it's about 1 mth till d end. my last paper is on 22 dec. dis 1 mth is v critical. thr is still an assignment due on 26 nov & a test on 29 nov b4 exam commence on 14 dec. got 5 papers in total & my final week, i got 3 papers on 3 consec days.
dis 1 mth is not gonna b easy. needless to say, d stress pressurin me esp due to d module allocation for my course. all modules for me course r not available every sem n in order to graduate on time next jul, i'd to clear all 5 modules on hand now.
oso whether or not i can get at least a min 3rd class oso depend on dis final but it's extremely tough cos i would need at ave A-. so i shall not b too particular w dis but still tt's alrdy d min i wish i would obtain at d end of d 4 yr studies b4 i even got in so i'll still work hard for it.
thus, dis 1 mth is extremely critical. whether i pass & graduate on time (w or w/o at least a 3rd class) or i was retained & graduate ltr all depend on dis final mth. i'm not s worried for my FYP. i'd at least d basic hands-on skill for d lab work & d report aren't tt long s compared to my poly FYP & thr is no powerpoint presentation except d poster presentation so d most worrying is my studies...
i need all d supports i can get, n hopefully not more stress fr elsewhr or it can make or break me. i need to stay focus fr nw on & catch back s much s possible on d plan i'd set... all other things can wait but not studies anymore...
Jess, gambette, jiayou, don give up, u can make it
Sunday, 21 November 2010
Thursday, 18 November 2010
1 more chance for citibank
givin citibank 1 more chance b4 i'll do anything rash...
my friends & i applied for d citibank clear card last yr & we were told tt we gotta pay d annual fee no matter wat. it's not a big sum but d prob is, my friends had called & waived off d annual fee & advice me not to pay.
ytd, i called but no matter wat, i simply can't find d number to press to waive off d fee like my friends did. tt was wat they told me s they didn't even talk to any operator, etc. but d funny thing was, no matter which option i chose, thr was simply no such option.
so i chose to speak to someone but den was asked to leave my no & someone would get back to me. stupid right?
den i chose to mail them but thr mail had default subj heading & none was for waiver. fine. so i chose general enquires & d reply was a no for waiver.
since my friends managed to waive off. i'll not pay tt annual fee though not tt big sum. no way i gonna pay so i send another mail to explain, reason, & threaten.
told them i noe can't but ask y my friends could when they use not s much s me & we apply same time. den comment tt i felt unfair & den threaten to say i'll terminate & even spread d unfair treatment i got fr d bank to all my relatives & friends. but i v gd. give them a chance. say i hope to get a reasonable reply or... heehee... i'll spread ard. i'll say in fb, etc. it's ok tt i don ve d card. at most i go back to pay $$ to my aunt for d card she sub to me. not much lost to me... except for d rewards pt la. haha...
my friends & i applied for d citibank clear card last yr & we were told tt we gotta pay d annual fee no matter wat. it's not a big sum but d prob is, my friends had called & waived off d annual fee & advice me not to pay.
ytd, i called but no matter wat, i simply can't find d number to press to waive off d fee like my friends did. tt was wat they told me s they didn't even talk to any operator, etc. but d funny thing was, no matter which option i chose, thr was simply no such option.
so i chose to speak to someone but den was asked to leave my no & someone would get back to me. stupid right?
den i chose to mail them but thr mail had default subj heading & none was for waiver. fine. so i chose general enquires & d reply was a no for waiver.
since my friends managed to waive off. i'll not pay tt annual fee though not tt big sum. no way i gonna pay so i send another mail to explain, reason, & threaten.
told them i noe can't but ask y my friends could when they use not s much s me & we apply same time. den comment tt i felt unfair & den threaten to say i'll terminate & even spread d unfair treatment i got fr d bank to all my relatives & friends. but i v gd. give them a chance. say i hope to get a reasonable reply or... heehee... i'll spread ard. i'll say in fb, etc. it's ok tt i don ve d card. at most i go back to pay $$ to my aunt for d card she sub to me. not much lost to me... except for d rewards pt la. haha...
Monday, 15 November 2010
honey is too sweet?
2day, unsure of y, i keep feelin s though thr r something like insects or wat crawlin or bitin me esp on my leg. not sure if it's rashes or wat... but i end up still eat prawn wanton soup for dinner. hopefully wont get worst...
mayb it's karma... tt day, when dear's leg & back itchy itchy & he kept wantin to scratch, i poured medicated oil over those area. yes. i pour, not apply. den i apply tt minty powder 'she fen', over d medicated oil covered area.
medicated oil alrdy will ve d burning & minty sensation den plus tt powder. hehe... power right? he end up makin lots of noise say his leg burnt liao, got smoke come out liao, etc...
end up, jus nw, i cant tahan oso do same for myself. d minty sensation was too cooling tt i end up switchin off my fan... but i'd to say, it did stop d itch. lol...
dear noe bout my itch w d feeling s though some insect (which he called s 'ga ga') bite me. his reply made me unsure of wat to say due to his association. his reply, 'sayang honey. u too sweet le'. anw, earlier on, i actually did a stupid mistake but dear not only nvr scold me but still reply like tt. his reply actually do make me feel more guilty esp if i get him in trouble which i hope wont. *fingers crossed* thanks dear & sorry for d trouble...
mayb it's karma... tt day, when dear's leg & back itchy itchy & he kept wantin to scratch, i poured medicated oil over those area. yes. i pour, not apply. den i apply tt minty powder 'she fen', over d medicated oil covered area.
medicated oil alrdy will ve d burning & minty sensation den plus tt powder. hehe... power right? he end up makin lots of noise say his leg burnt liao, got smoke come out liao, etc...
end up, jus nw, i cant tahan oso do same for myself. d minty sensation was too cooling tt i end up switchin off my fan... but i'd to say, it did stop d itch. lol...
dear noe bout my itch w d feeling s though some insect (which he called s 'ga ga') bite me. his reply made me unsure of wat to say due to his association. his reply, 'sayang honey. u too sweet le'. anw, earlier on, i actually did a stupid mistake but dear not only nvr scold me but still reply like tt. his reply actually do make me feel more guilty esp if i get him in trouble which i hope wont. *fingers crossed* thanks dear & sorry for d trouble...
Sunday, 14 November 2010
finally can see d ending
1 more mth to start if exam.... & 1.5 mths to end of this sem & ~2.5 mths to start of FYP & ~6.5 mths to end off my 4 yrs of degree course with my fyp poster presentation...
upcomin impt dates:
last assignment submission on 26 nov 10
muscle bio CA test on 29 nov 10
exams startin on 14 dec 10 w last paper on 22 dec 10 w 5 papers (gambette)
penang 27-30 dec 10
start of fyp 24 jan 11
fyp thesis 9 may 11
fyp poster day 24 may 11
at least i can see d end of d tunnel nw... though still quite far away. been a long 3 yrs ++... jus hope it had not been a wrong decision to takee up this degree course... hope for d best nw...
basically, this 1.5 mth is more or less d last few lap for me to study. must jia you... must chiong... must not give up... must not be over relax... i shall go back to old old strategy & hoepfully it'll work cos it's so much different than tt time but oh well... at least i'll try & should ve d opportunity to try...
upcomin impt dates:
last assignment submission on 26 nov 10
muscle bio CA test on 29 nov 10
exams startin on 14 dec 10 w last paper on 22 dec 10 w 5 papers (gambette)
penang 27-30 dec 10
start of fyp 24 jan 11
fyp thesis 9 may 11
fyp poster day 24 may 11
at least i can see d end of d tunnel nw... though still quite far away. been a long 3 yrs ++... jus hope it had not been a wrong decision to takee up this degree course... hope for d best nw...
basically, this 1.5 mth is more or less d last few lap for me to study. must jia you... must chiong... must not give up... must not be over relax... i shall go back to old old strategy & hoepfully it'll work cos it's so much different than tt time but oh well... at least i'll try & should ve d opportunity to try...
Thursday, 11 November 2010
temp job offers r so temptin
jus when i wonder if i shld rest b4 fyp commence & yet didn't wanna stay hm... ytd my colleague told me tt my current temp job actually can last till mar 11. so i tot 'y not' but den v sian to come back jus to work 3 hr durin holi when no lesson but at least earn bit of $$... & so i oso tot tt mayb i can say, if lab oso not tt busy, den i come worrk even aft fyp started...
den... came another colleague... he ask if i holi wanna go back to help him. say same rate s last time. say at most work other than d time i was task currently. so tt means... i can stay hm yet got $$ but gotta work long day. but i might get $$ to last me normally for prob up to 2 mths. or use tt money for my upcomin expenditure on x'mas present, bdays gift, cny goodies, insurance premium & piano tunin, or even prob use for tour. den may not deplete my savings tt much.
it's an advantage way to get out of hse & yet get paid but disadvantage at gettin less rest but may not rest s much at hm since cant really slp but den... wont get to see dear oso if he work afternoon till late or mayb still can but mayb not too freq.
shld i take up? d chance to get out of hm & to be more financially 'stable' is v v temptin. take or not?
anw, think for my current job, guess durin exam period i'll still cont'd since like my colleague ytd told me. i can study when i'm free & get paid for tt few hr. since i shld b in sch anw. so y not? hee. but d other job offer is jus too too unresistable.
den... came another colleague... he ask if i holi wanna go back to help him. say same rate s last time. say at most work other than d time i was task currently. so tt means... i can stay hm yet got $$ but gotta work long day. but i might get $$ to last me normally for prob up to 2 mths. or use tt money for my upcomin expenditure on x'mas present, bdays gift, cny goodies, insurance premium & piano tunin, or even prob use for tour. den may not deplete my savings tt much.
it's an advantage way to get out of hse & yet get paid but disadvantage at gettin less rest but may not rest s much at hm since cant really slp but den... wont get to see dear oso if he work afternoon till late or mayb still can but mayb not too freq.
shld i take up? d chance to get out of hm & to be more financially 'stable' is v v temptin. take or not?
anw, think for my current job, guess durin exam period i'll still cont'd since like my colleague ytd told me. i can study when i'm free & get paid for tt few hr. since i shld b in sch anw. so y not? hee. but d other job offer is jus too too unresistable.
Thursday, 4 November 2010
so many heart attackes
wat is wrong? or do i actually noe wat is wrong? everything not smooth... many hiccups... many prob ard... i'm shag...
electronics problems solved den mum sprained her waist. den she kanna drug allergy. den she kanna stomach bloatedness. den jus nw, scared dad & me.
went out w my friend cos see tt she much better le. den in d end, dad ask me tabao mac back & oso for her. when i back, she seemed alright but awhile aft d mac burger, when i happen to go take my coin fr d pocket of my pants which was in d bathrm, saw both of them weird weird. den realize it's cos mum seem unwell & yet even dad oso duno y.
tot she bloated but she hit her chest. scare me. den she finally say like got something stuck thr. cant b food cos finish d burger like at least 20 min ago le. so duno wat happen & she cant seem to tok. chest area don play play so tgt w dad, ask her see doc but she dun wan & keep quiet only all d time. den only say she duno wat to tell doc.
so i go changed my clothes & den she bo bian, guai guai go change oso. den she kept tryin hard to cough or vomit out. but fail to get better.
dad drove her to d west pt hospital while i try go register but tt stupid nurse thr refuse to let me register unless i give them d IC. cant i jus write. mum was unwell & dad was accompanyin her outside. -.-" den they wan take her temp so i ran out twice. 1 take mum's IC. 2 to ask her in
though no one, still gotta wait awhile b4 c doc. told doc of mum history of sprainin of waist & d bloatedness come aft days of takin d pain killer but i only noe 1 of d name. cant rmbr d other 1. & worst. i oso duno d name of d med she allergy to & she oso nvr ask d doc dis mornin. haiz... all d loopholes ard...
anw, doc say it's due to bloatedness & might not recover so soon. will take days. den.. change a med & give my mum d beneficial bacteria med. but she could only take d bacteria med cos interval too short to take d other type. so guess mum ve to cont'd to tahan d discomfort till next mornin. hopefully she will get better & rest.
looks like tml i oso gotta skip work & lecture. better to stay hm. look out. haiz... but no choice. hopefully will ve video lect uploaded ba. luckily tt lect was a repeat module so went for d lect b4. gg for it will jus b for me to note down watever i might ve miss last time & a recap session but tt oso means i must start lookin thru notes, esp this module cos it was taken a yr ago le.
anw, i realized something. jus nw while gg to bring mum to d clinic w dad & while we were thr & while we were comin home, i realize tt either i was cold & shiver & become weak or i was prob 'scare' & shiver & feel weak & feel cold & i wasn't feelin hungry but was feelin more worried. thus, i got kinda worried tt all these while, since i don really feel tt hungry all these while when i felt weak & trembling, will it b a bad symptom? symptom of stress, etc? or could it b like my friend said & wat i suspected previously tt my body lack certain cpd, like ions, etc. my friend tot of iron & tt if i prob got ping xue. guess i shall monitor & see hw. if i hungry den weak or not to make a more accurate conclusion. hope fully jus cos body lack a certain cpd rather than depression. but i noe my body weaker. much easier feel cold when i was d one who always feel d air con, etc ok esp amg my friends when i was in sec sch. is it cos i lack of exercise? mayb i shld go & start joggin again but will tt help?
no matter wat, i jus hope all unlucky things will be gone for nw. i'd enough. my heart unable to take in any more heart attack. jus nw almost wanna cry out le but can only 'ren'. argh.....
electronics problems solved den mum sprained her waist. den she kanna drug allergy. den she kanna stomach bloatedness. den jus nw, scared dad & me.
went out w my friend cos see tt she much better le. den in d end, dad ask me tabao mac back & oso for her. when i back, she seemed alright but awhile aft d mac burger, when i happen to go take my coin fr d pocket of my pants which was in d bathrm, saw both of them weird weird. den realize it's cos mum seem unwell & yet even dad oso duno y.
tot she bloated but she hit her chest. scare me. den she finally say like got something stuck thr. cant b food cos finish d burger like at least 20 min ago le. so duno wat happen & she cant seem to tok. chest area don play play so tgt w dad, ask her see doc but she dun wan & keep quiet only all d time. den only say she duno wat to tell doc.
so i go changed my clothes & den she bo bian, guai guai go change oso. den she kept tryin hard to cough or vomit out. but fail to get better.
dad drove her to d west pt hospital while i try go register but tt stupid nurse thr refuse to let me register unless i give them d IC. cant i jus write. mum was unwell & dad was accompanyin her outside. -.-" den they wan take her temp so i ran out twice. 1 take mum's IC. 2 to ask her in
though no one, still gotta wait awhile b4 c doc. told doc of mum history of sprainin of waist & d bloatedness come aft days of takin d pain killer but i only noe 1 of d name. cant rmbr d other 1. & worst. i oso duno d name of d med she allergy to & she oso nvr ask d doc dis mornin. haiz... all d loopholes ard...
anw, doc say it's due to bloatedness & might not recover so soon. will take days. den.. change a med & give my mum d beneficial bacteria med. but she could only take d bacteria med cos interval too short to take d other type. so guess mum ve to cont'd to tahan d discomfort till next mornin. hopefully she will get better & rest.
looks like tml i oso gotta skip work & lecture. better to stay hm. look out. haiz... but no choice. hopefully will ve video lect uploaded ba. luckily tt lect was a repeat module so went for d lect b4. gg for it will jus b for me to note down watever i might ve miss last time & a recap session but tt oso means i must start lookin thru notes, esp this module cos it was taken a yr ago le.
anw, i realized something. jus nw while gg to bring mum to d clinic w dad & while we were thr & while we were comin home, i realize tt either i was cold & shiver & become weak or i was prob 'scare' & shiver & feel weak & feel cold & i wasn't feelin hungry but was feelin more worried. thus, i got kinda worried tt all these while, since i don really feel tt hungry all these while when i felt weak & trembling, will it b a bad symptom? symptom of stress, etc? or could it b like my friend said & wat i suspected previously tt my body lack certain cpd, like ions, etc. my friend tot of iron & tt if i prob got ping xue. guess i shall monitor & see hw. if i hungry den weak or not to make a more accurate conclusion. hope fully jus cos body lack a certain cpd rather than depression. but i noe my body weaker. much easier feel cold when i was d one who always feel d air con, etc ok esp amg my friends when i was in sec sch. is it cos i lack of exercise? mayb i shld go & start joggin again but will tt help?
no matter wat, i jus hope all unlucky things will be gone for nw. i'd enough. my heart unable to take in any more heart attack. jus nw almost wanna cry out le but can only 'ren'. argh.....
Sunday, 31 October 2010
sentosa spooktacular
a yr aft dear brought me to my 1st halloween event at d night safari, ytd, he bought me to d 1 at sentosa. fr wat i read, it was suppose to b d biggest event in sg so was kinda lookin forward to it esp when my friend told me tt it's scary for her. furthermore, fr d video snapshot of d advert online, it seemed to b reasonable ba...
when reached, d organizer had smoke & d floral fragrance to build up d atmosphere. however, thr weren't s many 'ghosts' floating around when we were thr. den, we went queuin for d merlion station. d gd thing is tt they also ctrl d no of ppl gg in at a time. thus, it wont b over crowded inside.
i was expectin more, like can go up d merlion & thr would be many ghost or monster ard to scare ppl but it was jus d bottom lvl. haiz... again, d organizer make use of smoke to build d atmosphere & oso d lighting but i find it overly done. too much smoke & too dark but can scare ppl who was not prep to have something jumpin out to scare u. but den... not gd for those w night blindness like me. in dark place i alrdy got prob seein well & d smoke made it worst.
can u imagine, i almost step on a ghost? if not cos d ghost make noise suddenly beside my leg wantin to probably pound on me, i guess i would ve step on him & instead of scared by him, i actually laughed cos i almost step prob on his hand since he was crawlin on d floor. den prob not i scream but d ghost scream. wahahaaa....
den, thr was a pt whr thr is some sort of beaded curtain kinda drop & behind was a ghost wantin to jump out to scare ppl. aft knowin tt, we slowed down to see those behind us got scared by d ghost. oh. for tt merlion trail, dear & i was d 1st to move. seein d ppl behind got scare, we kept laughin. anw, it was too dark for me to see how those ghost looked like. i only noe some got more eyes at d side of their face but other than tt, cant see at all. haiz
for d 2nd stn, it was in an aslyum. this time, we were in d middle & d gp of 4 behind got only a lady who kept tellin her friends tt she was scared & wanted to b in d middle. so i guess she was right behind me & she must ve followed me too closely tt she kept steppin on my slipper till it dropped. which made me v embarassed but soon i felt angry cos they nvr did they apologize but they refused to let me go back to take my slipper & kept blockin my path. so in d end, dear & i become d last of d gp. anw, prob cos behind oso got a ghost tryin to catch them so they kept wantin to move forward & thus blcokin me & oso cos they scare till duno they cos my slipper to drop.
but thanks to them. i oso had a great laugh. dear & i was lag behind by prob 1.5 to 2 m & s we were tryin to catch up, a ghost jump out of a cell & creep behind tt gp to scare them & seein them gettin scare make me laugh. to make things more hesterical, dear go & scare d ghost. prob due to d lag in distance, d ghost prob tot no one was behind & came out. needless did d ghost noe tt thr were 2 of us thr & so we caught it by surprised & when dear go & scare it, i could see tt it actually jumped when dear scare it. i ended up laughin v loudly for quite some time even aft we caught up w d gp. it must ve been d most embarassin moment for d ghost. lol... anw, d gp in front did turned to see wat i laugh & i don care if they think i laugh at them. hee...
anw, cos of tt, for d end of d trail & even at d 3rd & last trails, we wld slowed down at times to see other ppl's reaction & laugh when they jumped or run & scream. we r bad. we even siam for space for d ghost to move fr behind to scare those in front.
d last station was at d wax museum so some r real while some r fake. not easy to tell & they seemed well-trained to stand like statue tt s ppl r wonderin if they r real ppl or wax statue, d ghost will move & pound on them esp since it was dark & hard to tell fr real human.
for d 3 stations, i was also lookin ard since i nvr been into those place b4 but sad to say. it was too dark to really see well but i don think i will spend $$ to go in to see those places again s thr seemed nothing much inside.
frankly to say, i was expectin more so i was pretty disappointed. it was too dark & smokey & so cant even tell wat ghost is ard & their looks. every ghost like looked d same in d dark. face white white, panda eyes, blood stains & prob decomposed skin but cant really see. d trail was oso pretty short so d queue was longer than d actual scares.
