haiz... 1 aft another... nvr endin prob... nvr endin trouble... nvr endin bad news...
mum still s grumpy s ever. if she like she will ans back if not only got silence. but even if she ans back, oso v grumpy tone. so tt made me so much wanna get away fr hm. wish for a short break, a short weekend getaway so i can get out of my hse even for a day.
anw, all these while, i can still sms dear when i really upset & when possible he will call me & chat w me. & come to accompany me but jus heard of a bad news. he'll b attached overseas soon. initially it was jus rumor so i chose not to believe & hope for miracle but looks like i'm really down on my luck when d rabbit starts to hop over to chase the tiger away.
jus nw, he gave me a cfm dates on when he would b away n it's end of d mth. he will b away fr 28 feb to 8 mar. i'm scare actually. i'm scare tt if things r not s smooth at hm again which i doubt in short term will, i not sure hw my heart can take it alone. n i doubt my friend would b free to meet up too cos she busy w work n study too. all these while, i either look for dear or tt friend but den soon i'll ve none.
d only thing i can 安慰 myself is tt he wont b away for months which was what he said he might ve to b away for. tt time, tt news came when i was gg into my exam hall for my exam. haiz... anw, i doubt i can 安慰 myself n say d sooner it's over, d better cos surely thr will ve such cases in future. but when he's away, i'll really ve no other 避风港... really hope can bury myself w tonnes of lab work or to read up & start my report ba. if only hm can b whr i enjoy to b at. den i wont feel so jialet nw.
i'm losin a 避风港 so whr is my real 避风港???
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