everythin...

jus nw received my bank acc statement cos i mths nvr update my passbk le. so i looked thru my past expenditure, etc. realized tt i'm lucky...

d part time job tt i'd got don give me much $$ per mth. cny & bday angbow oso not big figures. but when accumulated, think it could last me like a yr more.

of course at times, when i lazy go get proper meals like exam period cos studyin in lib oso allow me to save up some $$ in a way.

w d extra cash fr work & angbow + i don spend much, guess, it allow me to survive much longer than i had previously worried bout b4 i decided to go back to sch in 07. i was really scare then tt i would ve to declare bankrupt even while i was still studyin.

yes. work did spare me fr declarin bankrupcy & reduces my stress due to financial prob... but, it added on to my tireness... tt is something i cant denied. tt's y dis wk i choose not to work. cos gotta rush report oso.

it's really not easy to study & work part time or vice versa. m so physically & mentally tired. earnin $$ not easy. spendin it is much easier. but i still wish to go for short getaway. a new environment, a new experience, a place free fr wat i'd to face nw, a place for new memories. i think mayb i still can afford mayb somewhr near, somewhr cheap, somewhr no need spend much. shall see hw s time goes...

meanwhile cont'd strive & work hard & cont'd to save up. ^.^

recess wk comin, meanin almost 1/2 way thru this sem. so i sort of left 1.25 yrs to go... 4 yrs course is really v long. i wanna go back to work. at least wat i did last time, no need me to think bout work after i go back home. so i can rest, relax, go out w friends, play my piano, draw, & do all sort of things i enjoy. tt time, can oso apply leave s & when i wan oso but of course, i noe when i must work lah. whr find such gd deal. but of course work means work lah.

but i think i seriously need to catch back on my sleep. gettin ko & lose focus easily. not gd. but i oso stress esp if dad home. sighed. i think tireness is due to accumulation. when i a kid, i don take nap or rather i don wanna take nap (wanna play ma). haiz... served me right. if i'd noe, when i can nap, i shld nap more esp when i a kid. nw, if in sch lib studyin, if i tired, i will slp on d table even though don look nice. i got no whr else to slp le ma.

recently ppl always say i slim down lots... well, i don do it purposely one leh. i do admit i ate much lesser than b4 but i felt recently i eat more (but still less than last last time) & get hungry more easily. yet i think i still lose like 1 kg or so? in all, i think i lose like 4-5 kg (based on d bathrm compact scale) over d past mayb less than a yr?

eatin less was initiated by d koka instant laksa which was filled w coconut taste rather than d laksa curry. den i no appetite for days. but forced myself eat at least little. den think used to it aft tt. so nvr eat much. den started slimmin down le. nw do eat slightly more but still not tt much but can get hungry mroe easily. so i oso duno y i still lost tt extra kg. mayb tired & 'stress'? i really duno. i alrdy try to take it easy. doing things 1 step at a time.

shall monitor my weight ba. i think i alrdy fall below d acceptable bmi le if based on my weighin scale. but i noe tt one not accurate. cos last time when i weigh at clinic, it was always like 1-2 kg more than my weighin balance. so i think i still at d acceptable bmi range...