& s compared to d night safari, sentosa only seemed to ve only ghost & no monsters & all d ghost look pretty much similar but dressed differently. d jap ghost seeemd scare of takin pic. ran away when we wanna take pic w it & it ran to scare ppl instead. haiz... & oso, thr were many indian ghost ard. d funny thing is tt thr is oso a ghost of a chinese taoist priest. seemed like he can cao du other ghost but not himself. lol...
well, thr r oso some ghost tt will come into d queue & scare ppl. it will suddenly stand behind u s u chat w ur friends, etc. some ppl do got scare by them & dear & i again went laughin seein ppl's reaction. oops... i noe we r bad.
prob cos it was a day b4 halloween, thr were oso many ppl dressin up for d occasion. but bit too many mad scientist ard. guess it's d most easiest dressin. jus take labcoat & put some red paint on it & den wear it den will do. some put mask which i had evil tots. had scary make up at mouth area den cover w mask & so look quite normal but when d ghost wanna scare u, pull down ur mask & den viola... scare d ghost back. wahahaa...
anw, it's more fun to be able to walk ard d ghostly place rather than sittin on d tram w d ghost out in d open & u can see them comin. so tt's d only plus pt s compared to night safari. but night safari got better deco outside & more variety of ghosts & monsters lurking ard outside for ppl to take pic w.
if i d organizer, i guess, i would prob organized a even bigger, scarier, longer trails, etc. d theme to b inside an asylum & wax museum is nice but put in more kick. even d trail at d merlion can b longer like gg up d merlion & thr r many diff types of ghost/monster at each lvl up. smoke come at interval but not too intense, lightin can flicker, so on & off, so can see surroundin, & prob can see d looks of d ghost & prob d fragrant scent can oso come at interval & den wind blow once a while & at diff direction & d air con oso cool & off at unfixed interval. den ppl can feel d shiver & chill down their spine. & oso, i noticed tt thr were black curtains at d side & so, prob, thr will b more ghost suddenly jumped out fr d side & bring in even smaller gp for for trills though seein ppl scare can oso b fun.
i suddenly tot of pavlor's conditioning. prob initial of d trails, d scent, wind, cold air, smoke & flickerin comes b4 d ghost appear, den when everybody will get conditioned to expect tt, d ghost suddenlt come out b4 d those ext things appearin. & if d 2 gp got too close tgt, den thr shld b backup plan tt prob thr r 2 diff gp of ghost station say at d wax museum. so even if d behind gp saw d ghost, den since they will b prep den tehy will b scare by d 2nd gp of ghost. oops.. i evil right? den ve mroe variety of ghost & monster lurkin ard too. be it inside d trail or outstationed.
anw, i find d staff tee v cute. it's nice. d 3 size of chinese vampire in ascendin order fr d left. v interestin. shall see if sch bazaar got sell similar or not ba. for d whole events, it was more like a lol session rather than a screamin session for dear & me but i still wanna thank him for bringin me thr knowin tt i WAS a fan of horror & triller movies before.
& since d event took place at sentosa, prob they can oso come w a package whr ppl can get to go to other places of interest in the daytime den go for d spooktacular in d evening & ve d whole sentosa have a sort of halloween theme though other places wld be v less intense. imagine lyin on d beach w a pumpkin head at d side or walkin ard & seein some skeleton/etc hanging fr d tree. oopps... enough eenough... i think i zou huo ru mo alrdy. seemed like a marketin idea le when i only took a sem of HR mgmt & a sem of mgmt. but thinkin of these seemed much more interestin than sci. haha...
well, halloween is over... hope eevryone had fun...
when reached, d organizer had smoke & d floral fragrance to build up d atmosphere. however, thr weren't s many 'ghosts' floating around when we were thr. den, we went queuin for d merlion station. d gd thing is tt they also ctrl d no of ppl gg in at a time. thus, it wont b over crowded inside.
i was expectin more, like can go up d merlion & thr would be many ghost or monster ard to scare ppl but it was jus d bottom lvl. haiz... again, d organizer make use of smoke to build d atmosphere & oso d lighting but i find it overly done. too much smoke & too dark but can scare ppl who was not prep to have something jumpin out to scare u. but den... not gd for those w night blindness like me. in dark place i alrdy got prob seein well & d smoke made it worst.
can u imagine, i almost step on a ghost? if not cos d ghost make noise suddenly beside my leg wantin to probably pound on me, i guess i would ve step on him & instead of scared by him, i actually laughed cos i almost step prob on his hand since he was crawlin on d floor. den prob not i scream but d ghost scream. wahahaaa....
den, thr was a pt whr thr is some sort of beaded curtain kinda drop & behind was a ghost wantin to jump out to scare ppl. aft knowin tt, we slowed down to see those behind us got scared by d ghost. oh. for tt merlion trail, dear & i was d 1st to move. seein d ppl behind got scare, we kept laughin. anw, it was too dark for me to see how those ghost looked like. i only noe some got more eyes at d side of their face but other than tt, cant see at all. haiz
for d 2nd stn, it was in an aslyum. this time, we were in d middle & d gp of 4 behind got only a lady who kept tellin her friends tt she was scared & wanted to b in d middle. so i guess she was right behind me & she must ve followed me too closely tt she kept steppin on my slipper till it dropped. which made me v embarassed but soon i felt angry cos they nvr did they apologize but they refused to let me go back to take my slipper & kept blockin my path. so in d end, dear & i become d last of d gp. anw, prob cos behind oso got a ghost tryin to catch them so they kept wantin to move forward & thus blcokin me & oso cos they scare till duno they cos my slipper to drop.
but thanks to them. i oso had a great laugh. dear & i was lag behind by prob 1.5 to 2 m & s we were tryin to catch up, a ghost jump out of a cell & creep behind tt gp to scare them & seein them gettin scare make me laugh. to make things more hesterical, dear go & scare d ghost. prob due to d lag in distance, d ghost prob tot no one was behind & came out. needless did d ghost noe tt thr were 2 of us thr & so we caught it by surprised & when dear go & scare it, i could see tt it actually jumped when dear scare it. i ended up laughin v loudly for quite some time even aft we caught up w d gp. it must ve been d most embarassin moment for d ghost. lol... anw, d gp in front did turned to see wat i laugh & i don care if they think i laugh at them. hee...
anw, cos of tt, for d end of d trail & even at d 3rd & last trails, we wld slowed down at times to see other ppl's reaction & laugh when they jumped or run & scream. we r bad. we even siam for space for d ghost to move fr behind to scare those in front.
d last station was at d wax museum so some r real while some r fake. not easy to tell & they seemed well-trained to stand like statue tt s ppl r wonderin if they r real ppl or wax statue, d ghost will move & pound on them esp since it was dark & hard to tell fr real human.
for d 3 stations, i was also lookin ard since i nvr been into those place b4 but sad to say. it was too dark to really see well but i don think i will spend $$ to go in to see those places again s thr seemed nothing much inside.
frankly to say, i was expectin more so i was pretty disappointed. it was too dark & smokey & so cant even tell wat ghost is ard & their looks. every ghost like looked d same in d dark. face white white, panda eyes, blood stains & prob decomposed skin but cant really see. d trail was oso pretty short so d queue was longer than d actual scares.
& s compared to d night safari, sentosa only seemed to ve only ghost & no monsters & all d ghost look pretty much similar but dressed differently. d jap ghost seeemd scare of takin pic. ran away when we wanna take pic w it & it ran to scare ppl instead. haiz... & oso, thr were many indian ghost ard. d funny thing is tt thr is oso a ghost of a chinese taoist priest. seemed like he can cao du other ghost but not himself. lol...
well, thr r oso some ghost tt will come into d queue & scare ppl. it will suddenly stand behind u s u chat w ur friends, etc. some ppl do got scare by them & dear & i again went laughin seein ppl's reaction. oops... i noe we r bad.
prob cos it was a day b4 halloween, thr were oso many ppl dressin up for d occasion. but bit too many mad scientist ard. guess it's d most easiest dressin. jus take labcoat & put some red paint on it & den wear it den will do. some put mask which i had evil tots. had scary make up at mouth area den cover w mask & so look quite normal but when d ghost wanna scare u, pull down ur mask & den viola... scare d ghost back. wahahaa...
anw, it's more fun to be able to walk ard d ghostly place rather than sittin on d tram w d ghost out in d open & u can see them comin. so tt's d only plus pt s compared to night safari. but night safari got better deco outside & more variety of ghosts & monsters lurking ard outside for ppl to take pic w.
if i d organizer, i guess, i would prob organized a even bigger, scarier, longer trails, etc. d theme to b inside an asylum & wax museum is nice but put in more kick. even d trail at d merlion can b longer like gg up d merlion & thr r many diff types of ghost/monster at each lvl up. smoke come at interval but not too intense, lightin can flicker, so on & off, so can see surroundin, & prob can see d looks of d ghost & prob d fragrant scent can oso come at interval & den wind blow once a while & at diff direction & d air con oso cool & off at unfixed interval. den ppl can feel d shiver & chill down their spine. & oso, i noticed tt thr were black curtains at d side & so, prob, thr will b more ghost suddenly jumped out fr d side & bring in even smaller gp for for trills though seein ppl scare can oso b fun.
i suddenly tot of pavlor's conditioning. prob initial of d trails, d scent, wind, cold air, smoke & flickerin comes b4 d ghost appear, den when everybody will get conditioned to expect tt, d ghost suddenlt come out b4 d those ext things appearin. & if d 2 gp got too close tgt, den thr shld b backup plan tt prob thr r 2 diff gp of ghost station say at d wax museum. so even if d behind gp saw d ghost, den since they will b prep den tehy will b scare by d 2nd gp of ghost. oops.. i evil right? den ve mroe variety of ghost & monster lurkin ard too. be it inside d trail or outstationed.
anw, i find d staff tee v cute. it's nice. d 3 size of chinese vampire in ascendin order fr d left. v interestin. shall see if sch bazaar got sell similar or not ba. for d whole events, it was more like a lol session rather than a screamin session for dear & me but i still wanna thank him for bringin me thr knowin tt i WAS a fan of horror & triller movies before.
& since d event took place at sentosa, prob they can oso come w a package whr ppl can get to go to other places of interest in the daytime den go for d spooktacular in d evening & ve d whole sentosa have a sort of halloween theme though other places wld be v less intense. imagine lyin on d beach w a pumpkin head at d side or walkin ard & seein some skeleton/etc hanging fr d tree. oopps... enough eenough... i think i zou huo ru mo alrdy. seemed like a marketin idea le when i only took a sem of HR mgmt & a sem of mgmt. but thinkin of these seemed much more interestin than sci. haha...
well, halloween is over... hope eevryone had fun...
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
thanks to cpf
hmm... i wld like to thk cpf board for d screw up... ^^$^%*^(* thanks for helpin decreasin my savin faster...
previously for my poly 3 yr course, used my dad's cpf to pay sch fee & dad ask me pay him back slowly s i need to return him aft i graduate. luckily he asked me pay min amt every mth... if not... cant imagine hw i gonna survive d followin few mths...
jus check my transaction history & found a puzzling issue. cpf board had been deductin d amt i suppose to return dad every mth since d last record i could see via d transaction history on ibanking & thr was a EDU kinda code so made me suspect it's their screw up.
luckily i kept d statement which was mail to me cos i seldom go update my passbook & my ibankin was applied only reccently. found tt they really start d deduction since jun which was 3 yr aft i go back to study & tt was d norm duration of uni study. i cant imagine if d amt was much more. think not b4 long, i gotta eat grass le...
anw, i don think i'll tell dad or check w cpf ba. since amt not tt much, & aft doin calculation, think i might still b able to survive another 7 mths b4 i graduate & find a job. but tt is if thr r no sudden need of $$ or unavoidable extra expenditure... haiz...
but even if everything smooth, think i gonna end up w almost 0 savin & had to start all fr scratch so i must really find & do whateevr job i can get & not b picky. i cant afford to rot for too long. so think for these few mths, better try eat cheaper lunch in sch le.
tokin bout eatin, i been crazy these few days... can get hungry till i v weak & tremble & can feel gonna blackout if suddenly stand up. last time, only once a blue moon will like tt & i rmbr my blood glucose & pressure ok cos i tested b4 but not nw la. but these few days since last week, it's a bit far too frequent le ba. jus nw i give a tot to go do health check & blood test & den prob go see tcm, etc s i really easily feel cold till fingertips & toes turn blue & shiver more aft i come out fr bath. my body really seem too weak le & easily kanna headache oso. but w limited savins nw, i not tt sure if i shld go see d doc & tcm... can my body wait till 7 mths ltr if i can rest more? but i noe health more impt. yet... it's still a tough decision...
previously for my poly 3 yr course, used my dad's cpf to pay sch fee & dad ask me pay him back slowly s i need to return him aft i graduate. luckily he asked me pay min amt every mth... if not... cant imagine hw i gonna survive d followin few mths...
jus check my transaction history & found a puzzling issue. cpf board had been deductin d amt i suppose to return dad every mth since d last record i could see via d transaction history on ibanking & thr was a EDU kinda code so made me suspect it's their screw up.
luckily i kept d statement which was mail to me cos i seldom go update my passbook & my ibankin was applied only reccently. found tt they really start d deduction since jun which was 3 yr aft i go back to study & tt was d norm duration of uni study. i cant imagine if d amt was much more. think not b4 long, i gotta eat grass le...
anw, i don think i'll tell dad or check w cpf ba. since amt not tt much, & aft doin calculation, think i might still b able to survive another 7 mths b4 i graduate & find a job. but tt is if thr r no sudden need of $$ or unavoidable extra expenditure... haiz...
but even if everything smooth, think i gonna end up w almost 0 savin & had to start all fr scratch so i must really find & do whateevr job i can get & not b picky. i cant afford to rot for too long. so think for these few mths, better try eat cheaper lunch in sch le.
tokin bout eatin, i been crazy these few days... can get hungry till i v weak & tremble & can feel gonna blackout if suddenly stand up. last time, only once a blue moon will like tt & i rmbr my blood glucose & pressure ok cos i tested b4 but not nw la. but these few days since last week, it's a bit far too frequent le ba. jus nw i give a tot to go do health check & blood test & den prob go see tcm, etc s i really easily feel cold till fingertips & toes turn blue & shiver more aft i come out fr bath. my body really seem too weak le & easily kanna headache oso. but w limited savins nw, i not tt sure if i shld go see d doc & tcm... can my body wait till 7 mths ltr if i can rest more? but i noe health more impt. yet... it's still a tough decision...
down on luck
WTH... WTF... y all d electronic stuffs seem to wanna oppose me? eveything seemed to give me prob 1 aft another since end aug...
1st, my samsung omnia i900 phone which went dead on messagin so i end up usin an old sony k750i which got 'C' button missin
2nd, my sony k750i phone 'back' button went missin but luckily my mobile plan can upgrade & dad got me an iphone 4 so tot everything peaceful
den, 3rd, my miobox give me prob in midst of online discussion in d middle of d nite when my gp & i was in rush to prep presentation & Q&A & d prob lasted for days w me skippin classes, & work, etc to try to solve it for days
so everything shld b finally at peace right? got new phone, new miobox... but...
today, i not sure if it's cos of me droppin my iphone by accident at ard 6.45 am? it went dead on me at ard 7.45 am when i plug my ear piece to listen to my mp3. if really tt prob, den y i can still call & exchanged quite a few sms b4 i go out for sch? & to make things worst, it went dead when i alrdy out of hm...
i in dilemma then cos i'll b v late if i go back hm & i d 1st person to sign out for d keyboard, etc for d discussion area which d lib known s learnin pod. yet i cant think well then... only noe i need to get to sch to log in for d learnin pod so i can only think tt even if i get old phone oso no use cos d sim card for iphone was much smaller than normal sim card... yet i feel super no gd cos i'm totally out of contact tt i decided to rush back hm aft rmbrin i still got d hk sim card which i hope it didn't expire.
thus, aft log-in for d learnin pod, rush hm. managed to find a nice cab uncle who chat w me on my journey back & even wait for me downstairs while i go hm to find my phone & hk sim. he didn't even collect any money for d trip fr sch cos he said he trust me. anw, b4 he volunteered to wait, i did tot of tt actually. don make so much diff cos he wait will charge $$ but if i take another cab will oso got d additional $$ when get in & i'll ve to wait for another cab. since tt uncle volunteered, i agreed.
in d end, didn't wan mum noe but when i wanna dig for my phone & sim, she keep standin behind to see & i'd to try to chase her to do her things but she still come back in again. so even aft i found d phone, i cant check if d sim is inside & had to hide inside d bathrm to check. yet, i cant seemed to call out, etc so i was worried tt d hk prepaid sim had expired which was really d case s i fail to call my friend to test when i was finally in sch. it really felt sucks when everything seems to go wrong. luckily d discussion followed by lunch got joke ard to make my day feel better.
aft lunch, while my friends go back, i went to 7-eleven to get a prepaid sim card cos i'm totally out of contact. well, not tt many ppl would contact me but i would need to be contactable if needed be esp dear. he at work & not sure when he b back & he did say he would meet me but whr would i b when he finish work? would i b hm by den? would his mom prep dinner yet i go all d way hm & in d end my mum oso prep my dinner? or would i b at d service centre?
anw, tokin bout service centre, apple didn't seemed to ve any service centre tt can b found fr d apple website & singapore only got retailer & not d main apple shop. so i can only either go to 1 of d shop to check or check w d telcom but was worried i got referred to here & thr fr d news of d broken glass panel for d backin of d phone.
i oso found tt d warranty is so limited tt it exclude fault cos by accident & yet i can hear something loose inside my phone when i shake it almost beside my ears so i was worried tt they will conclude tt it's cos by accident & wan me pay. iphone is a nice phone to use. 1 of d nicer phone w nice customize applications to load. yet seein all these limitation in warranty & no service centre make me actually regret gettin d phone. shld ve gotten mayb nokia or something s reliable w easier access of support, etc but no point to regret nw.
