & will skip mayb 2-3 more for exams & mayb 1 more aft my trip. i oso noe due to d a(h1n1), thr were safety measure & notice for ppl gg for mtg, etc to be considerate & avoid if they had sorethroat or flu-like symptoms. so meanin to say i gotta skip??? sighed... i dunno lah. mayb tml mornin see hw. if still got sorethroat den i skip ba.

anw, beginnin of this yr, was hopin i dun get ill tt easily & see doc. 1st half of d yr, only seen doc for sorethroat once durin my exam period. but this sem, seen twice le. both oso sorethroat but previous time oso got runnin nose. i oso self-medicate once or twice for runnin nose & sorethroat & recovered. d worst thing was i nose-bleed twice this sem le. this sem seemed much much better than previous 2 sem loh though no of modules r more or less same. 2 sem ago was really really bad cos of assignment loh but this sem, doesn't seemed tt right for me too... sorethroat, runnin nose, nose bleed & right hip sort of gave me bit of pro. jus hope dis sem can b over soon. hw i wish i can skip a mth. a mth fr nw will be gd. though i would ve 1 more paper to take.

well, i must get back to pink health asap & chiong for 1 more mth. i'm so so lookin forward to d wk aft 1st wk of dec. cos aft tt, will b 1 more paper & holi le... hahaha... yeah... & nw, got ~70+% dun feel like workin le... due to trip, & i promised my cousins to bring them watch 3D movies if thr is, & got other things i wanna do too... workin is jus for $$, & not stayin hm in case i started steppin on tails but i dun think i would get to sleep tt much even if i not workin ba. nvm, shall cont'd think bout pros & cons bout workin durin this holi. haha...

sorethroat again...

v v d sianz... tink i might kanna sorethroat again... previous time manage to ctrl. hope this time oso. nw exams comin, not d right time to fall ill lah. need to focus leh...

actually tt day when my friend said she got sorethroat, i started to feel bit not right in my throat aft a meal of lemon grass chicken rice (curry chicken rice). managed to suppress then & ytd, dunno for wat reason, sneezed a couple of times in sch.

today, i can feel my throat givin way & due to tt day, i still had med for throat in my bag & i even bought herbal tea which all doesn't seemed to help. it jus seemed to get worse progressively tt i even dun feel like eatin my dinner jus nw. took d anti-inflammatory lozenge a while ago. hope it will do d trick to remove d trouble-makers... rmbr last sem, exam period i oso kanna sorethroat... sighed...

anw, i think another sch friend oso got sorethroat accordin to her msn nick. so mayb it's jus a 'SBS pre-exam illness'... ;p

no lesson but got test...

it's friday!!! Haha!!! well, by right thr is no lesson today. last wk was d last of fri lect but due to a test, had to go back. went by d staff bus, better known s sch bus for me. went lib to mug... last min study for my test.

durin d test, my stomach started to growl. at 1st tot of skippin lunch but i had biscuit in my bag. but stomach made too much noise le. den i oso heard my friends stomach growlin. lol. i can even hear ppl's hp ringin, vibratin, etc. i siao right. during test, heard all this nonsense. not tt i want but we all sit side by side & was v quiet in d LT. haha...

anw, went for lunch w my friend before going off. decided to try and complete my lab report. & 2 of my friends said they gg back to 'play'. ya. so i'm d hardworkin one. lol. not really lah. jus wanna get over & done w den can chuck it to d back of my mind & mayb start revision slow & steady. easier said than done, i noe. but i shall push myself to follow wat i say ba. hee... k lah. since i said tt, i shall stop here & get back to my report. haha...

things to do aft exams...

hip seemed to get better by s time passed... wont 'agitate' it further. i dun wanna go limpin like few yrs back... v scary...

anw, my minor muscle aches seemed to be gone & my bruises not tt pain alrdy though it'll still hurt when i accidentally 'bump lightly' into any of the newer bruises... hee...

oh ya... exams comin & tt's a dread but thr is something to look forward to in dec. gg malacca in mid of dec. jus hope mum ok w d food & d drinkin water thr or it'll b such a spoiler... i noe she may not b able to walk for long if she really dun wan but tt's ok. at most find some place for her to rest loh since most of d time is free & easy.

i was quite interested to go malacca esp when i knew bout d peranakan heritage cos i'm sort of a nonya (jus a 1/4 only) & i noe nothing bout d history. haha... last time friends got suggest to go there but in the end never. dis time, d trip is cfm & i believed s long s mum ok, den everything will b fine... m really lookin forward to d trip... ^.^

