wat is wrong w me?

at times, i cant help but think & wonder if thr is a prob w me, myself. hw come i keep steppin on parents's tails esp w/o knowin y?

wat is exactly wrong? wat did i do wrong? is it i didn't deal w everything well enough? is it tt actually everything is not under my ctrl actually but it seemed to me tt it is? is thr prob w my pt of view? is thr better ways to manage everything? wat else can i do or shld i do? is everything backfire on myself? m i askin for too much?

i'd alrdy avoid touchy topics tt might agitate mum. or she think i not concern cos i nvr ask? but when she get agitated, she'll get jumpy oso. her mood swing is really suckin all my happiness away...

ya. i did say i don wanna get affected by her but it's easier said than done. in sch today, was still alright. w work & classes & proj discussions but when it all come to an end, & when i wanna cfm dinner, it was all a dread for me.

mum went out w/o tellin me like usual. i called her & told her aunt wanna eat dinner tml at grandma's hse but she was impatient so i ended up nvr tell her i gg back for dinner today. when class end at 5.10, called hm but she was havin her shower. called 30 min ltr no one pick up phone. call when almost reach hm oso no one pick up.

i was really thinkin hard wat i shld do.

at times, she may cook extra so i wld still be able to eat. so i shld go back straight to see.

at times, she don cook extra so i no dinner & if she haven eat, she may unhappy forced me eat her portion so by right i shld buy back.

at times, she nvr cook & b back late so i shld either buy back or cook myself. i'll prefer cook cos i duno wat to buy. jus put egg or so to steam while rice cook will do for me. easily settle & soon after showerin, etc can eat le.

but if i buy back & she cooked extra, she'll sure b angry. so i buy back oso cannot, i don buy back oso cannot. den hw? anw, luckily today when i got hm, she was not in & nvr cook so i'm safe for nw.

i think i wanna tell her alrdy tt no matter wat, mon to wed, don cook mine. if i come hm early, i'll go tabao. wish to take d trouble to save another trouble.

s for thurs & fri is eating at grandma's hse but this sem fri i cant cos lesson end late. think this thurs of this mth i oso wont go over. in case i need to use d comp for my proj, reports & presentation. at most i tabao back oso loh... anw, take this opportunites to avoid her for time being cos i duno when i might step on her tail w/o knowing again...

cos of this mood swings, i most of my time dread to go back hm leh. was draggin my feet back jus nw & yet aft tabao-in, i still reach hm by 6.30.

wat is wrong w me? can anyone tell me wat wrong did i do? can anyone advice me wat can i do to avoid all these? can someone b kind enough to jus scold me & say out wat mistakes i made? i'm serious in wantin to get this situation better... cos thr is no pt hiddin & avoidin forever. no matter whr i can hide to, d prob will always be thr unless i solved it. so is thr any kind soul to jus scold me & wake me up? i'll b thankful to u...