in d end, w d prepaid card, call m1 service ctr (i'd been a 'fan' of customer service ctr recently) & d 1st person i tok to actually say tt i shld get my dad to bring d phone to m1 customer service ctr at think paragon or so. -.-" i purposely don wanna tell esp cos i drop d phone which my dad got for me. he sure will b angry & grumble & nag non-stopped for v long period of time. tt's y i don like him to buy such things for me cos i'll feel more stress. tt's oso y i'd been payin my own bill so tt i no need to ans to him on hw i use, etc. & it'll b worst if really not covered by warranty & we gotta pay for d servicing.
howeevr, lucky me. d 2nd person i was put to which was apparently d support for iphone prob teache to do a hard reset by pressin d power & d home button till d apple logo appear on d screen & it worked. thus, i no need ask dad go down & he wont noe. tt's y when i go back hm, didn't wanna let mum noe my phone got prob.
though i managed to solve & revive my phone, it was too late cos i alrdy made a wasted trip back home & took my old phones & d expired hk sim which i end up oso like phoneless.furthermore, i went to get d prepaid card & made a wrong decision to get d $15 card w a value of $18 instead of d $8 card w a value of $10. tt's cos i not sure when i'll get back my phone & it'll b even wasteful if i wanna get d top-up value card again. in d end, my iphone was revived & i think my prepaid card still got $15+ value. so i spend unnecessary $24 for d cab & another $7 for a more valued prepaid sim.
but... at least d prob is solved which is better than gettin screwed by my parents. tt $$ could ve been my lunch for mayb 10 days but wat to do? luckily i got d small sum of $$ fr d bursary which i applied & d part-time work i got nw. all i can hope for is tt i can last till i graduate. if can till then, be gd enough but may not ve $$ for a graduation trip which ppl advice me to s i would not b able to take long leave once started workin. but i can see my $$ is gettin lesser & lesser. stress fr sch, stress financially, & stress fr hm & den all these electronic stuffs givin me prob. wish i'm a kampong gal so i can no need all these stuff. den use 飞鸽传书 will do. if fail still got 鸽子to bbq & eat & yet no need spend so much $$ & time on all the troubles...
hope everything b alright & smooth fr nw... been really down on my luck in term of all these electronic faults... ^*&^$%%$
1st, my samsung omnia i900 phone which went dead on messagin so i end up usin an old sony k750i which got 'C' button missin
2nd, my sony k750i phone 'back' button went missin but luckily my mobile plan can upgrade & dad got me an iphone 4 so tot everything peaceful
den, 3rd, my miobox give me prob in midst of online discussion in d middle of d nite when my gp & i was in rush to prep presentation & Q&A & d prob lasted for days w me skippin classes, & work, etc to try to solve it for days
so everything shld b finally at peace right? got new phone, new miobox... but...
today, i not sure if it's cos of me droppin my iphone by accident at ard 6.45 am? it went dead on me at ard 7.45 am when i plug my ear piece to listen to my mp3. if really tt prob, den y i can still call & exchanged quite a few sms b4 i go out for sch? & to make things worst, it went dead when i alrdy out of hm...
i in dilemma then cos i'll b v late if i go back hm & i d 1st person to sign out for d keyboard, etc for d discussion area which d lib known s learnin pod. yet i cant think well then... only noe i need to get to sch to log in for d learnin pod so i can only think tt even if i get old phone oso no use cos d sim card for iphone was much smaller than normal sim card... yet i feel super no gd cos i'm totally out of contact tt i decided to rush back hm aft rmbrin i still got d hk sim card which i hope it didn't expire.
thus, aft log-in for d learnin pod, rush hm. managed to find a nice cab uncle who chat w me on my journey back & even wait for me downstairs while i go hm to find my phone & hk sim. he didn't even collect any money for d trip fr sch cos he said he trust me. anw, b4 he volunteered to wait, i did tot of tt actually. don make so much diff cos he wait will charge $$ but if i take another cab will oso got d additional $$ when get in & i'll ve to wait for another cab. since tt uncle volunteered, i agreed.
in d end, didn't wan mum noe but when i wanna dig for my phone & sim, she keep standin behind to see & i'd to try to chase her to do her things but she still come back in again. so even aft i found d phone, i cant check if d sim is inside & had to hide inside d bathrm to check. yet, i cant seemed to call out, etc so i was worried tt d hk prepaid sim had expired which was really d case s i fail to call my friend to test when i was finally in sch. it really felt sucks when everything seems to go wrong. luckily d discussion followed by lunch got joke ard to make my day feel better.
aft lunch, while my friends go back, i went to 7-eleven to get a prepaid sim card cos i'm totally out of contact. well, not tt many ppl would contact me but i would need to be contactable if needed be esp dear. he at work & not sure when he b back & he did say he would meet me but whr would i b when he finish work? would i b hm by den? would his mom prep dinner yet i go all d way hm & in d end my mum oso prep my dinner? or would i b at d service centre?
anw, tokin bout service centre, apple didn't seemed to ve any service centre tt can b found fr d apple website & singapore only got retailer & not d main apple shop. so i can only either go to 1 of d shop to check or check w d telcom but was worried i got referred to here & thr fr d news of d broken glass panel for d backin of d phone.
i oso found tt d warranty is so limited tt it exclude fault cos by accident & yet i can hear something loose inside my phone when i shake it almost beside my ears so i was worried tt they will conclude tt it's cos by accident & wan me pay. iphone is a nice phone to use. 1 of d nicer phone w nice customize applications to load. yet seein all these limitation in warranty & no service centre make me actually regret gettin d phone. shld ve gotten mayb nokia or something s reliable w easier access of support, etc but no point to regret nw.
in d end, w d prepaid card, call m1 service ctr (i'd been a 'fan' of customer service ctr recently) & d 1st person i tok to actually say tt i shld get my dad to bring d phone to m1 customer service ctr at think paragon or so. -.-" i purposely don wanna tell esp cos i drop d phone which my dad got for me. he sure will b angry & grumble & nag non-stopped for v long period of time. tt's y i don like him to buy such things for me cos i'll feel more stress. tt's oso y i'd been payin my own bill so tt i no need to ans to him on hw i use, etc. & it'll b worst if really not covered by warranty & we gotta pay for d servicing.
howeevr, lucky me. d 2nd person i was put to which was apparently d support for iphone prob teache to do a hard reset by pressin d power & d home button till d apple logo appear on d screen & it worked. thus, i no need ask dad go down & he wont noe. tt's y when i go back hm, didn't wanna let mum noe my phone got prob.
though i managed to solve & revive my phone, it was too late cos i alrdy made a wasted trip back home & took my old phones & d expired hk sim which i end up oso like phoneless.furthermore, i went to get d prepaid card & made a wrong decision to get d $15 card w a value of $18 instead of d $8 card w a value of $10. tt's cos i not sure when i'll get back my phone & it'll b even wasteful if i wanna get d top-up value card again. in d end, my iphone was revived & i think my prepaid card still got $15+ value. so i spend unnecessary $24 for d cab & another $7 for a more valued prepaid sim.
but... at least d prob is solved which is better than gettin screwed by my parents. tt $$ could ve been my lunch for mayb 10 days but wat to do? luckily i got d small sum of $$ fr d bursary which i applied & d part-time work i got nw. all i can hope for is tt i can last till i graduate. if can till then, be gd enough but may not ve $$ for a graduation trip which ppl advice me to s i would not b able to take long leave once started workin. but i can see my $$ is gettin lesser & lesser. stress fr sch, stress financially, & stress fr hm & den all these electronic stuffs givin me prob. wish i'm a kampong gal so i can no need all these stuff. den use 飞鸽传书 will do. if fail still got 鸽子to bbq & eat & yet no need spend so much $$ & time on all the troubles...
hope everything b alright & smooth fr nw... been really down on my luck in term of all these electronic faults... ^*&^$%%$
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
blacklist
wth is gg on??? is it d miobox prob again???
jus nw since 10pm when i online discussin assignment w friends i keep d/c fr my msn & once a while will show prob w my IE oso.
usually when tt kinda prob happen, i jus click reboot, etc den prob b solve & will only come once a while & i alrdy sian but today, d prob was persistant... keep comin... make me unsure when i'm connected when i'm not...
anw, jus nw check & found tt my home phone dead... guess it's really d miobox prob ba. i wanna blacklist singtel internet le... nvr tried starhub or other services... if not cos i gonna b broke soon & i gotta make sure my money can last me another 8 mth +/- b4 i got a job, i guess i wld go sign up for a mobile internet. think tt one 20++ will ve le but i cant afford such additional expenditure nw la.
but when times like nw, when i need to discuss assignment/etc, it's really inconvenient not to have internet. luckily 1 of my repeat module is 100% exam based if not hw m i gonna discuss online which will count to d CA grades...
w d continuous d/c prob, i could only think of a solution but den, it's not possible. i tot i could go to dear's hse to use d internet to discuss but den he alrdy went to bed. i cant possibly jus go thr & knock knock when his parents shld b in bed too unless he's still awake to help me open d door.
so i can only wait till tml mornin see if d miobox & phone line ok or will ve to call d singtel ppl. i super hate making calls tt need to press other no to proceed. i hate it since my omnia but thanks to singtel, i'd made countless of calls le lah.
i wanna blacklist samsung mobile phones, singtel broadband, etc. super cannot make it...
jus nw since 10pm when i online discussin assignment w friends i keep d/c fr my msn & once a while will show prob w my IE oso.
usually when tt kinda prob happen, i jus click reboot, etc den prob b solve & will only come once a while & i alrdy sian but today, d prob was persistant... keep comin... make me unsure when i'm connected when i'm not...
anw, jus nw check & found tt my home phone dead... guess it's really d miobox prob ba. i wanna blacklist singtel internet le... nvr tried starhub or other services... if not cos i gonna b broke soon & i gotta make sure my money can last me another 8 mth +/- b4 i got a job, i guess i wld go sign up for a mobile internet. think tt one 20++ will ve le but i cant afford such additional expenditure nw la.
but when times like nw, when i need to discuss assignment/etc, it's really inconvenient not to have internet. luckily 1 of my repeat module is 100% exam based if not hw m i gonna discuss online which will count to d CA grades...
w d continuous d/c prob, i could only think of a solution but den, it's not possible. i tot i could go to dear's hse to use d internet to discuss but den he alrdy went to bed. i cant possibly jus go thr & knock knock when his parents shld b in bed too unless he's still awake to help me open d door.
so i can only wait till tml mornin see if d miobox & phone line ok or will ve to call d singtel ppl. i super hate making calls tt need to press other no to proceed. i hate it since my omnia but thanks to singtel, i'd made countless of calls le lah.
i wanna blacklist samsung mobile phones, singtel broadband, etc. super cannot make it...
Saturday, 9 October 2010
恩爱
ytd durin assignment discussion, a friend borrowed my phone to play. he browse ard himself & played d angry bird game. lol... den he tried to call his friend usin facetime which i dono wat it is. apparently, accordin to him, tt one use wifi & so not charged usin d video call, etc.
well, s he took it over & all my friend realized tt i had put photos at d back of d phone & s d photo was dear & me, my friend commented, '你们需要这么恩爱吗?' lol... hmm... at least we r rather than bo chap of each other right?
就让让我啦... lol... cos at times can b a long while den can see him lah... he workin shift & sometimes had to go back or stay back or go earlier when he didn't need to. den i oso at times got my mtg though nw try to skip s much s possible for more time in studies.
anw, my wallet oso got pic w my parents la... jus tt, tt one is laminated so sized too big to put behind my phone. well, i got d idea fr 1 of d advert in fb whr ppl can customized d casin for their iphone w photos, etc. of course tt one exp la. so i decided to get d transparent casin & put in d photo myself. a cheapo version but i had a personalized casin. haha... it's easy to get it done so anyone all can try too. haha...
well, s he took it over & all my friend realized tt i had put photos at d back of d phone & s d photo was dear & me, my friend commented, '你们需要这么恩爱吗?' lol... hmm... at least we r rather than bo chap of each other right?
就让让我啦... lol... cos at times can b a long while den can see him lah... he workin shift & sometimes had to go back or stay back or go earlier when he didn't need to. den i oso at times got my mtg though nw try to skip s much s possible for more time in studies.
anw, my wallet oso got pic w my parents la... jus tt, tt one is laminated so sized too big to put behind my phone. well, i got d idea fr 1 of d advert in fb whr ppl can customized d casin for their iphone w photos, etc. of course tt one exp la. so i decided to get d transparent casin & put in d photo myself. a cheapo version but i had a personalized casin. haha... it's easy to get it done so anyone all can try too. haha...
Wednesday, 6 October 2010
departure
recently, thr always been sad news. 1st was Dr Goh Keng Swee, den Dr Balaji, den nw wife of MM Lee. everyone seem to cant avoid 生老病死... it'll b esp tough to those who were left behind.
well, i not into political stuffs so i m not feel s much s others but mayb cos since young, i had always been hearin MM Lee's name s i shared d same birth date s him & coincidentally, i'm oso fr 'Lee' family, so guess tt made me feel slightly more ba.
jus read d last parting words fr MM Lee for his wife & it touches me... being a modern woman is not easy. being a woman behind a successful man is oso not easy but she had done it well esp when it had not been a easy path for her for these last few yrs.
anw, jus hope all these departure will end for now... it's really saddenin to hear such news though everyone will eventually walk tt path...
well, i not into political stuffs so i m not feel s much s others but mayb cos since young, i had always been hearin MM Lee's name s i shared d same birth date s him & coincidentally, i'm oso fr 'Lee' family, so guess tt made me feel slightly more ba.
jus read d last parting words fr MM Lee for his wife & it touches me... being a modern woman is not easy. being a woman behind a successful man is oso not easy but she had done it well esp when it had not been a easy path for her for these last few yrs.
anw, jus hope all these departure will end for now... it's really saddenin to hear such news though everyone will eventually walk tt path...
Sunday, 3 October 2010
enjoyable sat
fri didn't go sch at all but almost went but still i no go cos if i go, i jus wanna help ppl get d kongfu notebook but i oso not sure bazaar still on or not so no pt gg. ask a couple of friends & end up found my xiao mei who would get for me if still ve. thanks xiao mei though u didn't managed to find & get for me.
whole day of fri, not productive cos simply jus didn't wish to do serious work. in d end, when it got late & s i tot tt i would b meetin friend & parents wont b home d next day & b gg out in d evenin w dear, decided to do my assignment aft 10 pm. do till i got stuck & ask my friend to decipher d Qs & completed it le. haha...
but... i do till almost 3 am den i cant get to slp. prob cos brain workin till so late, den position not right cos i slp on d top mattress s grandma came over stay. cant slp usual position cos my bolster/pillow sure dropped down s i don ve much space w my big teddy bear slpin w me...
& end up overslp & met my friend late. but had a great start for d day. met dear aft tt & had an hr + nap in d afternoon. nice to b able to slp at ease w d assignment done & parents not hm.
late afternoon, went out w dear. went to newton food ctr for dinner. my 1st time thr eat. no go thr on purpose cos we wont purposely go somewhr to eat. it's was cos of a event which he signed up for us & d pick up pt was thr. d time for pick up was 6.45 so cant possible eat 5+ den go out & since it's a food ctr thr, we go thr dinner.
d event we signed up for was 'API couple haunting trail'. initially i was wonderin wat API was. den i found out tt it was asia paranormal investigators. sound cool... haha... anw, d whole trip, tgt w ~20 other couples, we were brought to bukit brown cemetry, kampong lorong buangkok, metilder house, a place near d world war II site of punggol whr thr r some urns at d rd side, & went to look at old changi hospital.
when i heard tt we gg bukit brown cemetry, it didn't strike me at all but when heard it's near farrer rd & adam rd, i wondered if it's d same place tt i went every yr s it was whr my grandfather, greatgrandfather, great great grandparents were buried. in d end, coincidently, it was d same cemetry. s we walked d other side, i couldn't go to pay respect to my grandfather. anw, i go thr every yr yet i didn't noe tt thr was another way in. & i oso dono tt thr was a small wooden kampong hut left behind. not exactly left behind la. still got ppl stayin, to look aft d cemetry. den saw a big tomb hut. though i noe tt d ancesters of our minister Lee was thr & it seemed to be pretty near my great great grandparents, jus tt i cant rmbr which. i was still surprised tt my ancesters were actually 'neighbours' w many of d famous ppl like those whr d rd r named aft them & tt cemetry was d 1st burial ground oso. wow... didn't noe got such a history...
we were den brought to d last standin kampong in sg whr 1 of d hse was used to film local ghost/kidnap drama/movies. it was stated tt d ghost story tt jack neo film was thr & it took longer than initial plan due to an unexpect electric cut down or so. & guess wat... think tt was d cheapest hse rental. a smaller hse cost like $6++/mth while a bigger hse cost $30++/mth to rent. if one likes to train up courage & experience kampong lives & save money... tt's not a bad choice. haha...
we were den told of metilder hse myth which was stated in punggol. it was heard tt it was d only hse tt cant b tore down while tt estate was under big development & so eventually it was b somewhr in btw d blocks of flats, etc. anw, d myth was tt long ago, when ppl wanted to tear down, d person died & even those medical assistance tt came along w think stretcher, d stretcher oso spoilt. well, d myth might not b true s d hse might b preserve to prevent total lost & might end up be renovated & used up s RC ctr etc.
den d API brought us further in to somewhr near d world war II site at punggol to show us urns at d rd side near d tree. it was said tt some huge trees hse evil spirit & ppl do keep d dead thr s servant, etc for d spirit to get something in returns. s d place was under revamp, d remaining of d urns might not b able to last long thr anymore. well, can u imagine, jus days ago, went thr w my parents & passed by tt rd but nvr notice those urns since hw on earth do i noe tt thr is such a legend...
d API den brought us to old changi hospital whr it stated tt thr is no montuary & thus thr might b tunnel & tt d old A&E might b at d bottom of d hill & so thr might b tunnel to bring d patient up... i had heard tt old changi hospital was haunted but i oso heard tt it was unaccessable. in d end, actually certain place was still accessible until aft d filmin of d haunted changi. thus, we can only see d place fr outside. too bad... went too late... if go b4 d filmin & fencin up, mayb can go in take a look.
anw, it was an interestin trip which let me noe more bout sg history... thanks dear for signin up & bringin me thr. had a fruitful evenin though had to trek & some of d path was wet & bit muddy. nvm tt cos i wore d slipper tt can wash easily. haha...
durin d trip, oso heard bout d tunnel at labrador park but tt one i noe when i was in sec sch & had seen it personally. i may not like to b in d wild w those creature (like insects la) & dirts & worried of fallin, but think mayb if i'm expose more, i would grow to like it. thr was always a curious cat inside me. previously, when labrador park was not revamp & access was free, saw a gateway leadin to duno whr. dad wanted to go in but i didn't cos it was dark & we werent prepared. well, i regret not gg den cos nw think must pay to get into labrador park or so ba. haiz... think so long s i'm in a right attire & equiped w d necessary things, i would love to explore ard like wat d API said. he said tt thr r many hidden places tt he had found but not suitable for today's trip. haiz... hw i wish can go check out all today...
anw, though today was a haunting trail, it was more like bringin us to place tt was suppose to b haunted or thr was some story behind. & every couple was given a torch oso but i end up d/l torchlight in my iPhone 4. cos certain path, gotta go single-file... den... i think i seriously got night blindness esp aft seein bright & den get to dark. v hard to adjust & so not so easy to see my path. though in btw dear's leg, got some light s he was walkin in front leadin me. so i jus my own torch fr my iPhone to see. i really grow to love my new phone but wat can i do to get better fr my night blindness... it was a hinderance lor...
oh ya... at d cemetry, we passed by a well which d API told us tt ppl do evil things. made my curious cat come out & went to look. i expected it to be filled w things like say, bones, etc but ended up it was jus rubbish. ya. i admit tt throwin rubbish thr was not right but mayb i think too much. when i saw wat was inside, i almost say 'chey' out loud... & i kinda felt cheated... lol...
aft got home, went for supper w 5 stick of satay & a wing. & most of d time, i nvr take pic. 1, my camera quality not gd at takin night shot, 2, don wanna disturb d dead though i still believed tt if i no do evil, i no need scare. 3, i believd tt if i don disturb them, they oso won disturb me. i only take a few pic of d kampong. anw, i ve to admit tt takin pic of d yellow tower did give me some goosebump. well, mayb if i brought another cam w night vision mode, mayb i might take more pic but wat to do? nvr tot of it tt way so it's too late.
well, shall go slp le. nw almost 4 am le...
whole day of fri, not productive cos simply jus didn't wish to do serious work. in d end, when it got late & s i tot tt i would b meetin friend & parents wont b home d next day & b gg out in d evenin w dear, decided to do my assignment aft 10 pm. do till i got stuck & ask my friend to decipher d Qs & completed it le. haha...
but... i do till almost 3 am den i cant get to slp. prob cos brain workin till so late, den position not right cos i slp on d top mattress s grandma came over stay. cant slp usual position cos my bolster/pillow sure dropped down s i don ve much space w my big teddy bear slpin w me...