& still wonderin if i shld work aft exam. exam end on 8/12. if work, will work 2-3 days, den weekend, work 1-3 days, den go malacca, work another 0.5-3.5 days, xmas holi, work 3.5 days, new year day & dun wish to cont'd aft new year day cos a wk aft tt sch will start. so at most work only for 7-13 days only cos d public holi fall on fri & d eve will be half day. if i work, d $$ might last me a sem? if i max out d workin days, salary mayb can last me 2 sem? but everywk like work average 3 days or less oso like v funny. oso to earn $$ or rest & enjoy? shall think bout it for another wk...

problematic right hip ligament injuries...

right hip got better but turn to d opp direction again... aft d mornin rush fr lib for lect, d whole thigh down become pretty 'suan'. sighed... jus hope it wont get any worst... kipin fingers crossed...

i hate old injuries... will always come back & haunt me somehow no matter hw minimal i restrict my 'exercise'. more vigorious exercise, can b worst... but i cant possibly dun work out at all wat...

post-training effect

d post-training effect came aft d rollin on floor, crunches, jumps, etc. jus tt this time, is more tolerate-able... haha... but i dunno if i got bruise behind my shoulder-blade cos when i lean on my back, can feel it hurt.

so d post-training effects i got is bruise & muscle aches (on my back, stomach, calf). at least not like last time but prob cos ytd training was shorter for some reasons. nvm, shall cont'd train... but cant over-do esp for my right hip ligament prob which can nvr seemed to recover fully... sighed...

really accident prone recently...

really been accident prone lately...

tt time, burnt my fingers in lab & while cookin den bump my elbow into d wall while exitin d bathrm, den, i got no impression on how i got 3 bruises on my legs on places unexpected. & somemore, today, i den realized actually my elbow oso got another bruise but not on d place whr i bump into tt day.

anw, today during trainin, i believed i kanna at least another 3 more bruise. at least 2 at my hip. both side & 1 on my elbow due to rolling fr 1 end of d rm to d other on d hard floor. since d change of training location, fr a carpeted floor to a wooden floor, i only went for 2 official training including today. last time, i oso kanna bruise fr d kneeling down, etc during warm up etc.

i oso kanna another bruise today on my elbow. tt's hw i realized i actually got a bruise near my new bruise today but cos of colour diff, i noe it was not cos by today. this bruise oso cos by d rolling. i accidentally bump it on d floor. & d position is super not gd. cos easily brushed over it & so, 'OUCH!!!' ya. pain loh. hope it wont b tt painful...

ponderin over study plan

time past v fast. left 2 more weeks of sch term. this time, this sem, got a wk of study break before the exams starts. d most xiong wk is d wk aft d start of my 1st paper. cos tt 2nd wk, got 4 modules to take. however, think cant study for 1 of d modules. jus need reasonable std of english & fresh mind ba. but it can b quite mentally xiong lah.

thurs, went for a talk. it said must ve a balance in everything. nutritions, sleep, 'play', study for exams & fri, a prof oso said similar to tt in his last lect & tried to encourage us. i quite like this prof & his module. hope can do well for it. ^.^

balance for everything? shall i stay hm & study instead? but cousins b havin holi. & will i jus b too lazy & slp? cos if i go sch, sure for lunch, i'll jus eat biscuit, sandwich or even none. meanin, not much nutrition. ;p

last sem, i studied till almost gg haywire. woke up in middle of night thinkin late for exams & even aft exams ended, still wanted to wake up & study. is it cos i jus had study & no break?

somemore, i'd got history of dreamin of doing tutorial even in my sleep. so tt means i not even restin my brain when i'm asleep. & even got d ans which i cant even get when i'm 'awake'.

shall really ponder & see hw i shld make my study plan for this sem. but i still find gg out of hm & study more efficient. less distraction ba cos at hm, got everything. will walk ard. sighed...

oh ya. ytd, durin dinner, mum told dear tt i got weird habit of squeezin more lemon into my sugarcane drink, etc. cos i dun mind d sourness. in d end, he oso d same. oops. & i tot i weird person cos i follow my mum to eat laksa with mee instead of bee hoon. in d end, found out tt he oso d same & thr r other similarities too & seemed to be finding out more as time passed...

