recently, thr seemed to ve 'drastic swing in my mood'... but don mis-understood... i not gg crazy yet... lol..
aft mid last week, got v down cos of unknown reason y mum seemed angry w me. & w d sch loads comin, i sort of couldn't take it & venture off to west coast park on fri to take a break.
& in same day, my mood swing fr down to calm aft sittin for hrs at west coast park lookin at d sea. & mood progress to high aft bookin for HK trip at NATAS fair though i duno wat i gotta face then.
den sat i got sian cos i think i noe y mum unhappy on fri & it's not my fault. & mon stayed in sch till late tt i worried parents angry & i was angry at myself for always being affected by them, by their over-protectiveness esp when i ve grown so old alrdy... ytd, was told harsh truth. a truth which i noe but i refused to admit but i gotta face it somehw... sighed...
last fri, while at west coast park, i did tot of jumpin into d sea, into d water & 'drown' my unhappiness away but i nvr do tt lah. i still ve my common sense. but today, i got d chance to. lol... went for a swim. short session & though nw arms ache but i'm feelin gd... of course tired but mayb got a little high w d natural pain inhibitor produced by d body. haha...
i feel recharged to chiong for d next 1/2 of my sem le... provided nothin 'bad' happens these few days & subsequent weeks lah...
guess d 'watery' retreat + d getaway trip do their jobs to allow me to push myself further. GAMBATTE!!!
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