& end up overslp & met my friend late. but had a great start for d day. met dear aft tt & had an hr + nap in d afternoon. nice to b able to slp at ease w d assignment done & parents not hm.
late afternoon, went out w dear. went to newton food ctr for dinner. my 1st time thr eat. no go thr on purpose cos we wont purposely go somewhr to eat. it's was cos of a event which he signed up for us & d pick up pt was thr. d time for pick up was 6.45 so cant possible eat 5+ den go out & since it's a food ctr thr, we go thr dinner.
d event we signed up for was 'API couple haunting trail'. initially i was wonderin wat API was. den i found out tt it was asia paranormal investigators. sound cool... haha... anw, d whole trip, tgt w ~20 other couples, we were brought to bukit brown cemetry, kampong lorong buangkok, metilder house, a place near d world war II site of punggol whr thr r some urns at d rd side, & went to look at old changi hospital.
when i heard tt we gg bukit brown cemetry, it didn't strike me at all but when heard it's near farrer rd & adam rd, i wondered if it's d same place tt i went every yr s it was whr my grandfather, greatgrandfather, great great grandparents were buried. in d end, coincidently, it was d same cemetry. s we walked d other side, i couldn't go to pay respect to my grandfather. anw, i go thr every yr yet i didn't noe tt thr was another way in. & i oso dono tt thr was a small wooden kampong hut left behind. not exactly left behind la. still got ppl stayin, to look aft d cemetry. den saw a big tomb hut. though i noe tt d ancesters of our minister Lee was thr & it seemed to be pretty near my great great grandparents, jus tt i cant rmbr which. i was still surprised tt my ancesters were actually 'neighbours' w many of d famous ppl like those whr d rd r named aft them & tt cemetry was d 1st burial ground oso. wow... didn't noe got such a history...
we were den brought to d last standin kampong in sg whr 1 of d hse was used to film local ghost/kidnap drama/movies. it was stated tt d ghost story tt jack neo film was thr & it took longer than initial plan due to an unexpect electric cut down or so. & guess wat... think tt was d cheapest hse rental. a smaller hse cost like $6++/mth while a bigger hse cost $30++/mth to rent. if one likes to train up courage & experience kampong lives & save money... tt's not a bad choice. haha...
we were den told of metilder hse myth which was stated in punggol. it was heard tt it was d only hse tt cant b tore down while tt estate was under big development & so eventually it was b somewhr in btw d blocks of flats, etc. anw, d myth was tt long ago, when ppl wanted to tear down, d person died & even those medical assistance tt came along w think stretcher, d stretcher oso spoilt. well, d myth might not b true s d hse might b preserve to prevent total lost & might end up be renovated & used up s RC ctr etc.
den d API brought us further in to somewhr near d world war II site at punggol to show us urns at d rd side near d tree. it was said tt some huge trees hse evil spirit & ppl do keep d dead thr s servant, etc for d spirit to get something in returns. s d place was under revamp, d remaining of d urns might not b able to last long thr anymore. well, can u imagine, jus days ago, went thr w my parents & passed by tt rd but nvr notice those urns since hw on earth do i noe tt thr is such a legend...
d API den brought us to old changi hospital whr it stated tt thr is no montuary & thus thr might b tunnel & tt d old A&E might b at d bottom of d hill & so thr might b tunnel to bring d patient up... i had heard tt old changi hospital was haunted but i oso heard tt it was unaccessable. in d end, actually certain place was still accessible until aft d filmin of d haunted changi. thus, we can only see d place fr outside. too bad... went too late... if go b4 d filmin & fencin up, mayb can go in take a look.
anw, it was an interestin trip which let me noe more bout sg history... thanks dear for signin up & bringin me thr. had a fruitful evenin though had to trek & some of d path was wet & bit muddy. nvm tt cos i wore d slipper tt can wash easily. haha...
durin d trip, oso heard bout d tunnel at labrador park but tt one i noe when i was in sec sch & had seen it personally. i may not like to b in d wild w those creature (like insects la) & dirts & worried of fallin, but think mayb if i'm expose more, i would grow to like it. thr was always a curious cat inside me. previously, when labrador park was not revamp & access was free, saw a gateway leadin to duno whr. dad wanted to go in but i didn't cos it was dark & we werent prepared. well, i regret not gg den cos nw think must pay to get into labrador park or so ba. haiz... think so long s i'm in a right attire & equiped w d necessary things, i would love to explore ard like wat d API said. he said tt thr r many hidden places tt he had found but not suitable for today's trip. haiz... hw i wish can go check out all today...
anw, though today was a haunting trail, it was more like bringin us to place tt was suppose to b haunted or thr was some story behind. & every couple was given a torch oso but i end up d/l torchlight in my iPhone 4. cos certain path, gotta go single-file... den... i think i seriously got night blindness esp aft seein bright & den get to dark. v hard to adjust & so not so easy to see my path. though in btw dear's leg, got some light s he was walkin in front leadin me. so i jus my own torch fr my iPhone to see. i really grow to love my new phone but wat can i do to get better fr my night blindness... it was a hinderance lor...
oh ya... at d cemetry, we passed by a well which d API told us tt ppl do evil things. made my curious cat come out & went to look. i expected it to be filled w things like say, bones, etc but ended up it was jus rubbish. ya. i admit tt throwin rubbish thr was not right but mayb i think too much. when i saw wat was inside, i almost say 'chey' out loud... & i kinda felt cheated... lol...
aft got home, went for supper w 5 stick of satay & a wing. & most of d time, i nvr take pic. 1, my camera quality not gd at takin night shot, 2, don wanna disturb d dead though i still believed tt if i no do evil, i no need scare. 3, i believd tt if i don disturb them, they oso won disturb me. i only take a few pic of d kampong. anw, i ve to admit tt takin pic of d yellow tower did give me some goosebump. well, mayb if i brought another cam w night vision mode, mayb i might take more pic but wat to do? nvr tot of it tt way so it's too late.
well, shall go slp le. nw almost 4 am le...
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
whr can i find nice quiet environment
shoudl i go school to do my report? but sittin at benches outside b v hot... yet i scare in lib, too cold & i headache again... thus, decided to stay hm since cousins not ard in morning... but.... mum on her sound sys loud again... aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh........................
but w d disturbance i cant think well & summarize................. sianzzzzzzzz & i don ve my textbooks w me when i in sch esp if i not in d lib... f***...
but w d disturbance i cant think well & summarize................. sianzzzzzzzz & i don ve my textbooks w me when i in sch esp if i not in d lib... f***...
Monday, 27 September 2010
head burstin...
have i got sinus infection or wat? since ytd headache. realized or coincidentally, when in colder air con place, it's more intense... tt's y suspect sinus prob... lesson in sch w air con was a torture so decided to skip lunch/tut & lect to go home thinkin it'll b better
in d end, not any better cos mum blast her sound sys... d bass v strong. made my pain so much more intense oso... make me cant tahan & wish i could jus cry so i quickly take my clothes & go shower rm cry...
headache yet worried cant finish assignment alrdy stress but i no whr to go le... in sch, no laptop so need go lib or so but it's air con. at hm, bombarded by loud music... i'm gg nuts... my head burstin...
in d end, not any better cos mum blast her sound sys... d bass v strong. made my pain so much more intense oso... make me cant tahan & wish i could jus cry so i quickly take my clothes & go shower rm cry...
headache yet worried cant finish assignment alrdy stress but i no whr to go le... in sch, no laptop so need go lib or so but it's air con. at hm, bombarded by loud music... i'm gg nuts... my head burstin...
Wednesday, 22 September 2010
medication..,.,
medication...
i'm sure everyone would have somehow or rather need to take medication in ur life... jus nw, while chattin w dear, realized something...
mayb cos i'm a biotech & biosci student. i noe more bout d drugs effect, etc. i ended up naggin my parents to finish their antibiotic, etc. & nw, i ended up even nagged at dear...
well, wat i realize was tt my parents & dear would ve d mentality to stop takin d med once they feel slightly better. but s a sci student, i noe tt d bacteria, virus, etc were not totally eliminated. & it could potentially got worst if d bacteria, virus, etc mutate & grow resistance to d medicine. prob oso cos i had experience incident of takin panadol for fever (durin tt time when i got dengue fever) & when i felt i'm ok & stop medication, d fever came back oso. so i usually cont'd take for prob up to a day more. s for antibiotic, i cfm will finish unless i felt d side effect like too drowsy or too acidic...
however, though i noe all these, my parents & dear who aren't sci student & had none of such knowledge had always been stubborn & refused to listen. made me feel so naggy. -.-"
oso, so far, i had managed to curb & prevent any bad illness esp long term cough by self-medicatin if i felt not right or go to d doc immediately but dear would only take medicine if he was unwell alrdy & tt was usually when i make him eat d medicine. he would only go see doc when he felt it got worst. though he said in d past, he would not go till it's really bad, i told him tt he go see doc & not see oso make no diff. cos once he felt slightly better, he stop medicine & take it again after he felt much worst esp when he had miss once or twice of d original prescription. this is true even if i nag at him esp if i not by his side.
anw, like me, if he got runnin nose & don recover soon, he'll get phlegm in throat & end up w cough which was wat happen nw. d medicine he took for a couple of times didn't seemed to help & so i change his flu med but it was too late. he got phlegm so i ask him take d phlegm med. in d end, he ah... say felt better so nvr take this mornin but afternoon it got worst. he only started takin tt ytd loh & it's once a day prescription. den he say like feel no diff. -.-" i asked him if tt's 仙丹. den he argue say d flu med oso like tt. well, previously when he took d one his doc give, his nose was still like runnin tap. at least it had stopped loh... still wanna argue... if he take consistently, mayb it might not feel it got better, mayb it would not feel worst. don he understand?
well, i oso notice my parents oso same. take med once will expect d effect to b immediately. but they react differently. dear would either cont'd take & stop when he felt slightly better. s for my parents, they would complain say doc no gd den go see another doc when they just take d med like once or twice. this was diff was dear cos he would only change doc if i keep naggin at him.
last yr, when dear got unwell, he only go to d doc when he was really unwell & he ended up feeling out of breathe & even more lethargic. tt was scary so i kept remindin him to take med but i wanna vomit blood le. at least nw my parents do listen to me & finish up at least d antibiotic le. mayb if i don ve tt slightly more knowledge of med, i would not b so naggy & yet had to vomit blood ba. medicine is not 仙丹 leh.
mayb this is oso 1 of d cos of d growin no of more resistance bacteria, etc ba. med to counter is not easy to find. it take a decade or more loh... if there is really a 仙丹for all illness, i don mind gg to produce it. tt'll help ppl & i no need to become an 'ah po' who contantly nag & nag & nag,
i'm sure everyone would have somehow or rather need to take medication in ur life... jus nw, while chattin w dear, realized something...
mayb cos i'm a biotech & biosci student. i noe more bout d drugs effect, etc. i ended up naggin my parents to finish their antibiotic, etc. & nw, i ended up even nagged at dear...
well, wat i realize was tt my parents & dear would ve d mentality to stop takin d med once they feel slightly better. but s a sci student, i noe tt d bacteria, virus, etc were not totally eliminated. & it could potentially got worst if d bacteria, virus, etc mutate & grow resistance to d medicine. prob oso cos i had experience incident of takin panadol for fever (durin tt time when i got dengue fever) & when i felt i'm ok & stop medication, d fever came back oso. so i usually cont'd take for prob up to a day more. s for antibiotic, i cfm will finish unless i felt d side effect like too drowsy or too acidic...
however, though i noe all these, my parents & dear who aren't sci student & had none of such knowledge had always been stubborn & refused to listen. made me feel so naggy. -.-"
oso, so far, i had managed to curb & prevent any bad illness esp long term cough by self-medicatin if i felt not right or go to d doc immediately but dear would only take medicine if he was unwell alrdy & tt was usually when i make him eat d medicine. he would only go see doc when he felt it got worst. though he said in d past, he would not go till it's really bad, i told him tt he go see doc & not see oso make no diff. cos once he felt slightly better, he stop medicine & take it again after he felt much worst esp when he had miss once or twice of d original prescription. this is true even if i nag at him esp if i not by his side.
anw, like me, if he got runnin nose & don recover soon, he'll get phlegm in throat & end up w cough which was wat happen nw. d medicine he took for a couple of times didn't seemed to help & so i change his flu med but it was too late. he got phlegm so i ask him take d phlegm med. in d end, he ah... say felt better so nvr take this mornin but afternoon it got worst. he only started takin tt ytd loh & it's once a day prescription. den he say like feel no diff. -.-" i asked him if tt's 仙丹. den he argue say d flu med oso like tt. well, previously when he took d one his doc give, his nose was still like runnin tap. at least it had stopped loh... still wanna argue... if he take consistently, mayb it might not feel it got better, mayb it would not feel worst. don he understand?
well, i oso notice my parents oso same. take med once will expect d effect to b immediately. but they react differently. dear would either cont'd take & stop when he felt slightly better. s for my parents, they would complain say doc no gd den go see another doc when they just take d med like once or twice. this was diff was dear cos he would only change doc if i keep naggin at him.
last yr, when dear got unwell, he only go to d doc when he was really unwell & he ended up feeling out of breathe & even more lethargic. tt was scary so i kept remindin him to take med but i wanna vomit blood le. at least nw my parents do listen to me & finish up at least d antibiotic le. mayb if i don ve tt slightly more knowledge of med, i would not b so naggy & yet had to vomit blood ba. medicine is not 仙丹 leh.
mayb this is oso 1 of d cos of d growin no of more resistance bacteria, etc ba. med to counter is not easy to find. it take a decade or more loh... if there is really a 仙丹for all illness, i don mind gg to produce it. tt'll help ppl & i no need to become an 'ah po' who contantly nag & nag & nag,
Tuesday, 21 September 2010
graduation trip
sun, dear's cousin tempted me on graduation trip. v temptin but many things to consider. $$, duration, when, w who, whr...
don ve or wont ve much $$ left by den so... cant go far & long...
aft finish fyp, etc shld b ard jun & tt's peak period & so more exp but cant delay oso since oso need to get a job... either i go trip immediately or get a job immediately s i cant possibly stay hm & rot...
den w who? parents only allow me go w 3 of my sec friends or dear but if dear, den they might end up taggin along since it's sch holi & cousins' mum might take leaves. i don wanna get caught in between & get stress over thinkin of best plan & best iternary for them & not for me. if tt's d case, i would rather slog & work. at least i'm earnin $$ & so i would gain something rather than jus losin everythin.
if i can go w who i enjoy & whr i can have fun & etc, i would definitely b more than willin to go. i don mind eatin cheaper food nw to save up more but... wat r d chances like? frankly speakin, if i can go w dear alone, i think i would feel so much better than w parents too. tt famosa trip was fun. we nvr bother hw much we spend though we end up oso nvr spend tt much. at least no one was thr to grumble & show black face & end up i'm being accused to show black face. holi is meant to have fun, relax & enjoy & get away fr current lives & stress & not to add up more stress.
friend said 'rest is to walk further' but if d rest means to rot more at home or to go w charcoal face ppl, i rather not rest. i rather work & work & work. & dear told his cousin tt i hardcore cos all these while, i start work immediately aft exam, i start attachment immediately aft exam. & previously, i start work almost immediately aft i finish my poly exam oso. 家家有本难念的经...
don ve or wont ve much $$ left by den so... cant go far & long...
aft finish fyp, etc shld b ard jun & tt's peak period & so more exp but cant delay oso since oso need to get a job... either i go trip immediately or get a job immediately s i cant possibly stay hm & rot...
den w who? parents only allow me go w 3 of my sec friends or dear but if dear, den they might end up taggin along since it's sch holi & cousins' mum might take leaves. i don wanna get caught in between & get stress over thinkin of best plan & best iternary for them & not for me. if tt's d case, i would rather slog & work. at least i'm earnin $$ & so i would gain something rather than jus losin everythin.
if i can go w who i enjoy & whr i can have fun & etc, i would definitely b more than willin to go. i don mind eatin cheaper food nw to save up more but... wat r d chances like? frankly speakin, if i can go w dear alone, i think i would feel so much better than w parents too. tt famosa trip was fun. we nvr bother hw much we spend though we end up oso nvr spend tt much. at least no one was thr to grumble & show black face & end up i'm being accused to show black face. holi is meant to have fun, relax & enjoy & get away fr current lives & stress & not to add up more stress.
friend said 'rest is to walk further' but if d rest means to rot more at home or to go w charcoal face ppl, i rather not rest. i rather work & work & work. & dear told his cousin tt i hardcore cos all these while, i start work immediately aft exam, i start attachment immediately aft exam. & previously, i start work almost immediately aft i finish my poly exam oso. 家家有本难念的经...