late for lect

ytd mornin, was late for lect. took staff bus s usual but thr was bit of jam & in d end, i was late. worst. i didn't even notice tt i reached d place whr i would alight on thurs cos it's d only day whr lesson is held at another place. i tot i have not reach & by d time i realised tt i had to alight fr d bus, d bus alrdy left. so i had to alight at another stop when d bus go over. thus, i was even more late. ok lah. didn't miss much.

dear's dad still in EDTU in NUH

back home... dear's dad still under observation in EDTU (extensive diagnosis treatment unit) in NUH. so far, all d tests ok & he looked better in the evening than in the afternoon. hope everything will be ok and back to norm asap...

dear's dad sent to nuh

received a call this mornin. shockin call. dear said he called ambulance cos his dad not well. nw they at nuh. hope everything is alright. be gg over in a while see if anything i can help. couldn't go earlier cos didn't wanna let my parents noe in case they worry too...

* hope everything will b fine...*

mum really unhappy...

i knew it. mum unhappy w aunt & come back sure grumble & grumble at me. i noe she unhappy & i noe i v bad cos i told her straight in her face tt if she was really so unhappy w my aunt, she shld tell her & not come back & grumble at me. cos it's not my fault.

mum always like tt so i pretty pissed off so nw if i could, i would keep tellin her tt i cant do anything unless she told whoever who made her unhappy. if she dun tell, ppl wont care & cont'd. & if tt happened, i'll kanna again. i hope d msg really get to my mum & not angry w me oso. *fingers-crossed*

shld avoid heat recently ba

aft an accident-prone fri, i kanna hot oil for fryin eggs for dinner a while ago. cos of water lah.

seemed like i shld avoid anything w heat recently. in lab (last fri), oso can kanna burnt by fire when tt nvr happened b4 for more than a decade in labs since sec sch. & nw, hot oil when v v long time nvr happened le. *shake head*

anw, think nothing serious lah. even though my feet, my forehead & face did kanna a drop of d oil. luckily i wore specs cos i think my specs kanna bout 3 drops tt i had to wash it w soap.

thks to my aunt for today. *sighed* she only inform my mum a while ago tt she'll b v late & my mum oso haven eat & she asked me fried an egg for her to eat w rice. if i eat by myself, i would jus put d egg on d rice cooker to steam. lazy ma & to me, can eat can le. no need fanciful meal.

if i noe my aunt b late, & mum cant b back so soon, i would ve cook earlier too. was hungry while waitin for mum to come back till she called & asked me find things to eat... my mum not happy w my aunt alrdy for informin so late.

anw, shall b more carefully if i had to deal w flame or anything hot for nw...

relatively fast week...

dis wk seemed to past relatively quickly. it's alrdy sun b4 i noe it. prob cos mon no lesson so it's only a 4 day 'study wk'... but... d wk started off slow & draggy...

well, ytd, went to his place to celebrate his dad's bday. i think it was d 1st time he celebrate w his parents too. went to henderson for dinner w his parents & i oso bought cake for his dad.

accident-prone

it's was a pretty accident-prone day ytd for me... esp on my right hand...

durin lab, my hand got too much 70% ethanol tt it 'caught fire' while i flame to sterilize the needle for d vacuum pump. it was naked flame so i dun see any fire on my hand but i could suddenly felt my middle finger burning.

wat will u do when this happen? norm ppl will react almost immediately. it's a natural reflect tt need not go thru any thinking in d brain. so wat did i do? i stayed calm and think. ya. no natural reaction. i analyze the situation. believed that the flame will go away once ethanol is used up. but when d pain was too much, i decided to cover my fingers w my left hand to deplete d air for d fire and i happily continued my practical w/o any other reaction or interruption.

my friends was amazed at my reflexes and teased that my spinal cord is faulty and thus, no 1st reflexes. they were also amazed hw i could still calmly finished up my experiment like nothing had happened. even when my gloved is already burnt with a hole left. and i only went to wash and treat my 'wound' aft i was done with d lab session.

well, it is a 2nd degree burn with a blister. d burnt was intensified at the place where the hole was created by the naked flame. & i tot i only burnt my middle finger but i got to realize tt i oso burnt my 4th finger but that was more minor. it is a 1st degree burn.

