sick

it'd been quite some time since i got ill enough till i vomited... my 老毛病 is nose & throat which end up w bloody phlegm/mucus & oso long-duration cough tt takes months to recover. always managed to ctrl to prevent cough cos i noe i cant afford to.

anw, last week, my throat started givin way. dry till irritated till can cough once a while. took duro-tuss dry cough lozenges cos cough syrup running out. & past 2-3 days ago started to have green phelgm/mucus when wake up but today worse cos got spots of blood again.

went doc in morning & tt doc usually don give antibiotic but he gave today. awhile aft took med, out of d blue, i felt v bad. stomach purging d acidic fluid up my mouth till i cant take it & dash to d toilet to vomit. den i took d only sweet i'd left. s i suck d sweet, was still manageable but once d sweet ran out, a while later, i 1/2 ran to d toilet to vomit again. think at tt time, my stomach isn't hungry but had already digested my breakfast so no solid came out. vomit till even my upper abdomen cramp up & it jus felt so terrible tt tears flow again.

at tt time, when i felt so terrible, my thoughts oso ran wild again. was askin myself y i cant rest all these while, y parents like tt, i'm really tired n need rest, n y i'm d one who always had to think for others & put myself in other's shoes & push myself further. y when i needed d care n concern n ppl to dote me & sayang me, i still have to ask for it? y it seemed no one will automatic come to me?

luckily today, cos of my throat, decided to see doctor n nvr went lab. wonder hw i can work tt way. dear was ard n he gave me warm water & asked me to nap so tt i'll feel better cos sleepin. but b4 i nap, was sortin some docu & could feel my head getting heavy n spinning. but scare d docu will fly away, i forced myself to finish sortin & almost ran to d toilet to vomit again.

for lunch, dear went to pack for me but i could only finish 1/2 of d noodle soup. at least i felt much better in d afternoon. prob cos i got take d anti-dizzy cum anti-vomit med. luckily i had tt med oso. it's supposed to be taken 3 times a day but i only took in d late mornin cos i vomited. but a while ago, i jus took it again cos my 胃doesnt feel tt gd again.

in fact, i not sure y but i oso easily felt head spinnin. i cant bend my head low for even a short while inside movin car to search for something inside my bag & oso not for long even if jus sittin down on my bed. i tot was d cough syrup but seemed like not cos even my 胃 started to b not gd oso. it's really not a gd timing to b sick la.

& best part, a big ant dropped on my in d lift & back hm, a tiny 小强 crawled around in front of me & a mosquito challenged my speed for 3 times. thks... wat a day.

it's dear's bday & i so blur till i forget to get him a bday cake. n i oso nvr wish him happy bday d moment he SMS me in morning or 1st thing in fb. at least managed to treat him for dinner. today it's oso my friend's bday n i oso cant rmbr to wish her too. haiz... sorry dear, sorry cecilia! i really didn't mean to forget.