Sunday, 19 September 2010
manicure & pedicure
went to my vietnamese aunt's new shop today w my cousins. she is doin biz on nails. d deco is simple but nice. basically, i jus tot of going thr to see see since i nvr been to any of such shop b4.
ya. i nvr do any menicure & pedicure in any shop b4 cos i felt it's too exp. i'd always paint myself or draw or put stickers myself but recently no time to play though it was part of my interest in d past.
anw, she kept askin me to do & do it personally for me. pedicure & den menicure & i actually been watchin hw she do rather than restin there. erm... to 偷师also. lol... tt way, i can do myself unless necessary lah. haha...
after polishin my toenails, she den asked if i wan paint 1 color. den think she take me to experiment. apply glitter on my toenails. den on my hand, tried out the colour & the apply the white layer at the edge (think it's called french nail or so?) den she experiment further by putting crystal on my fingernails too. she also asked her cousin to apply a layer of colour on my cousin (which is also her niece) too.
well, tt's not all. while my nails are drying, her cousin, friend & her took their dinner (i cant s i gg for dinner elsewhr). after finishin her dinner, she bought out a tin of desolved wax. she wanted to wax my leg. gosh... i felt i was thr for her to play & she didn't want to get any $$ fr me. it made me felt bad esp since she jus started her biz days ago. she need d $$ to cover back her 'investment' & to gain capitals for more supplies, etc.
but guess wat... she literally chase me out & say we r relative & say bye to me & close d door. i'd no choice but to go & find my uncle & pass d money to him instead but had to resort to stuffing the money in his chest pocket & run away. eventually i convinced him to take s i really didn't want them to have losses since i had done so many of their services.
i nvr been to other place b4 so i not sure hw gd my aunt is but to me, she seemed v skilled. she had diploma cert & was very 细心while she was working. prob because it is the traits of 'artistic' ppl, she seemed not able to take it that somehow, there were a teeny tiny black dot tt came to 1 of my fingernails & there were furry threads or minor minor accident touch & 'chip' at d edges though i was her relatives & she didn't intend to take $ from me.
d only prob is tt her cousin & her friends are also vietnamese & so they only know how to speak chinese but not english or dialect. i was her translator when there was an angmoh lady who came. tt do worries me hw to do biz tt way. but tt lady gave a thumb-up b4 she left & didn't want her $2 change. so i hope it would go well for her. but i can only hope her temper can b kept under control. heard she got bad temper but i nvr experience it since i seldom see her. mayb cos i treat her good tt time for her weddin studio shoots & get strepsils for her tt time, etc so she still treat me gd nw. jus hope this will continue ba.
anw, d pic of her works on my toes & fingers are attached. her shop location too.
her shop details & service w pricing are as follow:
Queen Nail Spa
女皇美甲护理
Blk 359 Bukit Batok West Ave. 5 St. 31
#01-387
Singapore 650359
Tel: 6562 1928
Operating Hours: 1000 to 2100 hours
Getting there:
NS3 Bukit Gombak MRT
Bus 945
Manicure & Pedicure Services
- OPI Lacquer $6 Student $4
- Express Manicure $10 Student $8
- Express Pedicure $12 Student $10
- Full Classic Manicure $18 Student $15
- Full Classic Pedicure $28 Student $25
- Gel Manicure @ Colour $100
- Acrylic Extension $80
- Nail Art $2 & above
Waxing Services
- Full Arm Wax $25
- Half Arm Wax $18
- Full Leg Wax $35
- Half Leg Wax $22
Others
- Eye Brow Trimming $5
女皇美甲护理
Blk 359 Bukit Batok West Ave. 5 St. 31
#01-387
Singapore 650359
Tel: 6562 1928
Operating Hours: 1000 to 2100 hours
Getting there:
NS3 Bukit Gombak MRT
Bus 945
Manicure & Pedicure Services
- OPI Lacquer $6 Student $4
- Express Manicure $10 Student $8
- Express Pedicure $12 Student $10
- Full Classic Manicure $18 Student $15
- Full Classic Pedicure $28 Student $25
- Gel Manicure @ Colour $100
- Acrylic Extension $80
- Nail Art $2 & above
Waxing Services
- Full Arm Wax $25
- Half Arm Wax $18
- Full Leg Wax $35
- Half Leg Wax $22
Others
- Eye Brow Trimming $5
Thursday, 16 September 2010
think i shld go sleep earlier ba... been havin headache for these few days & even super hard to keep awake in class (though i always had tt problem but not to d extend of simply jus k/o right fr d beginning)...
anw, serve me right. been 'watchin' d dvd on d korean drama which my friend lend me. didn't wanna dragged till more reports/assignment come & oso feel bad for borrowin for too long. thus, watched till like 2 or 2+ am for past few days. last week jus started & this ytd, alrdy started watchin d 3rd disc out of think 8. thr was a total of more than 100 eps when i'm like at d 30++.
but i really think i shld stop 'watching' till tt late though i not quite watchin it w full attention. i do my report & other things while d dvd is playing. only watch at times... if i don stop, i think i can jus forget bout tryin to strive for this sem le. but will i b too harsh on myself? i dono...
anw, serve me right. been 'watchin' d dvd on d korean drama which my friend lend me. didn't wanna dragged till more reports/assignment come & oso feel bad for borrowin for too long. thus, watched till like 2 or 2+ am for past few days. last week jus started & this ytd, alrdy started watchin d 3rd disc out of think 8. thr was a total of more than 100 eps when i'm like at d 30++.
but i really think i shld stop 'watching' till tt late though i not quite watchin it w full attention. i do my report & other things while d dvd is playing. only watch at times... if i don stop, i think i can jus forget bout tryin to strive for this sem le. but will i b too harsh on myself? i dono...
bday surprise
had a pleasant surprise fr my sch friends today. they went to get cake & catch me aft my work to celebrate w me. thanks gals.
受宠若惊
today's my bday & i got a surprise, a shock right aft d clock strike 12 midnight.
i'd many greetings, even fr friends not in contact for long. but still not s surprisin s d 1 i got right after midnight.
it was shockin cos it's not a greetin fr friends, relatives or a strangers but it was fr dear's mom. her sms read:
'To: Jessie
wish u a happy birthday n all the best for whereever you are n whatever you're doing.
Rgds: aunty'
she got my no tt time cos dear was late & she wasn't ard & so got my no for contact when she got back since she had alrdy prep dinner. but i didn't expect tt she will drop me a sms to send me a bday wish. & esp when she was d 1st & it was send at ard d 1st few min of d start of d day.
seein tt sms made me go in state of shock. i was blur. duno wat to say or do but replied her a thanks & have a gd nite rest.
anw, my cousin's last maid whom i called friend/sis also rmbr my bday aft she had left us for a couple of yrs & she oso send me a sms. tt's really nice of her s she could simply jus forget & save d overseas sms money. so it still touch me w her effort...
i'd many greetings, even fr friends not in contact for long. but still not s surprisin s d 1 i got right after midnight.
it was shockin cos it's not a greetin fr friends, relatives or a strangers but it was fr dear's mom. her sms read:
'To: Jessie
wish u a happy birthday n all the best for whereever you are n whatever you're doing.
Rgds: aunty'
she got my no tt time cos dear was late & she wasn't ard & so got my no for contact when she got back since she had alrdy prep dinner. but i didn't expect tt she will drop me a sms to send me a bday wish. & esp when she was d 1st & it was send at ard d 1st few min of d start of d day.
seein tt sms made me go in state of shock. i was blur. duno wat to say or do but replied her a thanks & have a gd nite rest.
anw, my cousin's last maid whom i called friend/sis also rmbr my bday aft she had left us for a couple of yrs & she oso send me a sms. tt's really nice of her s she could simply jus forget & save d overseas sms money. so it still touch me w her effort...
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Gift
Gift from a part of China. It was given to me by the graduate student whom i was helpin durin my attachment. d accessory was said to be 招财. think it's d son of dragon, got big mouth & tummy but small small buttock. say will swallow all d wealth & not releasing them.anw, d pic was taken fr my iphone4. i nvr do any editin. jus use a d/l camera w d lomo filter. quite like d effect.
ya. i got d phone but felt not right time. no time to play ard... yet, dad oso get d phone & kept buggin me. in d end, he find out hw himself... AAHHHH..... tell him so many times he oso cant get in. i say i no time try & play ard wor...
not only him. even mum oso. asked me for my ocbc atm card. say she wanna deposit into our joint acc which she was usin only. but ocbc got a pro. if got multiple acc, only 1 card & so must noe hw to use. told her b4 leh but again, like dad, she forget. yet she still wanna get d card fr me. so i understand y she get fr me again. jus hope she wont get such a shock if she use my card due to some reason or others...
but i'm glad i managed to complete my report due tml. another 1 due next week & another 2 due d week aft.
my future
seldom check email & today, jus b4 class, saw tt d prof i was attached to emailed me & asked me to look for him today regardin d culture i did for these 2 weeks. but i got no time to reply so i went impromptu aft class...
aft checkin out & cfm wat & hw i did, he cont'd to say 'future' work. he say s though i will still b thr in d lab but he asked me to focus on my studies. & he was v enthusiatic bout me gg back for fyp & cfm w me then. guess i alrdy cfm w him le ba & so i think i wont look for others. anw, i guess i will have another possible chance for job...
...
prof: ... nw all u ve to do is to strive & get a 2nd upper
me: it's impossible. all i can strive for is a 3rd class
prof: y?
me: i calculated my gpa & no matter wat, i can only get a 3rd if i get As & Bs
prof: watever it is, must strive & most importantly is to clear everything
...
prof... wat is ur plan?
me: ???
prof: ur future plan after u graduate
me: mayb PO?
prof: ... i'll see if i got grant at d end of d yr, if no grant, i cant do anything oso. & oso if u no clear, even if i got grant i oso cant wait another yr.
...
so... i guess if he got grant, i can secure a job s PO? all i ve to do is to clear my studies nw... well, tt would oso means i would stay in d same place for almost a decade... & i'd become JL of all trade here w multiple identities. anw, tt's gd news... at least i noe in here, i will still have chances to get job.
s for my attachment, prof wanted to complete d project soon & get it publish in a better paper. he wanted it fast so tt can get gd gradin rather than publish aft others published. he wanted it to be a novel publication. if so, if my name was also thr, it'll benefit me ba...
den, s for d fyp, prof got a novel project in mind in continuation of my attachment project & tt is if it can b published. tt would oso means if everything smooth, i'll get to start a brand new project? i really hope everything can b so smooth ba.
aft checkin out & cfm wat & hw i did, he cont'd to say 'future' work. he say s though i will still b thr in d lab but he asked me to focus on my studies. & he was v enthusiatic bout me gg back for fyp & cfm w me then. guess i alrdy cfm w him le ba & so i think i wont look for others. anw, i guess i will have another possible chance for job...
...
prof: ... nw all u ve to do is to strive & get a 2nd upper
me: it's impossible. all i can strive for is a 3rd class
prof: y?
me: i calculated my gpa & no matter wat, i can only get a 3rd if i get As & Bs
prof: watever it is, must strive & most importantly is to clear everything
...
prof... wat is ur plan?
me: ???
prof: ur future plan after u graduate
me: mayb PO?
prof: ... i'll see if i got grant at d end of d yr, if no grant, i cant do anything oso. & oso if u no clear, even if i got grant i oso cant wait another yr.
...
so... i guess if he got grant, i can secure a job s PO? all i ve to do is to clear my studies nw... well, tt would oso means i would stay in d same place for almost a decade... & i'd become JL of all trade here w multiple identities. anw, tt's gd news... at least i noe in here, i will still have chances to get job.
s for my attachment, prof wanted to complete d project soon & get it publish in a better paper. he wanted it fast so tt can get gd gradin rather than publish aft others published. he wanted it to be a novel publication. if so, if my name was also thr, it'll benefit me ba...
den, s for d fyp, prof got a novel project in mind in continuation of my attachment project & tt is if it can b published. tt would oso means if everything smooth, i'll get to start a brand new project? i really hope everything can b so smooth ba.
Monday, 13 September 2010
stress
dis mornin was super rush. went to d lab cos i believed tt d graduate student would not b able to be back so early if she would come. since prof & her had asked me to look after d cells, i went back to change new growth medium for d cells but i only had at most 40 minutes & had to print lecture notes. well, i can don care since she asked me do for 2 weeks but i don wanna screw up my effort, thus, though rush, i went back.
i could actually go after lesson but tot of reports made me decided to make d rush. my report due on 15 sep ma. so no time to lose.
well, i rush not cos of class but cos of dental appt. in d end, got delay & i almost gotta b late for class & surely b nagged by d prof. he v naggy one.
anw, b4 d dentist do anything, ask him bout my pain & cfm it's due to d wisdom tooth. say it's growin slanted & cant get out & my top wisdom tooth exertin pressure so once a while will have such discomfort. say it can & may eventually b a serious pain due to inflammation & swellin of d surroundin gum. haiz...
anw, i tot of extractin it long ago. to think of it, i think hor, this tooth give me prob b4 i go back to sch. jus rmbr i told my ex-colleague b4 but always nvr do anything bout it. jus say say only but i'm really determined to get rid of it. any recommendation for cheap & gd place? sch seemed pretty exp leh. $150 - $300 wor. & apparently, he said tt d top is at d lower range while d bottom tooth is at d higher range. -.-"
i oso check on d top cos though it nvr cos discomfort, i had difficulties cleanin it cos both r slantin outwards. dentist say if i wan, he can extract both my top & bottom. both on d side tt i experience d pain. he said tt d other side can wait. but i say i think bout it. $300+$150 = $450 wor. v v hard to earn tt amt of $$ nw so if got a cheaper & better place, i will go.
anw, i doubt i wanna go back thr for wisdom tooth extraction, duno if he was rushin or wat. 1 of d equipment was hot & it burn d side of my mouth & i believe it's a blister nw. hope wont become ulcer or it'll a a long one. & realize tt sometimes while he clean, d pain i feel was fr d mirror he used to see & open my mouth. i was siam-in fr d mirror pain rather than d cleanin pain & so i doubt i would go back d next trip which was in mar. thus, i cant even rmbr when was tt appt. oops... haha... but i cant denied tt i like d feel of my tooth w/o those cavity build-up. mayb go elsewhr ba. so any recommend?
well, today, after class, i was super tempted by my friends who was gg to d archery ground to try out. it's 1 of d sports which i tot of wantin to at least try but my heart was on my report. haiz... so i decided to go hm & not join them. sorry gals. mayb cos this is my final sem to chiong, i think i'm especially stress up & constantly thinking of d reports & weightage. haiz... if can, i oso wish to join d fun & try out. i noe i may not get d chance to try out aft leavin sch but no choice. my priority is study nw.
talkin bout such priority. i'd made up my mind. if i got report, etc due-in, & had not complete, i guess i would not go for my dance trg. in d past, i always study in d bus, b4 it start, etc but i see no pt. it's makin me more tired. i rather b hm. if dear oso ard, mayb can nap a while oso since parents wont possibly say or scold me then. so if i really got tired, i can ve d chance to rest & not exertin myself mentally & physically. i noe they will bug me eventually but sorry. i wont give in. if i would, today i would go w my friend for archery.
anw, dad got me d iphone 4 on sat. i only load my sch edventure website, hotmail, yahoo mail, facebook, msn into it & nvr bother do anything or play much w it. felt it's not d right time to get d phone but i could resist d temptation to figure out & download games. a friend said tt can become 机不离手 but to me, it's jus a norm phone right nw. can u imagine, i go load my sch edventure website s 1 of d shortcut icon? crazy right? & even bout d ms office so tt i can do report, etc if needed. i think i'll 走火入魔 w studies soon but at least i got dear & friends to accompany me.
last week, had d fyp briefin & wonder if i wanna venture out, today, i had a feel tt was 60% stay cos of d convenience & reputation i'd made in my attachment lab. but oso cos i didn't really ve d time to look through other alternative lah. thr r other reasons which i tot of earlier but i cant recall them nw. mayb after i settle at least d report to be submitted v v soon b4 made further decision. i'm really racin against time.
i'm so lookin forward to d break in oct to go batam & get away fr everything & another break aft exams. i most likely wont start my fyp too too early though can choose to start early. i need a real break loh...
i could actually go after lesson but tot of reports made me decided to make d rush. my report due on 15 sep ma. so no time to lose.
well, i rush not cos of class but cos of dental appt. in d end, got delay & i almost gotta b late for class & surely b nagged by d prof. he v naggy one.
anw, b4 d dentist do anything, ask him bout my pain & cfm it's due to d wisdom tooth. say it's growin slanted & cant get out & my top wisdom tooth exertin pressure so once a while will have such discomfort. say it can & may eventually b a serious pain due to inflammation & swellin of d surroundin gum. haiz...
anw, i tot of extractin it long ago. to think of it, i think hor, this tooth give me prob b4 i go back to sch. jus rmbr i told my ex-colleague b4 but always nvr do anything bout it. jus say say only but i'm really determined to get rid of it. any recommendation for cheap & gd place? sch seemed pretty exp leh. $150 - $300 wor. & apparently, he said tt d top is at d lower range while d bottom tooth is at d higher range. -.-"
i oso check on d top cos though it nvr cos discomfort, i had difficulties cleanin it cos both r slantin outwards. dentist say if i wan, he can extract both my top & bottom. both on d side tt i experience d pain. he said tt d other side can wait. but i say i think bout it. $300+$150 = $450 wor. v v hard to earn tt amt of $$ nw so if got a cheaper & better place, i will go.
anw, i doubt i wanna go back thr for wisdom tooth extraction, duno if he was rushin or wat. 1 of d equipment was hot & it burn d side of my mouth & i believe it's a blister nw. hope wont become ulcer or it'll a a long one. & realize tt sometimes while he clean, d pain i feel was fr d mirror he used to see & open my mouth. i was siam-in fr d mirror pain rather than d cleanin pain & so i doubt i would go back d next trip which was in mar. thus, i cant even rmbr when was tt appt. oops... haha... but i cant denied tt i like d feel of my tooth w/o those cavity build-up. mayb go elsewhr ba. so any recommend?
well, today, after class, i was super tempted by my friends who was gg to d archery ground to try out. it's 1 of d sports which i tot of wantin to at least try but my heart was on my report. haiz... so i decided to go hm & not join them. sorry gals. mayb cos this is my final sem to chiong, i think i'm especially stress up & constantly thinking of d reports & weightage. haiz... if can, i oso wish to join d fun & try out. i noe i may not get d chance to try out aft leavin sch but no choice. my priority is study nw.
talkin bout such priority. i'd made up my mind. if i got report, etc due-in, & had not complete, i guess i would not go for my dance trg. in d past, i always study in d bus, b4 it start, etc but i see no pt. it's makin me more tired. i rather b hm. if dear oso ard, mayb can nap a while oso since parents wont possibly say or scold me then. so if i really got tired, i can ve d chance to rest & not exertin myself mentally & physically. i noe they will bug me eventually but sorry. i wont give in. if i would, today i would go w my friend for archery.
anw, dad got me d iphone 4 on sat. i only load my sch edventure website, hotmail, yahoo mail, facebook, msn into it & nvr bother do anything or play much w it. felt it's not d right time to get d phone but i could resist d temptation to figure out & download games. a friend said tt can become 机不离手 but to me, it's jus a norm phone right nw. can u imagine, i go load my sch edventure website s 1 of d shortcut icon? crazy right? & even bout d ms office so tt i can do report, etc if needed. i think i'll 走火入魔 w studies soon but at least i got dear & friends to accompany me.
last week, had d fyp briefin & wonder if i wanna venture out, today, i had a feel tt was 60% stay cos of d convenience & reputation i'd made in my attachment lab. but oso cos i didn't really ve d time to look through other alternative lah. thr r other reasons which i tot of earlier but i cant recall them nw. mayb after i settle at least d report to be submitted v v soon b4 made further decision. i'm really racin against time.
i'm so lookin forward to d break in oct to go batam & get away fr everything & another break aft exams. i most likely wont start my fyp too too early though can choose to start early. i need a real break loh...
