又有家归不得了...

我又有家归不得了。。。 其实不是不能回，而是很不想回。。。 家里的那一家之 ‘煮’实在是太敏感了。。。 让我不知道该如何面对她。。。 就因为这样使得我好像有家可归不得。。。

last few wks b4 exams comin... i tot of restin & not gg sch if no lesson for 1 or 2 days aft all assignments clear to rest but i guess i shall do away w d plan. i'll rather not rest. i'll rather go sch & chiong all d way. i noe i'll get drain out faster. but i really don wanna stay hm & face her... b4 she go crazy. i'll really go nuts...

at most i survive on bread & biscuit again. no prob w tt. luckily i found attachment & started immediately aft exam. cant imagine hw i can survive facin her alone at hm...

y? y do i always like got a hse yet like no hse to rest & do things i like... i think stay hm is more stress than work & sch. if can, i'll rather work 24/7 so i need not go back. mayb it'd been a wrong move yrs ago. i shld ve taken up d paramedic job. odd timin. long hrs away fr hm... & it might oso ended up s something i love to do cos i nvr dislike it or i wld nvr apply...

i noe i may not get d chance of getting into uni & all these part time job offer. but i guess at least i wld ve a job. & d time for work is more dynamic so if i unhappy, i can jus leave hm say i go work or so... unlike nw. my time more or less fixed... i'm one who don like ot if can but if like tt, i rather ot...

hw? wat can i do? wat shld i do? avoidin is nvr a way to solve a prob but it's d easiest way out. & i still ve to go back some how... i always had to drag myself back. ppl look forward to go hm but not me... is tt a hm? ppl's hm is their 避风港. whr is mine?