today went back for trg aft a cny break for 3 wks + a wk b4 tt i nvr attend cos of my terrible stiff shoulder.... but my hip didn't allow me to really do wat we were suppose to do which made me wonder jus nw if it's really cos of d old injury part or i'd overstrain other part of d muscles, etc which cos me d discomfort.
anw, in general, d whole of my right leg is 废 cos totally no strength. think it cant support d weight of my whole body for long if i jus stand on it alone. & cant really twist & turn it much. i cant say it hurts but it's jus cos me feel discomfort & know it's not right, not norm but it's hard to explain. if anyone know of whr can find good doc or so, pls let me noe. i jus wanna noe wat i can do & cant esp in terms of exercise etc.
i suddenly rmbr sch oso got physiotherapy services in d medical ctr. mayb i shld try go see doc in sch? hmm... or is thr a better option?? cos i noe i cant go on like this forever. wat if i got dance proj? i can mayb like last time take stronger pain killer den go perform but....
it reminded me of wat a prof told us b4 bout long distance marathon. cos he said tt body will produce a natural pain killer & eventually suppress d pain durin d run & if injured aft tt, may not feel d pain & so it may worsen d injury.
so wat if d injury got worst but cos d pain was suppressed by d pain killer & i don noe & so i further strain it & it got worst. i suppose my injury is due to d ligament (cos it's d closest description of d symptoms fr d 4 doc/chinese physician i went to). so wat if d ligament tear? i need a definite ans for my leg prob... haiz...
oso i hurt d back of my left ankle on fri & so sometimes it hurt. right hip old injury, left ankle new injury. double intensity. use any leg oso not right for certain exercise. super sian loh...
anw, actually past few days, i really so flat & sianz tt i oso no mood & energy to go for trg today but aft d trip to west coast park w peace, i got recharge & was ready to go back for trg. jus tt still not get enough rest yet.
but to think of it, for fri, mum's unhappiness on fri fr her call actually may not b my 'fault'. cos ytd she said tt fri, grandma was angry cos my uncle's vietnam wife brought back her late grandparents' photos & hang it in replacement of my grandma's god of fortune picture in d living room. thus, tt day grandma too angry to cook. so aft hearin tt, i super sian. if so, den mum's anger might b due to my vietnam aunt but mum target me instead. always like tt one leh. other ppl's fault oso become mine. but i still duno wat happen esp for d thurs one.
well, today probably it's d last day of cny so trg ended earlier but fr next wk on, it might end at ard 2 le. but i wanna noe wat i can do w my 'injury' lah... anw, dear picked me up for lunch & send me back b4 gg for his cousin's weddin. he worked 24 hr ytd & still went back a while jus nw. yet he still pick me & bring me eat b4 gg for his cousin's weddin w/o rest. thks...
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