Thursday, 9 September 2010
my silly boy...
anw, wanna thks dear... he tired aft work & yet he go home change & pick me fr sch & went to JP instead of stayin hm rest b4 i accompanied him to a children's hm to check out d charity programn which he had to plan & organize for work.
he go JP cos he noe i can collect d photo journal which i made & oso to try find & do something for me. he was a silly boy. wanted to be secretive & yet ended up tellin me wat he planna do when i was jus teasin & askin him. i nvr tot tt he'll give in & tell me so easily & his reason was tt he don wanna hide & lie to me. oops... made me feel like a bad person cos if i wanna do something, i would really b determined not to say out.
well, he said tt he wanted it s a surprise but due to work commitment & tight schedule, he could not managed to do so & could only try find & do in my presence. but it's d thoughts tt counts ba. his thoughts & truthfulness r 1 of d impt factors y i b w him. thanks dear...
he go JP cos he noe i can collect d photo journal which i made & oso to try find & do something for me. he was a silly boy. wanted to be secretive & yet ended up tellin me wat he planna do when i was jus teasin & askin him. i nvr tot tt he'll give in & tell me so easily & his reason was tt he don wanna hide & lie to me. oops... made me feel like a bad person cos if i wanna do something, i would really b determined not to say out.
well, he said tt he wanted it s a surprise but due to work commitment & tight schedule, he could not managed to do so & could only try find & do in my presence. but it's d thoughts tt counts ba. his thoughts & truthfulness r 1 of d impt factors y i b w him. thanks dear...
a fact or i give up or i got too used to current?
wat shld i do? ytd had a FYP briefin & den at nite, chat w a friend whom i encourage to try apply local uni & further studies.
this friend whom almost gave up aft failure to get a place in local m doin quite well. he's in an a* research institution doin his PhD nw while i'm still strugglin in my degree.
well, previously, & actually currently, i'm doin lab attachment in d lab & d prof wld accept me back to cont'd d proj & do it s FYP. however, there is still asmall % of not gettin in s d prof & his project must oso fit into d criteria so s to b able to accept me.
but, i can reserve d place for higher chance otherwise d rest of d proj will b to compete w ~200 students or more, for tt, must meet up diff prof & record down d date too. bit more tedious but i oso don mind venturin out of my current lab & even venture out of my sch. had my resume fill w experiences, etc fr dis place. work, study, & multiple part-times in d same location. i was in dis place till i had confused many many ppl, even d prof s they could see me everywhere.
to venture out, i noe my stand w my grades but wat my friend said is v true. nvr try hw i noe. & tt i alrdy judge my stand myself & not givin chance for me to b assess by others.
thus, i end up wonderin... wonderin if it's cos i so sure of my stand or cos i don wanna leave d comfort zone or rather d convenience?
in my sch, i got d convenience of d staff bus & so no need pay extra $$ if i go outside. ppl noe me & understand hw i work & so i got recommended & given priorities for all d part time jobs currently till my colleagues comment tt i'm 'jess' of all trade since i'm a gal & so i cant b 'jack'.
& oso in my current lab, i'd made friends & they r nice ppl. min politics & max fun like a fam. they r approachable & so i noe if i need help in my fyp i can get d help i would need. & furthermore, prof nvr bother d time i leave, etc so long s i produce results. thus, i got d freedom. & he seemed to recognize & will acknowledge my effort even in front of those potential PhD or staff who actually just came for interview & looked around.
though d proj will b a further continuation of wat i'd been doin & though wat i did now wont b taken into acc for my gradin & cant use any of d results, i still ve an advantage tt i noe wat i'd been doin so far & can start d work immediately w/o much delay. & oso i'm alrdy adapted to d lab culture & no need to readapt & readjust.
but, if i can get more exposure & more diff experience, tt would even further enhance my resume & chances to get a better job. thr r so many diff pros & cons. wat shld i do? haiz... tough decsion... mayb like my friend who asked me to try try apply outside & step out of my comfort zone? & mayb i would noe my stand. if i stand a chance to do FYP in a say gd research institution, which means i could find job easier. if not, den i might get stuck in my current place for few more yrs which erm... due to d conveniences, i don mind. but at least i noe my stand?
d prob is oso cos i wld feel bad. initially i go to my current lab cos prof wld allow me contd fyp while another don. of course another factor is tt this prof give me proj while d other jus asked me help whoever who needs. but aft i got in, though tempted, i nvr ask my prof again bout d fyp but d graduate student asked for me recently & d prof cfm it again.
well, wateevr it is, i think i jus try b4 i do any decision ba. do 1 things at a time. hehe... so long s i get d time to play ard (tt boils down to leavin whr i wish to so s to get more time).
this friend whom almost gave up aft failure to get a place in local m doin quite well. he's in an a* research institution doin his PhD nw while i'm still strugglin in my degree.
well, previously, & actually currently, i'm doin lab attachment in d lab & d prof wld accept me back to cont'd d proj & do it s FYP. however, there is still asmall % of not gettin in s d prof & his project must oso fit into d criteria so s to b able to accept me.
but, i can reserve d place for higher chance otherwise d rest of d proj will b to compete w ~200 students or more, for tt, must meet up diff prof & record down d date too. bit more tedious but i oso don mind venturin out of my current lab & even venture out of my sch. had my resume fill w experiences, etc fr dis place. work, study, & multiple part-times in d same location. i was in dis place till i had confused many many ppl, even d prof s they could see me everywhere.
to venture out, i noe my stand w my grades but wat my friend said is v true. nvr try hw i noe. & tt i alrdy judge my stand myself & not givin chance for me to b assess by others.
thus, i end up wonderin... wonderin if it's cos i so sure of my stand or cos i don wanna leave d comfort zone or rather d convenience?
in my sch, i got d convenience of d staff bus & so no need pay extra $$ if i go outside. ppl noe me & understand hw i work & so i got recommended & given priorities for all d part time jobs currently till my colleagues comment tt i'm 'jess' of all trade since i'm a gal & so i cant b 'jack'.
& oso in my current lab, i'd made friends & they r nice ppl. min politics & max fun like a fam. they r approachable & so i noe if i need help in my fyp i can get d help i would need. & furthermore, prof nvr bother d time i leave, etc so long s i produce results. thus, i got d freedom. & he seemed to recognize & will acknowledge my effort even in front of those potential PhD or staff who actually just came for interview & looked around.
though d proj will b a further continuation of wat i'd been doin & though wat i did now wont b taken into acc for my gradin & cant use any of d results, i still ve an advantage tt i noe wat i'd been doin so far & can start d work immediately w/o much delay. & oso i'm alrdy adapted to d lab culture & no need to readapt & readjust.
but, if i can get more exposure & more diff experience, tt would even further enhance my resume & chances to get a better job. thr r so many diff pros & cons. wat shld i do? haiz... tough decsion... mayb like my friend who asked me to try try apply outside & step out of my comfort zone? & mayb i would noe my stand. if i stand a chance to do FYP in a say gd research institution, which means i could find job easier. if not, den i might get stuck in my current place for few more yrs which erm... due to d conveniences, i don mind. but at least i noe my stand?
d prob is oso cos i wld feel bad. initially i go to my current lab cos prof wld allow me contd fyp while another don. of course another factor is tt this prof give me proj while d other jus asked me help whoever who needs. but aft i got in, though tempted, i nvr ask my prof again bout d fyp but d graduate student asked for me recently & d prof cfm it again.
well, wateevr it is, i think i jus try b4 i do any decision ba. do 1 things at a time. hehe... so long s i get d time to play ard (tt boils down to leavin whr i wish to so s to get more time).
Wednesday, 8 September 2010
quittin
argh... f***
sorry... gonna grumble again... jus ignore dis post la... i jus wanna let it out... cannot take it...
i think i wanna call it a quit for my dance & asked for relieved of duty for my soka mtg le... cant tahan la...
for dance, recent mths we had hire a trainer. & so, trg initially start to end later at almost 2 but too many of us & instructor need more time so ended up tt her time start fr 9 to 2 while we started at 8.30 & end at 2.30 by right
but... usually debrief super long w all d announcement, etc. so... we end almost 3 w/o lunch break. jus a take 10. though usually will become slightly longer than 10 min but it's unofficial so none of us go eat. anw, aft eat oso not gd to train & exercise. but... oso crazy loh. breakfast at 7 like tt den intensive trg den lunch aft 3.
we not super human la. robot oso need rest & recharge. seen friends go eat sweets take a small pcs of biscuit, some giddy giddy sit thr. yet no one say anything. can don so hardcore? cannot jus say la. -.-"
anw, trg end late is a major issue le. den usually only if got performance den we got extra trg. guess wat. recently, thr was once which they tot of gg to west coast park s an outin cum scoutin d place s there was an event to b held thr a week ltr. so chief asked all of us. give us option. say either trg or go thr. if trg, b usual. end at '2.30'. but if outin, end at 12.30. all of us choose outin. guess wat. in d end, got extra trg on a sat. if like tt, may s well we choose trg den no need d extra time & day.
den nw, say d instructor not free in nov. so... jus received a sms say got extra trg on 3 other sats in additional to our usual sun trg. & tt extra trg oso b like almost another 7hr loh.
thus, seein tt sms made me made up my mind. i wanna quit. i cant cont'd like tt. i cant give up my studies. this is my last chance. i had got 5 modules & i need to get think at least Bs and As. even if all B+ oso gain me a 3rd class. i got many assignments this sem. & assignment weight much more than b4. so this can oso b my final chance to use assignment to pull up my grades. if i don, tt's it. game over for me. if like tt, i may s well don futher my stuudies. mayb i would be better in terms of career aspect & even dance i oso can enjoy & cont watever they wan.
thus, tt made me oso wanna be relieved of my duties for my soka. they had really been gettin in my nerve. keep callin me, buggin me. etc etc. d more they like tt, d more i repel oso & oso cos of my studies lah. i reall really wanna give up on all these la.
i'd alrdy given up on clinic work & try hard to use min. drink plain water even for lunch. eat sandwich, etc if i alone or if hm got whiite bread, i eat tt. i alrdy sacrifice. & don buy textbook & go to extend on sellin textbook & apply bursary. wat else they wan? they don no i quit job so at least i got the time to rest,e tc but i m thinkin tt mayb i shld jus tell
say i alrdy given up. admit i lied all these while. den say it's still a struggle for me. my grades were like jus pass & even fail a module. i need much more time & not gettin lesser time. i wanna quit fr my dance & get out of my duties and not more.
can they jus let me quit? i'm thinkin of tellin them i wanna quit but mayb not d part tt i'd quit my job long aho. if they don accept, i'll go mia le ba. since my phone plan b over at d end of d yr. i can terminate tt & sign a new line. make them cant get in touch w me. if they don believed i'd been strugglin in studies, i can print my transcript for them see. see hw 'well' i'd been doing.
I WANNA QUIT... I NEED TO QUIT... I HAD TO QUIT...
sorry... gonna grumble again... jus ignore dis post la... i jus wanna let it out... cannot take it...
i think i wanna call it a quit for my dance & asked for relieved of duty for my soka mtg le... cant tahan la...
for dance, recent mths we had hire a trainer. & so, trg initially start to end later at almost 2 but too many of us & instructor need more time so ended up tt her time start fr 9 to 2 while we started at 8.30 & end at 2.30 by right
but... usually debrief super long w all d announcement, etc. so... we end almost 3 w/o lunch break. jus a take 10. though usually will become slightly longer than 10 min but it's unofficial so none of us go eat. anw, aft eat oso not gd to train & exercise. but... oso crazy loh. breakfast at 7 like tt den intensive trg den lunch aft 3.
we not super human la. robot oso need rest & recharge. seen friends go eat sweets take a small pcs of biscuit, some giddy giddy sit thr. yet no one say anything. can don so hardcore? cannot jus say la. -.-"
anw, trg end late is a major issue le. den usually only if got performance den we got extra trg. guess wat. recently, thr was once which they tot of gg to west coast park s an outin cum scoutin d place s there was an event to b held thr a week ltr. so chief asked all of us. give us option. say either trg or go thr. if trg, b usual. end at '2.30'. but if outin, end at 12.30. all of us choose outin. guess wat. in d end, got extra trg on a sat. if like tt, may s well we choose trg den no need d extra time & day.
den nw, say d instructor not free in nov. so... jus received a sms say got extra trg on 3 other sats in additional to our usual sun trg. & tt extra trg oso b like almost another 7hr loh.
thus, seein tt sms made me made up my mind. i wanna quit. i cant cont'd like tt. i cant give up my studies. this is my last chance. i had got 5 modules & i need to get think at least Bs and As. even if all B+ oso gain me a 3rd class. i got many assignments this sem. & assignment weight much more than b4. so this can oso b my final chance to use assignment to pull up my grades. if i don, tt's it. game over for me. if like tt, i may s well don futher my stuudies. mayb i would be better in terms of career aspect & even dance i oso can enjoy & cont watever they wan.
thus, tt made me oso wanna be relieved of my duties for my soka. they had really been gettin in my nerve. keep callin me, buggin me. etc etc. d more they like tt, d more i repel oso & oso cos of my studies lah. i reall really wanna give up on all these la.
i'd alrdy given up on clinic work & try hard to use min. drink plain water even for lunch. eat sandwich, etc if i alone or if hm got whiite bread, i eat tt. i alrdy sacrifice. & don buy textbook & go to extend on sellin textbook & apply bursary. wat else they wan? they don no i quit job so at least i got the time to rest,e tc but i m thinkin tt mayb i shld jus tell
say i alrdy given up. admit i lied all these while. den say it's still a struggle for me. my grades were like jus pass & even fail a module. i need much more time & not gettin lesser time. i wanna quit fr my dance & get out of my duties and not more.
can they jus let me quit? i'm thinkin of tellin them i wanna quit but mayb not d part tt i'd quit my job long aho. if they don accept, i'll go mia le ba. since my phone plan b over at d end of d yr. i can terminate tt & sign a new line. make them cant get in touch w me. if they don believed i'd been strugglin in studies, i can print my transcript for them see. see hw 'well' i'd been doing.
I WANNA QUIT... I NEED TO QUIT... I HAD TO QUIT...
Monday, 6 September 2010
unsecure...
oh ya. really don like my hse location nw. it's situated at d junction opp d newly built ITE & thr r more & more ppl loiterin ard downstairs. heard fr mum b4 tt they do come up oso at times to avoid get caught & my hse outside is d stairs & lift which had become their secret hideout.
jus nw, glad was rainin so nvr go open letterbox s i realized tt actually thr r oso ppl at tt area & they ki-siao started shoutin command s in those parade command to be in attention, or at ease, etc. heard it while i was alrdy hm.
anw, jus nw almost deviate towards d lift near d letterbox which at hm aft hearin those commotion tt i realized tt it wasn't tt safe thr oso.
when i was reachin my lift, thr were a big gp of guys, indians, some smokin, & they looked much bigger size than dear. though i may have learnt wushu b4, i noe all i can do was to siam away fr them.
they looked like gg towards d lift i would take to go hm so i decided to deviate away. too many of them to overpower me so i siam. when see tt they walked further away, i go take d lift & dug my hse key immediately so tt i can get in at d shortest possible time.
if they nvr walked away, i would have walked to take another lift but tt might mean i would bump into another set of ppl. didn't wanna tell mum or ltr both my parents worried & would keep callin & buggin me but i really dislike d feel of being overpowered esp if i in midst of too many guys. haiz... so unsecure more unsafe nw...
jus nw, glad was rainin so nvr go open letterbox s i realized tt actually thr r oso ppl at tt area & they ki-siao started shoutin command s in those parade command to be in attention, or at ease, etc. heard it while i was alrdy hm.
anw, jus nw almost deviate towards d lift near d letterbox which at hm aft hearin those commotion tt i realized tt it wasn't tt safe thr oso.
when i was reachin my lift, thr were a big gp of guys, indians, some smokin, & they looked much bigger size than dear. though i may have learnt wushu b4, i noe all i can do was to siam away fr them.
they looked like gg towards d lift i would take to go hm so i decided to deviate away. too many of them to overpower me so i siam. when see tt they walked further away, i go take d lift & dug my hse key immediately so tt i can get in at d shortest possible time.
if they nvr walked away, i would have walked to take another lift but tt might mean i would bump into another set of ppl. didn't wanna tell mum or ltr both my parents worried & would keep callin & buggin me but i really dislike d feel of being overpowered esp if i in midst of too many guys. haiz... so unsecure more unsafe nw...
spam
oh ya. realized tt my chatbox is quite spam... so decided to remove it for gd. anw, if u r my friend, u'll noe hw to contact me & not via those chatbox. so no point keepin since there had been weird ppl postin weird comment.
BOO... to those ppl.
BOO... to those ppl.
i'm not pregnant...
jus back & had instant noodle as dinner as i didn't know what to get as dinner. what happened on d journey back made me cleared more of my wardrobe space. esp at d dress section & esp at d informal dresses part... well, b4 sem started, i alrdy threw a few pieces away & hide a few away but jus nw really hide d rest.
well, actually, wat happened i sort of expected it to happened yrs ago whenever mum buy those type of dresses or tops for me but it seemed like it's only within this 1 yr or so tt it really happened...
hmm... if u r still wonderin wat happen. well, today, in d mrt, thr was a lady who kept eye-in me & my bag & seemed v 苦恼 & ponderin & 'fi-git' (sry vocab weak, duno hw spell) ard & eventually stood up yet dare not tell me. all i can do was to pretend i nvr see anything & cont'd standin thr in d midst of d crowds & an uncle who was standin at d door went over to sit instead.
i believed tt was because of my loose fittin dress. last time, when mum say nice & wanna buy, i didn't wan cos i noe this may happen eventually as it would make 1 looks 'pregnant' even if not. & d worst thing is, wat mum bought was a yellow piece & she eventually went to get another blue piece so i got 2 pieces of tt. & tt was 1 of my cny clothes think last yr or so.
previously, think got 2 time w similar happening. once was w a doll dress but wat exactly happen i cant recall. think was ppl like friends or wat tell me.
