Thursday, 25 February 2010

exploded a mine w/o realizin hw i died...

wat on earth did i do wrong again??? T.T

did i step on mum's tail w/o realizin??? if wanna give me death sentence can jus say or not? wat's d silent for? if angry don wanna say. den inside ur mind, inbalance & think this think tt. no wonder i always don like to stay hm...

ytd, when i go back, mum alrdy like don wanna 'entertain' me. today worst... keep silent all d way... is it wat i do or say?

mornin, d packet of coffee kanna d curry aft she place d plate of curry jus beside d coffee. told her & she ignore me. ask if she got tissue to wipe away. she ignore me. told her tt must wipe away or ltr will kanna on dad's car. she oso ignore. we ate roti prata so i asked if her throat ok le. she ignore me again. **** since she ignore me, i don tok to her loh... usually she will pass me d papers when returnin hm. today, she oso nvr... fine... at most i read d papers online lah...

she PMS? or simply jus unhappy bout something & vent it on me? or d only possibility is tt i told my friend (her friend's younger son) bout hard to plan d HK trip. cos mum asked me to check w him whr he went last yr. i only told certain truth. & it's related to their health issue. not others...

said tt she cant tahan too hot/cold (cos of sinus). said she need drinking water (cos she got history of d kidney infection or something of this sort). said parents cant tahan walk too long (or leg will pain), say dad don shop. he'll go hotel slp instead. said cousin gg & she don go to bed late.

so if she got to know tt i said bout all these, mayb tt's y cos her unhappiness. but it's d truth. & this r really impt to plan a trip so tt i can plan something s close to their likings s possible. i nvr even tell those hidden truth like they wanna go holi yet dun spend so much, etc etc. & somehw show unhappiness any moment. i alrdy save them faces le leh...

but so far, i still not sure if she really unhappy bout this. but no choice. tt friend tt time purely go shopping leh. no sightseeing, etc. sighed...

anw, i duno if it's cos of this lah. mayb got other things but i not sure. i'm jus pissed off cos anytime, i can jus explode any mine w/o realizing & so i duno hw i die & duno died hw many times le.

whenever tt happened, always feel like dashin out of d hse & go somewhr to chill out but nw cfm cant do tt. cos ltr mum said dear or my friends teach me bad things. sighed... i shld ve done tt long long time ago. nw even if i dare oso cant... T.T

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