& not only did i burnt my fingers by accident. back hm, aft shower, b4 exitin fr d bathrm, i bumped my right elbow on d wall. tt hurts & i almost scream out on 1st reaction.

hope no more accident fr nw on...

mum's grumpy again...

dis mornin, my mum grumbled bout d noodle again... sighed... this time not cos not enough sauce but rather too much sauce. ya. too little sauce she not happy say only eat noodle taste. nw give her more sauce, she oso make noise. told her tt she could add soup to her noodle if too little or too much sauce but tt doesn't quiet her down. *shake head*

anw, ytd afternoon, went to his place aft he finish work. he was feelin v tired & at times cant focus & even headache. sighed... & worst still. my mum grumblin too... tone not v nice when i call her back for three times. she was pretty agitated cos he tried to 'ren' & not go see doc & i had to assure her tt he had 'got better', etc. sighed... & my dad went to pick me up at 7+ jus aft i took my dinner & i had to rush to clean up. he came out of work earlier to pick me but he could ve finish his work loh. made me so rush. anw, luckily his mum was home by the time i had to leave lah. hope he'll get well soon...

long weekends

it's been a long weekend...

sat was my friend's ROM and weddin. her ROM was in d mornin at tampines soka ctr so i nvr went over or i would ve to wake up v early. furthermore, evenin got her dinner. thus, decided to go only for her dinner. somemore, tot of draggin dear to go see doc if he was still v unwell so in d end, went over to his place in d mornin but he seemed better so i nvr insist.

in d evenin, went for my friend's dinner. it's d most dramatic weddin i went to. nvr had any anti-climax. d waiters even had some dance steps b4 giving out d cold dish, d video montage for d mornin was v dramatically done, emcees did great job, thr were dances for 2nd march in, games for d couples to play on d stage, d guy sang for his bride, ... ... well, i believed everyone quite enjoyed d dinner then includin myself. & i went for supper aft d dinner. no lah. i nvr eat but accompanied dear as he was hungry when he went to drive me home.

today mornin, skipped my dance trg again. oops... haha... cos went w his mum & him to his cousin's baby's 1st mth. den went for my soka mtg in d afternoon. aft tt when he came over, heard tt he got bit of breathin difficulties & had to work early tml. thus, made him go and see d doc w d help of my mum esp aft knowin he got asthma history. he said he was better hrs aft takin d med.

tml is another day of break for me which i haven tell my parents. i noe i cant go sch cos lib oso no open. ltr den tell my mum ba & stayed hm do some study or tut if thr is. mayb afternoon see if wanna go 'look aft' tt big baby aft he finish work. ya. big baby cos dunno hw to take care of himself. not well still try to tahan & refused to see doc. scary loh. cos my cousin's hubby died of asthma in his sleep. if i noe he got asthma history, would ve dragged him to see doc ytd loh.

it's fri

it's fri... haha... & i think i got much better le. finally... for my throat, nose & teeth. but i still feel k/o at this afternoon timin again. always like tt... but at least not feel so k/o for whole day. ^.^ but mornin, dear said it's his turn feel unwell. hope i didn't spread to him... :X

lect ended within an hr today & was in d lib since. whole mornin tried fb quizzes... haha... but i got back in track again. sort of completed my BS305 practical 3 report. mayb jus look thru again & if got time do some research & edit b4 submission on wed. i oso did d only tut available which is for 2 mon ltr cos comin mon is p. holi. nvr really complete fully but left some tt need awake mind to search, think & do. so stopped for nw... haha... mayb shall nap a while, if got time, revise BS306 a teeny tiny bit b4 gg JP. ;p

well, my friends was amazed when i said i would stayed till ard 4+ in sch cos lesson ended at 9.30. but didn't wanna go back lah. cos today mum no need look aft cousins & so she'll b home. dun wan her ltr see me nap or be unhappy if i focus on my report & tut & ignore her when she wanna chat. or i'll b unproductive if i entertain her.

at least in sch, i can do in peace ma... can do faster. & if she wanna tok, i can tok when i go back hm. den can entertain her cos i'm done w my hm-work. jus cant really nap lah... pros & cons la... though i can be unproductive if i tired. but i can have d habit to push myself to do more even if tired but provided if not much thinking is required... & can go w/o food at times... (erm.. ya. i nvr take lunch. mayb ltr go JP see if buy a pancake or something to eat)... hee... i noe it's not gd but tt's wat happen when i got too engross & can easily b scare when i'm too engross. dun try scare me k... haha... kk. shall stop here & nap... hee...