& another time was after school in mrt w my friend & an uncle kept wantin me to sit & tt time, i wore a tube doll dress & was cold fr d LT so i wore cardigan oso.
thus, tt was y i remove those doll dress by either throwin those old old ones or to hide others. i nvr had problem w d loose dress i wore today so i nvr kept them but unsure of what to wear esp in d cold 'LT', to prevent havin cold knee, i wore tt dress with a 3/4 leggings & yet this happened today. haiz...
did i get too fat? but i doubt so. ppl keep sayin i slim a lot but i noe i got put back slightly recently but not tt obvious loh. seemed like i should go back to wear my skirt & top but i always lazy to go match lah. but aft clearnin my dresses, i basically left formal dresses. super not suitable wear to sch lah. i not tt vain loh though i noe not uncommon to those few in my cohort.
all i can hope is tt mum don go get anymore of those kind anymore. it's really v awkward to be caught in tt situation loh... made me feel so paiseh & yet i can only treat as if nothing happened... or mayb i should try look more nerdy & carry textbook in front of me? lol. mayb wear my blue spec, tie hair into pony tail or mayb like those village girl, pleat them up. lol. anw, i believed this wont happen again since i doubt i would wear those again. even if mum buy, i would think twice, think thrice, think super many times b4 i wear or mayb i shld jus tell her straight tt those she buy oso looks like for pregnant lady. but tell her she sure unhappy or even angry. haiz... shall see hw...
well, actually, wat happened i sort of expected it to happened yrs ago whenever mum buy those type of dresses or tops for me but it seemed like it's only within this 1 yr or so tt it really happened...
hmm... if u r still wonderin wat happen. well, today, in d mrt, thr was a lady who kept eye-in me & my bag & seemed v 苦恼 & ponderin & 'fi-git' (sry vocab weak, duno hw spell) ard & eventually stood up yet dare not tell me. all i can do was to pretend i nvr see anything & cont'd standin thr in d midst of d crowds & an uncle who was standin at d door went over to sit instead.
i believed tt was because of my loose fittin dress. last time, when mum say nice & wanna buy, i didn't wan cos i noe this may happen eventually as it would make 1 looks 'pregnant' even if not. & d worst thing is, wat mum bought was a yellow piece & she eventually went to get another blue piece so i got 2 pieces of tt. & tt was 1 of my cny clothes think last yr or so.
previously, think got 2 time w similar happening. once was w a doll dress but wat exactly happen i cant recall. think was ppl like friends or wat tell me.
& another time was after school in mrt w my friend & an uncle kept wantin me to sit & tt time, i wore a tube doll dress & was cold fr d LT so i wore cardigan oso.
thus, tt was y i remove those doll dress by either throwin those old old ones or to hide others. i nvr had problem w d loose dress i wore today so i nvr kept them but unsure of what to wear esp in d cold 'LT', to prevent havin cold knee, i wore tt dress with a 3/4 leggings & yet this happened today. haiz...
did i get too fat? but i doubt so. ppl keep sayin i slim a lot but i noe i got put back slightly recently but not tt obvious loh. seemed like i should go back to wear my skirt & top but i always lazy to go match lah. but aft clearnin my dresses, i basically left formal dresses. super not suitable wear to sch lah. i not tt vain loh though i noe not uncommon to those few in my cohort.
all i can hope is tt mum don go get anymore of those kind anymore. it's really v awkward to be caught in tt situation loh... made me feel so paiseh & yet i can only treat as if nothing happened... or mayb i should try look more nerdy & carry textbook in front of me? lol. mayb wear my blue spec, tie hair into pony tail or mayb like those village girl, pleat them up. lol. anw, i believed this wont happen again since i doubt i would wear those again. even if mum buy, i would think twice, think thrice, think super many times b4 i wear or mayb i shld jus tell her straight tt those she buy oso looks like for pregnant lady. but tell her she sure unhappy or even angry. haiz... shall see hw...
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
sneezy...
ah... choo.... -.-" think air con too tooo toooo cold liao. esp in d LT. wore short skirt today & even my knee super cold. nvr like tt cold b4 in my impression wor. & d temp diff of LT & d lobby so obvious.
anw, today had mad rush again. doin lab work & office work & study all in 1 day. all durin office hr. by right i shld get an hr of break for lunch but... almost had to forgo lunch while waitin for d prof to check with him in case do wrongly.
ended up so disoriented. printed notes but forget bring to work where i could look thru if free. went up take but no one open door for me. saw my ex-colleague & borrowed his card fr him. yet, didn't realized i oso forget my thumbdrive. only realize when i got back to d office counter & on my laptop.
nvm, luckily my spoilt hp got a copy of d partially done summary of a lecture so transfer to my laptop to do but aft work, rush up to take den rush back down for lecture. really a mad rush.
& not sure if not enough sleep or cos of d rush, got slight headache during d final lecture. actually even nw, oso got & worst is nose feel itchy & wanna sneeze at times & had sneezed a few times. mayb cos LT too cold & oso cos i sit at d counter w d cold wind constantly blowin into my face. mayb oso cos of d curse. always got 'sick' when i start sch though i had been in sch for d whole holi.
not easy. really not easy to jagar so many things. luckily my job quite easy. easy job, easy money. jus gotta commit time. & luckily d lab only extend till end of next week. shag ah... jus hope i don fall sick need to stay healthy & stay focus.
oh ya. talkin bout stayin focus, put my name for a report due on 29 sep. diff topic due diff date & i refused to get 1 which was due aft recess so tt i can stay more focus aft tt & do my necessary revision. But... another module oso have 3 reports due b4 term break. which means excludin this week, 6 more wk b4 term break & i alrdy got 4 report on hand. & there is still another 2 modules which i not sure wat will happen but it seemed like 1 of it oso got intensive presentation/discussion.
so this 1st term is gonna b real tough. nvm, look forward to d short getaway durin recess & recharge then. work hard nw to taste d sweetness ltr. & all d more, enhance tt i don wan other commitment for trg & mtg. i'm really determined to get better grades. if only they udnerstand... haiz..
anw, today had mad rush again. doin lab work & office work & study all in 1 day. all durin office hr. by right i shld get an hr of break for lunch but... almost had to forgo lunch while waitin for d prof to check with him in case do wrongly.
ended up so disoriented. printed notes but forget bring to work where i could look thru if free. went up take but no one open door for me. saw my ex-colleague & borrowed his card fr him. yet, didn't realized i oso forget my thumbdrive. only realize when i got back to d office counter & on my laptop.
nvm, luckily my spoilt hp got a copy of d partially done summary of a lecture so transfer to my laptop to do but aft work, rush up to take den rush back down for lecture. really a mad rush.
& not sure if not enough sleep or cos of d rush, got slight headache during d final lecture. actually even nw, oso got & worst is nose feel itchy & wanna sneeze at times & had sneezed a few times. mayb cos LT too cold & oso cos i sit at d counter w d cold wind constantly blowin into my face. mayb oso cos of d curse. always got 'sick' when i start sch though i had been in sch for d whole holi.
not easy. really not easy to jagar so many things. luckily my job quite easy. easy job, easy money. jus gotta commit time. & luckily d lab only extend till end of next week. shag ah... jus hope i don fall sick need to stay healthy & stay focus.
oh ya. talkin bout stayin focus, put my name for a report due on 29 sep. diff topic due diff date & i refused to get 1 which was due aft recess so tt i can stay more focus aft tt & do my necessary revision. But... another module oso have 3 reports due b4 term break. which means excludin this week, 6 more wk b4 term break & i alrdy got 4 report on hand. & there is still another 2 modules which i not sure wat will happen but it seemed like 1 of it oso got intensive presentation/discussion.
so this 1st term is gonna b real tough. nvm, look forward to d short getaway durin recess & recharge then. work hard nw to taste d sweetness ltr. & all d more, enhance tt i don wan other commitment for trg & mtg. i'm really determined to get better grades. if only they udnerstand... haiz..
Tuesday, 31 August 2010
sch start le. no time to lose
sch started ytd & saw d crazyness of the queue outside d library & d rushin in to get seats & d big crowds at d printin rm.
& lecture notes out too late when i gotta go back lab. & cpu d/l so slowly. haiz. anw, i gave up & went to lab instead & borrow friend's cpu to print d notes.
cells didn't grow well so aft i do a set, decided to stop & check w prof since afternoon no class. so no need rush. so went back aft lunch. spent much longer time than expected aft checkin w prof & discussin another results w him. but i stayed on since dear ask me wait in sch & use friend's cpu to print past yr papers. can save $$ ma. haha.
anw, when dear came over, i went to get dinner & after dinner, went w him to ktv w his friends. i noe will b late but i no sch on today ma. turned out to be a gatherin so i'm d odd one but oh well, i saw his friends for a couple of times b4 so not tt unfamilar but oso not to d extend of being v familiar.
hw shld i say, hmm, let's call him boss. their boss was there & he paid $100 alrdy & asked us to settle d rest of d bills ourselves & he seemed quite close to d ppl thr & guess wat... total for 8 of us only $128 & we had ordered 2 honey drink, at least 5 mug of beer & a bottle of Remy Martin which comes with free flow of mixer (coke & green tea). i feel like a village girl thr. duno bout alcoholic drink & duno wat mixer was until then.
& oops... i drank 2 cup of d Remy Martin. 1 w coke & 1 w green tea. 1st time drinkin tt but i still sober aft tt. anw, Remy martin alchol content is 40%. so much higher than beer? & my record in d past was 2 glass of red wine durin weddin dinner or a can of beer when i was really down at hm mths ago & prob 3/4 of whiskey on d rock durin dear's friend's weddin in aug. this shld b d most amt of alcohol content flowin into my blood veins.
anw, we were thr at ard mayb 8 or 8+ & stayed till almost 1am when d place closed & dear sent me back before going home. he gotta work today jus tt not tt early so he don stay over.
today, since i noe mum b out, i slept till later but nw i can feel tt it's still not enough. it's not cos of jus 1 nite but due to accumulation of many late nites since d start of d sch holi. my ave lights off is 1+ am but might hit 2+ & ytd's record was 3+am. & afternoon i nvr nap le. cos mum's back.
jus nw purposely miss d call fr my contact i/c fr my dance gp but i called back or she'll bug me further. heard a news. not sure gd or bad but i would prefer not. i'm really drained le.
usually we will b in d gp for 5 yrs & usually 'graduation' is in sept. so by right soon. yet, i had been doubtin & i bet it's really true cos dec will ve a major performance & d sian thing is, it's on x'mas day. & thr r 3 other dates to block. x'mas eve & another 2 other dates, 1 of which was my friend's weddin day.
though i don really enjoy d family gatherin on x'mas eve, i suddenly feel tt it's so much better than d rehearsal, etc. i'd lost d interest & passion for d dance & performin. bein in d limelight (though in a v big gp no longer can push me further in d gp). i guess i'm too tired for anything nw. wat i need is a break. in d past, i'd thought tt so long s i strive on till sep this yr, i would feel better w 1 lesser activity & can concentrate in my studies but den thr seemed to ve this major challenge.
if i can breakthrough, i would b able to show ppl & probably my future employer. but... it's really a thin line btw make it or break it. it's my final sem to get As. really As if i really want at least a 3rd class honor. shit...
but, tt might b a final performance i would get & it's a major one at indoor stadium. if i don ve d commitment of study & was jus workin as a lab tech like d past, i would sure b able to enjoy & put in more than 100% effort. it would be fun but nw, i don ve d passion & yearnin to go. i cant perform like d past where i can draw out each step in my note book aft trg so tt i can practice & refer to when i forget. i cant practice till i can go by the song, the lyric, d music anymore. even gg by d beat count was also a problem for me.
ytd, durin d ktv, dear's friend sang d song which was 1 of d song for d last song which i enjoyed performin. aft tt, i had 2 or 3 more other performance but i don enjoy. it's different feelin. so if i commit myself, tt means i would have to give up my friend's weddin, my family gatherin, my extra study time & rest time. i noe i had reach beyond my limit. tt's y i really wonder if i wanna work part time. if not cos i got long break, i would not agreed to work. & i refused to take other timin. & tt was why i had grow to love short getaway like d melaka trip i went w dear. it's away fr everything, all d responsibilities, all d early mornin wake up, all d stress, etc etc.
anw, decided to give up though it would be my final chance to performance. will say friend's weddin on actual date. don care le. & will try escape trg s much s i can. since oso no pt i go cos i not performin. go thr mayb jus learn d technique but wateevr it is, i shld graduate this yr though seemed like might be in dec or aft. furthermore, trg is startin fr mornin 8.30 till 3. which means breakfast at 7+ den go w/o food till 3++. is tt lunch or is tt tea break? trainin leh. not lesson whr use brain only. trainin, 11+ alrdy hungry loh. den dinner hw? time all screw up. tt's y i so want to escape fr it if possible.
i don wanna sacrifice my studies anymore. in sec sch, in poly, i'd been doin well. not v well but acceptable w majority Bs. at least still let me go into uni. but those day, i only got studies. in sec sch, due to cca, i had sacrifice my o lvl results. but in poly, no other commitment. nw, i think i wanna give up everything oso. totally focus & i'm sure i can do it tt way if no other mtg, no other trg, no other work, & if best, no stress at hm. tt's y i wish to move out. mayb if i'm out of hm, i will oso feel better. anw, i can still use d time study in sch or at dear's place if he not workin or finish worrk early. i still ve sch & his place to study. jus need to focus rather than those mtg or trg.
i noe they will say, take it s a challenge but haven i been challengin for d past 3 yrs? & i failed a module too & had been gettin all Cs & Ds. i noe it's tough but if i can focus, i should at least get Bs & Cs one loh. s long s i can focus & not so tired, tense up & stress up & constantly put an armor or shield. luckily i got my sch friends & esp dear or i bet i should ve given up long ago.
anw, rmbr last time, when i go talk to d prof whom i'm attached to, he said ppl outside looked at grades & surely, my friend who jus seek for attachment alrdy been through tt acad selection process.
& ytd, dear's 'boss' oso asked me a question. w my results, hw can i b sure to get to whr i wanted? ya. i ans him back tt i'd experience but i oso noe d reality. it'll b a tough road ahead. at 1st, i still ve a glimpse of hope aft my attachment but his qs hit me hard again. slap me back to reality but my firm ans sayin i got experience seemed to convince him but not myself. i jus hope i can get d interview to show my determination.
but b4 tt, shall focus on studies & try my best. no time to lose. no time for those serious stuffs like mtg & trg.
watever it is, conclusion is to focus on study!!!
& lecture notes out too late when i gotta go back lab. & cpu d/l so slowly. haiz. anw, i gave up & went to lab instead & borrow friend's cpu to print d notes.
cells didn't grow well so aft i do a set, decided to stop & check w prof since afternoon no class. so no need rush. so went back aft lunch. spent much longer time than expected aft checkin w prof & discussin another results w him. but i stayed on since dear ask me wait in sch & use friend's cpu to print past yr papers. can save $$ ma. haha.
anw, when dear came over, i went to get dinner & after dinner, went w him to ktv w his friends. i noe will b late but i no sch on today ma. turned out to be a gatherin so i'm d odd one but oh well, i saw his friends for a couple of times b4 so not tt unfamilar but oso not to d extend of being v familiar.
hw shld i say, hmm, let's call him boss. their boss was there & he paid $100 alrdy & asked us to settle d rest of d bills ourselves & he seemed quite close to d ppl thr & guess wat... total for 8 of us only $128 & we had ordered 2 honey drink, at least 5 mug of beer & a bottle of Remy Martin which comes with free flow of mixer (coke & green tea). i feel like a village girl thr. duno bout alcoholic drink & duno wat mixer was until then.
& oops... i drank 2 cup of d Remy Martin. 1 w coke & 1 w green tea. 1st time drinkin tt but i still sober aft tt. anw, Remy martin alchol content is 40%. so much higher than beer? & my record in d past was 2 glass of red wine durin weddin dinner or a can of beer when i was really down at hm mths ago & prob 3/4 of whiskey on d rock durin dear's friend's weddin in aug. this shld b d most amt of alcohol content flowin into my blood veins.
anw, we were thr at ard mayb 8 or 8+ & stayed till almost 1am when d place closed & dear sent me back before going home. he gotta work today jus tt not tt early so he don stay over.
today, since i noe mum b out, i slept till later but nw i can feel tt it's still not enough. it's not cos of jus 1 nite but due to accumulation of many late nites since d start of d sch holi. my ave lights off is 1+ am but might hit 2+ & ytd's record was 3+am. & afternoon i nvr nap le. cos mum's back.
jus nw purposely miss d call fr my contact i/c fr my dance gp but i called back or she'll bug me further. heard a news. not sure gd or bad but i would prefer not. i'm really drained le.
usually we will b in d gp for 5 yrs & usually 'graduation' is in sept. so by right soon. yet, i had been doubtin & i bet it's really true cos dec will ve a major performance & d sian thing is, it's on x'mas day. & thr r 3 other dates to block. x'mas eve & another 2 other dates, 1 of which was my friend's weddin day.
though i don really enjoy d family gatherin on x'mas eve, i suddenly feel tt it's so much better than d rehearsal, etc. i'd lost d interest & passion for d dance & performin. bein in d limelight (though in a v big gp no longer can push me further in d gp). i guess i'm too tired for anything nw. wat i need is a break. in d past, i'd thought tt so long s i strive on till sep this yr, i would feel better w 1 lesser activity & can concentrate in my studies but den thr seemed to ve this major challenge.
if i can breakthrough, i would b able to show ppl & probably my future employer. but... it's really a thin line btw make it or break it. it's my final sem to get As. really As if i really want at least a 3rd class honor. shit...
but, tt might b a final performance i would get & it's a major one at indoor stadium. if i don ve d commitment of study & was jus workin as a lab tech like d past, i would sure b able to enjoy & put in more than 100% effort. it would be fun but nw, i don ve d passion & yearnin to go. i cant perform like d past where i can draw out each step in my note book aft trg so tt i can practice & refer to when i forget. i cant practice till i can go by the song, the lyric, d music anymore. even gg by d beat count was also a problem for me.
ytd, durin d ktv, dear's friend sang d song which was 1 of d song for d last song which i enjoyed performin. aft tt, i had 2 or 3 more other performance but i don enjoy. it's different feelin. so if i commit myself, tt means i would have to give up my friend's weddin, my family gatherin, my extra study time & rest time. i noe i had reach beyond my limit. tt's y i really wonder if i wanna work part time. if not cos i got long break, i would not agreed to work. & i refused to take other timin. & tt was why i had grow to love short getaway like d melaka trip i went w dear. it's away fr everything, all d responsibilities, all d early mornin wake up, all d stress, etc etc.
anw, decided to give up though it would be my final chance to performance. will say friend's weddin on actual date. don care le. & will try escape trg s much s i can. since oso no pt i go cos i not performin. go thr mayb jus learn d technique but wateevr it is, i shld graduate this yr though seemed like might be in dec or aft. furthermore, trg is startin fr mornin 8.30 till 3. which means breakfast at 7+ den go w/o food till 3++. is tt lunch or is tt tea break? trainin leh. not lesson whr use brain only. trainin, 11+ alrdy hungry loh. den dinner hw? time all screw up. tt's y i so want to escape fr it if possible.
i don wanna sacrifice my studies anymore. in sec sch, in poly, i'd been doin well. not v well but acceptable w majority Bs. at least still let me go into uni. but those day, i only got studies. in sec sch, due to cca, i had sacrifice my o lvl results. but in poly, no other commitment. nw, i think i wanna give up everything oso. totally focus & i'm sure i can do it tt way if no other mtg, no other trg, no other work, & if best, no stress at hm. tt's y i wish to move out. mayb if i'm out of hm, i will oso feel better. anw, i can still use d time study in sch or at dear's place if he not workin or finish worrk early. i still ve sch & his place to study. jus need to focus rather than those mtg or trg.
i noe they will say, take it s a challenge but haven i been challengin for d past 3 yrs? & i failed a module too & had been gettin all Cs & Ds. i noe it's tough but if i can focus, i should at least get Bs & Cs one loh. s long s i can focus & not so tired, tense up & stress up & constantly put an armor or shield. luckily i got my sch friends & esp dear or i bet i should ve given up long ago.
anw, rmbr last time, when i go talk to d prof whom i'm attached to, he said ppl outside looked at grades & surely, my friend who jus seek for attachment alrdy been through tt acad selection process.
