Sunday, 20 February 2011

scary & eerie nightmare or???

last nite had a scary & eerie nightmare or is it not?

i always squeezed to a corner of my bed to slp & place bolster & pillow on my other side. fr young, i always like small space cos it made me more secure.

fr my memory, i sense something at d bolster & pillow side. it's like someone is thr but either i cant see or i cant even turn to see. but i really 抗拒 tt presence which seemed to wanna pull me towards it. it tugged & pulled my hand which i resist.

den i suddenly felt s if someone wanna carry me fr below my knee & back. & it's trying to carry me off & out of my bed. i cant moved still but i managed to move my hand & grab on my mattress cover & so it failed to get me out of my bed again.

failing to do so, i suddenly felt something pressing on my throat & chest s if trying to suffocate me. i can feel out of breath. esp due to d pressure on my neck. i tot this time, i gonna die but somehw, d presence left.

i guess i'm still scare of dying. scare of leavin. but wat is d purpose of tt something? who or wat is it? d only someone who i can associate w is my grandma whom i always cried to bring me away when i'm really low? is it her? did she come to prove to me tt i actually didn't wanna die? if not her, then who else? *shivered*

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