& ytd, dear's 'boss' oso asked me a question. w my results, hw can i b sure to get to whr i wanted? ya. i ans him back tt i'd experience but i oso noe d reality. it'll b a tough road ahead. at 1st, i still ve a glimpse of hope aft my attachment but his qs hit me hard again. slap me back to reality but my firm ans sayin i got experience seemed to convince him but not myself. i jus hope i can get d interview to show my determination.
but b4 tt, shall focus on studies & try my best. no time to lose. no time for those serious stuffs like mtg & trg.
watever it is, conclusion is to focus on study!!!
Sunday, 29 August 2010
mooncake
aft decidin to research earlier to check out d mooncake promo, it's not s easy to find 1 w all d conditions i wanted.
searched online via all d diff bank credit card promo, search d hotels, restaurants, etc till i gave up & email them to enquire & till nw, only found 1 tt should have & tt's at Hilton. they got a booth at taka so mayb shall go down this comin weekend to check out. hopefully dear not workin on either day ba so tt we can buy & give away on same day. well, if he work mornin, mayb still alright. mayb i go get 1st den meet him to give away loh jus tt it'll be heavy w 4 boxes of mooncakes.
anw, d conditions were pretty classic. i jus wan lotus paste w yolk but in snow skin not bake skin. nwadays, so many variety, so many flavours but don suit old folks like my grandma. otherwise, will ve but smaller type & mum said gave away don look nice. haiz... luckily Hilton got. last yr managed to get fr 1 of d booth at JP after my friend's ROM & tt day was kinda rush.
parents oso prefer snow skin so may s well jus get all same type fr 1 single place. easier job tt way. & 4 boxes cos 1 box give dear's parents, 1 box give mine, 1 box give grandma who dote us oso, 1 box give his nanny who treat him like their own & always invited me along for their gatherings.
all these while since i doin research, keep hearin here promo there promo, but aft email, get disappointin results. is it jus so hard to find? cant they oso sell this type? it's classic & sure will ve their demand. now got demand yet limited supply so mayb my family weird only?
well, i do prefer snow skin than bake skin, prob oso cos keep in fridge, cold cold. haha. i oso like d chocolate w alcohol type. think if no alcohol, sure wont take cos it's usually milk chocolate & i hate milk taste & smell. not a fan of alcohol but it's so much better than milk.
watever it is, shall go taka see. mayb thr got other restaurant, etc w d classic snow skin mooncake like wat dear said cos at 1st i tot no diff since both hilton & taka in orchard. at least mayb taka can see more options. will go down comin sat/sun.
hmm... jus tot & check. mayb can go on fri oso. since lect only 2 hr till12.30. k. shall see dear's work schedule.
so fast, tml sch start le. jus dug out my cancer bio notes this mornin. shall try look through startin fr nw. no time to lose. no time to slack. time to chiong. time to work hard. 1 final sem to get my gpa in track. for better chance to get a better job in future. gambatte
searched online via all d diff bank credit card promo, search d hotels, restaurants, etc till i gave up & email them to enquire & till nw, only found 1 tt should have & tt's at Hilton. they got a booth at taka so mayb shall go down this comin weekend to check out. hopefully dear not workin on either day ba so tt we can buy & give away on same day. well, if he work mornin, mayb still alright. mayb i go get 1st den meet him to give away loh jus tt it'll be heavy w 4 boxes of mooncakes.
anw, d conditions were pretty classic. i jus wan lotus paste w yolk but in snow skin not bake skin. nwadays, so many variety, so many flavours but don suit old folks like my grandma. otherwise, will ve but smaller type & mum said gave away don look nice. haiz... luckily Hilton got. last yr managed to get fr 1 of d booth at JP after my friend's ROM & tt day was kinda rush.
parents oso prefer snow skin so may s well jus get all same type fr 1 single place. easier job tt way. & 4 boxes cos 1 box give dear's parents, 1 box give mine, 1 box give grandma who dote us oso, 1 box give his nanny who treat him like their own & always invited me along for their gatherings.
all these while since i doin research, keep hearin here promo there promo, but aft email, get disappointin results. is it jus so hard to find? cant they oso sell this type? it's classic & sure will ve their demand. now got demand yet limited supply so mayb my family weird only?
well, i do prefer snow skin than bake skin, prob oso cos keep in fridge, cold cold. haha. i oso like d chocolate w alcohol type. think if no alcohol, sure wont take cos it's usually milk chocolate & i hate milk taste & smell. not a fan of alcohol but it's so much better than milk.
watever it is, shall go taka see. mayb thr got other restaurant, etc w d classic snow skin mooncake like wat dear said cos at 1st i tot no diff since both hilton & taka in orchard. at least mayb taka can see more options. will go down comin sat/sun.
hmm... jus tot & check. mayb can go on fri oso. since lect only 2 hr till12.30. k. shall see dear's work schedule.
so fast, tml sch start le. jus dug out my cancer bio notes this mornin. shall try look through startin fr nw. no time to lose. no time to slack. time to chiong. time to work hard. 1 final sem to get my gpa in track. for better chance to get a better job in future. gambatte
Friday, 27 August 2010
休息是为了走更长的路
had a very busy final week, attached to d lab. wed, busy till wish don take lunch, & no time go back office, no time drink water, no time go toilet. next day, friend comment say i more busy than staff & graduate student & was amazed i was doing 3 or more experiment at a single time.
busy till i can forget do certain things & thus, ended up going back later esp ytd. anw, i still got mayb 4 more days to go back to d lab to help. but i cant denied tt i'm exhausted, i was dehyrated. my legs & back esp lower back oso pain cos basically, no time sit s i'm constantly movin ard in d lab or ard d 3rd, 4th or 5th lvl. i doubt i can recuperate by mon when sch start.
tired i m but i will still strive on. i could choose to end attachment earlier but nvm lah. it might still benefit me if i cont my fyp thr. so for future sake, just chiong nw loh... & if got good impression, mayb can get job in d lab or get good appraisal/testimonial to enhance my resume wor. my previous testimonial was ages ago. at least like tt oso better chance to get job in future. think far & work for it though no pay for all d hard work nw.
well, i'm nw so lookin forward to oct, for another getaway. jus nw went natas fair. b gg batam durin term break. i think i'm addicted to getaway trip, dump away every worries, etc. get away fr everything. esp when parents not gg. haha.
no lah i no dump them. they oso b gg holi in early dec when i still got sch & b havin exam soon. tt time, aunt on leave so mum thought of takin a break & go holi w dad alone. so they were d one who wanna dump me but i don mind. at least i get d peace i need.
dear wanna go short trip & so ask me along & we had looked ard for quite a while le but went natas fair yet realized no diff at all for such short getaway. no perks no discount. so we just book thr.
frankly speakin, i do miss d previous getaway to melaka - a'famosa. actually, i could ve gone for another trip to bintan w lab friends but didn't cos too close le. jun go HK, jul go a'famosa, den if go, b aug go bintan. no income leh. cannot cannot. if i workin, & got pay, mayb i would go.
lab friends oso b gg climb mt kinabalu in sep/oct & asked me along but durin term time. cant go. previously they wanna go melaka town & asked me too but i gg a'famosa so not gg w them. anw, i been to d town area last dec le. they oso might wanna go penang, etc next yr & ask me along, shall see hw cos i shld b doin fyp then. my lab friends v happenin hor. kip gg holi but at least they no politics. nice to b w like tt & make work/research life so much bearable.
anw, today booked b4 ask parents. oops. anw, easier to ask since they oso wanna go holi. they might oso b gg 1day trip to melaka in early oct. jus gotta see if got space when date near near.
& again, thr were overseas bridal ppl thr fr taiwan. like previous, keep buggin us & tryin to talk to us. experience tt & so we tried our best to siam away till in d end, dear just said, 'married & taken photos le'. it's so funny since i noe his intention & d reaction of person who really stopped on track & keep quiet & leave us alone. it made me burst out laughin when we walked away. but tt really works to shoo them off. bugger. ppl go thr to look ard for tour la. not for d bridal shoots thingy la. & we gotta spend $4 ea wor. siao...
i'm nw so lookin forward to d trip. something to push me forward & strive more for the upcoming 7 weeks. at least i noe, i wont face d dead end like last sem jus b4 my term break whr i'd to skip class & go to a beach myself to cry & let it off & chill off. 休息是为了走更长的路... it's really true...
sch reopen wont b tt easy for me. study, help in lab for mayb 2x a week for 2 wks, & oso workin parttime durin long break till duno when. at least i'll get some income & hopefully i can get d bursary thingy though not much. at least tt amt can cover me for 1 mth to 2 mth if i don spend & eat exp lunch. i nw, usually only eat $1.8 - $2.5 for lunch.
anw, it's almost 12.30 am. shld go sleep le. super duper tired. i need to get s much sleep as possible or i'll 200% sleep in class.
busy till i can forget do certain things & thus, ended up going back later esp ytd. anw, i still got mayb 4 more days to go back to d lab to help. but i cant denied tt i'm exhausted, i was dehyrated. my legs & back esp lower back oso pain cos basically, no time sit s i'm constantly movin ard in d lab or ard d 3rd, 4th or 5th lvl. i doubt i can recuperate by mon when sch start.
tired i m but i will still strive on. i could choose to end attachment earlier but nvm lah. it might still benefit me if i cont my fyp thr. so for future sake, just chiong nw loh... & if got good impression, mayb can get job in d lab or get good appraisal/testimonial to enhance my resume wor. my previous testimonial was ages ago. at least like tt oso better chance to get job in future. think far & work for it though no pay for all d hard work nw.
well, i'm nw so lookin forward to oct, for another getaway. jus nw went natas fair. b gg batam durin term break. i think i'm addicted to getaway trip, dump away every worries, etc. get away fr everything. esp when parents not gg. haha.
no lah i no dump them. they oso b gg holi in early dec when i still got sch & b havin exam soon. tt time, aunt on leave so mum thought of takin a break & go holi w dad alone. so they were d one who wanna dump me but i don mind. at least i get d peace i need.
dear wanna go short trip & so ask me along & we had looked ard for quite a while le but went natas fair yet realized no diff at all for such short getaway. no perks no discount. so we just book thr.
frankly speakin, i do miss d previous getaway to melaka - a'famosa. actually, i could ve gone for another trip to bintan w lab friends but didn't cos too close le. jun go HK, jul go a'famosa, den if go, b aug go bintan. no income leh. cannot cannot. if i workin, & got pay, mayb i would go.
lab friends oso b gg climb mt kinabalu in sep/oct & asked me along but durin term time. cant go. previously they wanna go melaka town & asked me too but i gg a'famosa so not gg w them. anw, i been to d town area last dec le. they oso might wanna go penang, etc next yr & ask me along, shall see hw cos i shld b doin fyp then. my lab friends v happenin hor. kip gg holi but at least they no politics. nice to b w like tt & make work/research life so much bearable.
anw, today booked b4 ask parents. oops. anw, easier to ask since they oso wanna go holi. they might oso b gg 1day trip to melaka in early oct. jus gotta see if got space when date near near.
& again, thr were overseas bridal ppl thr fr taiwan. like previous, keep buggin us & tryin to talk to us. experience tt & so we tried our best to siam away till in d end, dear just said, 'married & taken photos le'. it's so funny since i noe his intention & d reaction of person who really stopped on track & keep quiet & leave us alone. it made me burst out laughin when we walked away. but tt really works to shoo them off. bugger. ppl go thr to look ard for tour la. not for d bridal shoots thingy la. & we gotta spend $4 ea wor. siao...
i'm nw so lookin forward to d trip. something to push me forward & strive more for the upcoming 7 weeks. at least i noe, i wont face d dead end like last sem jus b4 my term break whr i'd to skip class & go to a beach myself to cry & let it off & chill off. 休息是为了走更长的路... it's really true...
sch reopen wont b tt easy for me. study, help in lab for mayb 2x a week for 2 wks, & oso workin parttime durin long break till duno when. at least i'll get some income & hopefully i can get d bursary thingy though not much. at least tt amt can cover me for 1 mth to 2 mth if i don spend & eat exp lunch. i nw, usually only eat $1.8 - $2.5 for lunch.
anw, it's almost 12.30 am. shld go sleep le. super duper tired. i need to get s much sleep as possible or i'll 200% sleep in class.
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
没时间观念...
'thanks!' to tt 2 who r so 'gd' to me. 1 of d other alrdy did same thing previously. cos of them, i stayed later when actually i could go earlier. anw, not tt late till dark la but i start feel unwell in late afternoon.
i dono them so i shall name them A & B. previously i booked d incubator at 9am but A prob didn't noe & notice & by d time i wanted to use, her stuffs was still shakin & thus cos me delay till i decided to go find her. but she not in yet. typical researchers... come in late late. give trouble to ppl like me.
i don wanna have no life. i don wanna sleep late late den work till late late. other than sleepin, can do other things ma. like meet up friends, etc. but early mornin, ppl all workin & no whr go in mornin oso. once a while mayb ba but not everyday la.
well, think A 'learnt' her lesson & so she put time tt she would 'finish' yet 30 min later after her stated time, she had not reach lab. -.-" & she alrdy book till 11 am. can u imagine hw late it was & wat i did had to incubate d bacteria for 6 hr & i need to change temp to shake another batch for overnight.
& this time, not only A but B also. if those v bad temper type, sure make big fuss or quarrel or scold le loh. or those evil ppl will sure jus take out & place thr not botherin if it would affect ur results.
but i not so evil, previously, for A, i check w her labmates & they suggest putting in d cold rm & i, go down to my lab (lvl 3 then) & push trolley up to lvl 5 & take out her things & push down to their cold rm at lvl 4 den go back to lvl 3 to keep my lab trolley. i have my rights not to bother loh. esp since she alrdy screw up my time.
anw, today, last min managed to find another incubator & change d other in my lab jus to start tt 6 hr. if not, hmm.... not sure 7 can go or not le. thanks to them but glad i not so dumb to wait & wait oso.
in late afternoon, started to feel headache. den in evenin, not sure if cos hungry oso, i feel blur blur, no strength & dizzy dizzy like tt & bit nauseic, & tired too. & even oso started to feel arms & leg's muscle/bone achin like fever. but d prob is i noe i no fever. mayb body is tellin me tt it's 'breakin down'.
well, i noe i no fever but dear's palm seemed so mcuh warmer than me so i did wonder if it's me but after mearsurin, my body temp is norm but other than d body ache, do feel bit cold. not cold till shiver kind but slightly cold.
took med & a while ago, feel warm tt i on air con now. but arms & legs still have tt achin feel like fr fever. hope after a nite of rest, i'll feel ok tml cos tml b a v busy day esp in d mornin. 3 diff experiment to start & rush against time.
growing tt 6 hr cultures thingy & overnight culture & so time v impt or gotta ot till late
for today's cultures, gotta sonicate (breakup d cells) & get d protein out & purify, oso a long process
& another set of experiment, gotta extract d plasmid dna & do a digest to check if i construct it 'correctly' before sendin d potential ones for sequencin to varify & d vendor come collect by 3 pm so oso need race against time & so i gotta see which i should start 1st. -.-"
w so many things to do, cant afford to b sick lah. or else, FC gotta do all these plus her own things. ya, these are part of her project but it was under my 'care' wor. will only pass back to her next wk. & all these esp d culture thingy will let me get results at least for my part of d project during these 16 wk of attachment. if really got results, will b publish into a paper, den i can have more things to say in my resume & future job interview. it'll help me greatly esp if prof really do put my name somewhr in d paper like wat FC said tt he had d intention to. not sure hw true but watever it is, i can still say i did help even if name is not mentioned. most impt is tt paper get to b publish w d results i got.
so pls pls don fall sick. i wont mind if i sick on sun. so i can skip dance, skip mtg & really slp w/o worry dad angry or sch will start next week le.
i dono them so i shall name them A & B. previously i booked d incubator at 9am but A prob didn't noe & notice & by d time i wanted to use, her stuffs was still shakin & thus cos me delay till i decided to go find her. but she not in yet. typical researchers... come in late late. give trouble to ppl like me.
i don wanna have no life. i don wanna sleep late late den work till late late. other than sleepin, can do other things ma. like meet up friends, etc. but early mornin, ppl all workin & no whr go in mornin oso. once a while mayb ba but not everyday la.
well, think A 'learnt' her lesson & so she put time tt she would 'finish' yet 30 min later after her stated time, she had not reach lab. -.-" & she alrdy book till 11 am. can u imagine hw late it was & wat i did had to incubate d bacteria for 6 hr & i need to change temp to shake another batch for overnight.
& this time, not only A but B also. if those v bad temper type, sure make big fuss or quarrel or scold le loh. or those evil ppl will sure jus take out & place thr not botherin if it would affect ur results.
but i not so evil, previously, for A, i check w her labmates & they suggest putting in d cold rm & i, go down to my lab (lvl 3 then) & push trolley up to lvl 5 & take out her things & push down to their cold rm at lvl 4 den go back to lvl 3 to keep my lab trolley. i have my rights not to bother loh. esp since she alrdy screw up my time.
anw, today, last min managed to find another incubator & change d other in my lab jus to start tt 6 hr. if not, hmm.... not sure 7 can go or not le. thanks to them but glad i not so dumb to wait & wait oso.
in late afternoon, started to feel headache. den in evenin, not sure if cos hungry oso, i feel blur blur, no strength & dizzy dizzy like tt & bit nauseic, & tired too. & even oso started to feel arms & leg's muscle/bone achin like fever. but d prob is i noe i no fever. mayb body is tellin me tt it's 'breakin down'.
well, i noe i no fever but dear's palm seemed so mcuh warmer than me so i did wonder if it's me but after mearsurin, my body temp is norm but other than d body ache, do feel bit cold. not cold till shiver kind but slightly cold.
took med & a while ago, feel warm tt i on air con now. but arms & legs still have tt achin feel like fr fever. hope after a nite of rest, i'll feel ok tml cos tml b a v busy day esp in d mornin. 3 diff experiment to start & rush against time.
growing tt 6 hr cultures thingy & overnight culture & so time v impt or gotta ot till late
for today's cultures, gotta sonicate (breakup d cells) & get d protein out & purify, oso a long process
& another set of experiment, gotta extract d plasmid dna & do a digest to check if i construct it 'correctly' before sendin d potential ones for sequencin to varify & d vendor come collect by 3 pm so oso need race against time & so i gotta see which i should start 1st. -.-"
w so many things to do, cant afford to b sick lah. or else, FC gotta do all these plus her own things. ya, these are part of her project but it was under my 'care' wor. will only pass back to her next wk. & all these esp d culture thingy will let me get results at least for my part of d project during these 16 wk of attachment. if really got results, will b publish into a paper, den i can have more things to say in my resume & future job interview. it'll help me greatly esp if prof really do put my name somewhr in d paper like wat FC said tt he had d intention to. not sure hw true but watever it is, i can still say i did help even if name is not mentioned. most impt is tt paper get to b publish w d results i got.
so pls pls don fall sick. i wont mind if i sick on sun. so i can skip dance, skip mtg & really slp w/o worry dad angry or sch will start next week le.
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